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Saturday, September 06, 2014

My doctor needs to have her scale recalibrated. It shows that I've lost weight in the last 3 weeks. I put it on my tracker without thinking and looked at my start page--

MY scale says it's only eight...

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JUSTYNA7 9/18/2014 9:18PM

    Hey, I am so sorry about your Dad.

I'm not sure if I should congratulate you for the weight loss or be worried. I know you have had a lot of stress and medical problems lately (hahaha, OK I know it is most of the time... but you know what I mean. Grief can take your appetite away.) so I hope some of it is healthy weight loss.... And I hope the roller coaster is over with the BS swings. Emotions can certainly affect those too. I have closed the B&B while I wait for my knee replacement and it's kind of nice because friends can come visit now. Wish you were a few thousand miles closer for another cup of tea (or lemon water). Otherwise I think I'm pretty happy. I am the leader for the writing diet team and have learned a lot from another team for how to involve people and keep them interested. All my kids are home again. It's a process, moving them in and finding places for everything. House meeting coming up soon to discuss chores. They are all adults now so I'm hoping we can be housemates. We talked briefly of all doing our own food... but I do love family dinners together. I am using writing to deal with my own stresses... know that you have a gift with words too so am sure it would help writing about your father. Hugs, Justyna

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    Someone's scale is certainly off! I hope it's yours! LOL.

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I.M.MAGIC 9/7/2014 1:15PM

her scale can't be right--my clothes still fit!


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PATTIE2101 9/6/2014 10:21PM

    Way to go!!

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1CRAZYDOG 9/6/2014 10:16PM

    Wow! Well, at least you know your Drs. scale is your friend apparently!

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About My Dad.

Saturday, September 06, 2014

My mom and dad were married for 18 years... He remarried first...

At his funeral, they played Bobby Vinton's "I Love How You Love Me." Cheesy? Nope. Just my dad all over. He came across sometimes as a bit of a tough guy, but had a streak of romantic about two miles wide. I believe it was from him to his wife after 42 years of marriage. There was a video/photo presentation, mostly his latest birthdays. A few stories were told...

The last thing they played was George Straight's "I Cross My Heart" ... Seemed like it was from her to him.

And then...

...I knew my dad was in the army when he met my mom, but it never dawned on me that he had enlisted and served during the Korean war. He was never (to my knowledge, lol) deployed outside of the continental U.S. but he was an artillery officer with the rank of lieutenant, and was a veteran of a foreign war and was given military honors at his funeral--21 gun salute, the playing of taps on a bugle, the folding of the flag and its presentation with thanks from a grateful nation.

I cried, of course.

Naturally, my brother and sister, and my brother's widow, as well as all of my stepbrothers and -sisters and my half sister were there with their partners, and most of my nieces came with their spouses and boyfriends, and my one nephew. (My niece that lives in Texas couldn't make it)... some old family friends...and a handful of people that I haven't seen since AT LEAST 1970, most notably Jimmy and Julie, the son and daughter of his best friend Bob. We played with them as children... They are old and gray now. Hm. LOL

I didn't take any pictures, unfortunately. But I do have a copy of the obituary and the program with his picture on front and back and the poetry my brother wrote for him.

As soon as I'm somewhere that I can scan it in, I'll post that. He was a handsome character... of course I'm prejudiced in his favor, but you'll see...

I'm going to really miss him.

Meanwhile, back at the post... I saw my primary care physician yesterday about that lingering cough. Some abnormalities showed up in the breathing tests, and I'm going in for a CT scan... some suspicion that there may be a lung disease? Sheesh. I sincerely doubt it, but I'll go. I'm tired of sore ribs! Can't deal with it unless we know what's causing it, right?

And I haven't had any pain meds for two days now--remarkably clear headed and HURTING...my pain meds prescription is messed up again.

And so is my van. It's guzzling coolant, but there's no visible leak?!

Hey, Ho, just another day in the life... LOL emoticon

It's SO good to be home!
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    I think my mom and dad were married for 17 or 18 years too. Mom remarried twice and divorced twice. I'm not sure how long my dad was married to my step mom but it was longer than my mom and dad. She was a wonderful person.

The funeral for your dad sounded really special. I hope memories of this special man will comfort you.

I certainly hope you do not have any lung disease! I hope nothing is seriously wrong with the van and that you get the pain med straightened out.

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WENDYJM4 9/7/2014 7:39AM

    I so sorry Kathy that I missed this. Hugs.

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NASFKAB 9/7/2014 12:46AM

  that was such a touching post showed how wonderful your DAD was hope the CAT SCAN is OK healing thoughts your way again

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1CRAZYDOG 9/6/2014 9:51PM

    ((((HUGS)))) Thanks for sharing this. Your Dad is your angel now.

