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#527: I Was Truly Blessed Today

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

When discussing developing a positive outlook, many public speakers are fond of using the rhyming phrase, "An attitude of gratitude." To me, giving thanks for blessings throughout the day is a natural habit. Sometimes the blessings are small, sometimes so huge that merely saying, " emoticon," is not enough.

Here is an example of a small (to me) blessing: Earlier this week the light bulb emoticon in my dining room burned out. I made a mental note to change it but promptly forgot. That happens often to us, doesn't it? Later, as I pulled laundry from the washing machine to put in the dryer, I turned on the laundry room light to see better. As the light came on, I recalled the burned out bulb, finished loading clothes into the dryer and then grabbed a new bulb to replace the burned out one.

I often receive "alerts" this way. Perhaps you do, too. Always, I give thanks.

A major blessing is what happened today. This has to rank as one of the most major blessings I have ever received. Maybe not on a par with not being killed, maimed or blinded in car crashes (not my fault), but major nevertheless. emoticon

I had parked in a library lot on my way to attend a seminar. For some reason, instead of putting my keys in a pocket, I went to retrieve several items from the front passenger side of the car and set the keys on the car's roof. I went inside and 90 minutes later searched frantically for my keys. Then I recalled that I had left them on top of the car.

Scared of what I would not find in the parking lot -- my car -- I ran outside without hope the car and keys would still be there. But they were. Praise the Lord! Cars around mine had changed so I figured either no one saw the keys (unlikely since they were so obvious) or were honest enough to not take them.

My heart was beating wildly with relief emoticon . Imagine the trouble a stolen car would have caused -- lack of transportation, loss of hundreds of dollars of bowling equipment, office files and more. Plus dealing with the insurance company and police, finding a way home, having to get rides to look for a replacement car, not being able to bowl league until I could afford new equipment, missing doctor appointments, etc.

The list could go on and on.

All I could do was look into the blue sky and say, "Thank you, Lord. Once again you saved me." emoticon

You may have different beliefs but if you develop the positive outlook of "An attitude of gratitude" and give thanks for every daily blessing (traffic lights on green, dropping something and not having it break, and so on) your life will be enriched.

Being grateful for blessings does not eliminate money woes, trouble at work, rude drivers, a disrespectful teenager, poor customer service or other things that could aggravate us daily, but giving thanks to God or to the universe for blessing you will allow peace into your heart and soul.

But don't take my word for it. Try giving thanks for everyday blessings for a week and see how life becomes more positive for you. It works for me and could for you, too.

And, yes, from now on I will put my keys in a pocket as soon as I get out of my car. emoticon

  
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TEDYBEAR2838 7/8/2014 10:40AM

    Just read this. WOW that was a BLESSING!

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MJEFFERSON23 5/22/2014 1:48PM

  I'm grateful for Sparkers (no, people) like you! emoticon

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BRAIN-STORM 3/20/2014 2:41PM

  Love it!!! Words so true and well spoken!!!
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PRAYERBLUE44 3/11/2014 2:00AM

    Thanks for sharing this! Amazing grace! emoticon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 1/4/2014 3:37PM

    emoticon emoticon i have always said it is not so much what life throws our way but more how we deal with it.having a positive attitude is what has carried me through most of my lifes burden that and the strong belief god would never give us anything we canīt handle and who am i to disagree with god so i just get on with it. emoticon

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 6/4/2013 12:54AM

    Praise the Lord Lou for watching out for you!!!
Continued blessings and hugs,
Helen

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 5/20/2013 12:44PM

    Great blog, Lou! Our 24 year old son, Jeff, will never forget the time he had put his $600+ in his lap and then made a pit stop at the grocery store before going to pay his rent. It had dropped off of his lap onto the parking lot! He called me, in frantic tears, telling me he knew what he had done. I told him to GO BACK to the store and retrace his steps; and to go see the manager. A young SACKER had picked up the cash, and turned it in to the manager! What a BLESSING! A great lesson, too, as Jeff admitted that he had no idea if he would have done the same thing had the roles been reversed!

I'm so glad your keys were still there! emoticon

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GOSPELCLOWN 5/4/2013 11:21AM

    GREAT BLOG- and so true!

