Sunday, January 06, 2008
Well here I am...back at Sparks people. Had to laugh reading my blog entries for 2006. It was shortly after I had lost my 7 year quit. I was so disgusted with myself and I had 2 weeks in a new quit. I weighed I think it said 193 at that point...wow...I'd love to say I weighed that right now. The Reality is I didn't succeed quitting smoking that time and my weight went up. I have been quit smoking for 1 month and 2 weeks at this time, but have been rapidly gaining weight. I think its been a combination of eating over the holidays, and quitting smoking which slows your metabolism down. Anyway I have had the nasty shock of gaining 10 pounds in 6 weeks. I'm currently at 204 ....and my scale is no longer speaking to me.
Quitting smoking isn't easy, but having done it before I know that if I will just put one foot in front of the other and not take a puff no matter what...a day will come where there is absolute freedom from nicoteine addiction. It takes hard work, patience, and most of all commitment to just get it done.
When It comes to losing weight I go crazy for short spurts, and then it fizzels out. I have never learned how to live a healthy lifestyle that is balanced. So like quitting I'm going to put one foot in front of the other and I'm not going to beat up on myself for not knowing everything or doing everything perfectly. If its a lifestyle then...I have a life time to refine the process.
I look forward to the day when I reach my goal weight, and I'm a fit and healthy non smoker. However, I have decided that the journey is going to be wonderful too. I'm going to learn and grow thru this process.
Everything that is worth having is worth working hard for...just as this was "MY" time to really commit to being done with ciggerettes for ever....this is my time to learn how to really live a full and healthy life.
All things are possible to them that believe.
I may not do it perfectly but I'm really going to do it.
Hoping to help some others along the way, and to benefit from their experience and knowledge too.