Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I'm in trouble. I have not been able to really bounce back into the good groove I had going on since being sick. I have been getting up each morning vowing to be good and at the end of the night hopelessly over my cal. limit. HELP!
Today started off okay and then I got so hungry I told my husband to bring me chinese food. Not the veggie kind either. I have enhaled no less and probably far more than 900 cals and i'm over agian. My scale is up too and i've been hoping its fluid...but well come Friday if it still says that I'm going to have to change my meter. : (
Friday, March 14, 2008
This past month being sick has really put a kickin into me. I have had no energy at all and felt sick almost every day. This week I had an episode where I nearly passed out twice. Now I have a little machine to monitor my blood sugar. I can't tell you how many times I've gone out to do something, get the groceries, go out to dinner, or to a movie, and gotten so sick I had to come home. Last month I felt so good and this is just the extreme opposite. I've tried to continue to get in some exercise, and I've tried to log my food. But little by little I'm slipping. I don't want to give in to this discouragement. Its bad enough I have to be sick, I don't want to lose all the positives I've gained from joining spark.
Today I was supposed to get the groceries and go to Suzy Shier's to buy a couple new tops for work. I was looking forward to that. However, getting the groceries turned into a battle ground to stay upright again. I wouldn't have even gotten them if my husband hadn't been with me to help. So I didn't get to Suzy's but I did manage to get the groceries.
However, I'm really bummed out. I'm just so tired of being sick and tired, and I'm not coping very well at all.
I'm going to go to bed this afternoon and hopefully I'll be able to get up and go to work tomorrow morning.
Yup I'm singing the blues for sure.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Well after checking myself out I realize two amazing things...
A...I'm still alive!
B...I actually completed the 20 minute run in the week 5 of the C25K running program I'm doing.
I was convinced there was no way in the world I could get thru that run. I figured the cow would jump over the blue moon and do it quite gracefully, before I would succeed running for 20 minutes straight.
I had visions of repeating week 5 for 6, 7, 8 weeks similar to the repeating piano lessons I had as a child. Usually on the 8th week, the piano teacher who's hair had now turned grey, would let out a pitiful shreik of purest agony, and then turn around for a few minutes, get herself under some measure of control, turn back and with a shakey smile say,..".veeeerrrrry goooooooood Heather..shall we move on." : )
So to all my Couch 2 5K teamates - if your thinking right now you can't make it thru week 5's final kick in the butt. I think thats probably pretty normal, and you will get thru it too.
hope that encourages you in some twisted way....
If you can find the breath to growl that helps too.
So shall we.....move on. : )
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Something happened today that really inspired me. I thought I'd share it here because I know that deep in the back of our minds, especially those of us who aren't in the best physical shape is that little voice of doubt and doom...saying ..you? a runner? come on get real.
But why NOT?
Today i was at DanceAbition where my daughter was competing in dance. I have practically lived in the theater the last two days, and was exhausted until I saw someone inspire me and the entire audience, to give us a shake that said it doesn't matter how old you are, or out of shape you are, or what you weigh...if you have a passion, a dream, a purpose, you can succeed at it.
Last year the grandmother of one of the girls at our studio confided that she had always loved dance, and wished she had been able to compete like her grandaughter when she was a girl. Well we all knew Nana adored Dance. Need a costume sewn...call Nana. Need a fund raiser...call Nana....Need an organizer call Nana. She was Jordans grandmother but all the girls in senior troop called her Nana and thought very much of her.
Well Jordan said to Nana...its not to late. If you like and if you dare...I'll teach you to tap dance this year and you can enter and compete...that is as I said.."if you dare".
Nana wasn't about to let Jordan get away with that...uh uh uh! So she said your on and bought her first pair of tap shoes. Jordan taught Nana tap once a week in the kitchen and tonight...Nana competed her tap solo at DanceAbitition.
The place went wild everyone was blown away, and so inspired. At 64 years of age, and several pounds more than a regular size dancer...Nana proudly displayed her not to shabby tap skills. She received a standing ovation from the crowd who just went crazy. The Judges said she was in their opinion there new "IDOL". She won a gold medal and to top it off....the trophy for top marks in adult tap. Whooooo HOOOO Go Nana.
Tonight her dance dreams became a reality.
So tonight it doesn't matter your age, your weight, if you want to run, or do anything eles. If you want it and your willing to invest some time and energy into it...You can make your dream come true.
I'm not lying...I saw Nana do it tonight. She's currently beaming, can't stop smiling. she beat Jordan her grandaughter who only got a silver.lol and she inspired every one of us lucky enough to be in that theater today.
what is it...thats been knocking around in your mind...what kind of missed or seeminly missed opportunities. Dig em out...look at it..and go for it. Cuz Nana would tell you...its never too late.
Oh and guess what song she danced to?
"When I'm 64"....what eles. lol hahaha
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