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Meeting Santa

Saturday, December 20, 2014

Remember when you were a child and met Santa? Was it at the mall or in those Christmas houses that used to be pulled around on a trailer?

This is my great granddaughter Autumn and she looks at him as if to say " Who are you?" It is so much more fun with little ones at Christmas. Our youngest grandchild is 17. They are all growing so fast. It is fun to watch her explore and see new things. Her laugh is so contagious.

Remember to have fun and take each moment and make it precious.

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MARGEMF 12/21/2014 2:34AM

    Thank you for sharing Pam! emoticon

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LJCANNON 12/20/2014 11:28PM

    emoticon Beautiful Picture!!
One of my BEST Christmas Memories is picking my Grandmother up at the Nursing Home and taking her to see Santa in one of those Santa Houses. She had dementia, and was Very Childlike in many ways.
She was most impressed by how Young his eyes looked. I never really questioned her closely about it, but I think she thought he was the "Real Santa" She carried the picture of her sitting next to him around with her and showed it to everyone she met for Weeks after that.

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L*I*T*A* 12/20/2014 11:01PM

    what wonderful memories!!!

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AUNTALICE2 12/20/2014 9:00PM

    Love the photo!!! Your great grand daughter sure is a cutie!! emoticon

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LKWQUILTER 12/20/2014 7:31PM

    She is a doll Pam. I remember when our children and granddaughters met Santa and can't wait for great grand to come along to met Santa.

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HAWTGRANNY2014 12/20/2014 6:33PM

    Thanks. course I am prejudice lol.

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COLOR-BLUE 12/20/2014 5:57PM


I don't remember meeting Santa and getting a picture taken with him. But let me tell you, your great granddaughter is BEAUTIFUL and that picture is so PRECIOUS!!!!

BR>- Nancy Jean -

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NEW-CAZ 12/20/2014 3:17PM

    aawwwww so cute!

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Light the spark inside, find that Chrismas spirit and love yourself

Sunday, December 14, 2014

I wrote the best blog and lost it all. So now will try and rewrite it. Please bear with me because I really want this to bring about a spirit that grows within and makes you feel the light that you are. ...the shining goodness and miracle that you truly are. I hope it lets you know that you are worth everything good and holy.
I finally found my Christmas spirit this morning. It is slowly bubbling up from inside. We have had a very hard year but we are together, finally at home and Christmas is all around.
Still have not put up the tree but have a little one that I won playing Christmas bingo in the nursing home. It is white and only about a foot tall but one of the activities ladies made all the prizes and they were beautiful. There were these little trees, wreaths, angels etc. Each was more unique than the other. The smiles on the older ladies and mens faces when they one embodied the spirit of Christmas. At that time the feeling of loneliness was put aside and laughter rang through the dining room where we were playing. Some of these people never had visitors yet the friends they made in the home made their spirits boost.
My hubby and I are so lucky to have family and friends and a home to share together. We are able to see one another and to love and care for each other.
Maybe Christmas has come to mean how much do I get...how many presents to some but to me...it is a time of sharing, caring and just being together. It is a time to reflect on the year past and the coming year. We are spending it together this year and that is what counts.
Hubby is finding new ways of doing things. He has a leg amputated but he has two arms and hands he can use. He is taking it slower so he doesn't fall again and learning how to do things for himself. He lets me help but only if he can't do it alone. We are blessed with a home, food, family and friends that care.
Christmas is a time of magical wonder on childrens faces. It is the birth of baby Jesus, or at least a time of celebrating it. It is a time of surprises and of calling people that we have not heard from for awhile. It doesn't matter if there are no presents or how much money you spend but a time of renewal and love.
Sometimes we sit and blame God for our missery but he gave us life and free will to do with that miracle what we want. We are the ones who over stuffed ourselves on sugary foods. We are the ones that ruined our health with sitting around and eating unhealthy foods. It is not God that took my husbands leg but diabetes from all the years of not taking care of himself and I have done the same. God is there to give us strength and love.
Spark is here to help us renew that health. We can't undue what we have already done but we can make it better. We can eat healthier. We have all the tools right at our fingertips...but do we use them. You have to use them to make it work. I still don't use the nutrition tracker like I should but I will try and put it in before I eat it so I know beforehand how many calories, carbs etc...I am taking in.
The teams help with support, challenges and making new friends. You can meet people from around the world and learn from them. Spark is a blessing that I so much appreciate. I don't always show it but I bless Chris for starting all of this and all the coaches for their help . Sparkguy, I think you are a human Angel in disquise and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I want to hear a laugh, a deep down belly laugh that shakes your body right down to your heart. I want to see that glow light up your darkness and turn it into positive, Christmas spirit. I want to hear it ring through the world with kindness and caring, love and faith. I want us to unite and turn this world into togetherness instead of tearing us apart. This is the time of year when we can see miracles if we just look. God is there with us but we have to let him in!
Let's do what we can...Let's find that spirit and let it shine. Turn on those sappy Christmas movies. Listen and sing with the Carols. Call old friends and forgive ourselves and others.
Get up and renew those sparks that can grow from dying embers until they light the night.
We are not giving up...and neither should you. Hope is a word that lives in all of us. We just have to keep it alive and not let it become cold with lost faith or depression. We have to do it. Others can support us and give us advice but we have to do it!
I wish I had the vision to know how to make the world wake up and realize we are all on this planet to help each other...to cure disease...to stop the greed and taking of lives, just snuffing them out like they were a peice of nothingness. But each life is a miracle and a precious thing that God gave us.
So lets hear that laughter, that love and that peace ring out this year. I hope God blesses each and every one of you with a light that brings you laughter, joy , love and peace. Namaste to you all. That means " the spirit in me speaks to the spirit in you."

