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I've been struggling since reaching goal.

Saturday, November 07, 2009

I've really been struggling since reaching my goal weight.

I was promoted at work into a position that is very demanding of my time and energy and leaves me a good part of the time feeling stressed.

My old job as a front desk agent allowed me to work 3-11 pm. Lots of time to plan your food and get in your exercise. This job is day shifts and anyone who knows me knows I'm not a morning person. So to get in my exercise I have to get up with the birds...or exercise when I come home from work. Neither works well. early I can't force myself out of bed on most days, and after I so totally zonked its just not happening. So my exercise has suffered, and then this week I got so sick...Migraine, toothache, pulled muscle in my back sciatica attack, quitting smoking...."ALL AT ONCE" isn't that crazy????

I thought the universe had just fallen on me. lol

Anyway I was so sick and I just ate whatever was handed to me, pizzas, donairs, casseroles full of cheese, chocolate, you name it, hardly a healthy thing in there, fast food just a littney of foods I wouldn't normally be eating and because I was all about oh poor me I just continued to stuff my face. Oh I forgot to add on my list I was also in pms mode. So you litterly couldn't fill me.

I was so scared to get on the scale and with reason that fast I have gone from 154 -160. It took me months to get from 160 down to 154 and now I have to do it again.

I'm so depressed about it, but I guess this is welcome to the world of maintenance learning how to balance life with a healthy lifestyle.

I've even thought about giving back my promotion and going back to my
little front desk job. I will not gain this back.

I did have one great victory this week though...I ran my first ever 10K and I'm super happy about that.

I would really appreciate any support you guys could give me over the next few weeks as I try to turn things back into a positive and workable plan and get back to goal.
Heather Dawn

  
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IM-SO-WORTH-IT 11/11/2009 3:00PM

    Hey Captain Baby-Steps. You can do it. I know the schedule adjustment is hard and the pressure and stress of a new position at a hotel can be a bit overwhelming. Start first with reminding yourself that the management wouldn't have promoted you if they didn't believe in your ability at the hotel. It only takes a few weeks to get into a routine that is different from what you are used to. Think back before you started this healthy journey. Did you ever think that you would be worrying about how to find time to exercise? No, you took baby-steps to get to this point. So it's time to do the same thing again. I'll be routing for you!

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MWRIGHT8 11/9/2009 7:05AM

    Hey Heather! I know you can do it! This maintenance thing is a whole different ball game! Look at all the things that were happening last week. Put it all behind you. This is a new week. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowlege Him, and He will direct your paths."
Remember who's you are! Where you are weak, He is strong. He will give you the strength to get back on track.
I'm praying for you.
Hugs
Marion

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JUNEPA 11/8/2009 11:58PM

    Hi Heather, Try to set aside some time for yourself to think things over and rebalance. I agree with Monica, a gain that is that steep, it is very likely water retention is playing a part. Maybe think about bringing some healthy snacks so that you don't want to eat on the fly and concentrate on healthy meals when you do have more time to eat. Drink lots of water, plan your eating, and do keep the running going, running is a major calorie burner and cardio supreme workout. That's what I would do, however you know what works for you, take a bit of time to plan and resettle into groove. And don't forget the pounds close to goal weight are always the hardest to lose and maintain. Since the start you have lost a lot more weight than those pesky last ten pounds, you have done awesome.

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WALKMAMA 11/7/2009 9:23PM

    Hey Heather, don't be too discouraged. With all that was going on last week, part of that gain could be some temporary fluid retention. I don't think it will take you nearly as long to get back to 154 as it did the first time around. Stay positive! You ran a 10 K and quit smoking. Keep trying to figure out how to maintain your healthy habits with your new promotion. It took me several months to figure out the best way to manage my workouts and meals after Genevieve was born and then a few months later I was given extra responsibilities at work. Keep battling for it!