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SUSANNAH31 4/12/2013 3:38PM

    I couldn't agree more about being grateful for all that is good in one's life.
Too often we don't appreciate something until we have lost it.
I often give thanks for having my eyesight so that I can see some of the beauty of nature around us.

Thanks for this inspirational blog.

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WARRIORGIRL121 4/9/2013 10:24AM

    Loved this blog, Lou! Definitely the Lord was looking out for you! Wonderful! emoticon

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NANHBH 3/31/2013 3:05PM

    I love this blog, Lou. I'm so grateful that your car wasn't stolen. You must live in a safe place!

Have ever read the book, Prison to Praise"? Your blog message reminds me of that book's message.

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 3/26/2013 2:58PM

    I wish I could write "Gee Lou I can't relate to losing the car keys"

I wrote the book on losing stuff! I could tell you stories, but then everyone who knows me would interrupt me to finish the stories.

The only attitude I want is gratitude. I remind myself each day to be grateful for my blessings.

Some times when I watch the news, I wonder about some folks. How did they turn out so awful-what happened to make them so mean. But then something cool happens like no one stealing your car and it reminds us of the goodness in humanity. I am grateful no one took your car too.

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WENDYSPARKS 3/16/2013 7:50AM

    Glad you got your keys back!! You are a blessing to me Lou...

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NOTFATCAT 3/15/2013 5:04PM

    Lou, you are living right! I also believe that if I live by the Golden Rule that others will be apt to show me the same courtesy, even God.

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BOVEY63 3/15/2013 1:44PM

    So glad everything worked out so well. I had a similar incident once - my oldest son was a baby and we had gone shopping. I took him from the shopping cart, put him in the car along with my purchases. At the next stop I realized my purse was still in the cart in a Shopko parking lot. I was so relieved when I got back and found the cart with my purse still in it.
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TEDYBEAR2838 3/14/2013 8:57PM

    You are so right. I spend a big part of my day talking
to the Lord. He's my closest friend and He looks out
for me in situations that I can't even imagine.

You are blessed your car was not stolen.

Maybe your angel was hiding them from the bad guys
sight? Could be!

Thanks for sharing your story.



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GABY1948 3/14/2013 6:50PM

    OH, Lou! My heart was racing with yours as I read about the keys! Yes, I have the same beliefs as you and do believe He blesses us in numerous ways...big and small.

I am so glad that He blessed you and saved you all the numerous inconveniences that you already know would have been.

Needless to say, I am so happy that it turned out the way it did! emoticon

How happy I was to see your name on a blog again. It's been far too long, my friend! emoticon Gaye

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KENDRACARROLL 3/14/2013 10:51AM

    That was a big blessing indeed. Glad things worked out alright.
Always good to stay positive and appreciate your blessings big and small.
Also good to be reminded from time to time to do so.
Thanks for posting.

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SLIMMERJESSE 3/14/2013 9:24AM

    OMG! That wasn't good luck - it was a miracle! (smiling)

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MALEXANDER4 3/14/2013 7:12AM

    Sometimes a thanks is all the lord is looking for. I know I did it a few times yesterday myself. Just feels right. glad it all worked out for you.

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GOLFGMA 3/14/2013 7:00AM

    Had a similar incident happen recently when I went to visit my Mom. I had done laundry for her and when I reached to get the laundry I placed my keys on the console , got out ,locked the door and went inside the facility. Not until I was going to leave and reached into the pocket of my bag and didn't find my keys did I realize what I had done. I was thankful that my husband answered his phone and came to my rescue. The Lord is good to us!

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DEBRITA01 3/14/2013 6:57AM

    If we focus on the blessings in our lives, we can live a more positive life. Glad your keys were waiting for you! emoticon

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SORTIZA99 3/14/2013 2:32AM

    God bless you always.
Good day.

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1STATEOFDENIAL 3/14/2013 1:46AM

    It's also a great feeling to whole-heartedly thank someone who does something simple but helpful for you. When someone holds a door, picks something up that you dropped, or steps aside for you to pass, take a second to look them in the eye and say an honest and grateful "thank you". It shows them that you really do appreciate their moment of kindness and can encourage them to do the same for someone else.

