Tuesday, July 21, 2009
I went to the beach yesterday and had a fantastic time...so much fun!
The waves were huge and we had a ball riding them with our boogie boards.
The thing that really made this trip to the beach special though...occurred to me afterwards. It was the first time in years that the experience wasn't marred with thoughts of my weight.
I wasn't in a bikini...not ready for that...don't think I'll ever be ready for that. hahaha
I had on a one piece bathing suit that I use to swim laps in at the pool. The thing was how I looked or didn't look wasn't in the forefront of my mind. I'm at a healthy weight now, and I went to the beach to play in the water and have fun and thats what I did. No bad thoughts about are people looking at me, or seeing all the thin, beutiful people walking by and feeling bad about myself. It simply wasn't there. I was just there to have a good time and did and how I looked really never entered my mind. It wasn't until later when I thought...wow...you really weren't feeling self conscious at all on the beach.
I'm celebrating...I'm free from all that fat, that kept me hiding and not fully taking part in things I really enjoyed, because I felt self conscious. Its a great feeling and although there are days I'd rather not run, or swim, or I'd kill for a big piece of chocolate cake. I know the person was right who coined the phrase....Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels. When I don't want to run...I just remind myself of the rewards regular exercise has brought into my life.
A healthy weight
freedom just to be myself
I dream more..things I thought were impossible to do, now seem possible.
I embrace life more
I'm not so easily overwhelmed by obsticles
and do not see setbacks as failures.
Life is good and its meant to be enjoyed...Don't let an unhealthy weight keep your from enjoying it. Do something about it. One baby step at a time and celebrate every little victory on your journey. We get one go round in this life...lets live it to the full. I wasted to many years sitting on the couch, letting one day mesh with the next day. BORING!!!!! Feeling bad about myself and my weight. I don't ever want to go back to that. Losing weight isn't easy and it takes time...but its soooooooooooooooooo worth it.
Now I need to take my own advise and get busy and lose the rest.
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Its day four of my quit smoking journey. On the forum I'm using to help me quit the following was posted. I decided to post it here because it not only encouraged me to keep on quitting, but to get on with reaching my weight loss goal that is so close.
I hope you will be encouraged by it too.
Do what it takes:
What if you knew that you could reach your goal by taking just one more step? Would you take that step?
At some point in the process of achievement, the final hurdle is reached. What a shame it would be to stop just short of that one last obstacle.
Achievement does not require extraordinary ability. Achievement comes from ordinary abilities applied with extraordinary persistence.
You already know you can do what it takes. To reach any goal, simply do what it takes for as long as it takes.
It's really not that difficult to take just one step, to do just a single task, to make one bit of progress. And if you can do it once, you can do it again, and again, and again without much problem.
Keep the faith and keep up the effort. Your persistence will get you there.
-- Ralph Marston
Have a super day...I'm on Vacation..whoooooo hoooo.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
The other day I went shopping and I don't think my feet were touching the ground when I left and I have a strange facial thing happening ...I think its called perma grin.
I used to hate shopping, dressing rooms were depressing...I used to wish they'd light them by candlelight so I couldn't really see what would depress me.
Now...I love shopping, I love trying on clothes and the fun of wondering what size am I now.
The thing that put the perma grin on my face was when I tried on this awesome black tailored shirt with a pair of (no way will these fit) size nine jeans.
Low and behold not only did they fit I looked amazing in them (if I do say so myself) My family flipped out too when they saw me.
Ever since then I've been just ...I don't know quite how to express it. Befuddled, Gobsmacked, standing in abject wonder. How did this happen? Why was I able to lose the weight this time, but was never very successful all those other years.
Truth is I still can't believe I've done this, I still can't believe thats me I see in the mirror. Why now!!! What made this time so different. Is that really me in the mirror or has my hubby and the suzy shier store teamed up to pull a prank on me with circus mirrors? lol
I really don't know exactly, why or how. What I do know is I owe a huge debt of gratitude to so many wonderful girls on spark who have encouraged me and motivated me, challenged me. Made me laugh some days when I felt like crying.