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ETAGGEL 11/7/2009 9:06PM

    You will do it. These things can happen, there is no use dwelling on it. Just start all over again and then you can put this down to experience and I agree with the lyrics, write it all down and how you are feeling right now. this should help. But remeber we are all here for you


Phyllis

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CHERN009 11/7/2009 6:08PM

    When I start getting in a mode of feeling down I love playing the song
'Down' by Terron Brooks. Here are the lyrics to the song:

I need to write this down
I need to get this out
I've never felt so good
Everything feels so right

How long does happy last?
Can I keep it in my grasp?
I realize it's up to me

But I don't need to be down
To know what's up and out
To know how to win and low
To know the feeling of the end

I don't need to be under
To be grateful that I am well
With my head in the clouds
I can tell
To be on top of the world I've found
I don't need to be down
No, no, no

I've had the kind of day
Where nothing went my way
What good was worrying about it
'Cause everything turned out right

I've filled my life with chaos
And also sometimes my dreams
Until I've found reason to believe

That I don't need to be down
To know what's up and out
To know how to win and low
To know the feeling of the end

I don't need to be under
To be grateful that I am well
With my head in the clouds
I can tell
To be on top of the world I've found
I don't need to be down
No, no, no

I used to spend my time
Making mountains out of hills
Until I decided to burn the bridge and start all over

Happiness does not depend
On misery's human appearance
Why complain about tomorrow
When today the sun is shining all around

So I, I don't need to be down
I don't need to be under
To be grateful that I am well
With my head in the clouds
I can tell
To be on top of the world I've found
I don't need to be down
To know what's up and out
To know how to win and low
To know the feeling of the end

And I don't need to be under
To be grateful that I am well
With my head in the clouds
I can tell
To be on top of the world I've found
To be on top of the world I've found
Yes, I've found
To be on top of the world I've found
I don't need to be down

Here is a link to the song as well:
http://popup.lala.com/popup/165
7606142249142319

I hope this helps.

Stay Blessed, Chern

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Whoooo HOOO Finally goal and not just goal below goal..yeeehaw!

Friday, October 16, 2009

For the last few months no way could I get that last pound off. In fact I was kind of just settling things in my mind that I'd have to put up with it, and consoled myself with...one pound isn't going to change how you look.

Then this week happened and I was feeling really bad, because its the first week in a year of absolutly no exercise. I've been sick and working and just didn't have it in me. Then today I pulled out the scale and whooooooooooooooooo hoooooooooooooooo
not only was that awful stuck on pound gone it took a friend with it!!!

I'm now one pound under goal. Yippie so doing my happy dance!!!

As I begin the journey of maintaining...I just want to encourage everyone out there. You can do this...its mostly about being patient, committed, and willing to never see anything as failure. You will come up against road blocks, thats life, you just find a way around, but you never give up, and if you slip you learn everything you can from that slip and carry on. If you do this you will definitly get where you want to be. If you don't learn this...you'll still be where you are now. Celebrate every victory and remember 80/20 80 percent of the time make good healthy choices and exercise and 20 percent of the time just live your life.

I'm so happy right now...its only a couple of pounds and like I figured...I don't look any different but the incredible satisfaction of knowing I set a goal...a big goal...and reached it is great. Too funny that it finally came off the week I didn't exercise.

  
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SEAGLASSQUEEN 2/8/2010 10:11AM

    Be careful not to identify yourself too much with the number on the scale.
You have done an amazing job of transforming yourself.

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B-FLAT 10/16/2009 5:38PM

    What a great accomplishment!! Thanks for sharing and encouraging the rest of us.

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LAURIE5658 10/16/2009 4:54PM

    Oh WOW!!! Congratulations and what a way to start the weekend!!! Savor the moment and have a partay!!!!!

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SMA123 10/16/2009 3:39PM

    Hooray! That is so wonderful. Congratulations to you! emoticon

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2010TRIATHLETE 10/16/2009 3:03PM

    That is SO awesome! Congratulations!

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CACTUSCATNZ 10/16/2009 2:39PM

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Congratulations! I'm so happy for you! Well done!!!



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SCORPION1352 10/16/2009 12:19PM

   
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That's wonderful. Thanks for THE good advice on getting there too.

Keep up the maintaince WHOOOO HOOOOO

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_MSAPRIL17_ 10/16/2009 9:57AM

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Congratulations!! That is AWESOME!!!

Have fun in maintenance now!!!! WOOT WOOT!!

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TINALEX61 10/16/2009 9:56AM

    Well emoticon emoticon That is awesome to reach your goal and more. Thanks for sharing, it gives those of us that hasn't reached our goal yet to keep going it can happen!! I just love SP!

