Sunday, June 15, 2014
this week has been a week of many little things but the one thing happened that just made the rest of the weeks trouble surface back up.
I have been working on just eating unprocessed foods to see if it would help my fatigue and foggy thinking and was doing well, and stress seems to kinda blow things out of portion, first my sister calls me to harp about her and her husband , which is basically her thinking the only point that matters is hers and he is awful for not seeing it ( she has always been that way) after a few minutes I stated that it would have been nice if they could have made it out with me and my hubby for my birthday an it hurt my feelings at which time she started yelling and said I didn't have to put up with this=?>I(&*&^^$%*U) and hung up, i didn't let that get to me to much, at work one lady let a door slam right in my face, I let that go, we have rotation at work and that was not followed & I let that go, my son decides to be insulting and I let that , my hubby got made at me because I asked him not to let out my stray kitty ( I have a stray that I make sure is feed and has a place to sleep, my husband knows I have always done this) at work the lady who let the door slam in my face, got 2 inches away from my face and yelled at me about something someone said that I said.
well that was it I was MAD!!!!!!!!
I let it bother me half of the evening then it hit me, just how much the people I work with make me feel bad everyday and how much I let them get to me, it is a constant surrounding of negative energy , no place like I have ever been before, I have been here for 12 years and as The Secret unfolds in my life I realize just how much growing up with a family like my mom and sister who thought that the only valued opinion was theirs , I know realize that , this is what I on a subconscious level expect to be treated like , now I need to do some reprogramming .
I have aimed for this in the past and failed but I have a broader view now, a deeper understanding and have specific things that I will no longer tolerate from anyone, I value others and believe there are wonderful people in this world and I plan on finding them.
as for my eating processed foods, I plan on correcting my eating plan and creating a variety on my menu to make the plan easier to stick with if a stressful situation should rear it's head again, btw, I have decided not to talk to my sister until she apologizes for her behavior, I deserve to be shown respect as I have her all of these years, we are both 43 right now, we are the same age until august , so for the next 43 years i want to be treated with the same courtesy that I have given her and if she chooses not to do so I feel I would be better off just keeping things on a very casual basis.
Thursday, June 12, 2014
well today has not been so bad craving wise, I had a few at the beginning of the day, after work I came home made dinner for family them made mine and stayed busy so I wont be tempted to snack.
this is day4 so i know the worst isn't over but I have noticed that when I'm stressed the processed food cravings tend to kick in, there are few people at work that can hang on your nerves even when they're not around, lol, this has been one of my biggest challenges to work with, I figure if I can work around the people at work, no one would be able to get to me, lol, this has been a key in my law of attraction, The secret I have seen how much it works and learning to keep it at a constant where I work is monumental .
Still much of the evening left but I think I will be okay, nice to have a day without struggle against what you're striving for.
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
did really good up until i got home and was worn and tired , I put pizza's in the oven with the intent to give in just this once, well, I DIDN'T !!! lol, something inside me just wouldn't give in, ,maybe it is all of the positive talk throughout the day, maybe it is knowing what processed foods can do to you, maybe a combo, a little stressed because I found out I will have to work the next 2 saturdays , really need the overtime just wish it was not at my work, lol.
I feel fantastic that even though I had my mind set on a conscious level to give in and eat processed food, my subconscious won , I guess i finally found the right way to give messages that stick!!!! WHOOOO!!!!!!
I made it to the gym this morning and decided to get a little something for breakfast so I went to get some fruit, this is the first time I stuck with it today because I wanted to get a bread snack thing but stuck with my fruit, so all in all this has been a successful day.
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
well today was somewhat more of a challenge, I was craving bread, like a sandwich, and I just had to keep telling myself that I will get use to it, it is just an adjustment, it is not that I can't , it is that I choose not too.
made my planned dinner and then had to get a little cleaning done to keep occupied ( I have a tendency to bored eat) walked over to where I keep snacks but I walked away , doing it out of choice is a much better way to think of it than " I can't have" which seems to make you want it more, lol
I feel's like right now that I am use to bread as a filler and my tummy feel it needs it to be full, so as I make this transition I will add more fiber etc,of course and things that give me that full feeling without bread.
I have cantaloupe and that's filling lol, I plan to get into a more detailed plan as to ensure that I get my nutrients, right now I am taking vitamins and will probably do that for awhile.
I know it will get easier so I am hanging in there until it is no longer a challenge, lol, after the 30 day's are up i plan to eat more breads and things just to see how it feels and taste, I have noticed that since I gave up meat, it no longer tastes the same, I guessit is what we get use to.
Monday, June 09, 2014
so far so good, I have noticed some of the things I picked up for my dinners had a little extra stuff in it that does not coincide with a no processed plan, but live and learn, I am staking steps this week I am eliminating, breads and cheese ( I have already given up meat) I noticed just by adding more veggies into my diet and getting away from eating meat and meat as a sandwich , I have noticed that my taste has changed, my goal is to get natural with very little to no processed.
I reminded myself all day that i am not doing without anything I am choosing to eat natural and it may be a challenge at first but, like with anything I will get use to it, I want to make it a full 3o day's with no bread, no pasta, no pop, cheese might be more tricky to eliminate but I will eventually do that as well.
I watch many shows that deal with how what we eat effects us so this is a personal " I am going to see for myself" just how wonderful eating non processed foods can really be, taking time each day to check in with how I feel.
Today I had a hard time getting up and have had lack of energy, which has been normal lately, I still went to the gym and got my workout in of course, I have heard it takes 2-3 weeks for the fog to lift , I can't wait! I am naturally a very energetic person, at least i use to be and I am looking forward to getting her back.
My attitude has changed so much since discovering " the Secret" I love the change , it has been slow, many obstacles some that I was not aware of ,to overcome and learn how to deal with things in an entirely new view and I think changing how I eat is a reflection of the real me, no one in my family is a vegetarian so this is a new concept, at least at first, i became a semi vegetarian in july of last year and I have spent much time reading and learning about being a vegetarian, the longer I do it the more natural it seems and foods that I use to crave or eat just for the taste just does not have the same appeal, some of it tastes down right nasty, lol, it is what we get use to I guess.
thanks for taking the time to read this and share my journey
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