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Haven't blogged since Nov. 2009

Saturday, March 06, 2010

Today I read my last blog post "EEEEWWWW done being that girl!
It was good for me to read it and remember.

The reason I haven't been blogging, or participating regularly, or even exercising regularly was because of a promotion to Sales and Convention manager at the hotel where I work. I was promoted and next thing I knew they laid off many essential staff people. So I have been trying to do my job and about 3 others. Life has been crazy!!! I have simply had no time and no energy.

Since then I've watched 6 pounds creep back on. I come home to tired to exercise and just open my mouth for whatever happens to be available.

In the past 2 weeks I think I've exercised one time. Its been so frustrating and I have to tell you I don't feel good. I keep remembering how well I felt when I was eating right and exercising.

I'm not beating myself up though, I know the cirucmstances I have been in were extreme and sometimes you just have to roll with the punches. I am seeing some light at the end of the tunnel as they've hired another girl for front desk and I will soon regain 2 days of my time and I'm hopeful I can work out an appropriate eating and exercsing schedule again.

Once your in that zone of healthy living there is nothing like it. Life just improves exponentially. You have more energy, your more creative in problem solving, your happier, you feel more fullfilled...its just plain better. All work and no play defiinitly doesn't have a good effect on people.

Guard your healthy lifestyles, cherish them. If however your in a similar circumstance and feeling like you've been run over, just make plans for how your going to regain it. Don't waste time beating yourself up over things you can't control.

Reading that blog, I remember all the excitement and happiness I felt.

I'm getting that back...no job is worth going back to being "that girl" in my previous blog.

We can do this.

Heather Dawn

  
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SHANTRA 4/5/2010 2:31PM

    Great to see such an inspiring blog.

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PERSISTENT_GIRL 3/15/2010 9:29PM

    great to hear from you and your new goals!! You can do this as we are in it for the journey! Keep up the great work and keep remembering You as that girl!

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KAYDE53 3/6/2010 10:46AM

    Congratulations on the job promotion and welcome back!! Hope your routine comes back to where you can concentrate on You!! emoticon

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COFFEYBEAN 3/6/2010 10:03AM

    I wondered what happened to you....I knew when I quit the team that I should still be getting some blogs, but I got nothing....glad to see you're still alive and kicking. You just keep trying girlfriend...you'll work it out...yes, day to day work does hamper your schedule, but you got to think outside of the box...I hope work tames itself for you and you can get back on track.

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HSMOM2FOUR 3/6/2010 9:34AM

    Welcome back!!! Hope everything settles down for you soon, and that you get back into your healthy routines!!

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EEEEWWWWW!!!! Done being that Girl!

Sunday, November 15, 2009


Looking thru some old photos my sisterinlaw had and came across this picture of me. Its about 8 years ago. I just shuddered when I saw it, because over those 8 years my weight went up and down but the smallest I got was 183. When I decided to get serious with spark last year I was back to this weight 206. I didn't have a before picture because for years I had avoided having my picture taken unless it was just a head shot. I look at this picture and honestly my stomach feels sick. Who is that girl! I just look absolutly miserable and sick even.

I showed it to my sons girlfriend who has only known me since I lost the weight and she just couldn't even get her head around it. Can't blame her I can't get my head around it. Why, why, Why...did I ever live like that, when it was really easy to get it off, it was just a matter of eating right, exercising , being patient with the weight coming off slowly and not giving up.

I honestly can't imagine ever going back to that size. Its soooo awful...all I can think of is EEEEEWWWWW no way...never again!

I hate this picture and really didn't want to share it, but I remember at the beginning of this journey I really couldn't believe I could ever really be at a healthy weight and feel attractive again.

So if this horrible, awful, terrible, make me shudder picture can help someone make the connection that it can be done, then its worth the humiliation I feel posting it.

It may take some time...it took me a year...but you can get yourself back.



There have been so many changes, so many victories along the journey.
1. I learned to eat healthy.
2. I went from being a coach potato to a regular exercise routine and recently completed a 10 k run.
3. I went from not being able to shop at my favorite store to being able to put on and like anything I want there. No more crying in the dressing rooms.
4. I was promoted into a PR position at work and it was no secret how I was looking and the confidence I was displaying was a large part of that. My skills remain the same.
5. I love the surprise on peoples faces who haven't seen me in a while.
6. I love being able to tell them what I did and encourage them that yes...they can do it too.
7. The other day I said something about being cold at work and one of the guests said well I'm not surprised dear...your such a tiny little thing. hahaha
Well I'm far from a tiny little thing...but I was so thrilled when she left I shut my office door and burned a few calories doin my happy dance. hahaha.
8. I feel like a new door has opened on my life, new opportunities are coming my way and life is an adventure again.
9. I'm even starting to think I may try a half marathon.
10. I may be a little vain, but when I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror, store window, car window, puddle...I can't help it...I smile

Don't give up until you get to goal its way too much fun.
Heather Dawn

  
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KUNGFOOD 4/15/2010 8:08AM

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beautiful!