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Life Lesson learned in Hip Hop Class.

Friday, September 25, 2009

hahaha it's kailee's revenge. Went to the hip hop class last night pretty sure I had it down. They stretched us really good before we danced and so I'm not nearly as sore as I was last week when Kailee was showing me the choreography I missed. Anyway, I'm not shy but I got in there and we had to do the steps in a different way across the floor. For each individual segment. So your going across the floor and the rest of the class is watching. LOL. Well I got so self conscious I was constantly forgetting what I was supposed to do. If it was go right, I went left and so on. Then to my horror I felt myself blushing which had the effect of completely shutting down my brain. haha.

As for Kailees revenge...lol...she is nothing but supportive and encouraging, but in the back of my mind I'm thinking of how very shy she is. She is in the world very shy, but let me tell you see her on stage and you would never dream it...she is 100% a performer. It shocked me when she told me she wanted to compete in dance, I never dreamed she'd get up on stage in front of so many people. She did though and I was very proud of her, and shocked at how when her feet hit that stage she is like another person. However I do remember a few times at the beginning when doing very complicated routines esp. tap I'd say to her now remember its not just about the steps you need to remember your face and perform and engage the audience. LOL. Words of the totally ignorant sitting comfortably in her seat waiting to be entertained. lol

Last night the absolute enormity of what she's done hit me. I was so self conscious with just my class mates watching I couldn't do it, can't even imagine getting on an actual stage with lights on you and every eye on you and performing a solo, or even a couple steps.

This is a beginner adult class and I know I'll get it with practise...lots of practice and I know I'll gain confidence too. It wasn't that I couldn't do it, I just got painfully shy in the middle of doing it. lol Something I'm sure was really funny to kailee.

Kailee is also taking this class which is way beneath her but just to spend time with me and help me in it. As a teacher for the studio she can take anything she wants for free. It was amazing to me though doing the across the floors she just stands out a mile...her every movement is so precise. One lady not knowing Kailee was a teacher or my daughter said...my goodness that girl is a pro. lol

All in all it was very fun, definitly had a good laugh, but was uncomfortable by times.

Its so easy to judge things until you have to do it yourself. After all these years of dance competitions the kind of hip hop I'm doing would put me right to sleep. To watch its total beginner and boring and I'd just kind of nod off thru that kind of performance. Now that I'm doing it myself I have a new respect for the girls who get up on stage and do it. Its not easy and just getting on that stage is a big deal.

Anyway thats my hip hop experience so far. I'm gonna need a lot of help...fortunatly I have a my own private dance teacher for free. hee hee. She definitly has her work cut out for her, and I will not leave her alone until I can do this and not look like a total dork. hahaha


  
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IM-SO-WORTH-IT 10/3/2009 12:13PM

    Gee Whiz, Captain Baby Steps, does this mean you're now stepping out?
You truly are my hero!

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GLITTERGIRL69 9/25/2009 11:12PM

    This blog was the funniest blog I ever read! I voted for your blog just now! It was really funny. You know the same thing can be said about judging people. It is so easy to judge. You think you have all the information, and feel so right about it, at times. You do through something similar, which you have judged another person harshly for, ooohhhh, you see things much much differently when you are doing the same exact thing.

I love you back ground. How could I not being a glitter girl and all. (I love all things that sparkle) Have a nice week end.

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MA2DAPPLES 9/25/2009 9:42PM

    That is so brave of Kaillee. You have to be so proud of her. For you to do the class is brave too. I think we get a little klutzy as we age and you are out there making sure it doesn’t happen to you. Now, do you plan to dance on stage at the end of the class?



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WHITE-HERON 9/25/2009 11:42AM

    Congratulations on taking on this new challenge.

You'll add it to your successful accomplishments!

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Oh so thats what they mean by Hip Hop Battle!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Yesterday I had my first hip hop class...well not really class...I missed the first one do to work, so my daughter came by to teach me the choregraphy I missed. So for an hour we worked on it.

It was super fun, we had several laughs...My brain to body messages seemed to be on a time delayed system. lol

I was amazed how much of a workout this was...after running I thought I'd be good as far as the cardio goes, but I was breathing hard.

Then I woke up this morning and oh my...I'm sore "everywhere". There is just no place on my bod that doesn't hurt, so I know not only is this fun...its a major workout.

