Wednesday, September 01, 2010
AFter struggling with exercise for quite some time now due to an insane work schedule, gaining 10 pounds and trying to recover from a knee injury. I'm back and going to try to make Sept. Count. I managed to get up at 4:30 am this morning....groan....but I did and I managed to get in a 40 minute walk/run interval work out in for a total of 5.32 km. Not a lot but its a start. Hopefully I can stay awake and alert at work today. Really could use some encouragment and support as I try to get back in my healthy groove.
Saturday, March 06, 2010
Today I read my last blog post "EEEEWWWW done being that girl!
It was good for me to read it and remember.
The reason I haven't been blogging, or participating regularly, or even exercising regularly was because of a promotion to Sales and Convention manager at the hotel where I work. I was promoted and next thing I knew they laid off many essential staff people. So I have been trying to do my job and about 3 others. Life has been crazy!!! I have simply had no time and no energy.
Since then I've watched 6 pounds creep back on. I come home to tired to exercise and just open my mouth for whatever happens to be available.
In the past 2 weeks I think I've exercised one time. Its been so frustrating and I have to tell you I don't feel good. I keep remembering how well I felt when I was eating right and exercising.
I'm not beating myself up though, I know the cirucmstances I have been in were extreme and sometimes you just have to roll with the punches. I am seeing some light at the end of the tunnel as they've hired another girl for front desk and I will soon regain 2 days of my time and I'm hopeful I can work out an appropriate eating and exercsing schedule again.
Once your in that zone of healthy living there is nothing like it. Life just improves exponentially. You have more energy, your more creative in problem solving, your happier, you feel more fullfilled...its just plain better. All work and no play defiinitly doesn't have a good effect on people.
Guard your healthy lifestyles, cherish them. If however your in a similar circumstance and feeling like you've been run over, just make plans for how your going to regain it. Don't waste time beating yourself up over things you can't control.
Reading that blog, I remember all the excitement and happiness I felt.
I'm getting that back...no job is worth going back to being "that girl" in my previous blog.
We can do this.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Looking thru some old photos my sisterinlaw had and came across this picture of me. Its about 8 years ago. I just shuddered when I saw it, because over those 8 years my weight went up and down but the smallest I got was 183. When I decided to get serious with spark last year I was back to this weight 206. I didn't have a before picture because for years I had avoided having my picture taken unless it was just a head shot. I look at this picture and honestly my stomach feels sick. Who is that girl! I just look absolutly miserable and sick even.
I showed it to my sons girlfriend who has only known me since I lost the weight and she just couldn't even get her head around it. Can't blame her I can't get my head around it. Why, why, Why...did I ever live like that, when it was really easy to get it off, it was just a matter of eating right, exercising , being patient with the weight coming off slowly and not giving up.
I honestly can't imagine ever going back to that size. Its soooo awful...all I can think of is EEEEEWWWWW no way...never again!
I hate this picture and really didn't want to share it, but I remember at the beginning of this journey I really couldn't believe I could ever really be at a healthy weight and feel attractive again.
So if this horrible, awful, terrible, make me shudder picture can help someone make the connection that it can be done, then its worth the humiliation I feel posting it.
It may take some time...it took me a year...but you can get yourself back.
There have been so many changes, so many victories along the journey.
1. I learned to eat healthy.
2. I went from being a coach potato to a regular exercise routine and recently completed a 10 k run.
3. I went from not being able to shop at my favorite store to being able to put on and like anything I want there. No more crying in the dressing rooms.
4. I was promoted into a PR position at work and it was no secret how I was looking and the confidence I was displaying was a large part of that. My skills remain the same.
5. I love the surprise on peoples faces who haven't seen me in a while.
6. I love being able to tell them what I did and encourage them that yes...they can do it too.
7. The other day I said something about being cold at work and one of the guests said well I'm not surprised dear...your such a tiny little thing. hahaha
Well I'm far from a tiny little thing...but I was so thrilled when she left I shut my office door and burned a few calories doin my happy dance. hahaha.
8. I feel like a new door has opened on my life, new opportunities are coming my way and life is an adventure again.
9. I'm even starting to think I may try a half marathon.
10. I may be a little vain, but when I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror, store window, car window, puddle...I can't help it...I smile
Don't give up until you get to goal its way too much fun.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
I've really been struggling since reaching my goal weight.
I was promoted at work into a position that is very demanding of my time and energy and leaves me a good part of the time feeling stressed.
My old job as a front desk agent allowed me to work 3-11 pm. Lots of time to plan your food and get in your exercise. This job is day shifts and anyone who knows me knows I'm not a morning person. So to get in my exercise I have to get up with the birds...or exercise when I come home from work. Neither works well. early I can't force myself out of bed on most days, and after I so totally zonked its just not happening. So my exercise has suffered, and then this week I got so sick...Migraine, toothache, pulled muscle in my back sciatica attack, quitting smoking...."ALL AT ONCE" isn't that crazy????
I thought the universe had just fallen on me. lol
Anyway I was so sick and I just ate whatever was handed to me, pizzas, donairs, casseroles full of cheese, chocolate, you name it, hardly a healthy thing in there, fast food just a littney of foods I wouldn't normally be eating and because I was all about oh poor me I just continued to stuff my face. Oh I forgot to add on my list I was also in pms mode. So you litterly couldn't fill me.
I was so scared to get on the scale and with reason that fast I have gone from 154 -160. It took me months to get from 160 down to 154 and now I have to do it again.
I'm so depressed about it, but I guess this is welcome to the world of maintenance learning how to balance life with a healthy lifestyle.
I've even thought about giving back my promotion and going back to my
little front desk job. I will not gain this back.
I did have one great victory this week though...I ran my first ever 10K and I'm super happy about that.
I would really appreciate any support you guys could give me over the next few weeks as I try to turn things back into a positive and workable plan and get back to goal.
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