Sunday, May 31, 2009
The other day I went shopping and I don't think my feet were touching the ground when I left and I have a strange facial thing happening ...I think its called perma grin.
I used to hate shopping, dressing rooms were depressing...I used to wish they'd light them by candlelight so I couldn't really see what would depress me.
Now...I love shopping, I love trying on clothes and the fun of wondering what size am I now.
The thing that put the perma grin on my face was when I tried on this awesome black tailored shirt with a pair of (no way will these fit) size nine jeans.
Low and behold not only did they fit I looked amazing in them (if I do say so myself) My family flipped out too when they saw me.
Ever since then I've been just ...I don't know quite how to express it. Befuddled, Gobsmacked, standing in abject wonder. How did this happen? Why was I able to lose the weight this time, but was never very successful all those other years.
Truth is I still can't believe I've done this, I still can't believe thats me I see in the mirror. Why now!!! What made this time so different. Is that really me in the mirror or has my hubby and the suzy shier store teamed up to pull a prank on me with circus mirrors? lol
I really don't know exactly, why or how. What I do know is I owe a huge debt of gratitude to so many wonderful girls on spark who have encouraged me and motivated me, challenged me. Made me laugh some days when I felt like crying.
The NEW team with there premise of No excuses you can exercise 10 minutes on the days you specify. I thought well I can do 10 minutes... a week of that and I was off. The great challenges that brought out my grrrr factor and that desire to do well. Then there were some wonderful ladies from I can't do this on my own team and the great ladies from Fit fabulous and 40.
My weight came off and still is coming off slowly about 4 pounds on average a month. Usually 3 weeks with nothing then a week were I'd drop the 3-4 pounds.
I had a friend ask me how could I stay motivated losing so slowly and the best answer I could give her was somehow my focus had gone from the scale, to fitness goals, nutrition goals and really rocking the monthly challenges at the NEW team. Also over time I realized how I was losing weight over a months time not
each week. So I just got comfortable with the ups and downs of the scale knowing in another month it would be showing a 3-4 pound loss.
As I said in another blog post...at first I wanted it off and fast, but now I'm grateful that it's coming off slow...its giving me time to learn how to live healthy, not just be on a diet for 6 weeks.
The other thing that helped me so much was learning the 80/20 rule.
80 percent of the time make great healthy choices and exercise the other 20 life happens enjoy it all. When things weren't perfect, if I was sick, felt unmotivated, or just went and ate some high calorie foods. That too would pass. There was no thinking I've failed. I'd just adjust my choices for the next bit. Life is always gonna happen...its not failure you just carry on. This sounds so simple so common sense...but I have to tell you this was a major shift in thinking for me. Once that really settled in I found some very real peace about my weight loss journey.
I'm doing so many more things now. I run, I swim, the other day I was doing flips on a trampoline, and get this....I discovered that at 44 I can still do running cartwheels 4 in a row ending in a round up. Whooooo HOOOO I feel like a kid again!
Every where I go people are flipping out and it feels so great getting those compliments....but that pales in comparison to how I feel inside of me. I think I'd
be proud of me....and I am...but inside I'm still looking in the mirror going wow...how did this happen. It certainly didn't happen on my own.
To all my dear sparky friends...thank you...with all of my heart I thank each one of you. To the sparkpeople company...thank you for this website it has truly changed my life.
It just totally blows my mind. I'm so happy as I write this I feel tears threatening...but they are good tears, that flow while I'm still wearing this perma grin.
If I can do this....anyone can and you can enjoy the journey. Its soooooo much more than weight loss or how you look. It is litterly a life transformation it touches every area.