Hip hop crews battle it out thru their dance...but I think for me...just doing the hip hop is the battle. lol I definitly feel like i've been in a battle today...or run over by a truck or something. lol

Still looking forward to doing it again,
Heather

  
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MA2DAPPLES 9/20/2009 7:19PM

    Use those muscles! I wrote to a Zuma teacher to find out the cost and time of classes but am still waiting for her to respond. It is a combination of Latin and hip hop dancing. Maybe we should get a dance theme on the team for one of these months! LOL



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CACTUSCATNZ 9/20/2009 4:32PM

    I've watched a few movies lately about hip-hop crews battling - "Step Up 2: The Streets" is my favourite so far, and it's got me wanting to learn. :-)

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Clothing sizes must have gotten larger over the years.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Maybe thats why we have a size 0. Or have you even seen the 00 size. I mean what is a 0 or a 00. Probably my sons little girlfriend.

Anyway I went shopping today at Suzy Shier for dress pants for work and jumped in, zipped up, buttoned up...without any problem size 7/8,

Well I was excited about this of course., but upon reflection I it doesn't seem right to me. Right now I weigh 156, but I remember clearly being a size 9/10 in junior high and weighing 126.

So I'm happy to be 7/8 but at the same time I think the 7/8 now is probably like a 11/12 was back then.

What do you guys think?

Heather

  
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ERINCAPPEL 6/21/2011 10:52AM

    I'm SURE sizes have gotten bigger. I used to be a solid size 8 (I think I weighed in the 120's) and now I'm a size 0 or 00! I do weigh a little less now (partly thanks to SparkPeople!) I'm around 5'5" and 115 lbs, but STILL...that's not overly small and I'm starting to shrink out of the store sizes...grrr...(good problem to have, though annoying).

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SELECTIVEGIRL 10/29/2009 2:35PM

    I so agree with you but in Canada it is a little different. The size 8's I buy here would be a 6 down there. maybe even less. Also in Canada junior and women's is differentiated by the number. The teenagers clothes are odd numbers like 7, 9, 11 etc. and the women's are even numbers 8, 10, 12 .........

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JULISABROCAR 9/19/2009 1:45PM

    I vote that sizes have gotten fishy!!

I've always been active but in high school & college I was a size 5 or 7. Now I'm at least 10lb heavier (depending on how my thyroid is acting) and I have pants in my closet that are size 4!!! Get real! I'm really debating donating a pair of comfy but not loose black jeans because they say size 10 and it makes me feel, well, larger... Obviously I get sucked into the size game they're playing... I collect vintage clothes and the sizes in my closet run the WHOLE gamut. I can tell when something's truly old because it's usually a larger size

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KANSASGAL3 9/19/2009 8:07AM

    I'm just happy to see a smaller size on the tag this year than last year (and a smaller number on the scale). Most importantly, I'm breathing easier after walking up a flight or two of stairs and my knees aren't hurting!! Also, I bought a new pair of jeans last night and went down two sizes. I've decided to never wear those old fat jeans except outside working in the yard.

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KACYBEE15 9/18/2009 9:35PM

    I've definitely noticed this a lot at American Eagle. Their jeans run at least a size bigger than they are labeled, which does kind of make me feel a little better, but I always try to remember that they size isn't exactly accurate.

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JIBBIE49 9/18/2009 9:07PM

    NO, it most certainly does NOT depend on the store, because ALL of the clothing stores do it. YES, sizes are pathetic how they have changed for FAT people to not think they are FAT. You are right. When I was in high school in the 60's I was 114# and wore a size 5/7 and when I got in my 20's in the 70's I was in a Size 9 junior and I was about 128 and I was 5'4", so sizes are really ridicules now. A Misses was a size for "mature women" and the JUNIORS was for the you girl with high breasts and a small waist. I was 34-23-37.

I read that Colleen Corby who was THE fashion Supermodel in the '60s was 5'7" and 107# and a size 5.

What is even worse is how they changed sizes to 1X, 2X, 3X, etc. rather than have 18, 20, 22, 24 etc like they use to have. I would never go into a Lane Bryant because I knew that I'd be 300# before I knew it with their clothing sizes. I was 214# and busting out of a 16P that left red marks around my waist. NO MORE EVER!

