Monday, December 26, 2011
Feel like I'm back to ground zero. Can't believe how out of shape I am. Running is very difficult. Legs aching hard to breath. I'm astonished how fast I lost my fitness. However, I'm reminding myself it is what it is...and will only change if I choose to change it. I do choose to change it. I know how good I can feel. I know you make gains in fitness quickly. The past few months I've felt awful, no energy, not feeling well, not eating right, stressed out all the time. Its just not right and I am the one who is going to change it, because Life is short and I want a healthy, energetic life. I choose me. Heres to a healthier, happier, more energetic more peaceful me in 2012.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
I want to learn how to let go of the things I cannot control.
I want to learn more about stress management and meditation.
I want to make myself a priority again and focus on regaining the fitness I have lost this past year.
I want to live in awareness of blessing and gratitude and joy.
My life hasn't felt right this year, the good news is...I get to have a say.
So rather than just being swept up, I'm digging in my feet, I'm giving up excuses, I'm taking responsibility for it all.
I'm excited and I'm going to find a plan that works for me and stick to it.
My daughter is getting married in June and I want to be fit, looking great and feeling great.
I wish for myself and for everyone a peacefilled, joy filled, gratitude filled 2012.
We make our dreams come true...one consistent baby step at a time.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
I've been struggling for a long time now trying to figure out how to balance my workload with a healthy lifestyle. Last month I had a real shock to my system, the realization that one day you can be healthy and the next you are not.
Last month was a month of extreme sickness and extreme pain for me. Kidney stones, extreme kidney infection, high fever, then more kidney stones, then
finally the news that my kidney was no longer functioning and an emergency surgery. Three weeks of being so incredibly sick really made me start to rethink
what I need to be doing to at least try to stay in good health. I don't ever want to feel that sick again. I can't guarantee I won't, but I want to do everything I can
to try to stay healthy.
Once out of the hospital I was like a little old woman I was so weak. I was frustrated because I couldn't exercise but over the last few weeks my strength
has been returning. On Tuesday I swam 65 laps of the pool, it was a struggle
not my normal 100 or better but it was something and I was proud of it and excited to see that I'm regaining my strength.
Then today I was up with the birds and although I used to say I ran 5miles routinely, today I did 3 miles some running but mostly walking. It made me feel great...I'm taking charge of my health again and I always said during my weight loss journey its about baby steps, and so I'm back baby stepping but I know those baby steps lead to great gains in fitness and health I just have to be patient.
Today is also the first day in so long that I actually tracked all not just a portion of my food. I made for the most part good choices and stayed in my range. I got all my veggies and all my water.
This is also the first time in sooooooooooooooo long that I have felt like a success.
Today I was successful it feels great and I know that these little success's feed our spirits and help propel us on to more successes.
I'm back on track......finally. Whoooooo HOOOOO My little spark is heating up again.
Monday, January 03, 2011
I'm feeling so good right now. Its amazing what just having a few extra days off can do when your normal life is so insane. I have been struggling as my team mates know for the last year trying to find time and the way to balance a healthy life style with my work schedule. I was getting very discouraged and slowly gaining back weight. Over Christmas I had a 4 day break and this weekend I had my sat. and sun. and Monday. Shortly after Christmas I stood on the scale and was horrified to see that I was up 13 pounds from my goal weight. I decided right then...no matter what I was not going to let this contine and my first and only priority at this point is making sure I get the time I need to do what I need to do to live a healthy, happy, and somewhat balanced lifestyle. I like my job, but it is my work, not my whole self.
Anyway, I have been exercising regularly, my fridge is filled to the brim with healthy foods that I have been eating in the right way and I'm already starting to feel so much better. Then to my delight I got weighed today and I had dropped 2 pounds.
Like I said I feel great right now, and feel like I'm actually finding my way. Now tomorrow I'm back to work and it promises to be a very hectic week, but I won't be going to work until my work out is done, even if that means going a bit later than I normally do. I've spent the day cooking and I'm totally prepared with healthy foods for both home and work. I can do this, I refuse to just be a victim of a busy schedule. I deserve the time I need to take care of myself, and with the added energy, confidence, and enthusisam that comes from a healthy lifestyle I"ll be even more effective at work. Why in the world has it taken me this long to figure this out. I think I just got so tired I just couldnt really even see what was happening to me. Just how bad I was slipping back into unhealthy habits and how much it was really affecting me.
Well live and learn right.
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