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Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Well I'm getting excited I've excercised a few times, I've quit the ciggerettes again and I'm excited that I'm getting excited again. I've just joined a new spark team thats small so we can really get to know one another an inspire each other and feeling like because we are small its important to participate daily I think will really help me to stay on track. I even took some weights to work and during a not busy time I even used them. Wow!
So its still small steps, but hallejuhah I'm finally taking some steps. Thanks Sandy for getting me moving again.

Picture above is Aunt Philly (My mother makes these life size dolls and my dog mieko a true lap dog...says any lap will do and aunt philly's is especially comfy and soft.)

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MOTHERHEN51 10/13/2008 12:16AM

  Yeah! Congrats on the healthy choices! It is encouraging to see our bodies respond to the good choices we make. Cheers to being active, cheers to wise food choices, cheers to getting rid of the cancer sticks! I am an ex-smoker and it is one of the best things I ever did! I can actually taste the food I eat. Keep up the good, hard work and your new healthy lifestyle. Hugs, Debbie

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    YEA on quitting the smokes.... when you get tempted just think "premature aging"....

One huge step forward for your health... you are choosing HEALTH and now just baby steps to continue to improve your eating choices and watch those portions. I know it's easier said then done. I try to remind myself that this is not the last time I can eat. When I get hungry again, I can eat more of whatever it is I am trying to pig out on. It helps.

Keep at it and never give up!

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RATSAMONGUS 10/8/2008 10:43AM

    Way to go Heather! You are on your way to getting a routine down. And congrats on quitting smoking. It is hard enough to do one without both at the same time! I wish you much success and lots and lots of motivation and momentum to reach your goals. You will reach your goals! We are here to support each other. :)

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Back to Fast Break

Sunday, September 14, 2008

I overdid it again and burnt myself out with exercise. In March I got seriously out of balance. My whole life had turned into monitoring what I eat, and exercising more and more and work. One day I went to step on my treadmill and I suddenly burst into tears and felt almost a rage come over me. I realized so much for those baby steps i'd promised myself on my spark page...I was burnt out. I decided to take a week off and do recording any food, no exercise. Then I'd go again at a saner pace. Unfortunately it was like letting the plug out of fast running drain. I never could face the exercise again, or even the spark site. Whats worse it was like I was self destructing I started smoking again after being smoke free for 6 months. So I went right back to where I was before spark. I haven't gained a whole lot of weight, but I went from running to puffing because of the smoking. Even as I write this part of me wants to run away ...but I know that I'm overwieght and I need to get to a healthy weight, I know that when I'm eating healthy and exercising...(the right amount) I feel wonderful, and I'm trying to get myself back under control. Tomorrow it will be two weeks since my last ciggerette. Which can also lead to weight gain...I didnt' want to do that either. However, there is never a magic day that you wake up saying hey...I want to go thru nicotene withdrawal, or hey I want to exercise. It has to start with a decision. So I'm making some decisions. I'm super shaky though and really need support. I hope you all have a good day.

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MOTHERHEN51 9/16/2008 7:13PM

  Bless you for sharing, and I am so glad you are back! Just take one step at a time. Just focus on a few things a week. Cigarette free for 2 weeks! Congrats! I quit smoking several years ago and it was so hard! I am grateful that my friends did not disown during that time! But it is vital for your health to get them out of your life. For the moment just step back from the exercise and focus on making those wise food choices and staying within your calorie limit. Guzzle your water and take just on day at a time. It is good to have your back. You are in my thoughts and prayers, Hugs, Debbie

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    Hang in there! I'm glad you're BACK and your first step of stopping smoking is HUGE for your health and fitness.

Be kind to yourself and baby steps...
one choice at a time....
until it becomes natural and the choice you WANT

It's easier said than done, that's why I'm not at goal weight...
BUT it can be done. I know I'm under some bondage mentally about ever being able to lose it and keep it off. I'm working on that...and overcoming it. I can be all that God intends for me to be (and that includes physically too).