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DJ4HEALTH 9/18/2009 8:09PM

    The fashion industry has been putting smaller labels on bigger clothes for some time now and now that they are running out of numbers they are putting Zeros on the clothes. If you really want to know what your size is measure yourself and go to a fabric store and look up you size on a pattern. They only changed the size once and when they saw what the fashion industry was doing they said that they are not going to do that and have not changed the sizes since. So yes you are not the size that is on the clothes and you can not go by what the fashion industry is telling you. There is no size zero in real life just in fashion industry that want you to think that you are smaller than you really are and that is also part of this countries problems too.

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MA2DAPPLES 9/18/2009 8:08PM

    I found size really depends on the manufacturer, what country the clothing is made in and the material it is made out of. I wore a wide range of sizes from a 6 to 12 when I weighed 150 pounds. As an overweight person I can still wear 3 sizes of clothing depending on the material and manufacturer.


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BABYFACE26 9/18/2009 6:52PM

    Oh, this is a complicated subject! I have found that it really depends on the store, and the brands. Certain stores, like Old Navy, are ridiculously larger...but in general, Yes - they really Are bigger than they used to be! I shopped at Mervyns for awhile, until they closed, and the clothes were way larger. I was so thrilled to fit into a size 16 at the time, until I realized it wasn't really.

And then, some high end clothing is fit larger as well...on the other hand (there just is no consistency here!!) sometimes I'll find, when its a Small, Medium, or large - that the Large is NOT. false advertising! Also, in Jeans, it depends on the brand, too.

Its a Plot.

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IM-SO-WORTH-IT 9/18/2009 6:27PM

    Oh noooo! That means I really am this big (16). emoticon

I remember shortly after graduating high school, I was ill and dropped 80 pounds in about 3 months to a weight of 82 pounds. (Way to skinny - worked with the doc's for 5 years to get to a healthy weight)
I was shocked and slightly disturbed when a sales clerk told me that I was a zero and maybe even a double zero. Imagine being told "You are a Zero" by someone you don't know! emoticon

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GRACE2GRACE 9/18/2009 4:52PM

    Ah thats it...it was junior sizing...forgot all about that. So hurrah...I'm really a 7 and a 7 really is a 7...lol.

yeah!

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STINA44 9/18/2009 4:16PM

    Well if it was Junior High it is possible that you wore a 9/10 Juniors and now you wear a 7/8 Womens? I have a pair of jeans I wore at 140 pounds when I was 14 that are a size 13/14 and looking at them now they look like a Women's size 9/10. That might be the difference. Love your blog!

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KYMANN1 9/18/2009 2:37PM

  Now you got me curious; I've done a little internet snooping - I hope I found reputable sites.

Supposedly, Marilyn Monroe was 5' 5 1/2" tall and weighed about 120 pounds; her dressmaker claims her measurements were 35-22-36. Today this would put her in a size 6-8 and Snopes.com says she wore an 8 when she was younger and grew into a 10.

Twiggy measured 32-23-32 which would put her in the 0 range.

Cindy Crawford is reported to be 5' 9" tall, measures 34-24-35 and wears an 8.

It appears that clothing sizes have stayed fairly true - we've just gone to extremes; either 0 or 24! I found an article that said Twiggy was shockingly thin when she came on the scene but that now this is fairly normal for models.

I was never a skinny kid (I didn't think) - as a teen I was 5' 7" and weighed around 140 pounds. I can't remember what size I wore - I thought it was a 10. I wore a 12 when I weighed 160.

Just to make this clothing thing more fun go to 3 different stores - there's a good possibility you'll wear 3 different sizes! My Mom has been trying to get me to ignore this whole 'number' thing all my life...

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JONAHSADIE 9/18/2009 12:32PM

    I have heard of size 00. I have a 47 year old friend who wears them if they are small enough, lol.

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JONAHSADIE 9/18/2009 12:32PM

    I have heard of size 00. I have a 47 year old friend who wears them if they are small enough, lol.

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YANKEECHICK1 9/18/2009 12:27PM

    People have gotten bigger over the years, so I guess the #'s have to be re-sized??? A couple of years ago I went to get a dress, which I knew it was my size, but I could not get into. At that time I was a slimmer and that WAS my size, but for some reason it was too small.

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