Love yourself and realize that you are worth it. God gave you that life and a light inside that can shine brightly if you let it.

Let that faith grow and let that light shine.

Let that spark grow. Keep it strong and let that ember grow into a full time fire. Spark has the tools..you have the ability and you just have to do it!

let that laugh grow into a deep belly laugh and keep the Christmas spirit all year long.

I have pushed myself and broken out of that nightmare. You can not let your life turn into a nightmare..you have to fight and make it better. Even if all seems lost, you have to not give up!

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L*I*T*A* 12/16/2014 1:17AM

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LJCANNON 12/14/2014 10:56PM

    emoticon Beautiful and Timely Message!! So happy to hear that you and DH are having a Blessed Christmas! !

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AUNTALICE2 12/14/2014 4:24PM

    Amen!! I love your message! I am so very glad you found the spirit of the season. God love you!! emoticon

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    What a wonderful blog. So full of Christmas joy and spirit. Thank you for sharing. Have a blessed day and Christmas.

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Will this nightmare ever end?

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

I have lost my Christmas spirit, my hope and my way. My hubby had more of his leg amputated and is having so much trouble. We are finally home but everything is just not right. It is like we landed in a nightmare and can't wake up.
Yesterday he could not get off the toilet. He would not even try to use the walker and pull himself up. So he got down on the floor and was going to crawl to the bed. He couldn't, I told him he would have to use his amputated leg too and it is not healed. They are still staples in it. So he grabbed the wheel chair and tried to pull up but could not. I called an ambulance and the put him in the chair.
Later that night, when I came out of the bathroom, he was on the floor again and said he slipped out of the bed. I couldn't get him up. I called the ambulance again and they got him in the chair. I don't know what is happening. He was doing great in the hospital. He used the transfer board but it was a plastic one that has a seat that slides over. The one that medicare pays for is shorter, more narrow and just a piece of wood that you have to try and slide over. It is much harder. I think he is giving up.
He wouldn't go to dialysis this morning because he was sick. He wouldn't do it a few times in the hospital either. They keep telling him the more he refuses to do it, the sicker he will get.
I can't have the stint taken out of my kidney Monday because I have to have another ekg because my other one had an arithmia and I don't have a way there to get one. My daughters transmission went out and our van is in the garage with the fuel pump out. Jack can't drive right now anyway. She has a truck but I can't get in it. If this seems like a pity party...it is. I am so tired and so frustrated, I lost my Christmas spirit. I love Christmas but didn't even put up my tree and don't know if I will. I just feel like I can't get out of this nightmare and can't find the hole in the universe that I crawled through.
We always seem to come through whatever we are thrown but I don't know this time.
I ordered a commode with a drop down arm with money his mom sent us fro our anniversary and hoping that will help it take away one of his problems. There are many amputees and I guess it is learn as you go. Even with all the therapy and them showing him how to do things, when you get home and don't have all the help...it is totally different.
I am sorry I was not there to do the challenge I started. I am sorry to all my teams that I was not there for you. I could not get on the computer to let you know why I was not there, and to be honest, right now, I do not have the mind to make up the daily challenge. I am just walking in a fog. Going to go dress up my page...maybe that will at least boost me up from this dragging feeling. Namaste. Pam