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SEAGLASSQUEEN 2/8/2010 10:09AM

    Go for it! Run a 1/2 marathon...it is an amazing journey of stretching your courage and determination.

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YATMAMA 11/16/2009 11:07AM

    You give me such hope, such encouragement. My journey is a lot longer than yours and I'm STUCK beyond words for a month now, but I know that as I continue to treat my body with the respect it is due, the weight will come off, more victories will occur, and my own happy dances will become more plentiful. Thank you for living the dream in front of me, my friend. You bless me so much!!

*hugs*

Missy

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MWRIGHT8 11/16/2009 7:39AM

    Way to go! Thanks for being such an inspiration!
Hugs
Marion

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PRINCESSNURSE 11/16/2009 4:54AM

    Coingratulations on your weight loss and new lifestyle. You are an inspiration!

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CRYSBROWN1 11/15/2009 6:49PM

    WOW, what an impressive transformation! Congrats on all of the positive things that have come along with it!

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GLORYB2014 11/15/2009 4:51PM

    Congrats on reaching your goal. This blog is really impressive, thanks for sharing

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EMACFAR 11/15/2009 4:45PM

    Excellent work! That is so inspiring :) Keep it up!

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VGIMLET 11/15/2009 4:43PM

    Congratulations on reaching your goal, and the changes you've made in your lifestyle.
It's good to remember how far you've come.

As someone still on my way to my own goals, it helps me to see the before and after photos others have posted.



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I've been struggling since reaching goal.

Saturday, November 07, 2009

I've really been struggling since reaching my goal weight.

I was promoted at work into a position that is very demanding of my time and energy and leaves me a good part of the time feeling stressed.

My old job as a front desk agent allowed me to work 3-11 pm. Lots of time to plan your food and get in your exercise. This job is day shifts and anyone who knows me knows I'm not a morning person. So to get in my exercise I have to get up with the birds...or exercise when I come home from work. Neither works well. early I can't force myself out of bed on most days, and after I so totally zonked its just not happening. So my exercise has suffered, and then this week I got so sick...Migraine, toothache, pulled muscle in my back sciatica attack, quitting smoking...."ALL AT ONCE" isn't that crazy????

I thought the universe had just fallen on me. lol

Anyway I was so sick and I just ate whatever was handed to me, pizzas, donairs, casseroles full of cheese, chocolate, you name it, hardly a healthy thing in there, fast food just a littney of foods I wouldn't normally be eating and because I was all about oh poor me I just continued to stuff my face. Oh I forgot to add on my list I was also in pms mode. So you litterly couldn't fill me.

I was so scared to get on the scale and with reason that fast I have gone from 154 -160. It took me months to get from 160 down to 154 and now I have to do it again.

I'm so depressed about it, but I guess this is welcome to the world of maintenance learning how to balance life with a healthy lifestyle.

I've even thought about giving back my promotion and going back to my
little front desk job. I will not gain this back.

I did have one great victory this week though...I ran my first ever 10K and I'm super happy about that.

I would really appreciate any support you guys could give me over the next few weeks as I try to turn things back into a positive and workable plan and get back to goal.
Heather Dawn

  
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IM-SO-WORTH-IT 11/11/2009 3:00PM

    Hey Captain Baby-Steps. You can do it. I know the schedule adjustment is hard and the pressure and stress of a new position at a hotel can be a bit overwhelming. Start first with reminding yourself that the management wouldn't have promoted you if they didn't believe in your ability at the hotel. It only takes a few weeks to get into a routine that is different from what you are used to. Think back before you started this healthy journey. Did you ever think that you would be worrying about how to find time to exercise? No, you took baby-steps to get to this point. So it's time to do the same thing again. I'll be routing for you!

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MWRIGHT8 11/9/2009 7:05AM

    Hey Heather! I know you can do it! This maintenance thing is a whole different ball game! Look at all the things that were happening last week. Put it all behind you. This is a new week. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowlege Him, and He will direct your paths."
Remember who's you are! Where you are weak, He is strong. He will give you the strength to get back on track.
I'm praying for you.
Hugs
Marion

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JUNEPA 11/8/2009 11:58PM

    Hi Heather, Try to set aside some time for yourself to think things over and rebalance. I agree with Monica, a gain that is that steep, it is very likely water retention is playing a part. Maybe think about bringing some healthy snacks so that you don't want to eat on the fly and concentrate on healthy meals when you do have more time to eat. Drink lots of water, plan your eating, and do keep the running going, running is a major calorie burner and cardio supreme workout. That's what I would do, however you know what works for you, take a bit of time to plan and resettle into groove. And don't forget the pounds close to goal weight are always the hardest to lose and maintain. Since the start you have lost a lot more weight than those pesky last ten pounds, you have done awesome.