As for your keys, consider getting a carabiner clip to put on your keys. Then instead of setting them down, you just quickly hook them onto a belt loop. When you get into a habit, they'll always be there. I've used one for years, hooking it either to my purse or a belt loop, and it's great because my keys aren't buried in my purse or poking a hole in my leg in my pocket.

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IAMWINNING 3/13/2013 11:24PM

    Praise the Lord, indeed! Certainly His hand was on you and your keys.

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JO88BAKO 3/13/2013 10:23PM

    What a blessing!

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#526: I Don't Like...But I Do Like...

Sunday, January 13, 2013

We all have things we don't like and things we do. Here are some of my thoughts about what I don't like and the positive side of what I do like. Maybe you can relate.
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I don't like the way I look emoticon, but I do like the goal weight picture I keep in my mind emoticon and realize that goal can be achieved, despite setbacks, if I work diligently, day by day, inch by inch, pound by pound to get there.

I don't like that I sometimes overindulge as with the last two days, but I do like that new beginnings are unlimited and may start at any time which I will do every time I backslide. emoticon

I don't like that there is so much housework and yardwork that needs to be done, but I like the feeling I get when I have totally cleaned a room of the house or have raked several bags of leaves knowing I am making progress. emoticon

I don't like being alone, but I do like knowing that if there is a special someone meant for me to meet that it will be so and if not that I am comfortable living life anyway. emoticon

I don't like being in everyday pain from back problems, but I do like being able to still get around on my own without a walker or wheelchair although some days are more difficult than others and that I can still work out, within limits. emoticon

I don't like that money often seems in short supply, but I do like knowing that when unexpected repairs or other bills pop up that there always seems a way to pay for them. emoticon

I don't like that my normal positive attitude sometimes isn't emoticon, but I do like knowing that those down times don't last and that I have friends I can call to talk to and your blogs and posts to read to perk me back up emoticon.

I don't like the times when the words don't work and I don't make progress on my book emoticon, but I do like how far I've come with it and how writer's block doesn't last emoticon.

I don't like that I procrastinate, but I do like that it is a habit that can be broken, one task at a time. emoticon

I don't like that I will probably never meet all of my SP and Facebook friends in person emoticon, but I do like those I have met and the new friends I have made knowing that meeting more of you may happen in the future emoticon.

I don't like the frequent feeling that my life is empty, but I do like believing there is something important for me to do waiting for me and that I can pray for it to be a mighty mountain of challenge as I keep my eyes open for opportunities to serve others. emoticon
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I don't like that I need to keep this short, but I do like being able to share more thoughts another time. emoticon
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Be well. Let peace fill your hearts. emoticon

  
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PRAYERBLUE44 4/27/2014 6:55PM

    Super! Thank you so much for sharing! Lord bless you always!

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GOSPELCLOWN 5/4/2013 11:23AM

    Excellent balancing act!

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WARRIORGIRL121 4/9/2013 10:21AM

    Beautiful blog, Lou... sorry I missed reading it sooner. emoticon friend!

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 3/11/2013 10:07PM

    What a nice blog. I thought you had given up blog writing, this one hit close to home for me. I was able to relate to most of it. It is as if you read my mind : )

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JMARIES51 2/3/2013 9:56PM

    Great blog, Lou. So good to have you writing again. Hope your other writer's block has cleared up.

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RORYLYONS 1/25/2013 9:05PM

    You bring love & compassion to us in your blogs lou...Keep them coming dear friend. We are so fortunate to know you as a friend. emoticon

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WENDYSPARKS 1/21/2013 5:40AM

    I like to think positive also....keep the faith!!!! I have missed your blogs!

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JOYATLAST 1/18/2013 5:50PM

    I thought I had lost blog subscriptions, but I'm thinking maybe my friends were on blog breaks - like me!

Great message! Glad to see you posting again!

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VABCHLOSER 1/16/2013 5:02AM

    Great blog, Lou!

I like to think of my journey to my goal weight as a fit of stops and starts....as long as I always start and stay started longer than the stop, I win!

