Friday, February 13, 2009
I think that is the right word for what I had yesterday during my walk with my buddy. I was talking about an experience that I had when I was on my weight loss journey last time, a few years ago. I stated that the attention of an older married man(which I am sure was not intended the way I absorbed it) really creeped me out, and I really didn't want to have that attention. After that encounter I gained back all the weight I had lost plus fifteen more pounds. I was trying to hide behind my weight so no-one would notice me. It seems ridiculous, but that is what I was doing. My friend pointed out something I had never realized . People are going to notice me whether I am overweight or fit. They will just be noticing me for different reasons! So, whether I want "attention" or not, I will get it, just depends on what I want the reason to be. I was very nervous about starting to lose weight again(for what I plan to be the last time), because I knew that people would notice, and ask me about it, and that would bring attention, and I honestly didn't want it to be a public awareness campaign that I want to be healthy. When I think about it the way my friend put it, I would prefer the attention and for people to notice me for being healthy and fit, not because I am the "fat girl" in the crowd. And, not that I encourage people to ask me about my weight loss, but I am much more comfortable from the inside than I ever have been, so when people ask me about what I am doing to make these changes in my life, I tell them that I am living a healthier lifestyle because I want to live longer and better! Tomorrow, I am going to blog about accepting compliments, because we talked about that yesterday too, and it is important to me.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
I put on a pair of old pants today, they are a size 14, and I was just hoping and begging that they would fit, because I did not have time to choose a different pair! They went on and did up with ease. I have worn them all day since 11 am, and they are comfy and wonderful! I am thinkin, that it is a good thing I found them. Once the cold weather comes around again next winter, I am not going to fit into them, they are going to be waaaaay tooooooo big!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I don't mind, that's alright with me! I know I have to work hard to get to my goal, and I am willing to put in the work. I had a fantastic talk this morning with my walkin buddy, and I feel so blessed to have such a great friend. We talk about things that I can feel we both need to let out and release into the world, letting us move on and let go of some strong emotions that aren't helping us. Thanks Friend! Glad I found you, and glad you have joined my walking routine, I sure did miss you while you were otherwise occupied!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
So, this goal is not related in any way to weight loss, but I am going to share it here. With my youngest son starting Grade One and being full time at school, I decided I would achieve two things. The first, lose 60 more pounds, well under way now, and going steady. The second, clean up my home. I knew that the second goal would be more difficult than the first. Now that I have got myself focused and really working the plan for weight loss, I am using the idea of planning my clean up to get myself focussed and motivated. Got me a journal, and separated my home into zones. I got to work today, and despite some very necessary and important distractions I was able to achieve quite a lot. I didn't complete my list of things to do for today, but I can forgive myself, and know that I made some good progress, and will work at it a bit again tomorrow.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
My journey buddy and I were talking last night, and I was telling her that I had jogged 5K that morning, and how pleased I was with my progress at jogging. I suggested that I was interested in some day jogging in a marathon of some sort. She thought that sounded like fun. Having participated as a walker previously, I know that our hometown has a Terry Fox Run site every September, so we have decided that we will jog the 10K route of the 2009 Terry Fox Run. I can't wait! We both have a lot of training to do to get to this level of endurance, but I know we can do it, and it is so motivating to have a big long term goal related to fitness instead of just weight loss. I am looking forward to training hard and succeeding at this goal, I am already visualizing us participating and crossing the finish line!
Monday, February 09, 2009
I went away for the weekend. I planned and packed all of my foods and fit in my cardio and some bonus Strenght training while I was away. The big thing that I did today that I am very pleased about is that I jogged 5K this morning! I jogged for 37.5 minutes straight, which is equivalent to 25 laps at the track, which is 5k! It was not easy, but it felt very natural. I can't believe how far I have come. My journey buddy and I agreed tonight while discussing this that we are going to train to enter the Terry Fox Run this coming September and jog the 10K route if there is one, or the 5K route twice. I am very excited to have set such a lofty goal and I know we can do it!
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