Friday, October 16, 2009
For the last few months no way could I get that last pound off. In fact I was kind of just settling things in my mind that I'd have to put up with it, and consoled myself with...one pound isn't going to change how you look.
Then this week happened and I was feeling really bad, because its the first week in a year of absolutly no exercise. I've been sick and working and just didn't have it in me. Then today I pulled out the scale and whooooooooooooooooo hoooooooooooooooo
not only was that awful stuck on pound gone it took a friend with it!!!
I'm now one pound under goal. Yippie so doing my happy dance!!!
As I begin the journey of maintaining...I just want to encourage everyone out there. You can do this...its mostly about being patient, committed, and willing to never see anything as failure. You will come up against road blocks, thats life, you just find a way around, but you never give up, and if you slip you learn everything you can from that slip and carry on. If you do this you will definitly get where you want to be. If you don't learn this...you'll still be where you are now. Celebrate every victory and remember 80/20 80 percent of the time make good healthy choices and exercise and 20 percent of the time just live your life.
I'm so happy right now...its only a couple of pounds and like I figured...I don't look any different but the incredible satisfaction of knowing I set a goal...a big goal...and reached it is great. Too funny that it finally came off the week I didn't exercise.
Friday, September 25, 2009
hahaha it's kailee's revenge. Went to the hip hop class last night pretty sure I had it down. They stretched us really good before we danced and so I'm not nearly as sore as I was last week when Kailee was showing me the choreography I missed. Anyway, I'm not shy but I got in there and we had to do the steps in a different way across the floor. For each individual segment. So your going across the floor and the rest of the class is watching. LOL. Well I got so self conscious I was constantly forgetting what I was supposed to do. If it was go right, I went left and so on. Then to my horror I felt myself blushing which had the effect of completely shutting down my brain. haha.
As for Kailees revenge...lol...she is nothing but supportive and encouraging, but in the back of my mind I'm thinking of how very shy she is. She is in the world very shy, but let me tell you see her on stage and you would never dream it...she is 100% a performer. It shocked me when she told me she wanted to compete in dance, I never dreamed she'd get up on stage in front of so many people. She did though and I was very proud of her, and shocked at how when her feet hit that stage she is like another person. However I do remember a few times at the beginning when doing very complicated routines esp. tap I'd say to her now remember its not just about the steps you need to remember your face and perform and engage the audience. LOL. Words of the totally ignorant sitting comfortably in her seat waiting to be entertained. lol
Last night the absolute enormity of what she's done hit me. I was so self conscious with just my class mates watching I couldn't do it, can't even imagine getting on an actual stage with lights on you and every eye on you and performing a solo, or even a couple steps.
This is a beginner adult class and I know I'll get it with practise...lots of practice and I know I'll gain confidence too. It wasn't that I couldn't do it, I just got painfully shy in the middle of doing it. lol Something I'm sure was really funny to kailee.
Kailee is also taking this class which is way beneath her but just to spend time with me and help me in it. As a teacher for the studio she can take anything she wants for free. It was amazing to me though doing the across the floors she just stands out a mile...her every movement is so precise. One lady not knowing Kailee was a teacher or my daughter said...my goodness that girl is a pro. lol
All in all it was very fun, definitly had a good laugh, but was uncomfortable by times.
Its so easy to judge things until you have to do it yourself. After all these years of dance competitions the kind of hip hop I'm doing would put me right to sleep. To watch its total beginner and boring and I'd just kind of nod off thru that kind of performance. Now that I'm doing it myself I have a new respect for the girls who get up on stage and do it. Its not easy and just getting on that stage is a big deal.
Anyway thats my hip hop experience so far. I'm gonna need a lot of help...fortunatly I have a my own private dance teacher for free. hee hee. She definitly has her work cut out for her, and I will not leave her alone until I can do this and not look like a total dork. hahaha
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Yesterday I had my first hip hop class...well not really class...I missed the first one do to work, so my daughter came by to teach me the choregraphy I missed. So for an hour we worked on it.
It was super fun, we had several laughs...My brain to body messages seemed to be on a time delayed system. lol
I was amazed how much of a workout this was...after running I thought I'd be good as far as the cardio goes, but I was breathing hard.