You will win too!! Keep at it :)

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BOVEY63 1/15/2013 6:56PM

    I loved this blog (and have sure missed you writing them) Lou. Great idea to list the negative and then the positive!
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LIGHTHEART09 1/15/2013 1:48AM

    Lou you are such a great guy...life has it's ups and downs...and for sure there is a gal out there for such a great guy as you!
Hugs,
Nan
PS glad you are back blogging

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NANHBH 1/14/2013 10:18PM

    Lou,

The valleys help up appreciate the mountains all the more. Sounds like you are reflecting on both. I'm holding you in prayer.
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CHARMIN944 1/14/2013 12:29PM

    Thanks for reminding me that we should always count our blessings.

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IAMWINNING 1/14/2013 10:58AM

    Thank you, Lou, for such a great blog (yours always are). You've reminded us to look for the silver lining to whatever grey clouds we have, and to never, never give up.

God has great plans for you, and when He's ready, He will reveal them to you, step by step. : ) I pray God's blessings on you, and that He will give you His peace until such times as He's ready to show you the next step.

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KASEYCOFF 1/14/2013 2:37AM

    Lou, it's as if you read my mind--! We may not share all the same things exactly, you and I (you would laff at my high bowling score!), but considering the yin and yang of it all, we are very much alike.
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DEB9021 1/13/2013 8:01PM

    Great blog. And the cool thing is that in many cases, the difference between the thing you don't like and the thing do is something that YOU DID or CAN DO to change it. Even if you can't have everything you want, you can change your life for the better by taking action. emoticon

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CARRIEANNE1027 1/13/2013 7:13PM

    I so can relate! It's wonderful how you focus on the positives instead of the negatives..
I've missed reading your blogs.. I hope you will find the time to continue to write more of them!

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SCORPION1352 1/13/2013 7:01PM

    This is a wonderful blog----Gives me alot to think about. I don't like being around negative things and people I do like the postives in my life like God, my family my friends.

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KENDRACARROLL 1/13/2013 6:38PM

    Very excited to see a blog from you, Lou.
I can relate to quite a few of your "don't like - do likes".

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1STATEOFDENIAL 1/13/2013 6:38PM

    Knowing what bothers you and what you don't like gives you a starting point for what changes can be made to turn it around. Looks like you're moving forwards, slowly but steadily. You'll get to where you want to be!

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GABY1948 1/13/2013 6:02PM

    I have MISSED your blogs SO much, Lou! This is an outstanding one! Funny, I don't hear from you often but I still consider you one of my best sparkfriends!

Your blog has many things that even fit me to a tee, but the others I can understand too. By the look of other replies on this post we ALL missed your blogs.

Sure do hope to see more of you around now! emoticon
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MALEXANDER4 1/13/2013 5:57PM

    Now Lou, we love your blogs, but don't dispare. Life is ten percent what we make it and ninety percent what the lord has planned for us. So just smile each morning, as your given a new day, and be blessed in knowing that your working the process, your special someone is waiting on you also, and you have so many friends, some of which yes we will never meet, but you push me and you help me on my journey and that means the world to me and i'm so sure a lot of others like me. We can only do this one pound at a time and that is what we shall do. emoticon

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SLIMMERJESSE 1/13/2013 5:29PM

    Fabulous blog. Thanks. (I'm voting for it.)

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YATMAMA 1/13/2013 5:16PM

    Balance. I love this blog!!

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MYLOVELYCURVES 1/13/2013 5:02PM

    I love this, Lou! I've really missed reading your blogs. I can relate with many of them (I don't like that I procrastinate either, and I do like that I'm making progress with my book, for example). I loved your honesty! :) There are always things we like and don't like about ourselves and our lives, but it's always good to know and remember that we're not alone in that. Others usually share what we are feeling and thinking.

I hope you had a nice and relaxing weekend!

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DEBRITA01 1/13/2013 4:44PM

    Writing down the positives and seeing them in print promotes an attitude of gratitude. There are positives & negatives in every day life, but when we choose to focus on the positive it brings more peace and contentment. Good blog, Lou...nice to see you posting again. emoticon

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TEDYBEAR2838 1/13/2013 4:35PM

    I am so glad to see a post from you. MISSED your writings.

