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Going MIA for a while

Monday, July 08, 2013

I have decided to take some time away from SP. I have totally lost my spark for the past 2 1/2 months now and I just haven't figured out how to get it back. My weight continues to go up and totally out of control. I have appreciated all the love and comments that everyone has given me.

  
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SHAMROCKY2K 9/9/2013 1:40PM

    I was just stopping by your page to check on you. Hope you get that spark back or just check in soon!

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LIBRARIANKATE 7/14/2013 9:34AM

  I've been gone myself for a few days ... it's hard sometimes. So sorry you're feeling down. I hope you find your way back. But regardless best wishes on your journey for health and happiness.
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ROSAMARCELLE 7/10/2013 5:12AM

    I can understand where you are coming from because that happened to me, but the trouble is once stop sparking then it is likely that the weight will creep back on even more. That was my experience anyway. emoticon Why not try just using the nutrition tracker to help keep on track and joining a team for support. emoticon

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GRANDMATAMMYNC 7/9/2013 2:44PM

    Don't give up. I hope you find something that works for you. God bless. emoticon

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SKILPAT1 7/9/2013 9:36AM

    I hope you get your Spark back. Wish you all the best. Keep trying - it took me years too to find something that finally worked.

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68ANNE 7/8/2013 8:14PM

    Miss you

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IMNOTSTOPPIN 7/8/2013 7:49PM

  I totally understand your desire to leave. When family members etc. get sick it can be such a drain. Prayers are with you!

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CLESHER 7/8/2013 10:54AM

    I will miss you....take care and we are here for you if you venture back.....

You can do it...with or without SP....

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STONEYHILLMOM 7/8/2013 9:20AM

    I will miss you. :( If you would like to go take a walk in Govt Canyon, spark mail me. Hope to hear from you! Take care!

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KITT52 7/8/2013 9:16AM

    when I feel this way and I have....I go back and read my blogs and other peoples blogs who have had struggles as well....I recommit my self to a healthy life style and remind myself how far I have come....

I find a few good spark friends who support me when I am down

good luck...find what works for you....never give up

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PEZMOM1 7/8/2013 9:11AM

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CLAIRE_PM 7/8/2013 9:11AM

    So sad! I hope you get your Spark back soon. Best of luck. emoticon

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 7/8/2013 7:58AM

    Take care of yourself. I will miss you but sometimes we just need a little break. I hope you will be back soon.
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TXGRANDMA 7/8/2013 7:15AM

    We will miss you. Hope you can find your way back to us! I found the articles and friendships I have made on here, help me, too. God Bless! emoticon emoticon

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TATTER3 7/8/2013 6:39AM

    Bless your heart. Visit me and let me know you're okay now and then.

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SIFUMARY1 7/8/2013 6:03AM

    I just started and I find this helps me . I wish you luck Hope to hear from you soon

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Nice Anniversary

Tuesday, July 02, 2013

Hubby and I went out for dinner last night at Longhorn Steakhouse. I did really good. I had a 6 oz sirloin, sweet potato without the cinnamon and butter, and a salad with light ranch dressing on the side. I only had maybe a tablespoon of dressing. I made the waitress return the first salad because I had specifically told her to put the dressing on the side and it was smothered in dressing. All I had to drink was water. On our anniversary I usually have a strawberry daiquiri too.

I so wanted something sweet yesterday. The voices in my head were really loud yesterday too but I ignored them....yeah!!!!

Here's to a great Tuesday for everyone!

  
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IMAVISION 7/10/2013 1:13PM

    emoticon Your hubby & you share the same date for your wedding anniversary as my folks - they were married July 1st, 1943! It is also our son's birthdate, so it is a well celebrated day for our family.

God bless y'all with many more anniversary celebrations!

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 7/5/2013 11:31PM

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SPARKFRAN514 7/5/2013 12:10AM

    emoticon emoticon not sure i could pass up on tradition emoticon

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MARYALICE61 7/4/2013 7:56PM

    Happy Anniversary!

Sounds like you had an awesome time and congratulations on your self-control!

Email me if you need to chat. I work overnights, so if I don't respond right away - don't fret!

Have a blessed day!
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STONEYHILLMOM 7/3/2013 12:06AM

    That's awesome. I wish I had been as strong! Don't you feel empowered though?
Happy anniversary! Ours was July 1, what date is yours?

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68ANNE 7/2/2013 9:31PM

    You did soooooo wonderful with your dinner
Woohoo and gold star to you
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HDHAWK 7/2/2013 9:14PM

    WTG! Happy Anniversary!