Then I woke up this morning and oh my...I'm sore "everywhere". There is just no place on my bod that doesn't hurt, so I know not only is this fun...its a major workout.
Hip hop crews battle it out thru their dance...but I think for me...just doing the hip hop is the battle. lol I definitly feel like i've been in a battle today...or run over by a truck or something. lol
Still looking forward to doing it again,
Friday, September 18, 2009
Maybe thats why we have a size 0. Or have you even seen the 00 size. I mean what is a 0 or a 00. Probably my sons little girlfriend.
Anyway I went shopping today at Suzy Shier for dress pants for work and jumped in, zipped up, buttoned up...without any problem size 7/8,
Well I was excited about this of course., but upon reflection I it doesn't seem right to me. Right now I weigh 156, but I remember clearly being a size 9/10 in junior high and weighing 126.
So I'm happy to be 7/8 but at the same time I think the 7/8 now is probably like a 11/12 was back then.
What do you guys think?
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Fitness Minutes: (15,339)
9/2/09 2:56 P
I decided today I need to mix up my workouts and get the furnace burning. Our bodies are so weird. Last year I couldn't run to the end of the driveway and now although I'll never be a marathoner I can run enough to impress myself. I'm pretty proud of that by the way! lol What i've come to realize though which came as a bit of a shock, although I've gained in the this area of fitness, I'm totally and completely out of shape in other areas and using other muscles is a real challenge. The worst being my core. After 3 c-sections I simply have no abdominal strength at all. I started doing a few crunches on the ball because on the floor it killed my back, but trust me if I do 25 in a row I feel like I'm on fire and about to die!!! lol
So today I picked 4 different workout videos from sparkpeople and did them. 2 were dealing with the core. OMG....I'm glad they were short videos...lol
One thing I learned was I was actually doing the crunches on the ball wrong, by the way I held my arms. When I did it the way Couch nicole said to do it...Holy Toledo batman within 3 crunches...I thought...I'm going to die and it really hit me, this is worse than I thought! Having a strong core is key to everything eles so I've got my work cut out for me. I'm going to try to do that workout every second day...oie its only 5 minutes...but OIE again! Just like I couldn't run last year but can now, I know if I'll just buckle down and do it, I'll see progress there too and I'm looking forward to that. Its so embarrassing to be able to do three perfect crunches and think I'm on fire and not in a good way. lol
On the bright side...I caught a glimpse of myself today in shorts and t-shirt and it was like being smacked upside the head. Thru the summer I haven't lost a huge amount of pounds but my body is changing so much. I haven't been this small in 20 years maybe more. My stomach where I held most of my weight is pretty much flat now, but its pretty jiggly not toned so the abdominal workouts should tighten everything up.
It still blows my mind sometimes when I look in the mirror. I know intellectually I did the work and it was quite a long time...but its like in my mind all that is forgotten and when I see myself sometimes...I'm just struck dumb...Is that really me.
But it is...teehhhheeee and I'm thrilled. People keep asking me around town "heather what did you do to lose all that weight and I'm so happy to share the how, the where, and let them know...Hey...this really can be done...I tried and failed a zillion times, but once i started focusing on a lifestyle rather than a quick fix it all fell into place and before I knew it...I was looking like I do now.
Anyway I'm babbling....My scale is doing this wierd vibrating needle thing the last few days it keeps shaking between 158-157....Come on all ready!
The best thing about this year is I got "FREE". Free of the kind of fatalistic thinking that kept me overweight the last 20 years. This is as good as it gets, might as well turn on the TV and eat another cookie, try to live with it, try to accept yourself in this body you don't like, just get comfy and don't dream toooo big. Thats no way to live....and being trapped in that fat suit...makes that lie seem like reality. But thats it...its a big Fat Lie! You can be healthy, fit and strong no matter your age, you can be the one doing the fun things, the adventurous things rather than watching on the sidelines. It really can be you...So get free of that Lie...and by taking small little baby steps, the weight will come off...you will get more fit, and as you do this...suddenly the opportunites of life, the adventures of life...will start appearing as something you can actually do too.
Whooo Hoooo I'm freeeeeeeeeeee!
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