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putting the brakes on food pushers vs planning a fall

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

What worries me is the FALL off the health wagon. The first big or little binge. How will I handle it? Maybe I should take a practice fall, like we do in climbing. When you are learning to belay, your instructor takes announced and unannouced falls to test your response. Do I need an announced falL?

This time of year is a good time to diet. I won't be a mom's house until Christmas or Thanksgiving. I LOVE MY MOM. My Mom is also a food pusher.

Now given that I have never cooked for a family, I probably don't understand why women or any people push food. It's probably just a habit and satisfies some comfort or need in them.

When visiting, I am going to start with a gentle affirmation and request their help. "I measure and record all the food I eat". Can you help me with this?

This may be the biggest hurdle to cross for me.

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    Good lesson. Now you know the strength of your commitment to new habits. Shhh, listen; can you hear your body cheering?

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IACTA_ALEA_EST 7/6/2008 10:55AM

    My first fall went better than expected. I expected to resist a return to better choices. I expected a loss of determination and a giving in to old speak (nothing is changed, blah blah blah).

I did not however enjoy what I was eating. I felt miserable with guilt. I did not relish taste. I ate quickly. It was binge-lite and I think that probably the give-away. More work head.

Fall two. I know what to do!

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    I think you are doing the right thing, thinking about the fall before it happens. Too many of us donít do that and when the fall happens, it smacks us in the face and we donít handle it very well. Falling is what I consider to be an inevitable part of the process. Just get right back up and go on.

Oh my goodness, food pushers make me sick. LOL My dear sweet auntie is like that too and it is so hard to resist the temptation. I think food pushers are like that for two reasons. First, they look at us and rather than see us as getting to a healthy weight, they think we are starving and they want to Ďfattení us up. I also think that many food pushers are really quite proud of themselves and cooking abilities. This one woman at work who is always bringing in foods is a food pusher. Sometimes she cooks food and bring it in for parties and celebrations. But other times she cooks food and brings it in for no reason at all. Food pushers just like to cook and serve and share their food.

What you said about asking your family to help is really a good idea. Donít know whether you have your settings to send you Spark newsletters. But one day recently, a newsletter came out and had an article titled, ďDonít Be A Dieting LonerĒ that talked about how important it is to get your friends and family involved in your plan. So, asking them to help you is very wise. Here is the article. It is very informative:


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Sunday, June 29, 2008

My momma was telling me about the nature of obligations this week. As women or caregivers we focus on obligations to others. What about obligations to ourselves?

I am obligated to preserve this body for the duration of my journey. I know that I will likely develop circulation issues in my older age judging from the ailments that my parents and grandparents experienced. I am obligated to prepare for this.

It's odd to look forward and try to guess what my body will need in terms of accomodations. The absolute least I can do , is provide for healthy living and reduce the impact of excess weight on my joints and my vascular system.

PS if you stare at the center of the picture long enough you may be able to see a young moose.

My mother is thin, and has been since her youth. Another preventative step I must take is to reduce anxiety and its effect on the immune system. I am no less obligated to myself than any other human being.

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WILLBOYWONDER 6/30/2008 7:30PM

    While speaking with a coworker today, we got around to talking about the disservice to ourselves when we spend our time so focused on helping other people and being concerned about the welfare of others, that we neglect ourselves. I always tell people that if you really want to keep on being the caretaker of others, you need to stop and replenish your reserve, refill your gas, or you wonít be any good to others. I tell people that if you donít want to pamper yourself for your own sake, then do it so youíll be better able to help others.

That is a lesson I forget, as I do need to stop and smell my own roses rather than spend all my time watering and spreading sunshine on the roses of others.

Our greatest obligation is definitely to ourselves!

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HNNYBNNY0430 6/30/2008 6:26PM

    As I'm reading your blog I'm looking at a beautiful deer in my back yard...I love nature! Where do you live that you have moose?

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can we talk about the colon?