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LIVINGFREE19 7/2/2013 9:08PM

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I HATE those sugar cravings, they are very tough to ignore.

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GRANDMATAMMYNC 7/2/2013 7:10PM

    Good for you emoticon It is hard to behave when those voices are calling. emoticon

By the way...THE VOICES LIE!!! emoticon

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RITEEBEE 7/2/2013 9:49AM

    Great work!!

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Happy Anniversary!!
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CLESHER 7/2/2013 9:09AM

    Awesome job...I am proud of you.....ya don't listen to those evil sugary voice calling you...they are not your friend......

Way to go!!!!

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THEEXERCISER 7/2/2013 9:09AM

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DEBORAH2180 7/2/2013 8:32AM

    Happy Anniversary! Congrats on your food choices!

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LIVELYLULU36 7/2/2013 6:35AM

    Happy Anniversary. And happy Sparking!! I'm glad you did well!!

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TATTER3 7/2/2013 6:20AM

    Happy anniversary!! So glad for you...it's my favorite meal!

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SWEETYOUNGTHING 7/2/2013 6:07AM

    Congrats and Happy Anniversary!

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TORTISE110 7/2/2013 6:06AM

    Wow. You were steady and strong! What a fine way to celebrate! Happy Anniversary.

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Starting Over ... Again

Monday, July 01, 2013

I need to seriously some how regain my spark. I am sick and tired of the scale constantly going up. It's up 5.8 lbs in the past 6 weeks.

Today is my 13th anniversary. We went to Corpus Christi for a couple of days, then drove down to South Padre before we spent Saturday night in Harlingen. We drove back home yesterday. We used to always take our anniversary week off and just go some place but our jobs won't allow it. Donnie had to take 2 days of leave for the weekend for us to go away. It's always nice just to get a way even if it's for a couple of days.

My endoscopy went well. It didn't really find anything. There is some sort of thickening in my esophagus. The doctor threw 2 different "itis" words at me but it doesn't explain my swallowing problems. The office called me on Friday while I was in Corpus saying that he wants me to repeat the endoscopy in 6 months ... you have got to be kidding me!!! I'm pissed and hubby is furious!!! We had to pay the hospital $1,000 up front that the insurance didn't pay. This doesn't even include the surgeon's fees or all the biopsys he had done (about 20). My daughter actually paid the hospital since we didn't have the money. He put me one some medicine he wants me to on for 6 months before he redoes the scope and he wants to see me back in 3 months. Hubby's mad because I didn't get a 2nd opinion.

By my anniversary next year, I want to be getting close to my goal weight. I know I won't be there but I want to be one hot looking momma compared to what I am right now. I seriously need to get my spark back in order for that to happen.

  
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GRANDMATAMMYNC 7/2/2013 7:04PM

    emoticon I hope you had a nice weekend.

I am happy that you are starting over...It means that you have not given up. As long as we can start over there is hope. emoticon

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LOVESLIFE48 7/2/2013 11:26AM

    emoticon Sounds to me like you got your spark back!! Together we can do this!! Together we can not fail!!! emoticon emoticon

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BUSYGRANNY5 7/2/2013 12:09AM

    Happy Anniversary! You can do this... start small and refuse to give up! Keep on keeping on!!!

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CIROHIO 7/1/2013 9:18PM

    The spark is there, you just have to put one foot in front of the other and work it. I am sorry you are having so many health issues. Yes it is crazy expensive just crazy. You can do this. Remember sparks is 24 - 7-365 days. There is always someone to help you out. Let me know what I can do to help you get that spark going. I have lots of good recipes I can share. emoticon Cathe

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68ANNE 7/1/2013 7:57PM

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-ICANDOIT- 7/1/2013 1:36PM

    getting your Spark is hard to do. I was struggling also, and I started by blogging each week with my results. That made me feel like I was accountable and that made a big difference to me! Good luck to you- you can do it!!

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WAKINGTHETIGER 7/1/2013 11:55AM

    Sounds like you had a wonderful trip. I like your plan to get started again. Every day is another chance to make a small change that will move you forward. Remember two steps forward to every step back and you will get there. Good luck.

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NEWFLABULESS 7/1/2013 11:46AM

    Happy Anniversary! I hope that you are able to heal yourself without having to spend so much money on expensive Dr.'s and tests. I know several who have healed themselves and quit all medication just by changing their diets to whole, organic foods and eliminating all processed ingredients. Best of luck to you!

