Tuesday, June 17, 2014
This spring has been a strange spring for me. For one thing, everyone is working and I am home alone. This is a huge change for this homeschooling mama. 22 yo dd is working at preschool and their summer camps. 17yo ds is working nearly full time for a landscaping company.
I thought after all these years I'd love being home alone. After all the years of go, go, go. After all the years of balancing home, family, homeschooling.
I thought I'd love having ME time.
Instead I got lazy. I quit exercising. I sat and read. I sat and ate. I sat and did internet. I was just tired. Tired. Tired. Tired.
I did a bit of gardening, but not as much as I thought I would. I didn't hike. I sat. I didn't work out. I sat. I didn't eat right. I munched on chips. every day. several times a day. I got hooked on Diet Dr. Pepper again.
I did get started on my To Do List, but most of that required sitting--updating 17yo son's transcript, figuring how to get a Senior Year organized, typing stuff up for the co-op classes I will teach in the fall, etc.
I've gotten really flabby. Lazy. Tired.
So, I made a different choice.
I started small -- 1 mile. It felt good! I did it again. It felt really good. I lifted a few weights. The strength came back and felt so good. I drank more water. I skipped the chips. I have more energy.
It is true.......1 good choice encourages more good choice. Working out for 20 - 30 minutes makes me feel good instead of wears me out.
Burn out is real. Old habits die hard and must be replaced with good ones.
Spring of 2014 is almost over and so is my lazy, chip eatin', pop-slurpin' ,sittin' around, boring, tired-feeling spring.
It's time to get moving and motivated again. Summer is here!
Monday, February 24, 2014
I sure needed this article..... www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivat
My emotions are going all over the place lately. Winter blahs, grief, hormones, and weight gain have all taken a toll on me this winter.
I lose 1 lbs, gain 1 lbs, lose 1, gain 2, repeat. For months now, meaning a very slow weight gain and I don't like how I look and feel once again.
I try to stay positive---looking at all the weight I have kept off - nearly 50! And all the health progress I've made---(see a previous blog).
I am exercising like I haven't been able to do in over 15 years!! And yet.....
I am making much better, healthier food choices than EVER! And yet.....
Some days I feel like giving up....it is so hard to eat healthy in this house. Desserts, chips, ice cream, soda pop, Little Debbie cakes, pasta, pasta, pasta, chocolate, chocolate, chocolate, beef 4-5x week abound. I feel doomed to weigh 180lbs until the kids (age 22 and 17) leave home. If I don't buy it, they do. I do not enjoy cooking, so I refuse to cook 2 separate meals for every meal lunch and supper.
I try to change up my meals a bit so they are healthier choices.....baked potato with chili sauce instead of hotdog, bun, and chili sauce or salad with tuna mixed with avacado instead of the Kraft mac -n-cheese and tuna, salads, salads, and more salads while everyone else has potatoes, pasta, and bread but it doesn't seem to be enough to keep the weight from slowing coming back.
I had lost 65 lbs. I was at 162. I am now fighting to keep it at 180. ugh.
I've even joined a challenge team to see if competition and accountability would help. Sadly, for my wonderful teammates, NO. (so very sorry WRJ&G team mates!)
I am so much more tired.
I am more achy.
I am more sad.
I am more fat.
I just don't understand how to live my family's life and stay thinner.
Where did my determination and will power go?????????????
I did it before with the same foods in this house.
Where is that determination I had before?
I am a VERY strong-willed person....why am I not applying it to the foods I put in my mouth?
Friday, January 17, 2014
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I am counting this article as cardio for today!
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