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SO tired...

Friday, September 05, 2014

I am exhausted, a 380 mile trip, and coming home to a pile of unpaid bills... one of which is my internet service. There are a number of more crucial ones, so it's going to take me a bit to get that one paid (Brian promised to help but can't do much until after Halloween!...) so I may be AWOL for a bit again--but I promise I'll try not to get sick so I can make it to the library now and again. Without my WiFi, I don't even have access on my android!...LOL

When I am not so tired, I'll fill you in on the "family reunion" too... It was sad, true, but nice to see so many of my family members in one place!...
Love all you guys.
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    You must be totally wrung out with all you have been through. I wish I could be there and give you a hug. Times like this are draining at best with all the loss but then add in the long drives and everything else and it ends up usually making me sick.

I wish Brian could help you sooner. Everything is too expensive. We are trying to save some money and every time we get a few dollars they raise our taxes or insurance or something.

I'm glad you got to see family at least. I have very few of those left.

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NASFKAB 9/6/2014 12:17AM

  sorry you are in financial trouble again quitesure the family reunion great meeting so many relatines in one go

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1CRAZYDOG 9/5/2014 9:46PM

    OH boy. Sorry it's been so rough for you! ((((HUGS))))

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Sunday, August 24, 2014

It's the sabbath, and as usual, I have a lot of preparation to do today...

It's not going to be easy...

My dad passed away last night.


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LIVE_AMAZINGLY 8/25/2014 10:44PM

    So sorry to hear that. I didn't know he was that ill that he would go so fast. I thought he just had balance problems.

Take care of yourself, and don't over do it, ok.

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NASFKAB 8/25/2014 12:57AM

  so sorry its hard to lose a parent may he rest in peace prayers heading your way for him, your family & you HUGS

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MORTICIAADDAMS 8/24/2014 12:57PM

    I am so sorry, GF. I knew he was having major problems but had no idea he would go this fast. My prayers are with you. y

Our pet Rico Suave (Reekie) died yesterday at 5 P.M. so we are grieving too.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 8/24/2014 12:19PM

    So very sorry, Kathy. My thoughts and prayers are with you today and always.
Prayers, blessings, love and hugs,

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1CRAZYDOG 8/24/2014 11:23AM

    OH I am so very sorry! ((((HUGS))))

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NATNOEL 8/24/2014 10:35AM

    Oh no I am so sorry.
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OMG. What NOW...

Saturday, August 23, 2014

My dad is in big trouble...

He's 85, and he has been falling a LOT over the last several months... two weeks or so ago he fell through the guard rail on his own 4 ft high front porch, and went rolling across the lawn. He broke one rib, cracked four others, and had all kinds of bruises, especially one shoulder. He was hospitalized because the doctors were concerned about the bruising in his lung. He was scheduled to go home but didn't because he had an attack--he suffers from atrial fibrillation. He got through that and went home... and fell. It messed up his hand so it was badly swollen and it was decided that he'd see his doctor the next morning--and the next morning, he fell again. the hand? Two of his fingers are broken. And, he's in the hospital now; apparently, a bone spur on one of his cervical vertebrae cracked... and the doctors on call discussed it and called in a neurologist specializing in brain disorders.

He has been diagnosed with (deep breath) Progress Supranuclear Palsy, aka PSP.

It's often misdiagnosed as Parkinson's, since there are several things they have in common--but it's rare, only about 0.00006% of the population will ever have it.

Unlike Parkinson's, there is no tremor, but they both affect voluntary motor control. Eyes, arms, legs... He can't move his eyes up or down, a distinctive trait of this particular disease, so he can't see his feet, and when he wavers the least little bit, he no longer has the mechanism in place to correct his stance. so he goes down backwards, like a felled tree. (Odd little piece of trivia, Parkinson's patients fall too, but they tend to fall forward...)

As the name suggests, it's progressive, and his is moving fast. Yesterday he was eating lunch with my sister, and by dinner time his right shoulder had frozen, and he couldn't lift his arm to reach his mouth. Since his other hand is in a splint, he had to be fed.

And he rang for the nurse but tried to get up by himself before she got there, and he fell off the hospital bed. (The doc thinks that's why his shoulder froze up so fast, the neck injury...)From what I was told, they were running to make sure he hadn't done any more damage to himself--I imagine that neck injury must be a worry right now, too.