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ROSAMARCELLE 7/1/2013 9:54AM

    Sounds like you're going through a pretty horrendous time at the moment. I hope the treatment works. Your spark is there, just needs a bit of blowing on. Take a day at a time and make sure you are tracking and you should see the weight coming off again.
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CLESHER 7/1/2013 9:39AM

    Your spark is there it never left...let the spark shine again...I know you can do it....

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The power of choice

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

I was reading this in one of my textbooks for this fall and it hit home.

"Do beliefs cause behaviors, or do behaviors lead to beliefs? Like the chicken and the egg, it's hard to say which came first. This much is clear: Once you choose a positive belief or an effective behavior, you usually find yourself in a cycle of success. Positive beliefs lead to effective behaviors. Effective behaviors lead to success. And success reinforces the positive beliefs."

OTT--endoscopy is tomorrow and of course I'm able to swallow again...figures!

  
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CIROHIO 6/26/2013 11:01AM

    Makes good sense to me. Hope your test went well. emoticon

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SHAMROCKY2K 6/24/2013 11:26PM

    Great quote! I might have to put that on my fridge. Gotta love positivity!!

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HOMESTEADCHICK 6/24/2013 10:35AM

    Hope the endoscopy went well. I agree with KACAR51. My beliefs generally shape my behavior. What is interesting to me is how it affects me when my behavior is not in agreement with my beliefs. It is a challenge at times to follow through. I believe I can loose weight, but sometimes my behavior does not work toward that goal.

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ROSAMARCELLE 6/23/2013 1:13PM

    Believing in yourself is key I would say. Hope the endo goes well. emoticon

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SWEETNEEY 6/21/2013 10:49PM

    Be Positive, Believe - love it.

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DRB13_1 6/21/2013 10:36PM

    stay positive, be well, and let us know the (GOOD) news after your endoscopy emoticon

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MADEIT3 6/21/2013 8:06AM

    Maybe being positive feeds on itself? Good luck with your tests!!

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BUSYGRANNY5 6/20/2013 8:15AM

    Interesting and thought provoking!!!

Good luck with your test!!!

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TATTER3 6/20/2013 6:11AM

    Be healthy!

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GRANDMATAMMYNC 6/19/2013 5:05PM

    Good luck with your test.

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PEG2584 6/19/2013 2:05PM

    Very interesting question. I can't tell which comes first, my beliefs or behaviors. I just don't know.

Last summer I had an endoscopy on my esophagus because I had problems getting my food getting stuck before entering my stomach and I'd end up having to purge. They put me in twilight sleep for the procedure. My throat wasn't even sore afterward, at least that I remember.

Good luck! I hope your experience is as good as mine was!!
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JOHGLO2011 6/19/2013 1:31PM

    An interesting thought there. :) Best wishes for tomorrow's test. Hugs to you!

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ASTRA58 6/19/2013 10:57AM

    Endoscopies are not fun. Good luck!

I completely identify with the quote from the text. It's an endless circle, if you can keep it going.

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CLESHER 6/19/2013 10:32AM

    Love the quote from the text.....it is soo on track....

Don't worry endoscopy will find what it needs to, I think you will have a resolution soon.

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KACAR51 6/19/2013 10:21AM

    Very interesting! I think that , for me, the beliefs cause me to make the choices that I make and the more I do a behavior the stronger the belief becomes! What course are you taking? It sounds interesting!
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The power of choice

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

I was reading this in one of my textbooks for this fall and it hit home.

"Do beliefs cause behaviors, or do behaviors lead to beliefs? Like the chicken and the egg, it's hard to say which came first. This much is clear: Once you choose a positive belief or an effective behavior, you usually find yourself in a cycle of success. Positive beliefs lead to effective behaviors. Effective behaviors lead to success. And success reinforces the positive beliefs."

OTT--endoscopy is tomorrow and of course I'm able to swallow again...figures!

  
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HAPPYDOES 6/19/2013 9:41PM

    I like this blog. It gives me something to think about.

I saw a couple of TEDTalks on Netflix. One was about smiling and the other had to do with the way we sit or stand and its effect on the way we feel.

The one about smiling said that if we smile (even if we fake a smile) for a minute or so, it will change the way we feel from being negative to positive or more cheerful.

The talk on the subject of how we sit or stand said that people who are confident take up more space where they are. When a person feels intimidated or shy or lacks confidence, if he will assume a power position (think of the way Superman or Wonder Woman stands with feet apart and hands on hips) for two minutes with his body, he will also begin to feel more confident and powerful.

So I would definitely say that behavior leads to beliefs and vice verso.

I'll say a prayer for you tonight that the endoscopy goes well.

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