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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA crazy desire to binge...........HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, June 04, 2010

I feel like I could eat anything and everything right now. I am drinking decaf coffee with almond breeze to try and satisfy the oral "fixation". If that doesn't work, I am going to try another cup, and if I still feel like bingeing after that, I am going to drink a glass of water, then some green tea, and push through this, but MAN it is hard!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the first time in almost 6 weeks that I feel like sabotaging my efforts. Things are going really well right now for my weight loss efforts. I am right on track with my numbers, I am eating right, exercising every day. I may have been verging on overtraining, and maybe that is playing with my head. Plus, I am SOOOOOOOOOO TIRED. Sometimes being tired makes me think I am hungry. I figure that if I can cram my stomach full of calorie free liquids, there is no way I will have room to put any food. Once the kids are in bed, I will go to bed, but in the meantime, I better keep busy. If anyone is out there and has encouraging words, I could really use the support!

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SPARKYJEANIE1 6/8/2010 3:21PM

    Hey Sweets!!

Hope that urge went away! You are sooo incredibly strong willed and can do anything! If you did decide to have an eeny weeny treat, then don't worry with all the super hard training you've been doing.

Hang in there!!

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JACKSMIMI2 6/5/2010 1:51PM

    Go Goddess Go!!!! :) I'm so happy you 'soldiered' through it!!! Doesn't it feel great??? Kept the calories down...and changed a behavior...it's what I call 'two-fers' (two for the price of one - best bargain around :-)

Again, way to go! (and thanks for the note - it was so thoughtful of you to take the time - made my day!)

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SAISHA100CJ 6/5/2010 10:27AM

    Glad you made it through the evening ok. Do you like Chammomile tea? At times it is relaxing for some & is good at bedtime (no caffeine). Also, Lynn's (Kaliswalker's) ideas are great & the other ideas & thoughts as well ... a soak in the tub, go to bed early, red a few pages in a good book and maybe you will fall asleep early - then can get up the next day with a whole new day to begin your healthy habits again. You have been working so hard and have come so far these past few weeks & I congratulate you! emoticon I know it is not easy. Try to be sure not to overdo things, and get your rest as well. emoticon

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AGINGDAISIES 6/5/2010 10:04AM

    Sorry I missed this but I am so glad you made it though!!! :)

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HLTHYETER 6/5/2010 12:16AM

    Glad you made it through--it may be that you are mentally resisting breaking through to your desired weight, passing where you were at 164. Speak positive affirmations to yourself like "I am so worth this" or "I do want to be better than before." Anything that helps you until you feel more at ease about this transition. Don't know if any of that will help you, but keep on keeping on. There will be a better day! emoticon

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BEFIT014 6/4/2010 11:55PM

    From your Feed I guess you made it through OK!
You've done SO well so far-don't give in now!

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KALISWALKER 6/4/2010 10:32PM

    I would soak in the tub with a book and go to bed early.

I would go on Spark or play Bejeweled Blitz on Facebook.

I would look at my fat pictures.

You did the best things blogging and drink calorie free liquids!

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    Hey girl. Hang in there!

I was in a gas station today and paced in front of the candy bars for five minutes, checking to see if I could find a candy bar under 150. Then went home and looked at the box of Cap'n Crunch for 15 minutes...like, just staring at it.

But, my friend, remember that nothing tastes as good as thin feels. Or at least nothing feels as good as not giving in and sticking to what your body needs! You know you need to fuel your body :)

Your weight is looking great, you're looking great. Keep it up!
Congrats on not giving in today, feels good doesn't it?!

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SIGLED 6/4/2010 10:06PM

    I get tempted to binge or eat the whole thing: I read the nutrition label. Blows you away from the temptation. Especially when got to report it to the food tracker. Did I really want EVERYONE to know that I have eaten this crappy stuff? Do I really want to see my calories double?


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GOEGIRL 6/4/2010 9:54PM

    Ugh!!! Me too! The last few days have been MURDER. I'm glad to have read that you made it through ok - I'll use you as my inspiration right now.

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    Thank you so much guys, I drank more water, and decaf coffee. It filled my tummy up, and now, my tummy hurts so there is no way I will be tempted to eat anything! I almost feel like I did binge! But, without the calories and weight gain that would go along with it!

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KIM--POSSIBLE 6/4/2010 9:09PM

    I have been battling this all week; generally winning, though allowing some not-so-good choices to slip in. If it is truly NOT hunger, go brush your teeth and find something to do that keeps your hands busy and your mind active. If you actually are hungry, allow yourself something that will satisfy the craving without huge calorie overload.

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    Ok, this happens to me EVERY time my body is fatigued from over exercise. I've been here. You need some protein. Allow yourself a higher "maintenance" calorie day. You have been completely faithful to the daily deficit for so long, one day of controlled higher calories is going to be ok. This is your body telling you it needs fuel to repair from all the fitness activity you've been executing.

And, then....sleep long and sound tonight!