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ASH_CLEMENT 12/12/2014 12:06AM

    Praying for you Pam and your husband. I really don't have any words to tell you how I feel right now. You have been in our family prayers since I have known you and you have been an inspiration and I know with His help you will make through this tough time too. Will continue praying for you and your family.


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HAWTGRANNY2014 12/11/2014 9:29PM

    Thank you all for the prayers. I am trying to wake up and find the good in this year but it is so hard. I don't want to feel sorry for myself. There are many having a lot worse problems are a lot stronger than I am. I pray every day for us and everyone else but I feel like everything is just pushing me down. I am so glad to have the support and prayers of all of you. thank you so much. Blessings to all of you. Pam

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CHOCOHOLIC2276 12/11/2014 11:58AM

    My heart breaks for everything you and your hubby are going through. Will be praying for you and yours. emoticon

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LADYDL 12/11/2014 7:05AM

    Pam, I am so sorry to hear of your struggles! I have had you and hubby on my prayer list and I will continue.

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BLUEJAY1969 12/11/2014 12:55AM

    My sweet friend - I am so sorry that you are having so much trouble. I wish I lived near you so I could come and give you some help and some big hugs! You are in my thoughts and my prayers!

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L*I*T*A* 12/10/2014 10:23PM

    sending you positive thoughts and prayers..........
remember we are here for you....
blessings and hugs............lita

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HOLLYM48 12/10/2014 6:38PM

    I hope things get better for you soon. I am so sorry to hear of all the troubles you are going through right now. emoticon

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MARMAERT 12/10/2014 5:36PM

    Pam- praying that DH problems are temporary. Praying that you find a way to get your health issues resolved. Praying that your spirit lifts. We can't see what lies ahead, but God can. He will be there helping you through this. Just let Him take over.

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AUNTALICE2 12/10/2014 4:55PM

    Pam my dear friend. My heart goes out to you. It is a hard road you are on and you are mired in the mud. But as difficult as it is, I pray for everything to improve for you and your husband. Do not let him give up and don't you give up!! We are praying for you both. I think seeing an advocate is a great idea. Alot of times we do not know the right questions to ask or what we need. I know it seems dark to you-I have been in the darkness also. There is light if we are patient and do not give up. Look for the stars.....anything positive even when it seems there is so little there. I love you and want the best for you. Take care of yourself. Be good to you also! emoticon

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COLOR-BLUE 12/10/2014 4:38PM


My most dear friend, my heart is breaking, as I read of your plight. I just want to take you up in my arms and give you emoticon as everything dissipates into nothingness, for you, so that will enable to you have some rest. If it were possible, I would be there at the drop of a hat! I don't want to see you go through this JUNK!

I know it's hard, but try not to look at your surroundings and what you and your DH are going through, as it's only temporary. Look to the end result! Look to the higher calling! Look to Jesus! That's how I made it through all of my JUNK that kept piling up on me! It works! I'm praying for you, right now!

Most Kind and Gracious Heavenly Father! The One whom we lift our hands to, in surrender! The One whom is the Author and Finisher of our lives! The One whom we praise, even in the midst of the storm, we say, "Thank You!" Thank You for our trials and tribulations, as You told us to give You thanks for ALL things, so we tell You, "Thank You!"