Thursday, June 26, 2008

1990: A student in the good ole USSR
My pants would not zip up. I had bi-polar bathroom habits.
I was diagnosed by a Finnish doctor with smal intestinal inflammation as result of too much sour rye bread. (There was not a lot to eat in Russia in 1990 in the city) My boyfriend's mother made fish head soup. Said it soothes digestion.

2008: Sparkin' I have big belly again (and I'm celibate).
This week of diet changes has resulted in stomach bloating and having neither boyfriend or doctor mom handy to cook soup for me, I have taken my first sip of Aloe Vera Juice. I read on the web about it's magic properties and how it can restore the mucosal lining of the intestine and boost protein absorption.

I am delighted with the taste. I purchased it in the Asian market (Tink Holl) in Cleveland and it's slightly too sweet. (I was worried it would be yucky). I guess a week without refined sugar and scads of salt can rejuvenate the taste buds. It was good. I am going to experiment with 6 oz in one or two jolts per day.

Yeah I somehow missed the words juice drink in between the Korean characters. No wonder it was sweet.

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IACTA_ALEA_EST 7/12/2008 1:39PM

    It did!!!

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    Did the aloe vera juice work?

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water, skin & sensory integration of the world around me

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

I have allergies - you name them, they are mild. But they ravage my ability to smell, and most of the time they tune out the world around me .

Yesterday I was driving into the city and I smelled the city. The diesel train travelling next to me. And later walking out into the darkness, I smelled the breeze off lake Erie.

I wonder if I can attribute increased hydration as a main catalyst. I would like to think water can cure anything now, but for now am starting a list of bennies:

Breathing and smelling
Skin - yesterday Heidi said it was glowing!


Stop. Celebrate. Turn off the brain.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

I had a such great spark week that I almost managed to mess it up. I walked in to the nursing home with my little dog, and got a migraine. I cannot attribute this migraine to any of my known triggers - nicotein, (none) caffeine (no changes there), chocolate (none) , stress. Ohh! Yes.

I stressed myself by trying to fast forward into goals that need to stay in the future. I want more good weigh-ins, but I don't want to wait, I suppose. My brain is craving that fast reward, and not unlike the rat in the maze, I keep mentally hitting the reward bar, but no additional reward is available until time passes. I must have faith that my hard work will eventually pay out, and when it does not, I must still have faith. And still do the work; the planning, the exercising and practise restraint.

I still haven't done my happy-goal-met-dance, and for the benefit of reading this later, I'll just say.....

the happy dance was short and sweet. The dogs think they getting a treat, why not! Gree-nies!

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SVOONE 6/25/2008 10:26AM

    Glad to see you know what your stresses or triggers are and are taking the precautions to stay away from them. You are so right about craving fast forward into the goals part, (we all do it) but realistically remember "if the results are to fast the success will mostly likely be too".
You are starting to get the right attitude about being patient. When you take your time to change habits and other learned behaviors slowly the good behaviors become who you are and you don't feel deprived. It becomes just who you are and your lifestyle. It takes slow and steady changes to win the race. Aleska, with that amazing weight loss you had this week, ask yourself did you ever feel deprived or over stressed to get it? If yes, then you are right about the migraine and you were to hard on yourself. Now the thing to do is go a little easier on yourself. Aleska treat yourself with some love and kindness. So go easy on yourself from now on and just enjoy the process.

My relationship coach told me this. She said that if I don't love myself first in a healthy way how can I do the things I need to do to put myself first and lose the weight. Then she told me to do this every time you pass a mirror look in it and tell yourself "I love you" and "I will be kind to you". Its harder than you think because you have to believe first, but say it enough you will start to do it. Talking about feeling like a fool at first, I did when I first started, but then I realized she was right because if it is so hard to tell myself those things then I must really feel I don't deserve happiness or to achieve any of my goals. Well I believe now that I deserve to be fit, healthy and happy. So do you Aleska!
Oh remember to celebrate each goal even if its not the big one it is still a goal met and won. emoticon

Happy Exercising and Hugs

Now do the happy dance emoticon emoticon

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