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gotta break that stress habit...

Sunday, July 29, 2012

I woke up with the do list active in my thoughts...I used to need coffee for that! But enough! I would like to sleep in on a Sunday! Once!

I added some qualitative measurements to my weekly weigh in including stress, self image and sleep quality....Stress is hard to gauge weekly, because it peaks, spikes and still you can forget about those moments where it was intense and passed.

Stress distorts you view of your own competence. If you are always alert for the disaster, you lose perspective of the big picture. Mine is both familial (both my parents were refugees who dealt with starvation and near death experiences) and self perpetuated.

I have to take the responsibility for my response to the world. So where did it come from and where I am going to take it?

It was interesting growing up to see how differently my mom and dad responded to stress. Dad's was momentary but violent and moms is still alarmist-all-the-time. Mom struggles with auto-immune collagen disorder and dad died of cancer. You cant absolutely tie either to stress response, but it doesnt help!

So where am I taking it? Im starting with awareness and when I catch myself, I use correciton, mediation/prayer and exercise. Tiny Habits guy said that the chances of changing a habit increase when you add a celebration. I'm going to try that this week and see how I do.

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FLORNH 7/29/2012 8:26AM

    Excellent! I think I'll add stress level to my qualitative tracking as well!
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Para gone

Saturday, July 28, 2012

I dont know if other people read old blogs, but this summer I went back to 2008, and found something interesting...the food logs and journal showed me I had a bout of stomach problems that I forgot I had.... Well, I had to wade through a LOT of philosophizing, but it also helped me see myself with a little perspective.

So for the record, today is the day I start a parasite cleanse from Brenda Watkins company. I have used her herbs to cleanse in June 2011 after a prolonged antibiotic regimen of gut-flora-killing Clindamycin for sinus infection and surgery. It was pretty gentle and got me back to normal.

So I put this cleanse off for a long time because the one person I know who has done this cleanse warned me it was a tough cleanse. I plan to stay on half strength well past the 3 days and quit if I need to.

I am changing my diet substantially, and this cleanse is in hopes that I can ascend to higher levels of body care, from the buidling blocks up.

I still struggle with concepts of vegan, vegetarianism, and should I be one, especially after reading the primal foods book yesterday by Gedgaudas... I can personally attest that I dont handle grains well, nor does my dog...

However, I am using the Vega one supplement with pea protein and I tolerate it well (and it tastes good mixed with water). I know these are the first thoughts of a road not taken, and there are many chapters to come...

I told a vacationing doctor and dinner companion in Bonaire that I was completely confused about food and nutrition, and another gentleman at the table scoffed at me. (As if I was drunk or high). Food for him was probably easy. For me, it hasn't been. The more I read, the more confused I get. I still feel that way, but trust my body insights enough to know what is good for me...right now, its broth, fish, pineapple, tea, small qtys of yogurt and lots of probiotics and fiber supplements. I can't say vegetables help or hurt but I'll give it another month and see how things change.

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SPIRIT42013 7/28/2012 3:45PM

    Trusting your body may be the best decision you make. Good luck on your nutrition! emoticon

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the subtle changes after a month

Friday, July 27, 2012

j was rubbing my hip the other day after a fall on a hike and noticed the consistency of my body is different...less knots and tightness. Probably has to do with hydration levels. So as I was posting on the message boards I noticed a few other subtle changes.

Drinking more....of the good stuff..

My fridge is devoid of milk, soda, aspartame and there is only juice and almond milk. y cupboard has fiber drinks such as the last envelopes of south beach "tide me over" and electrolyte mixes. I pretty much take in exclusively water. I found a 12 pack of generic diet cola and when I tasted It, I immediately poured it out....RANK! BLECH! Water tastes nicer.

My sense of taste and smell is keener.
And that makes me make better choices:
I gave up dairy and wheat a month ago cold turkey....I still have cravings for coffee with cream, but the memory of pain is greater than the craving. I can eat small quantities but don't really want to. If I want a crunch , I have a rice cracker. If I want sweet, I have a marshmallow or a small piece of extra dark chocolate.

Chewing more and glomming less.
Trigger foods are not as appealing...I am differentiating in the memory of the taste and actually tasting them now...Could I be actually present in the activity instead of emotionally reliving the past?

For now that's about it, but I am pleased with the lessons learned this summer.

Peace to my sparkfriends :)

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FLORNH 7/28/2012 8:50AM


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SALGUOD2 7/27/2012 5:14PM

    change can be a good thing

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FARIS71 7/27/2012 10:17AM

    Wow that mindfulness is HUGE! Way to go!!!

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SPARKABELLA13 7/27/2012 8:21AM

    Congratulations! I think it's important to notice the subtle changes. I have had the same experience with soda -- yuk! Can't believe I used to drink that!!!


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butternut squash treat

Thursday, July 26, 2012

I roasted a butternut squash on the grill outside on foil and had a lovely butternut risotto with pan-seared salmon and capers.

The real treat was a small dish of squash to which I added a pat of butter and brown sugar.
I have noticed my sense of small is more keen in the last month (my house is cleaner, so my olfactory system is not on strike) and of course that makes eating so much more enjoyable.

I rushed through the dish, not savoring each bite until near the end, when I realized it's savor now or NOT.

I don't know how long this lesson will take, but I remind myself that chewing is ESSENTIAL to digestion.

There are only so many treats - don't rush them!

I noticed my stress level was a little high, that has something to do with rushing and feeding.

Stomach is still puffy, but digestion is normal for 2 weeks, and I added the cleanse and acacia fiber.

Hey, there are leftovers in the fridge! Breakfast!

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    That sounds so delicious! We take chewing for granted but it defines how we will physically feel afterwards, if done correctly. Anyways, we've all been there, glad you will have it for breakfast!

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ALBAUGHMO 7/26/2012 8:12AM

  sounds really good. i 'm glad you enjoyed it. it's hard to find foods that are tasty and are good for us. emoticon emoticon

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dancing destructo queen

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

I love reading blogs about dancing. I read one about a mom making time for her girls to dance with her every day for 15 minutes. If its safe for kids, I can aspire! Tho a bit of a klutz, with practice I could be less of a danger in the kitchen.

I started a spontaneous kriya twist in the kitchen to a new kirtan disc from the library. I know I dont understand kriya right, but on a Shiva Rea video, she does a devotion to a movement to loosen what binds you. So I started my swaying yoga dance meditation and let the music flow in me.


I was twisting at the waist, my arms to the side, finding the release of tension in my back slowly feeling my shoulders let go, my neck relax, my hips and sides enjoying the stretches back and forward and WHAM! the glass tea pot flew as my hand struck it.

It was like a whack of enlightment behind me! KRASH!

Well, the teapot was empty and after I cleaned and vacuumed, I had a laugh, a relaxed mood and a very clean kitchen floor.

Who is to say that a little destruction isn't good for something?


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