I especially like this one :) emoticon

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#525: Goodbye Brownie

Saturday, June 30, 2012

When I last blogged in February it was to say goodbye to Little Thang, one of my kitties.

Today it is to say goodbye to Brownie, my last kitty emoticon, the second one to pass on this year and the third in two years. emoticon



Brownie and Little Thang were strays that came to the house a number of years ago, about six months before Kitty who passed on last year. All three were amazingly compatible with each other and with my dogs.

During the past week Brownie ate less and less and became lethargic. When I took him to the vet today, she said Brownie likely wouldn't make it through the day so we said goodbye, she gave the injection, and we watched and caressed Brownie as he quietly left us.

Brownie was about the friendliest cat I have ever seen; no one was a stranger to him. A couple of years ago a friend stopped by. He hadn't seen Brownie before but as soon as he sat down in the living room Brownie was on his lap, purring and doing the paw kneading thing cats do. A couple of minutes later he was asleep in my friend's lap.

One of the things Brownie loved the most was stretching out on the kitchen window ledge, especially when the window was open with a breeze blowing in.



He loved deli turkey and chicken. No matter how quiet I tried to be to trick him, he always heard the bread being unwrapped and I would hear "Meow, meow, meow," because he knew what was coming next. So as I made my sandwich I would have to pull apart a piece or two for him because his hearing couldn't be tricked.

But as much as he liked turkey and chicken, what he loved the most was being cuddled. When I was at the table Brownie would climb up, curl next to the computer and wait until I cupped his head in one of my hands so he could sleep. The problem was that he stretched his rear legs across the keyboard so I had to keep moving his legs with my free hand while trying to type one-handed at the same time. emoticon There was no way, though, that I would wake him; his head felt too warm in my hand and with his kitty motor purring, waking him would have been thoughtless.

I'll give a neighbor the cleaned out litter box and the leftover food and treats for her four kitties.

And, as before, I will notice how quiet the house is, and probably will forget Brownie is no longer with me when I call his name. Baby and Thumper, my dogs, know something is not right. They saw me leave with Brownie and then watched me come home crying without him. They haven't left my side as they offer their sympathy, sensing, I'm sure, that Brownie will no longer bless our house.

But one thing is certain -- Brownie, as with all the other pets that have shared my life over the years -- will always remain in my thoughts and in my heart. emoticon Brownie. I love you and miss you.

  
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CINDYHOUGHTON 10/17/2012 4:32PM

    The tears run down my face as I remember my Iddo Cat who died almost a year ago. He too would sit with me as I wrote my blogs. He waited for me to come home from work at midnight before breathing his last. His mother abandoned him when he was just a few days old. He was the first pet that was all mine. I miss him dearly. My heart cries with yours, Lou.

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YATMAMA 9/5/2012 10:39PM

    So very sorry for your loss. So thankful that you had such a great furry friend for as long as you had him. *hugs*

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KICKINGIT@56 9/5/2012 5:31PM

    I could feel the sadness in your blog (written with teardrops and smiles), but the warmth of Brownie will linger on in your heart and mind. I hope that helps bring you a little comfort.

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TEDYBEAR2838 8/31/2012 10:28PM

    Hey, we need an updated blog from you.

Miss your talks

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 8/9/2012 12:03PM

    Oh, LOU! emoticon emoticon The blog I read before going on vacation was the one about Little Thang, and now, as I get back, it's Brownie...

When Petunia goes (our 10 lb. calico who is about 13), we also won't be replacing her with another cat, and it will be a sad day when it comes. Living in a 990 sq. ft. house, the litter box is just too potent, and when she goes, it goes. emoticon

I'm so glad you still have your doggie companions, Lou... now those, I just couldn't live without. I hope you will always be able to keep at least one furry friend for loving companionship that only they can give. emoticon

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FLGIRL1234 7/29/2012 11:45PM

    So sorry you lost Brownie. What a touching rememberence of the things that you embraced and loved about him.

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JUSTDUCKY1405 7/23/2012 10:22AM

    Awwww... your memories of Brownie and your sharing them are such a wonderful gift. I am sorry for your loss of Brownie! Hugs and love!