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WALKMAMA 11/7/2009 9:23PM

    Hey Heather, don't be too discouraged. With all that was going on last week, part of that gain could be some temporary fluid retention. I don't think it will take you nearly as long to get back to 154 as it did the first time around. Stay positive! You ran a 10 K and quit smoking. Keep trying to figure out how to maintain your healthy habits with your new promotion. It took me several months to figure out the best way to manage my workouts and meals after Genevieve was born and then a few months later I was given extra responsibilities at work. Keep battling for it!

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ETAGGEL 11/7/2009 9:06PM

    You will do it. These things can happen, there is no use dwelling on it. Just start all over again and then you can put this down to experience and I agree with the lyrics, write it all down and how you are feeling right now. this should help. But remeber we are all here for you


Phyllis

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CHERN009 11/7/2009 6:08PM

    When I start getting in a mode of feeling down I love playing the song
'Down' by Terron Brooks. Here are the lyrics to the song:

I need to write this down
I need to get this out
I've never felt so good
Everything feels so right

How long does happy last?
Can I keep it in my grasp?
I realize it's up to me

But I don't need to be down
To know what's up and out
To know how to win and low
To know the feeling of the end

I don't need to be under
To be grateful that I am well
With my head in the clouds
I can tell
To be on top of the world I've found
I don't need to be down
No, no, no

I've had the kind of day
Where nothing went my way
What good was worrying about it
'Cause everything turned out right

I've filled my life with chaos
And also sometimes my dreams
Until I've found reason to believe

That I don't need to be down
To know what's up and out
To know how to win and low
To know the feeling of the end

I don't need to be under
To be grateful that I am well
With my head in the clouds
I can tell
To be on top of the world I've found
I don't need to be down
No, no, no

I used to spend my time
Making mountains out of hills
Until I decided to burn the bridge and start all over

Happiness does not depend
On misery's human appearance
Why complain about tomorrow
When today the sun is shining all around

So I, I don't need to be down
I don't need to be under
To be grateful that I am well
With my head in the clouds
I can tell
To be on top of the world I've found
I don't need to be down
To know what's up and out
To know how to win and low
To know the feeling of the end

And I don't need to be under
To be grateful that I am well
With my head in the clouds
I can tell
To be on top of the world I've found
To be on top of the world I've found
Yes, I've found
To be on top of the world I've found
I don't need to be down

Here is a link to the song as well:
http://popup.lala.com/popup/165
7606142249142319

I hope this helps.

Stay Blessed, Chern

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Whoooo HOOO Finally goal and not just goal below goal..yeeehaw!

Friday, October 16, 2009

For the last few months no way could I get that last pound off. In fact I was kind of just settling things in my mind that I'd have to put up with it, and consoled myself with...one pound isn't going to change how you look.

Then this week happened and I was feeling really bad, because its the first week in a year of absolutly no exercise. I've been sick and working and just didn't have it in me. Then today I pulled out the scale and whooooooooooooooooo hoooooooooooooooo
not only was that awful stuck on pound gone it took a friend with it!!!

I'm now one pound under goal. Yippie so doing my happy dance!!!

As I begin the journey of maintaining...I just want to encourage everyone out there. You can do this...its mostly about being patient, committed, and willing to never see anything as failure. You will come up against road blocks, thats life, you just find a way around, but you never give up, and if you slip you learn everything you can from that slip and carry on. If you do this you will definitly get where you want to be. If you don't learn this...you'll still be where you are now. Celebrate every victory and remember 80/20 80 percent of the time make good healthy choices and exercise and 20 percent of the time just live your life.

I'm so happy right now...its only a couple of pounds and like I figured...I don't look any different but the incredible satisfaction of knowing I set a goal...a big goal...and reached it is great. Too funny that it finally came off the week I didn't exercise.

  
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SEAGLASSQUEEN 2/8/2010 10:11AM

    Be careful not to identify yourself too much with the number on the scale.
You have done an amazing job of transforming yourself.

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B-FLAT 10/16/2009 5:38PM

    What a great accomplishment!! Thanks for sharing and encouraging the rest of us.

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LAURIE5658 10/16/2009 4:54PM

    Oh WOW!!! Congratulations and what a way to start the weekend!!! Savor the moment and have a partay!!!!!

