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I am a warrior...hear me roar

Friday, August 01, 2014

I am a lifestyle warrior and I am out for change...with a Capital C. I am starting to eat better today even without getting groceries yet...so be a big change then. I have been in the hospital with hubby for 2 days but had to come home because they are building his ramp...so I need to move it!

I will be honest though...our family reunion is Sunday and I will eat but by the time the holidays come...I will be ready. going to find new recipes, new ways and more action.

I am going for my dreams and geared up to learn. So cross your fingers and give me a big yahoo.

  
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    emoticon A Working Plan is better than Crossed Fingers and Good Wishes any day. You've got the Plan with your Tools loaded and ready to get to work. You've Got This!!

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Lifestyle warriors...keeping it real

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

I am tired of excuses...tired of the old me and tired of my lifestyle. Changed a team and am going to make every effort to take responsibility for my life. This team has weekly weigh in...monthly measurements...hunger fix way of eating or your own, Fit to live by same author and just doing instead of saying
It is a new start and a new ...no more..." I'll start tomorrow because tomorrow may never come.
I have restarted my life...restarted my way of eating and come to the realization...it ain't working! Time to get serious and do instead of piddiling around and making social chat...nothing wrong with that unless that is the only thing you do. Need support...I am there. Need movement...you have to do that your own. Need a challenge...come to the team. Need a buddy...here we are. Need someone to wave a magic wand so you can sit on your butt and have the weight come magically off...if you find it let me know.

Here is the team, it is up to you. I won't beg you to come because it is your life...but I will try and help.

www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=61293

  
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LJCANNON 7/29/2014 1:04PM

    emoticon Sounds like an Awesome Team!! I am on way too many Teams, after looking at Your Lifestyle Warriors Page and reading this Blog, I may need to do some Team Cleaning!!
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I am forcing myself to look within and find the whys

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Ever since I had all those health problems hit me at once..I am afraid. It is silly. It was about 4 years ago now but I limit myself instead of pushing through. I am careful about telling hubby, I am going after the mail so if I don't come back, come get me...even though he couldn't.
I am so afraid of every little thing that I need to stop it. Part of my overeating is from that too. On the outside...I took it well but inside it scared the heck out of me. They must have told me several times, it was a wonder I didn't die from the infection surgery and then again when I had those two cancers. I just realized how fearful I really am. I have been taking a long look at myself and all those things and I thought I was doing good and for awhile I was...but it all seems to hit me. I think because of everything my hubby is going through,...it is a chilling reminder of what I went through and how fragile life is.
It is so scary.
I know I need to work through these problems to become normal again and break this food
addiction.

All the insecurities and telling myself...I am who I am..but I don't like me some of the time. I am trying to pull myself out of there and I know I am a miracle and that I am worth it...but my mind sneaks in those little phrases here and there...why are you worth it? What have you done to deserve being loved. You have made a lot of mistakes and done some things in the past that were not right. But , I tell myself, I am not like that anymore...I am a good person. I do believe that. This is not a blog to get compliments...just to show you that your mind can play tricks on your thinking....no I am not crazy and hear people talking to me lol.
Food is my way of comfort ...of feeling good...but that is just so wrong. The more I eat...the more I gain...the more upset and ashamed I feel. I am reading the hunger fix and it is bringing all kinds of thought out of me.

I know I need to work through these problems to become normal again and break this food addiction. I need to bring it out in the open and face it...instead of letting it linger in the back of my mind ..gathering cob webs and waiting to jump out and cause me to overeat again.

I am reading the hunger fix by Pam Peeke, MD,MPH,FACP. It is bringing all this thought out of my head and causing me to focus why? Why am I eating myself into an early grave?

It is hard to face the whys...yet it is what I need...once and for all. It is like coming face to face with the negative inside of you and cleaning it out so you can make it all new. Well I have only begun to scratch the surface. When I get done sweeping and dusting the surface ...then I will need to mop even deeper. I will get it done and hopefully find the why and fix it.

Looking inside yourself is a scary yet enlightening thing to face.

At least I have someone holding on to me so I don't sink.

I have come this far and don't want to go back.

I am emerging from my cocoon and getting to know myself.

I thought I had faced the whys before but not this deeply.

  
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L*I*T*A* 7/23/2014 11:37AM

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LADYDL 7/23/2014 7:50AM

    I like the sign - "Don't look back, you're not going that way!"

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A_RARE_BEAN 7/23/2014 5:47AM

    I couldn't agree more, looking inside and understanding more about yourself is worth the mopping and the sweeping in the end. You have survived and come through so much so even though you do have fear (like us all ) you also have evidence of your amazing strength too! So I know you will come through this part of your journey too, the inner understanding. Best wishes to you emoticon

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GOANNA2 7/23/2014 12:12AM

    Glad you are starting to know yourself. It's a life-long journey.
We need to embrace and love ourselves first and foremost.
You have been through so much Pam. Just try not to stress
and look for the positives, one day at a time. You will get there.
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GRANJERRY1 7/22/2014 7:21PM

    You are one strong lady....for sure & definitely looking within is the first cathartic step towards inner healing

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AJB121299 7/22/2014 6:33PM

    nice

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life is an adventure...live it

Sunday, July 13, 2014

This is a small team that I am trying to get more members and keep it going. I already lost one small team and can't bear to lose another. When you get together and get to know people and then have to drop the team...it is like losing friends.
I am co-leader on two big teams and they are going strong but this little one needs a shot in the arm.