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FOXYLOSE30 6/4/2010 8:24PM

    Think about all the hard work you have done to get to where you are now. You know it's not worth it. It's so easy to gain a pound but men it's hard to lose. The advice you got earlier are great ones. Don't be too strict with yourself. You are only sabotaging yourself.

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IRONGRANNIE 6/4/2010 7:35PM

    I know how you feel. I think being tired is one of the worst things to make you overeat. My tip? Clean you teeth (and floss!) It makes everything taste awful, your brain says "end of eating" and mostly it works if you can get to bed soon after. Good Luck!

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DENI_ZEN 6/4/2010 7:28PM

    Thanks for stopping by, and it actually sounds like your resolve to fight this thing is growing more and more :) Exercising, cleaning - even though your mind might still be on food and eating, if you stay engaged with something - anything - else, this awful, tense feeling (oh, I know it so well!) will definitely pass. Keep us posted on how you're coming along, and I promise that things do get easier! - Sandi

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PIR8CHIK 6/4/2010 7:25PM

    Hang in there! I know you can get past this!
If it gets really bad, start tracking what you WANT to eat into today's food tracker and then really look at the impact. That will probably be enough to make you stop.
Enjoy something good without binging, like an apple with a little peanutbutter on it. I like that because it's sweet, juicy, a little salty & tastes like a caramel apple rolled in peanuts.
Just get creative & have a small snack and you should be fine.

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Wednesday results on Thursday, Friday plan

Thursday, June 03, 2010

I did the interval run on Wednesday, also rode bike to work and back once, walked to work and back once, 1 mile solo run. NO ST, I was burnt out last night. Again tonight, no ST, I am so incredibly tired, trying to avoid getting sick by overtraining. I drove to work today, and only did my interval run with friends and 1 mile solo run.

Extra shift worked.

No dishes yesterday or today, but 1 load of laundry today.

I have kept my water intake to 10 cups both days.

Thursday food did not get planned, but I did track it and stay in range. I went way high on sodium today though. I have planned Friday's food tonight, and had 3 huge mugs of green tea to combat the sodium.

Today wasn't as busy as yesterday, but still overwhelming, I have no energy again tonight. I need to head to bed shortly so tomorrow will be more energetic. I absolutely have to have some energy to do something about my home, it is a disgrace, it takes me twice as long to accomplish anything because I have to wade through the mess, and getting dressed is an interesting feat with clean laundry strewn throughout my home. It is really getting on my nerves now, and I intend to do something about it on the weekend for sure. I had a wonderful outing with a friend I haven't seen for ages, the kidlets were along for the ride, and they behaved spectacularly, I really enjoyed their company. We went to the park after dinner out(tracked ahead of time!) and thoroughly enjoyed some fresh air while the kidlets played. Oh! I got a haircut today! Much needed, plus had my eyebrows shaped, I smile at myself every time I look in the mirror!

Friday plan: Interval run with running friend K(I have to assign initials at this point, because I now have three friends I run with on a regular basis, and I have to differentiate somehow! I love it!) 1 mile solo run for streak Day 27. NO OTHER EXERCISE!

Motorbike ride with hubby in the afternoon, can't wait! I have been looking forward to this all week.

Plan Saturday food before bed.

Buy some new/used books at the library.

1 load of laundry, attack the dishes a little bit.

Buy more epsom salts for lactic acid leaching baths.

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AGINGDAISIES 6/4/2010 9:28AM

    You are doing wonderful at toning it down!

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KALISWALKER 6/3/2010 11:21PM

    No wonder you are tired. I agree, watch that you don't blow your streak by over training and having to stop. The good thing is this is the month we are going to get our 5%! I am cheering you on, and you take care of yourself!
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TMCK-40 6/3/2010 11:06PM

  You are staying totally true and on track. Yeah for you.

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Tuesday results, Wednesday plan

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

My interval run didn't happen, friend got called in to work. I did my 1 mile run alone, then 44 minutes on my bike. Rode my bike to the school 3 times, home twice, walked home the third time wih the kidlets. Did my core ST after dinner, then put in 30 minutes on the stationary bike and a 10 minute swim.

Got in my extra shift, picked up another one tomorrow.

Dishes not done, no laundry too.

Wednesday food is planned!

Very busy day today, tomorrow will be the same. Dishes and laundry are always the first to go. I am starting to notice a difference in my abs, there is actual definition at the top! Yippee!

Wednesday plan: Interval run with new running friend, 1 mile solo run. Upper ST

Extra shift at work.

Dishes and laundry as always.

Drink ONLY 10 cups of water. I think the abundance of water I have been drinking is slowing down my weight loss for some reason.

Plan Thursday food before bed.

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SPARKYJEANIE1 6/2/2010 3:52PM

    SUPER!! Haha..you make me laugh over the dishes and laundry thing! I do the laundry - the washing part - but now with 2 teens, they have to fold their own suff and put it away!! lol - even my little one who's almost 7 helps me stuff the dirty stuff in the washer. She loves it...poor lil thing huh =)

I finally figured out what ST stands for!!!! Strength training...yaaaayyyy - epiphany! Well, even though you didn't get your run in with your friend yesterday, you still accomplished TONS! You're great - keep it up and before you know, the bottom of those abs will be showing definition just like the top is! WOOHOOO!!!


