Thursday, June 27, 2013
I picked up a few Kessler titles at the library, "The end of overeating" on audio recommended by carolyn sutton and a print copy of "Your food is fooling you or how your brain is hijacked by sugar fat and salt".
A few interesting ideas - "Overeating is a result of changes in the reward center of the brain."
Conditioning kids to food means that when kids are repeatedly exposed to food cues, their reward center becomes hyperactive. They will repeat these patterns even if they have just eaten. They will not stop until the food is gone. My parents were refugees from eastern europe and starved after WWII for years in DP camps in Germany. As I was a severely picky eater, my dad used to force feed me by holding my nose at the dinner table until I had no choice but to open my mouth. My mom use to sneak snacks to me later, after meals. Food was always an argument and a fight for physical control with my father and bribery from my mother. I don't judge my parents for their actions anymore, but I do yearn to understand my love hate relationship with food. Having lost 60 pounds twice in the last 5 years, it is really important for me to put away the diet cycle forever. Despite that I lost the weight, I didn't learn a better way to live. I did learn some good stuff, just not the big picture! It's like finding the lock, but growing weary after fumbling with the key so long. I believe the key is turning and the success of the last 6 weeks is giving me renewed strength.
Another nugget from Kessler:
Combine this 'reward habit' with chemical addiction...block the brain's drug factory and animals pass on the high fat and high sugar foods. the opposite - inject animals with opioids/endorphins, and the animals eat more fat and sugary foods. The brain rewires for more more party space with a bigger and stronger reward center. Foods high in fat sugar and salt do something to the brain, that other foods do not and they are tied to brain chemistry of addiction.
Bland food (ie not high fat and salt) is a way to block the (drug factory) opioid production. Exercise is a way to create a different opioid production habit. Personally I have never felt an addiction for exercise, but my brain may be so starved of opioids I turn to the stairmaster in a fit of jonesing. Either that or try to eat the stairmaster. (The wires looked like red vines candy?) Eating veg is pretty bland but, the palate adjusts and evolves.
Whether explained by science religion or philosophy, overindulging is harmful and one of the oldest human passtimes. I am so ready to prevail! This may be the best summer of my life to date, and I wish the same for all my spark friends. Let's make it the best summer of our lives to date.
I wish you success in everything your collective hearts desire. May you receive what you need most, plus hope and faith to keep your heart on this path.
So that is a quick scan of the material, thank Caro for recommending - will look forward to diving into the audio book!
That is when I am done with Game of thrones...addictive. Drat!
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
I am torn about whether or not I should be drinking even a little coffee. I suspect coffee is one of those silent triggers that keeps me under optimal functioning.
Today I made no coffee and I am a slinky-like in my energy level. Started the day with a bike ride and that did not energize me.
Ate a macrobiotic lunch and that didnt energize me. I really dislike needing coffee. I had decaf tea with a little chai. Nada.
Perhaps tomorrow will be better without coffee
PS listening to Game of Thrones on audio book while I work and loving it!
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
I talked to a stranger tonight about the end of life. Why people avoid nursing homes. One of those brief exchanges that are heartfelt and open. At lot of western philosophies look to minimize suffering, but I prefer the buddhist view that suffering is a human condition that can be ended with truth and following the eight fold path. I have studied very little but what I read seem to be true: too much attachment to eating and attaining things has created suffering. There are foods that seem tro trigger my craving and my old way hedonistic behavior.
I feel I am on the path to accept the transient nature of life and simplify.
I do meet people who have come through tremendous physical suffering. I relate obesity with emotional suffering, but the physical discomfort has been advancing as I have aged. Has being overweight created suffering for you? Are you ready to come through? I am so glad I am not alone in this journey!!!
Monday, June 24, 2013
Here I am thinking about onederland, reminding myself I have a 5 pound focus. Which means I am focused on 208 not 199. What makes round numbers magic, for good or evil? The concept behind them?
Why is 50 so much scarier than 49 for an age? Why is $1.99 better than $2.01? We are talking pocket change.
I think I am doing really well when I get a message from Body Media that is has been more than 2 weeks since a weigh-in. I am trying not to let the "magic" of little numbers impact my "maintenance"thinking too much. Weigh in every two weeks and if I gained, then change, if not stay on track. I eat between 1400-1600 calories and try to burn 3000 daily and sleep 8 hours. If I have a lazy day, or a celebration day, that doesn't change the formula back to my home maintenance base. Those days I had a little difference in the pocket change. The big picture is the long haul.
In the meantime, the things that keep me going are how my clothes fit (I really hated when velcro popped open above the zipper on my shorts while gardening) and how my shape is changing in the mirror. This round with spark, I also notice how my food makes my body feel and that has made it easier to cut down white flour and sugar to low levels. I feel stronger when I eat healthy vegetables, beans and fruits.
Friday, June 21, 2013
A.M. thoughts :
Today, I am going to rise above. I am well- rested! I have a fridge full of fresh food and I want for nothing. I am blessed. I will make the most of what I have.
I will follow the meals I have chosen, and finish the path projects, now that the taproots are removed. I will clean out and organize 1 space of the garage - jars, jugs and cans. I will bring the new insulation to attic.
I hit the supply store at dinner time and stopped at the market on a craving - for red meat....The Miles farmer's market has great cold ST. louis ribs and I decided to have some...yes I know I am a vegetarian, but this is a confession. I carried the package around for a bit and then brought it back to the cooler. I dont really like my digestion on meat, and the temptation got less wonderful as I walked. Walking around was enough time to make the right choice. I settled on some couscous with pistachios for a little extra carbs to finish my projects and oil cured olives for a little walk on the wild side... Victory - right size, right ingredients!
Then I stood next to the pastry counter for a while and had lusty thoughts about the big cannolis (sometimes a cannoli is just a cannoli ) versus the little ones. It was that good just to look. Hubba hubba. Ricotta with little chocolate nibs and pistachio crumbles. And it was enough to remember the taste. The little wisp of lemon that gets lost in the sweet cream and flaky but crisp pastry. And then I remembered the mood swing after the last pastry. Here's looking at you kid, I decided. Farewell, cannoli. We'll always have the miles farmers market.
Go figure - there is a full moon in two days. Mine will be obscured by branches and look like a pale cannoli, I think. Off to bed, now that I have adjusted my food tracker . Nite sparkers!
We knew it was made of cheese - why not ricotta?
The cat ate the cannoli!
Dont forget to wink at the full moon - and remember Neil Armstrong!
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