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TINKERBELL200 7/20/2012 10:28PM

    I'm so sorry Lou. I just ran across your blog and my heart sunk! Blessings to you and may God you give you peace and may you see Brownie again someday. What a lucky kitty he was to show up on your door step.
God bless
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JMARIES51 7/20/2012 12:41AM

    Very sad news, Lou. I am so sorry for your losses. Our pets are like our family (sometimes even better)!


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GERMANPICKLE 7/17/2012 4:01AM

  so very sad.

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HELE_LANAKILA 7/6/2012 7:28AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Brownie sounds like he was indeed, a blessing. ((((HUGS))))

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LESLIES537 7/4/2012 1:42PM

    awww, Brownie sounds like he was the biggest sweetie in the world! I'm so very sorry for your loss. I would like to believe that Brownie is now reunited with Little Thang and they are thoroughly enjoying their kitty heaven. You all will be reunited, in God's time.

Such a cute story about how he would lay across your computer sleeping. Thanks for sharing that with us.

Bless your heart, Lou.
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NANHBH 7/2/2012 12:26AM

    Lou,

I am so sorry for your loss of your beloved Brownie. Our pets are so precious to us. May you be comforted by the many memories and photos you have of Brownie. How sweet that your pups were there to comfort you.
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WENDYSPARKS 7/1/2012 1:57PM

    Sorry Lou...tears came to my eyes....God Bless...

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IAMWINNING 7/1/2012 11:15AM

    Lou, my heart breaks with and for you. Brownie was a beautiful kitty, and I could 'see' him as you described some of your times with him. God bless and comfort you.

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LIBBYFITZ 7/1/2012 8:59AM

    So sad. Sorry Brownie has gone. My thoughts are with you.xoxo

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 7/1/2012 3:51AM

    How sad I am to hear about Brownie. Please accept my deepest sympathy. Thank you for sharing your memories of Brownie with us. He was very sweet and beautiful.

HUGS
Pam

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KASEYCOFF 7/1/2012 2:45AM

    Really sorry he's gone, Lou - but so glad he was part of your life...
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TEDYBEAR2838 6/30/2012 10:18PM

    that is so sad, but I love you sharing the story
with us, Lou.

Thank you ....

So, no more cats?

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CODEMAULER 6/30/2012 10:06PM

    (I followed BOVERY63 over here - I hope that is OK)

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you so much for sharing a good home with such beautiful friends!



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KENDRACARROLL 6/30/2012 9:52PM

    Lou, I'm so sorry you lost Brownie. Having to put pets to rest is a really sad and heartwrenching thing.
Find comfort in your dogs, as I'm sure they will in you, while you mourn the loss of your buddy.

BTW, you should blog more.
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MALEXANDER4 6/30/2012 9:38PM

    My little buddy has a tumor and it is only a matter of time. But I wanted to allow him to live his life till the end. So he is here still ;doing remarkable well. I just keep buying his meds from the vet and he is holding his own. We lost our cat george to a snake bite this past spring and that was tough. My thoughts are with you tonight. God bless.

Michelle.

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MARYANNSQUEST 6/30/2012 9:34PM

    Lou,
I am so sorry for your Loss, Brownie was such a beautiful kitty! Little Thang will meet him when he crosses the rainbow bridge, They will be together again to play in the fields while the Lord watches over them.
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WARRIORGIRL121 6/30/2012 9:15PM

    Oh, Lou, Brownie is beautful. Again, I'm so very sorry for your loss. Hugs, Karen

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DRAGONCHILDE 6/30/2012 8:47PM

    So sorry to hear this. I recently lost a beloved kitty of 10+ years to an abrupt, unforseen death. Literally fine one moment, gone three minutes later. (We suspect stroke or heart attack.)

It's heartbreaking to lose a loved one, even when that loved one is "just" a pet.