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KIM--POSSIBLE 6/2/2010 6:17AM

Good for you for keeping up with your exercise, even when your plans changed!

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AGINGDAISIES 6/1/2010 11:47PM

    Way to continue making progress! I got in some strength training make-up from yesterday, but am so tired and worn out from yesterdays festivities that nothing is happening today!

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BEFIT014 6/1/2010 11:20PM

    You were probably water logged emoticon There was a period of about a week last month when I was waking up twice during the night to go pee. I was drinking a LOT of water then. I'm back down to 3 24oz bottles a day and I can sleep thru the night again! YIPPEE!!(Probably more info than you wanted to read!)

Sorry about your run but at least you went.

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Monday results Tuesday plan

Monday, May 31, 2010

1 mile run done, lower ST, 43 mins rollerblade. I wiped out this morning, scuffed up my outer upper left thigh, bruised it pretty good too. I didn't get up early to run and ST, so I had to do it this evening. It HURT! My left leg did some serious screaming especially during the lateral lunges. I pushed through though, because it was SORE, not PAINFUL. I'm not sure if that makes sense, but it wasn't like a don't do that hurt just a don't fall on your keister again hurt!

Dishes were done when I got up this morning, thank you lovely hubby! I need to do them up again before I head to bed though. 1 load of laundry washed, dried, needs to be folded and put away.

Bathroom will get done before bed.

No yard work, it poured rain right after school.

No trailer work, had to put it down in anticipation of coming rain.

I am super hungry today, but I brought my calories down to 1700 on my plan last night, and then ended up removing a couple items from it before the end of the day. I need to plan tomorrow before I go to bed.

Tuesday plan

Interval run with new running friend. 1 mile run. Core ST

Extra shift at work.

Dishes stay caught up. 1 load of laundry.

Plan Wednesday food before going to bed.

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SPARKYJEANIE1 6/1/2010 2:10PM


I'm sorry you "wiped out" - I have a pair of blades but am hesitant to use them because I'm way more comfy on 4 wheels and am sure I'd probably bust my hiney...I'm glad you pushed on even though sore, but not in pain. I get what you mean! I have a super stupid question - what is ST? DUH! LOL

Thanks for the encouragement - it is always welcome on my page!!

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SAISHA100CJ 6/1/2010 8:23AM

    So sorry you wiped out and hurt your thigh. Bummer! You are doing such a terrific job - I am sure you will heal fast. Just do the exercises that do not hurt for now. Take care.

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BEFIT014 6/1/2010 5:42AM

    You have a new running buddy-that great! You need someone to keep on eye on you emoticon!

Hope today finds you healing a bit better!

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AGINGDAISIES 5/31/2010 11:29PM

    I'm sorry you got hurt! I hope you heal up quickly so you can keep your success going!

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SWEETLIPS 5/31/2010 9:36PM

    You are doing well - keep it up

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Reactions to weight loss

Monday, May 31, 2010

When I started losing weight, I had been avoiding starting because I didn't want to deal with the attention I always get when I lose weight. I didn't want people to compliment me on my improved appearance at all, I just wanted it to be private. That is one of the things that attracted me to Sparkpeople, it is purely anonymous if you want it to be that way. As I used the site more, I wanted to share my achievements, both weight loss and fitness related. As the weight loss became obvious to people around me, I was pleased by the positive reactions I was getting. It felt good for my hard work to be recognized! One of the things I never thought would happen is for people to start asking me for advice! But, over the last couple of weeks, an acquaintance has been asking me how I lost weight, and what I could suggest for them to do the same. My quick response was "Eat right, and exercise" , because, basically, that is what it comes down to. However, today, I had a chance to talk with this person in more detail, and I felt so pleased that I actually had information to share. I have learned a lot here at Sparkpeople and now, I want to share it with the world! I passed along the address for Sparkpeople, and hopefully it will be helpful. Pay it forward was never so sweet!

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AGINGDAISIES 5/31/2010 11:28PM

    You are great! and you are doing great!

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BEFIT014 5/31/2010 8:42PM

    emoticon! You inspired someone!! VERY cool!

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SCRAPPYLADYV 5/31/2010 7:16PM

Great job on spreading the SPARK!! emoticon emoticon

PS I didn't even tell my hubby for almost a month, and only then because he "caught" me exercising!! LOL!!

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ROOT4HOME 5/31/2010 6:57PM

    I TOTALLY hear you...I didn't tell a soul when I joined SP but now have handed out the email invitation to 4 friends/family members. It's great knowing we can help others too!! WTG on your wt loss!! emoticon

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KALISWALKER 5/31/2010 5:46PM

    That is quite a compliment when you are asked!

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BARBIETEC 5/31/2010 5:03PM

    how an inspiring blog! It is so honest and pure!

Thank you for sharing this with us!

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