Monday, April 14, 2014
I was just clearing out some old files and came across this (yes, I kept it!)
Midnight has been,
And has moved on,
And I am here.
Mortality stares at me
And still I am here.
When I do not watch for it,
And I must be ready
If I am to catch the light
The perfect picture happens
With every breath I take.
What a precious gift
I have been given
A heart that can see
Is better than eyes.
It is not enough to just watch.
I need to be
I need to live life
In the moment.
Copyright 2007 by Kathleen A. Braley
Friday, April 04, 2014
Thank you all for your prayers.
My SIL, Rosa, made it through the procedure okay, but they ended up keeping her overnight... they planned on doing angioplasties but ended up putting in a stent instead, leading into one ventricle. It had been 80% blocked and the stent is holding it open now. The other three ventricles were 90% blocked, and they couldn't even get the catheter into them for the angioplasty. She has her follow-up with the coronary specialist in two weeks to see where they go from here.
But she's still with us. And they discharged her yesterday, so she's in a good mood.
My brother is talking about going back to the other side of the mountains. They're not happy with their living situation here. They came to take care of her mom, but from what he was telling me, her family is... well... let's just say, more than a little dysfunctional. Case in point, NOT ONE of them even called to ask how she was doing... And every time the two of them leave the house, they worry about what her mom will do to their dog--Once, they came home and found their dog locked out on the front porch (there is a fenced back yard, folks)... and another time, she put moss killer on the lawn in the dog's enclosed yard and didn't tell them, and the dog almost died from licking it's paws. And she deliberately closes the door on it whenever she can-- so they have to take the poor little thing with them pretty much everywhere...
I've enjoyed having them closer so I could see them more often, but I certainly wouldn't blame them for leaving. I know there are excellent cardiologists back in Chelan and Wenatchee--if there hadn't been, she would have died last year!
... we're none of us here for very long, and I want them to be happy while they are.
I spent pretty much the entire day hunting for help. I went to make a small payment on my power bill--and they told me they had sent a disconnect notice this morning! I've been making small payments all along, and now that I've finished with paying off the plane ticket advance I was hopeful that next month I'd be able to start getting caught up--but they won't even make payment arrangements until a certain amount is paid--$100 more than I have!
they did give me some phone numbers. The first three I called? I get discounted rates because I'm disabled and because I get the discount I don't qualify! The last place I called, the lady said "Can you be here in an hour?"
They made a pledge for partial payment, and called the power company!
There is an answer to prayers, y'know?
My wrist is NOT liking the typing lately, so I'm going to have to stop now... but I want to say how grateful I am for all your support in these things!
Tuesday, April 01, 2014
My SIL's procedure is tomorrow, though the time has been changed to 8:00 am...
I talked to my brother. Because I have fasting labs in the morning myself, just down the road, I'll take a sandwich with me, and I'm just going to drive on up to the other hospital when I'm done, to wait with my brother. We're planning on having "breakfast" when she's done... It'll most likely be time for me to eat again by then anyway-- and she'll probably be hungry too!
It has been a long day... one of those when you feel like you're spinning your wheels and can't get anywhere or get anything done, y'know?
But that's just on the surface. We're all creating little miracles we can't see, all the time! LOL
I still have my therapy to get through, and a few beautiful kitties to feed... ugh, Licorice just threw up on the carpet. Gross.
Guess I'll have to stop now... LOL
Tuesday, April 01, 2014
Kind of busy for the last few days...
Busy is no more new than crazy is...LOL BUT...
Sunday, a member of my church leadership took me aside and told me that the choir director was unable to meet her commitment for the Easter program--and asked ME if I'd be willing to direct the choir!
Whoa. I've directed congretional singing before, and the children's Sunday school, but I have never directed a choir before.
Sang in a LOT of them--not QUITE the same thing...LOL
Saying LOTS of prayers to get me through it, because-- of COURSE -- I said yes. Something special, a one time thing... I believe I can handle just this one thing, even if it makes me a bit anxious...
AND I could use a lot of YOUR prayers, my dear friends, not for me but for my dear brother's wife. Some of you may recall that she had a major heart attack a while ago, right? Well, tomorrow morning at 6:30 she will be in the hospital again for a catheterization. Apparently, they believe there's some scar tissue on the back wall of her heart that may cause some problems and they want a closer look. Bruce and Rosa live close enough now that the hospital she is going to is about 15 minutes from my house, and since I have labs tomorrow anyway at the medical center six blocks from there or so, I thought I'd show up and keep my brother company while he waits...
It's already been a long day... tomorrow? Well.
It's going to be fine, right?
I think I need a nap... LOL
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
I'm so grateful to all of you for your lovely comments. THANKS!
LIVING_AMAZINGLY, I'm being "cautious" because I have a hard time saying no! LOL
Before I moved out this way, I had EIGHT church assignments, THREE part-time jobs, was a full-time student with 24 credits a quarter... and had a brother (LOVED him but...) who would drop his three kids off on my front porch unexpectedly and just drive away.
...in short, I was overworked, overbooked, underpaid, and EXHAUSTED. It got worse after I got my AA degree... my real estate broker took over where school left off!... I had no time to just be me. It felt like I couldn't breathe. so after a year I quit. EVERYTHING.
And I moved and went back to school to get my BA.
A lot of the things I was doing back then I can't even dream of now, but it isn't hard to get caught in that kind of trap again.
Currently, things on the home front are starting to smooth out... though the neighbors have their stereo on so loud right now that I can barely hear the music from my laptop when I'm a foot from the speakers! As long as my stuff isn't jumping off the shelves like the first time, I can handle it. Besides, I'm leaving in a minute, to run an errand. Not gonna bother me if I'm not here, is it? LOL
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