I'm getting serious again too... so let's hold on tight! No quitting, no putting it off till tomorrow. TODAY Is the day... we CAN DO THIS!!!

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MOB8/2009 9/14/2008 9:40PM

    Oh, my....been there, done that, have the bloody t-shirt! The one thing that will defeat my non-smoking EVERY TIME is weight gain. So I overcompensate and then I'm right where you are now. THIS time I'm not weighing. Nope, not doing it. I know I'm going to gain a few pounds during this period, but I'm not going to worry about them. I go to the gym, or workout at home, 5 days a week. I'm trying to eat healthy although it's been a real challenge for this very Southern cook (fried chicken, mashed potatoes, apple pie!). I've just decided that I'm going to do the best I can and if I gain some weight, I'll have to deal with that when I'm a bit more stable with the non-smoking.

So don't beat yourself up. You're smart enough to see what caused your "crash and burn" and you're getting it all together again. Good for you! I'm sending lots of cyber hugs your way.

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3TWINS 9/14/2008 4:16PM

I'm proud of you for quitting smoking while you are making so many other personal changes. There is never a perfect day, except TODAY. You can do this. Just think of how you'll feel when you reach that goal. You will be so glad you continued on the path to improved health and weight.
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Wow...its some hard jumping back on the wagon.

Monday, May 26, 2008

Its been at least 6 weeks that I have been off the wagon. I let myself get so driven again, I felt my whole life consisted of work, and what am I eating and exercise. One day I went to get on my treadmill and something justsnapped in me. I couldn't do it. I was so angry I wanted to hit something and thats when I realized once again I was seriously out of balance with my life. So I thought...I'll take a week off and forget about exercising and logging everything I eat. Well I definitly think that was needed at that point but here I am all this time later and I'm still off the wagon. I have to get going again. I have been saying that for weeks but haven't gotten anywhere. So yesterday I thought I'd start small. Log my food if only one time a day, log into spark and spin the wheel, read an article or email and make a post on the boards. Hopefully this will help me to start feeling inspired again.
Do you guys have a hard time finding the right balance?

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QUIRKLES 6/17/2008 8:54PM

    I'm so glad you're back! I'm back too! It was really hard once I finished the c25k program to stay motivated to keep up with my exercise and everything. I fell off the wagon too. But I'm getting back up on it and it looks like you are too! I think balance will be a continuous struggle, but as long as we keep coming back we'll be good in the long run. And starting small is definitely the way to go. Just put on your gym clothes and take a walk. Once you do that you'll be inspired to jog some, and then you'll be so proud of yourself you'll keep going! And remember how good it felt when we were eating mostly healthy food and getting regular exercise? I hope everything is going well with your family and your work, and am psyched to see your happy face again!

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COOPERLEDGEN 5/28/2008 4:32PM

    I am glad you are back, even in baby steps. Take it slow. You can do this!

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BREAKINGFREE08 5/26/2008 1:29PM

    Sometimes all we need is someone to come alongside and give us a hand up.

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MARIELLEE 5/26/2008 10:02AM

    Yes! Can so relate to the struggle with balance. I work in a stressful environment and challenging home situation (ongoing renovation of house for last 6 years, still no sheetrock on walls, etc.). Getting the exercise in and eating well require me to focus on my needs, which I don't always do so well.

I am finding that I need to go to God to find that, to see what to say yes and no to, and to stay on track. To truly, in the deepest part of myself, to know that Father God loves me, wants what is best for me, and encourages me to take care of myself.

All the best to you as you work to come back to balance. Praying God grants you grace and peace in the process.


