Tuesday, October 28, 2014
I feel like I have been asleep for years instead of days. I am still hurting but maybe part of that is my fault. I need to exercise starting Wednesday again. The land of spark has videos, I can follow.
I have to journey along with my spark friends and keep to the plan I formulated. I have been eating smaller portions. I have been eating in those little baking dishes. I eat one with veggies and one with fruit for most meals ...sometimes just one for a meal and one later. I have lost another 2 pounds so it is working.
When I get groceries:
1. fish with onions, lemon juice with a baking dish of veggies,3 hushpuppies
2. A pita pocket with veggies, tomatoes, cucumbers, onion and a little drop of vinegar
3. a veggie plate with cornbread on a saucer
4. fruit for snack
5. oatmeal with blueberries and walnuts
these are a few ideas for a menu.
where is my fairygodmother when I need her. I want to lose faster. Please wave that wand and let me go to the land of spark to see the wizard.
If only I had a brain...I would listen to my body and eat the things I need to. Oh wait ..I am eating better.
Maybe the wizard of spark land gave me the tips and tools I needed. Why didn't I keep using them all along instead of searching for the yellow brick road to a fast fix?
The wizard of spark is called spark guy and he has such a big heart to supply us with a land that is free and all the help we need.
I think we just need to muster up the courage to fight the junk food witch and her flying monkey treats.
Look out! There she is and she is loaded with candy and sugary cakes. Help wizard of spark land!
Thank goodness sparkland sent me a friend to help me up and lend a supportive hand.
So if you are struggling down a dark path, reread the articles and use the great tools on spark.
Click those ruby slippers and come back to sparkland. It is the next best thing to home for losing weight and getting healthy. But you can't just lay there , you have to do the work and eat right.
Monday, October 27, 2014
I was feeling pretty down today. I am still hurting and really tired but most of all, I felt so alone. I know God is with me but I still find in my heart that I am asking why? I know it is not for us to understand his plan. I know this! But sometimes when we get tired of being sick. It seems like it goes from one thing to another. I know it is my fault. I ate the wrong things and gained weight and was overweight all my life. It is me who is to blame. God gave us free will.
I had a friend who's house burned down and she said, why? She said" I go to church."
It is to easy to blame God for our troubles when we bring them on ourselves. I feel like my connection is not strong enough yet to feel that undying trust. I want that! I do believe in God with all my heart and I know Jesus died for our sins...but I feel unworthy of so much love. I sometimes think about what a sacrifice he made and I want to cry that I don't feel like I am being what he wants. I know there is more he put me on this earth for but I don't know what that is. I want to help people so bad.
Today, I heard something hit the door and found a package on my porch. A beautiful prayer shawl was in the package. A friend from sp sent it to me. I am not putting her name because I don't know if she wants me too. She said it was a gift from God and I wrapped it around me and felt warm. This note was included.
" Come to me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your soul. It was signed, Jesus. " I have loved you with an everlasting love."
It was like she was an angel and God led her to send me this as a sign.
I ask God to bless her and keep her safe because her heart is surely big and her soul blessed.
Even though there are times we feel alone on this journey he is with us.
His hand is always there for us to find strength.
So if you are feeling alone and ready to give up, stretch out your hand and receive him in your heart. I need to listen more deeply to his guidance.
Please bless those who seek your guidance. Take their hand an let them know that you are there always. Help us all find peace and feel your everlasting love. Let all that feel alone feel your love and presence. Send guardian angels to protect and bless them. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.
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