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SMA123 10/16/2009 3:39PM

    Hooray! That is so wonderful. Congratulations to you! emoticon

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2010TRIATHLETE 10/16/2009 3:03PM

    That is SO awesome! Congratulations!

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Congratulations! I'm so happy for you! Well done!!!



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SCORPION1352 10/16/2009 12:19PM

   
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That's wonderful. Thanks for THE good advice on getting there too.

Keep up the maintaince WHOOOO HOOOOO

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_MSAPRIL17_ 10/16/2009 9:57AM

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Congratulations!! That is AWESOME!!!

Have fun in maintenance now!!!! WOOT WOOT!!

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TINALEX61 10/16/2009 9:56AM

    Well emoticon emoticon That is awesome to reach your goal and more. Thanks for sharing, it gives those of us that hasn't reached our goal yet to keep going it can happen!! I just love SP!

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Life Lesson learned in Hip Hop Class.

Friday, September 25, 2009

hahaha it's kailee's revenge. Went to the hip hop class last night pretty sure I had it down. They stretched us really good before we danced and so I'm not nearly as sore as I was last week when Kailee was showing me the choreography I missed. Anyway, I'm not shy but I got in there and we had to do the steps in a different way across the floor. For each individual segment. So your going across the floor and the rest of the class is watching. LOL. Well I got so self conscious I was constantly forgetting what I was supposed to do. If it was go right, I went left and so on. Then to my horror I felt myself blushing which had the effect of completely shutting down my brain. haha.

As for Kailees revenge...lol...she is nothing but supportive and encouraging, but in the back of my mind I'm thinking of how very shy she is. She is in the world very shy, but let me tell you see her on stage and you would never dream it...she is 100% a performer. It shocked me when she told me she wanted to compete in dance, I never dreamed she'd get up on stage in front of so many people. She did though and I was very proud of her, and shocked at how when her feet hit that stage she is like another person. However I do remember a few times at the beginning when doing very complicated routines esp. tap I'd say to her now remember its not just about the steps you need to remember your face and perform and engage the audience. LOL. Words of the totally ignorant sitting comfortably in her seat waiting to be entertained. lol

Last night the absolute enormity of what she's done hit me. I was so self conscious with just my class mates watching I couldn't do it, can't even imagine getting on an actual stage with lights on you and every eye on you and performing a solo, or even a couple steps.

This is a beginner adult class and I know I'll get it with practise...lots of practice and I know I'll gain confidence too. It wasn't that I couldn't do it, I just got painfully shy in the middle of doing it. lol Something I'm sure was really funny to kailee.

Kailee is also taking this class which is way beneath her but just to spend time with me and help me in it. As a teacher for the studio she can take anything she wants for free. It was amazing to me though doing the across the floors she just stands out a mile...her every movement is so precise. One lady not knowing Kailee was a teacher or my daughter said...my goodness that girl is a pro. lol

All in all it was very fun, definitly had a good laugh, but was uncomfortable by times.

Its so easy to judge things until you have to do it yourself. After all these years of dance competitions the kind of hip hop I'm doing would put me right to sleep. To watch its total beginner and boring and I'd just kind of nod off thru that kind of performance. Now that I'm doing it myself I have a new respect for the girls who get up on stage and do it. Its not easy and just getting on that stage is a big deal.

Anyway thats my hip hop experience so far. I'm gonna need a lot of help...fortunatly I have a my own private dance teacher for free. hee hee. She definitly has her work cut out for her, and I will not leave her alone until I can do this and not look like a total dork. hahaha


  
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IM-SO-WORTH-IT 10/3/2009 12:13PM

    Gee Whiz, Captain Baby Steps, does this mean you're now stepping out?
You truly are my hero!

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GLITTERGIRL69 9/25/2009 11:12PM

    This blog was the funniest blog I ever read! I voted for your blog just now! It was really funny. You know the same thing can be said about judging people. It is so easy to judge. You think you have all the information, and feel so right about it, at times. You do through something similar, which you have judged another person harshly for, ooohhhh, you see things much much differently when you are doing the same exact thing.

I love you back ground. How could I not being a glitter girl and all. (I love all things that sparkle) Have a nice week end.

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MA2DAPPLES 9/25/2009 9:42PM

    That is so brave of Kaillee. You have to be so proud of her. For you to do the class is brave too. I think we get a little klutzy as we age and you are out there making sure it doesn’t happen to you. Now, do you plan to dance on stage at the end of the class?



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WHITE-HERON 9/25/2009 11:42AM

    Congratulations on taking on this new challenge.

You'll add it to your successful accomplishments!

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