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Getting Even with my Evil Scale

Friday, April 04, 2008

My plan can be seen in the picture above. It won't know what Hit em!!! lol

I took a break yesterday from all of it, exercise, logging my food etc. This past week as I continued to make myself exercise every day, make myself log my food, while watching my scale not only drop, but climb., I could feel myself getting angrier and angrier. My c25k runs were miserable endurance tests and I was no longer finding any joy in any of it. I got on the treadmill yesterday going to make myself run and three times in less than 5 minutes my ear buds fell out of my ears. I lost it.....I litterly lost it. I was so frustrated I just wanted to punch a wall or something. I ended up in tears. It was insane. Finally I realized I truly need a break. This isn't so much a healthy lifestyle for me anymore, this is turning into major pressure. I'm missing some key componet - balance. I have to find that balance and I have to figure out how to live this as a life style.
Diet rage...I believe its referred to and no question it was getting me.
So I didn't exercise yesterday at all, and I didn't log any food. Instead I went out for a movie and some wings with a friend I haven't seen in a long time.

I'm not giving up here....but i'm definitly in a learning phase. I want to get the weight off but I may have to resign myself to it taking even longer, because focusing only on this and work is making me miserable.

I hate running the 28 minute runs I'm on in c25k and its killing me because i'm so close to finishing the program, yet they make me miserable. That sense of accomplishment that was there at first is gone. Now it feels like getting on the treadmill is going to the torture chamber. I may go back to just running intervals at least it was more interesting and fun.

I'm just really struggling with it all these days. My scale has not dropped but only climbed since march 1 and its getting very depressing.

So I'm taking a small break again today, will get back on program tomorrow. Just need a few days away from all of it, and then I need to figure out how I want to approach this in more of a less driven way.


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AUFAN1989 4/4/2008 12:13PM

    You are so right; you have to have balance. Good for you that you are taking a break, stepping back and re-evaluating your situation. This is a process; we’re learning a new lifestyle, and that is going to take some trial and error. You have made fantastic progress on the C25K, even through all the obstacles that have jumped in your path. But being miserable is no way to live. Go back to what you enjoy. Intervals are great for losing weight anyway!

Here’s to finding your balance!


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JUSTLARA 4/4/2008 11:42AM

    I totally understand what you mean about needing a break; that's how I felt last week. I found this article around the msg boards here and thought it might be a good workout, especially to mix things up a little (I'm getting a little bored with C25K right now).
I'm going to try it next week I think... Good luck! I'm sure you'll get out of this slump soon!!

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HOFF0081 4/4/2008 9:37AM

    HUGS. I'm so sorry you are going thru a rough phase!! I think we all have them, and it is normal. So take off the time you need to figure out what will work best for you. You've been a huge source of motivation and inspiration for me, and if you need anything, please let me know. I've been there (and am still working to get back, thanks to scale issues too!), and I know that everyone will still be here when you get back and will be supporting you 100%. Like they say, you WILL rush to get there, just do what works for you! :) :)

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COOPERLEDGEN 4/4/2008 8:44AM

    Hugs to you Heather! Take a well deserved break if that is what you need to re-focus on what is important to you right now. We will all still be here when you return from your hiatus. You've been such an inspiration to me. I read your previous blog about not being diabetic-that is great news! Now if you can just figure out how to get your body back to some sense of normal things will begin to fall into place for you again I just know it!

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Great News...I'm not diabetic!

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

I got the results of the glucose tolerance test I did on thursday and it was normal. Such great news. Now we just have to figure out why....I have these episodes of such low energy and my blood sugar going so low. I'm just relieved though. Reactive Hypoglycemia doesn't seem to be even in the same ball park as dealing with diabetes.

doin a happy dance.

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MOMAT40PLUS 4/3/2008 3:54PM

    Hooray!! That is very good news, indeed!


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JOANBAYONNE 4/3/2008 2:30PM

    I would do a happy dance to at the moment for you, but there is another teacher's class in my room and I don't want them to think I am anymore crazy than they already do. So I am mentally doing a happy dance for you to. Congrats. Now just figure out what IS wrong. Good luck and keep us informed.


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HOFF0081 4/1/2008 10:08AM

    YAY!!! I'm so happy you got back some good news. Now hopefully they can figure out what is exactly going on so you can feel better. Congrats, and thank you for the kind words of support yesterday - it really means a lot to me. :) :)

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PKTULL 4/1/2008 9:50AM

    That is good news!!! You do have reason to celebrate.

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