Friday, January 23, 2009
So, I had another rough morning today, and once again I turned to exercise to release my stress. Today, the ice at the rink took a real beating from my skates as I vented my anger with my legs instead of my lips. I then walked for 1 hour, attempted to jog, but my body rebelled, so I pursued top speed walking instead. I felt so much calmer after that, and it really helped me get through the day. I have been in crave mode a lot today, and when I cooked Hamburger Helper for my family, I totally wanted to indulge. I checked my calorie count, and it just wouldn't fit. I asked my husband to please put it away so I could avoid the temptation and went to the store to buy diet pop instead. I totally felt better once I didn't have to look at the temptation and really enjoyed the diet pop. I feel totally pumped about how well I am handling my food choices over these 2 days that I am feeling very emotional and stressed, because usually I would just binge and bury the emotions. I found it very strange that as I was skating, trying to exercise my emotion away, instead of the emotion lessening, it got bigger and bigger before it finally released. When it did finally go, I felt so much lighter. This is a whole new world for me, and it's a place I like to be. Here's to a new,healthy me! Goodbye to the old habits!