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Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Today, the fire alarm in my building went nuts again as I was in the middle of forcing myself through a plyometrics workout. Have I mentioned that I don't hate working out, my body does? I enjoy exercising, but man, convincing myself to get up and do it already? I suck at that. I'm really into P90x right now, because everything is done for 30 seconds or less. (sometimes a minute if the moves are slower) It kicks my butt. and then makes it firmer. ;) The point is, today I was cut down to 30 minutes instead of 60 and (not so) secretly I'm OK with that.

My first blog entry may have been a bit misleading. I have lost a significant amount of weight in the past year and a half, but I have to tell you, I don't feel like it shows at all. I had two c-sections just a year apart and I've pretty much considered myself a disaster zone from the belly button down ever since. I've never had a problem being a bigger girl. I'm certainly not calling myself model material, but I do ok. When I was younger being big meant still having a firm belly, having curves and full, high breasts, and thighs that touch. Nothing... pendulous, nothing soft and squishy like rising bread going on... You can probably tell from my choice of words how I feel now. I'm hoping between my 5th floor walk-up and my new fitness plan, I can change these things, go back to sweet, curvy Ceecee, the wild, free spirited girl who never though twice about jumping into the fun (or the fray).

So today is a good bad day. t was hard to find motivation. I'm a little extra in hate with my body. The fire alarm went off when I finally did force myself to get up- but it gave me an excuse to chase babies instead of running in place. The scale doesn't love me, but my pants still fit better than yesterday. I have cellulite on my thighs and even my upper arms, but I'm doing something to change it. I feel like I'm lazy and I have no motivation, but I burned 345 calories before noon.

Happiness is a choice. I'm choosing it.

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TRAVELGRRL 3/5/2013 3:18PM

    I have two pictures of myself at 180 pounds: one is from 1997 when my daughter graduated from high school, and I look HUGE because I never exercised. The other is from 2010 and I look MUCH smaller because I was walking regularly, hiking, and working out at the fitness center. It was just my EATING that was totally whack.

So I understand where you are now, but I'd like to suggest that you talk more kindly of that body that has done such amazing things for you so far: it has birthed two wonderful children, it contains a totally unique and fabulous woman, and it is loved by parents, siblings, children, and a husband.

As far as motivation? When I stayed at home I always found it best to set a deadline for myself: NO LUNCH until workout, for instance. Good luck, and be kind to yourself!


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Tuesday, February 26, 2013

So, I'm Sierra. I'm 29. I have two girls, two and three years. I was married in a size 26 wedding dress. I'm down to a size 14/16. I want to be about half the size I currently am. Not because I lack confidence or because I feel bad about myself. Because I deserve to look in the mirror and think "Damn, I did it." and my kids deserve to have the cool, pretty mom. Not the slobby, lazy, gross mom I feel like I will be if I keep down this road. My husband deserves an attractive wife. He's a pretty hot dude. Sometimes I wonder how I landed him.

I recently became a stay at home mom and it's definitely led to some big opportunities for me. I actually have time to exercise now. I get to do fun projects with my girls every day, I get to DIY everything and anything I want, and I get to dance to bad 80's music and 90's dubstep remixes. I get to dance and sing as loudly as my little ears can handle, and I get to show my kids what real playing is. Don't get me wrong, when it was D's turn to be the stay at home parent, he did well. He made sure they ate right and he taught them all the things they should know at their age and then some. He just wasn't big on the physically playing with them part.

It's pretty awesome, though. I'm lucky enough to live near a really nice river walk and there are great parks in every direction. I'm feeling motivated. I'm feeling energetic. Hopeful.

This is going to be good.


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TRAVELGRRL 2/26/2013 5:50PM

    Oh my gosh, congratulations on the weight you have lost so far! That is AWESOME.

It seems that you are VERY successful at weight loss so far, on your own. Congratulations!!! It sounds like you have a wonderful life and will enjoy the stay-at-home role. If I can be of any assistance to you as you navigate Spark, please let me know!

I've been around here FOREVER (or so it seems!)

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63KEEPONGOING 2/26/2013 3:08PM

  Sounds like you are set up to make it! Good luck.

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SISTERPRETTY 2/26/2013 2:17PM

    Awesome...you can do it...just stay the course.

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TCMAKEUP 2/26/2013 2:16PM

  WOW, life sounds great

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