Friday, December 30, 2011
its day 5 of my healthy, peaceful, smokefree new life and I'm happier than I've been in a long time just because I made my mind up to start making myself a priority and start creating the life I want rather than whining about the life I have and all its stress. Theres a great freedom that comes when you truly get to the end of yourself in a situation and finally just have to throw up your hands and say I'm through trying to control, or feel the responsiblity for what I cannot control. Hallejuhah...I am there...can I get an amen Sistas. lol
My last five days have been about what I can control. Its a matter of choosing to give yourself the time you need.
I can practice stress management techniques to combat the stress thats been wreaking havoc with me the last several months. I'm doing deep breathing exercises, and have some great 1 minute visualizations that promote health, and peace.
I'm not smoking frantically killing my health all in an effort to smother my emotions with ciggerette smoke and soothe my stress away.
I've scheduled a lunch break that I've never taken before and now I eat a healthy lunch from home rather than junk from a drive through that I gulp down while running errands in the company car.
I've also taken the time to have a walking break during my work hours and have been showing up to work with my sneakers on my feet. lol
I'm drinking water.
I'm strength training.
I'm going to bed early.
I'm actively looking at my thoughts and changing the negative for the positive.
I'm taking the time to pray and to be quiet and to really listen.
I'm tracking my food and my fitness.
All these little things are adding up to big things for me.....I feel successful and empowered for the first time in months, I feel excited, I feel confident, I feel better phsyically, I'm definitly more positive and less run down. The last several months I've been trying to control what is not within my power to control, worry, fret, sleepless nights, left me feeling completely lifeless, just enduring now with the decision to not allow any job to destroy me, and by assuming responsiblity for how I choose to respond to those stress filled situation. It feels like I've been set free. Whoooo HOOOOO I feel good...and its about time. I'm going to be keeping my eye out for a new position and not let fear of the unknown hold me back.
I'm excited for 2012 and wish all of you a very happy, healthy 2012 too.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Was up at 5:30 am and ate a healthy breakfast, drank some water. Did 35 minutes of cardio on the treadmill and didn't let my decline of fitness get me down...just kept reminding myself that I was doing the right things and it will come back.
Tracked my breakfast and water....drank some more water.
Came to work and took a small 5 minute fitness break, then drank some more water,
then did a one minute visualization to combat the stress that was building due to the job. Actually took a lunch break ate yummy vegetables left over from turkey dinner. Then I walked as fast as I could for 30 minutes in the hotel's 3rd floor as no one is checked in up there. I walked 2.17 miles in that 30 minutes.
Oh and even bigger news......I haven't smoked at all the last two days.
This feels great...and I'm not going to let myself get sidetracked anymore. No job is worth your health.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Feel like I'm back to ground zero. Can't believe how out of shape I am. Running is very difficult. Legs aching hard to breath. I'm astonished how fast I lost my fitness. However, I'm reminding myself it is what it is...and will only change if I choose to change it. I do choose to change it. I know how good I can feel. I know you make gains in fitness quickly. The past few months I've felt awful, no energy, not feeling well, not eating right, stressed out all the time. Its just not right and I am the one who is going to change it, because Life is short and I want a healthy, energetic life. I choose me. Heres to a healthier, happier, more energetic more peaceful me in 2012.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
I want to learn how to let go of the things I cannot control.
I want to learn more about stress management and meditation.
I want to make myself a priority again and focus on regaining the fitness I have lost this past year.
I want to live in awareness of blessing and gratitude and joy.
My life hasn't felt right this year, the good news is...I get to have a say.
So rather than just being swept up, I'm digging in my feet, I'm giving up excuses, I'm taking responsibility for it all.
I'm excited and I'm going to find a plan that works for me and stick to it.
My daughter is getting married in June and I want to be fit, looking great and feeling great.
I wish for myself and for everyone a peacefilled, joy filled, gratitude filled 2012.
We make our dreams come true...one consistent baby step at a time.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
I've been struggling for a long time now trying to figure out how to balance my workload with a healthy lifestyle. Last month I had a real shock to my system, the realization that one day you can be healthy and the next you are not.
Last month was a month of extreme sickness and extreme pain for me. Kidney stones, extreme kidney infection, high fever, then more kidney stones, then
finally the news that my kidney was no longer functioning and an emergency surgery. Three weeks of being so incredibly sick really made me start to rethink
what I need to be doing to at least try to stay in good health. I don't ever want to feel that sick again. I can't guarantee I won't, but I want to do everything I can
to try to stay healthy.
Once out of the hospital I was like a little old woman I was so weak. I was frustrated because I couldn't exercise but over the last few weeks my strength
has been returning. On Tuesday I swam 65 laps of the pool, it was a struggle
not my normal 100 or better but it was something and I was proud of it and excited to see that I'm regaining my strength.
Then today I was up with the birds and although I used to say I ran 5miles routinely, today I did 3 miles some running but mostly walking. It made me feel great...I'm taking charge of my health again and I always said during my weight loss journey its about baby steps, and so I'm back baby stepping but I know those baby steps lead to great gains in fitness and health I just have to be patient.
Today is also the first day in so long that I actually tracked all not just a portion of my food. I made for the most part good choices and stayed in my range. I got all my veggies and all my water.
This is also the first time in sooooooooooooooo long that I have felt like a success.
Today I was successful it feels great and I know that these little success's feed our spirits and help propel us on to more successes.
I'm back on track......finally. Whoooooo HOOOOO My little spark is heating up again.
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