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Oh snap!

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

So I have been single for over a week...for anyone who knows me that is a miracle folks. I like to think that having a boyfriend always gives me hope and something to look forward to....pretty pathetic. I know! My kids dad keeps trying to work things out with me and we werent together this past week but he was trying. And last night he agreed we shouldnt even try to be together bc all we do is argue. I really feel like I have moved on from him anyways, Ive out grown that relationship. On another note, I have been eating awesome and workin out. I can really tell that Im losing weight and have more energy. 14th half marathon here we come!

  
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AZMOMXTWO 7/16/2013 7:46AM

  keep up the good work enjoy the marathon

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feeling much better

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

I am feeling much better today. When an awesome relationship turns to crap it is much easier to let go of......so last night on my walk I said I am letting go of it. Today I feel much better and I am in a good mood. I got my van taken care of and as far as my daughters dad he will always be a jerk so now its just waiting for court. I feel better about it. As I was on my walk last night I reminded myself that I am a good mom and bust my butt to keep us a-float, thats what moms do. SO regardless of what he says or does My kids and I know that I got this! I feel like if I just take this one step at a time it will all fall into place. I am so glad I get my therapy walk at night even if it is at 9:30pm. I was very proud today bc I got up earlier and my healthy breakfast to take to the office. I have been doing that a lot and eating better. SO I gotta stay healthy to keep up with work, kids, sports, and marathons lol. Mountain Mama's got this

  
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IRISHHOLLY85 7/9/2013 8:20AM

    Thank you for the support

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HAPPYMENOW58 7/9/2013 8:02AM

    Good for you! Stay strong... You can do it!

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AZMOMXTWO 7/9/2013 7:38AM

  It is good to see that the walk helped

keep think positive you can do it

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ready to cry

Monday, July 08, 2013

I hate being that girl that always has depressing blogs. I wanna have I am a success blog. But I let another guy get the best of me. fell hard for him and was pretty happy with him. Until he asked if another girl can sleep in his bed....so that became a huge fight and we broke up. Now given my past I should be proud of myself for not taking any bull crap from him. But I have to remind myself that I was on cloud 9 with him and that fall is gonna hurt pretty bad. But I will slowly get back on my feet. Now another thing my van had smoke coming out of it on the way to work today.....really now it has to do that. whatever it needs oil, I can fix that. The most important thing though is my daughter's dad is trying to take custody of my daughter from me and it is wearing me down. This has been going on for 5 plus years now. I am not a bad mom, I dont get in trouble, never been to jail, I dont neglect my kids, and work super hard to provide for them. But he feels that she will have a better life for her. Its really a control thing, he was so controlling over me when we were married. Soi now I get to pay for a lawyer again and worry non stop about my baby girl. ugh trying to find the silver lining in all this. I hate complaining like this but I cant concentrate on work with all this on my mind. I cant wait to go for my walk tonight, thats my stress reliever. Thanks for listening

  
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AKHEIDI 7/8/2013 1:10PM

    Be strong! You will need to be to get past this rough spot. emoticon

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MSKRIS7 7/8/2013 10:39AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon

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IRISHHOLLY85 7/8/2013 8:26AM

    thank you that really does help. Shes 6 and she does see it already. Makes me sad for her.

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AZMOMXTWO 7/8/2013 8:12AM

  I wish I could say it is easy but I can not lie to you it is hard but you are doing a great job I hope that your Daughter can see his game and not go for it (assuming she is old enough) good luck emoticon

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Finally it happened!!!!

Thursday, March 07, 2013

I have been i this down, depressed, not good enough for any guy, embarrassed to drive a mini van, and will never find any man type of mood for the past two weeks. And yesturday I had a moment with my boys and I just all of the sudden snapped out of it. I taught the boys how to make healthy breaded parm chicken....they are three so it was an experience lol. But I was having fun and it made me notice how they are growing up so fast. It was at that moment that I was like there are more important things than worrying about a man not excepting my situation. This is no situation it is my life and it is what I make it. Ever since that moment I have seen things in a new and totally different way. I am one kick butt single mom, yes I may live with my mom and three kids, but I dont care anymore if that bothers a guy. I also don't care if my mini van or the fact that I have three kids bothers a man. The right guy will not care but will be excepting. My kids are my world and right now I am here for them to teach them about life and love them.
Also I was changing diapers today and I saw all my half marathon medals hanging up. It hit me pretty hard, to see the GEIST Half marathon medal. Its one of the harder races here in Indy and it was such a big deal for me to do it and finish it. Right now I am training for the Mini Marathon for May. I am trying to finish it in under three hours, my record is 3 hours and 20 mins. I have quit dieting and more adapted just a healthy way of eating. I am trying to eat foods that will give me fuel, for all these tough workouts I have been doing. It feels good to be lifting weights and I am getting faster on my mile times. SO all summed up I am back to happy holly and ready to work my butt off the next 8 weeks to lose 27 pounds and become stronger.

  
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1DETERMINEDSOUL 5/7/2013 8:57AM

    Great Blog! You're an inspiration! Congratulations on the marathons. I think that's awesome.

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WOUBBIE 3/7/2013 3:16PM

    emoticon

Good rebound!

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yuck this gets hard

Monday, February 25, 2013

The hardest part of a break up for me is the lonely part. I just had my weekend with my kids and we had a blast but when they went to bed I was like oh snap no one to talk to. lol Made me feel pathetic. Still feel kind of pathetic. I am also done with school so I dont have homework distracting me. I am trying to focus on working out and finding a job with my new degree. When you go through a break up people say just focus on your kids....I am always focused on my kids ya dummy. When am I not thinking about them lol. Why is your kid's dad the hardest to move on from? I feel like I have been in an ever long battle with trying to move on from him. oh well it will just take time. I have a great weekend to look forward too of shopping and time with friends

  
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ALISHAB3 2/25/2013 11:13AM

    My sister went through that after her divorce, she has found someone now and so just don't give up because she found someone even after having breast cancer and a double mastectomy. So, if she can, you can. Also, I am personally single, and I kind of like my freedom. I do belong to a couple of book clubs and walking groups, so I get my social interaction, but I also get my 'me' time for reading and meditation.

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BUGLET- 2/25/2013 9:52AM

    This is only temporary. Look around and find other things that bring you pleasure or you are thankful for, it will take your mind off him.

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ANGELICASASSY 2/25/2013 9:48AM

  You can do this!! When Loneliness sets in, grab a book or chat to a friend online! It will get easier.

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