I started a thread...life is a bowl of cherries...so why did I get the pits lol. The way it sounds like a pitiful, negative thread but not so.
Example:
hubby is in the nursing home (pits)....but he is getting infusions to make him get rid of the bacteria in his blood ( cherries

Paid 15oo dollars to replace the water heater ( pits) but at least it is not leaking anymore and ruining the floor( cherries)

It is all about seeing the positive in the negative. It is throwing the negative away . If we sit around and focus on the negative in our lives, we don't see the good things that are there.

I just ordered the hunger fix...about breaking food addiction and when it comes in, have started a thread to discuss it. I need to break the addiction of eating when not hungry..craving sugar laden foods etc. It shoud be a good discussion if we can get enough people.

I had been focusing on my big teams and letting this one go last...now I am focusing on this one....while still doing the others but they are strong.

A team is only as strong as its members.

I have a thread on making things homemade because they are better for us. So many foods that are processed have hormones and additives that are not good for us.

I have a goal setting thread for this month. Set 3 goals you want to accomplish in July.

Come in and give us a peek....try out the team so to speak.

www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/team_mes
sageboard_thread.asp?board=0x61293x583
87593&src=email


Take your time and think about the things you want to accomplish and then do them.

Let the past go and begin a new chapter in your life...rearrange, really focus on this moment in time..not those gone by.

Make new habits...good ones that push out the bad ones.

You can do this. don't give up on yourself....create a positive you.

  
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MISS_VIV 7/20/2014 10:05AM

    Life indeed is a bowl of cherries....Much more cherry than pits. Just don't drown them in whipping creme.. enjoy every bite. And the pits will grow into beautiful trees making us stronger every day. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GOANNA2 7/14/2014 7:12AM

    Thanks Pam. So good to hear that hubby is doing better.
You need to look after yourself too. I am going back to
work tomorrow after a 2 week break. I had bronchitis
and didn't feel too good, but i am OK now. emoticon

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KNEEMAKER 7/13/2014 12:21PM

  Keep on keeping on! Step by step you will reach your destination. Life is much more than just a bowl of cherries and the pits. It is a Journey. So we must enjoy our Life Journey each and every day. emoticon

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I am back to myself..I think

Sunday, June 29, 2014

The air went out yesterday and it is so hot in here even with the windows opened. Tomorrow is supposed to be even hotter. He is coming to take a look at the water heater and tell me how much to put it in so hope he will look at the air too.

I do feel better today. I look at it this way, once they are fixed, 2 less things to worry about.
I am playing the lottery this week lol. If I hit it rich I will fix everything at one time and pay all my families bills and if there is enough left tour the U.S and visit some of you.
So make some room for me.

At least we didn't have the storms last night and don't know what to expect today. I did not listen to it. I didn't want the word storms to get me down again...but then it really isn't hurting anything....we can't go anywhere anyway. Well hubby did...he left to go to the store to get his medicine and to get out in the air. I can't Ifuntil Jim gets here to look at the heater and he had another project first and did not know how long it would take. I pray he will be all right. I don't know how he is going to get a ride on cart unless he walks to the door and gets one inside. He has his walker but not supposed to walk on his foot.

find the peace in your life


If he can do it..I CAN TOO!

www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxjiE
i2Eywk&index=7&list=RDGrV_ZvwZRvw


Here he is singing a song.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=GrV_Z
vwZRvw&list=RDGrV_ZvwZRvw#t=89

  
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SLOWDETERMINED 7/11/2014 11:08AM

    You have faith & and as you know faith can move mountains, even though we don't feel like it sometimes. You are a very positive and motivating person, and I feel lucky that you are my friend. I am glad you are feeling better. emoticon Hang in there God is with you.

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1BEACHWALKER 7/4/2014 11:18PM

    I hope things are better since this blog. Hang in there! emoticon

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L*I*T*A* 6/30/2014 10:08AM

    hopeing things work out as were meant to be............

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GOANNA2 6/30/2014 7:27AM

    Hang in there Pam. Things will slowly get better for you.
You deserve it my friend. Waiting for you In Australia
when you have that lucky break.
I hope everything gets fixed soon for you. emoticon emoticon

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LOOKINGTOBEFIT 6/29/2014 3:35PM

    Hang in there!!

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SEATTLE58 6/29/2014 3:11PM

    I'm hoping that your appliances get fixed soon and everything else that is causing troubles. Hugs to you, Karen

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