Almighty God, Pam and her DH are having a really hard time, and there is so much tension, depression, low self-esteem, feelings of worthlessness, and even burdened hearts. Lord, You're able to do ALL things, so I ask that you touch Pam and her DH from the crowns of their heads to the soles of their feet, and impart Your spirit into each one of them! I ask that You root out whatever is not of You and destroy it, cast it out, and let it be gone, FOREVER! I ask that You settle Your Spirit into each one of them, as they feel Your calm, Your steadfastness, and Your PEACE! That PEACE that passes all understanding! I ask that You anoint them, Father God, to enable them to have some proper rest and get into a routine. I ask this and humbly submit this prayer to you, Lord of Lords, In Jesus' mighty name AMEN!!!

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ALTRIA_FATE 12/10/2014 3:58PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your struggles. I know it's not much, but please know that we're here for you for emotional support. I second the idea of talking to a hospital patient advocate or social worker. Please let us know how things go.

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KAABEE 12/10/2014 3:54PM

    Pam... emoticon to you!

Oh my goodness.... you are dealing with so much!!! I wish I could crawl through this computer and help you out. I wonder if there is any organization in your area that would provide any physical help with your DH? Have you asked social services? Or the hospital social worker? If he's on Medicare, maybe they can let you know if there's any help available?

I wish there was something else I could do. Please know that I'm praying for you. I know it's a lot to deal with and my heart aches for your desperation right now.

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Thanksgiving from the turkeys point of view

Sunday, November 02, 2014

I have been thinking if I were a turkey, what would I feel like?
Well my friend don't get scared but it is Thanksgiving month again.

What did I tell you the other day when you were laughing at me and the new look my owners gave me. I said " Don't laugh its your turn next." Now who's laughitng?

You have to hide me.

I have an idea. If we can put other foods in the mind of those people thingys maybe they will leave you alone.

Right make them think pumpkin pie.

Wait a minute....that's not good either.

To all you people thingys think ham, rabbit and potato stew, roasted veggies and maybe even some porky pig but turkeys is out this year. We are dry and old. turkey is out and ham is in.
See what a nice thing we are. I am wishing you all a great thanksgiving without turkey.

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    Well the pigs are going to be complaining next. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Too Cute!!!! Thanks!!!


- Nancy Jean -

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    Thanks for posting. Wishing you a Hapy Thanksgiving too! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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1FLATLANDER 11/2/2014 2:06PM

    This put a smile on my face today!

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A new month, a new plan, time to count your blessings.

Sunday, November 02, 2014

I can't believe this is already November. The trees are changing into a beautiful array of colors.

My mind is on how fast Christmas will be here but how many of us really see how much we have in our lives and how many blessings?

Hubby is coming home and we will be able to spend the days and holidays together this year, We had a new great granddaughter in March. We have family around us . So many people have no one and I pray they find someone to share life with.

I have started eatng on either a saucer or a single serve baking dish. If I do the dish, I can have two each meal. If the saucer only what it will hold in one layer. I a losing weight this way and learning to control my portions and it does fill me up. You really need a plan because going willy nilly is not working, at least for me.

I have to get back to exercise. I was doing really good with that until the kidney stones and being sick. Getting those blasted Thursday and hope they will take the stint out then too.
It is a little uncomfortable and causes pressure.

Now I hope this month will bring you closer to family, peace in your life, love in your heart and a new sense of happiness. Blessings to you all. Pam

Be thankful and see all your blessings.

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FACETOTHEVEIL 11/2/2014 4:35PM

You are amazing at working around obstacles. Love that you're learning portion control. Exercise will come when you are healthy enough. Let your body put all it's energy into that so you can be back to prowling as soon as possible.

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A_RARE_BEAN 11/2/2014 3:40PM

    Wonderful news that your husband is coming him and you will be able to spend the holidays together. Good that you have found a way that is working for you portion size is so important.

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LKWQUILTER 11/2/2014 3:01PM

    So glad you are doing good Pam and really glad your dh will be home for the holidays. I was so afraid that you would not be together this year. Just emoticon and emoticon . I am like you using the small plates. It does help with portion control.

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