Add to that some anomalies in my own blood sugar metabolism... I'm a bit stressed! LOL

I had to call 9-1-1 for myself. I did about 3 minutes of my physical therapy, mostly stretching... and my blood sugar crashed. It was 40.
I ate about 24 grams of glucose, and checked again after a bit. It was THIRTY-SIX. It had gone down. I kept eating while I was waiting for the paramedics. It took almost twice as long as normal for the glucose to kick in. By the time they left, it was 75. I ate my "afternoon tea" (ramen with veggies)... a total all in all of about 80 net carbs. My glucose level the next time I tested was three hours later, and it was 150. I expected 200 or more! Crazy...

I left a message for my endo, and they called back but I had fallen asleep and didn't hear it ring...they didn't leave instructions, so I called them.

Tag! They're "it"! LOL


I'm exhausted!

The kitties are doing GREAT. I found a free clinic. It's a real hassle to get there and wait for six hours once a month, but it's been worth it--Licorice and Isis have become regular play monsters, and they suddenly want to snuggle too--I'd forgot how active they were before! LOL

...And I'm now the choir director for my ward at church. I've never done this before, and it's a challenge, but I'm having fun too!

So not everything is weird... just me.
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MORTICIAADDAMS 8/23/2014 10:38PM

    I really hate to hear this about your dad. My is in similar situation. We need to call and check on him. He is around the same age and is having a lot of challenges.

Be careful with the blood sugar. GF!! I have been there way too many times myself. It's scary!!

I'm so glad to hear about the kitties. I hope Amigo is okay too.

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1CRAZYDOG 8/23/2014 12:29PM

    OH my gosh! You never have an empty plate, do you! Well, hope things simmer down a little bit! So sorry for your Dad's problems. **SIGH**

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 8/23/2014 12:21PM

    Ward choir is a calling that would scare me. Glad you are having fun. Wow that is not a good bloodsugar stress really messes mine up too. I hope your dad can figure out a way to stop falling and how to cope. Sounds like a difficult way to live. Enjoy the kitties. Laughter is healing.

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JUSTYNA7 8/23/2014 12:09PM

    I have to say I am fascinated by your father's condition but if it is a quickly progressing disease that is horrible. I'm so sorry. And sad for you and your father. I can offer prayer. I hope you will get to visit. Perhaps he would enjoy listening to you talking about the choir work. But... what a lot to worry about when you can't really do anything to make it better.

As for your own sugars, What the heck? Just after stretching??? I don't know American BS numbers but 36 seems remarkably dangerous. I know when my own blood sugars get too low I tend to go into denial and then panic. I feel so lucky that they are pretty stable these days. I use the extend bars when I know I'll be exercising a long time. Your diet must make it tough. Darn those kidneys!

I just got a call that my B&B guests have entered the Marlborough Forest.. .so they are ahead of schedule hiking the Rideau trail but will come out of the forest with 20 km stil to hike. I immediately told them just to call when they get out and I will come fetch them. They must be miserable. It has thunder stormed for the past couple of days and the humidity has been terrible and the area they are entering is swamp land that will have moving water over much of the trails and muck. I am guessing I have 4 hours to prepare the room/house but I don't imagine they will care much. They were planning to be here tomorrow night.

I also have a dear spark friend who has been coming to the B&B for a couple of years who just had her body MRI... and likely has cancer... again. She is the last to accept help but I convinced her that everything falls on her husband when she says no and she and thier son need his support right now, his job is to be the rock... so I'm about to make a couple of meals to drop off and will drive her to some appointments next week. I already am famiiar with her food needs as she has a lot of restrictions. I usually make all their meals while they stay here. I may as well make double as I have another friend who has a rare neuroligical disorder and while she is busy checking off bucket list activities her family is struggling to try and keep like normal at home. A few meals in their freezer would probably be appreciate. So... it looks like "eat your veggies chicken meat loaf" and "crock pot turkey breast" and "quinoa with roasted vegetables". My guests will have to put up with a house smelling amazing all day and next morning. Although if they are up to it I can make them carrot cake pancakes as those freeze well too, lol. Everything has to be gluten and dairy free and all these recipes are totally grain free.

Well, that was a good planning moment. My struggles are to say no to sugar today... which I blogged about. And I need to do a bit of self care which I think will come from a walk in the pool and reading a chapter of my book . Tonight I am determined to play some harp instead of watching TV. We got a recorder for taping my inlaws' stories and apparently it is a very good one for taping music so I need to practice!

Take care. Justyna

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IOEINC 8/23/2014 9:20AM

    So sorry to hear about your dad. It must have been scary for all of you!! I will keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers. And make sure you keep a check on you too.

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NASFKAB 8/23/2014 1:32AM

  prayers & healing wishes going your way for your father & you just look after yourself all he best

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