The NEW team with there premise of No excuses you can exercise 10 minutes on the days you specify. I thought well I can do 10 minutes... a week of that and I was off. The great challenges that brought out my grrrr factor and that desire to do well. Then there were some wonderful ladies from I can't do this on my own team and the great ladies from Fit fabulous and 40.
My weight came off and still is coming off slowly about 4 pounds on average a month. Usually 3 weeks with nothing then a week were I'd drop the 3-4 pounds.
I had a friend ask me how could I stay motivated losing so slowly and the best answer I could give her was somehow my focus had gone from the scale, to fitness goals, nutrition goals and really rocking the monthly challenges at the NEW team. Also over time I realized how I was losing weight over a months time not
each week. So I just got comfortable with the ups and downs of the scale knowing in another month it would be showing a 3-4 pound loss.
As I said in another blog post...at first I wanted it off and fast, but now I'm grateful that it's coming off slow...its giving me time to learn how to live healthy, not just be on a diet for 6 weeks.
The other thing that helped me so much was learning the 80/20 rule.
80 percent of the time make great healthy choices and exercise the other 20 life happens enjoy it all. When things weren't perfect, if I was sick, felt unmotivated, or just went and ate some high calorie foods. That too would pass. There was no thinking I've failed. I'd just adjust my choices for the next bit. Life is always gonna happen...its not failure you just carry on. This sounds so simple so common sense...but I have to tell you this was a major shift in thinking for me. Once that really settled in I found some very real peace about my weight loss journey.
I'm doing so many more things now. I run, I swim, the other day I was doing flips on a trampoline, and get this....I discovered that at 44 I can still do running cartwheels 4 in a row ending in a round up. Whooooo HOOOO I feel like a kid again!
Every where I go people are flipping out and it feels so great getting those compliments....but that pales in comparison to how I feel inside of me. I think I'd
be proud of me....and I am...but inside I'm still looking in the mirror going wow...how did this happen. It certainly didn't happen on my own.
To all my dear sparky friends...thank you...with all of my heart I thank each one of you. To the sparkpeople company...thank you for this website it has truly changed my life.
It just totally blows my mind. I'm so happy as I write this I feel tears threatening...but they are good tears, that flow while I'm still wearing this perma grin.
If I can do this....anyone can and you can enjoy the journey. Its soooooo much more than weight loss or how you look. It is litterly a life transformation it touches every area.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
I was thinking we want the weight off fast and sometimes I hear of people who have lost twice the weight I have in half the time and feel jealous...booo hooo why can't I do that. Now I'm thinking differently. Losing so slowly has caused me to learn how to have a healthy lifestyle for life, rather than a diet for a few months. I've realized that its not all or nothing. In the past had I had a derailment like I have this week with sickness. I'd have had a real hard time starting again...I'd have been so discouraged. Now its different I know that life is gonna happen, and exercise and eating right over time has become the norm just like brushing your teeth. This time I'm not worried I know I'll be back exercising as quick as I can, and I'm not totally upset about a seemingly wasted week...because I know its just part of life and you go on and everything balances out in the end.
Its nice to feel like I have stepped off the diet rollercoaster and into a healthy lifestyle. Spark always talks about a heatlthy lifestyle, but what we were doing here seemed just a healthy way of dieting, now I see little by little over much time healthy eating, and fitness has become a part of my normal being. So Yeah...I really feel I am not on a diet, I'm just living healthy. I may not get to my desired destination as fast as I would like, but the lessons I'm learning are priceless and will help me to keep the weight off once its off.
So thats real progress and I'm celebrating that today
Sunday, April 05, 2009
When I think that a year ago running to the end of the driveway would have done me in. I just can't help but smile and stand in abject wonder. Thank you so much spark people you have taught me that anything is possible...if your patient and willing to keep making baby steps.
5.36 miles and I actually feel I could do more...How totally Kewl is that!!!
I can't wait to give up the ciggerettes for good and see what I can do then.
I'm gonna try that again on Tuesday. Please pray for me in that area...I seriously need help from above.
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