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CHRIS3874 6/30/2012 8:38PM

    My condolences on your loss. he looks like one of my lost cats. RIP.
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BOVEY63 6/30/2012 7:52PM

    I am so sorry to hear about Brownie - it is so evident how much you loved that beautiful kitty. Brownie, Little Thang, Baby, Thumper and all other animals who were brought in by you are very blessed animals to have someone who truly cares about them so much. This world needs many more Lous in it!
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CARRIEANNE1027 6/30/2012 6:49PM

    Awww.. I'm so sorry for your loss Lou.. Brownie sounds like he was an awesome friend.. May the memories of the joy and love Brownie gave you remain forever in your heart.. emoticon

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SLIMMERJESSE 6/30/2012 5:54PM

    Breaks my heart. Sad. This is the tough part about loving our furry friends. Loss is never easy. Hope you're okay.

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 6/30/2012 5:39PM

    brownie's paw print is on your heart forever! You saved her from the streets & she loved you emoticon

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GABY1948 6/30/2012 5:20PM

    Oh, Lou, my heart is breaking for you. As you know I have been through the same scenario the last 3 years with my beloved babies (collies).

Your description of typing one-handed was the BEST...the things we do for our babies That shows true love.

I do hope you get another...I know it will never take the place but it can help fill the void that is left in your home.

God Bless you and I will be praying for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JUDITH316 6/30/2012 4:31PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss, I can sense your pain as I too have lost 2 cats over the years, my last "kitty" was a 17 year old red tabby who was diabetic, he lived for 3 years with severe diabetes having 2 insulin injections daily..In spite of all the TLC his kidney's shut down and he passed in 2006. My prayers are with you. emoticon

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ONUTHIN125 6/30/2012 4:23PM

    emoticon I am so sorry for your loss. My mom sent me the poem Rainbow Bridge when we had a beloved pet pass. If you have never read this poem, goggle Rainbow Bridge Poem. I cry every time I read it. Pets are so special and the people who love animals are also very special. Again, sorry for your loss. emoticon

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JAOTTO 6/30/2012 4:09PM

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#524: Saying "Thank You" Not Enough

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Three weeks ago I wrote about losing another pet, Little Thang, a kitty I took in as a stray eight years ago. When I said goodbye to her I also said goodbye to another piece of my heart as we all do when we lose someone or something close to us.

Over the past several years there have too many relatives, friends and pets pass on that I am surprised there is any of my heart left.

It is this accumulation of losses that left me feeling numb.

But, you encouraged me even as some of you are going through similar situations.

As I thought how best to express my gratitude for having you stand with me during this latest loss, I realized that merely saying, "Thank you," is not enough.

I appreciate your friendship and hope you know how much you helped me. It may not be enough but when I say, "Thank you," it is from my heart that grows a bit larger as it fills with the support and sympathy you have shown me during this time.

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IAMDARLENE 7/26/2012 8:44PM

   

Lou, I'm sorry about the loss of your cat. I'm as sure as I can be that Little Thang was close to your heart. My dog, Joey, who I wrote a blog about died on May 6th of this year. I bought him when he was about 7 weeks old, 13 years ago. Losing Joey was extremely hard for me! Tears are coming now, just thinking about him.

I came here to thank you for leaving the comment on my blog and chose this blog to read. I'm glad I did.

I like the one more question you said you would ask. I'm planning on doing that brainstorming so I'll add your question now! Thanks again, Darlene

PS I was given another dog. Her name is Annie. She only weighs four pounds so she's just a little thang! (smile) I'll write about her one day soon.

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KICKINGIT@56 5/14/2012 8:41PM

    "Thank You" is more than enough. Friendships are knit together by sharing, kind thoughts and prayers. We should be thanking you for all you have given to your spark friends. The amazing thing about the human heart, no matter how many pieces are torn away by sadness or grief it always seems to regenerate itself and comes back stronger than ever. That's God's grace.

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CHATTIEGIRL 4/26/2012 8:53PM

    Hi Lou;

Thank you for stopping by my site and you kind word. It is hard when we get older because it is alway someone leaving use. God be with you and may more friend fill your heart. God bless you always.

Smile Joyce

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 3/19/2012 10:48PM

    Lou, I am so glad that you are my friend. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Blessings and emoticon

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CIELO777 3/11/2012 10:02PM

    I am happy to hear how you have been comforted in this website. Even though it exists in cyber-space; the friendships are real.
My pet, a poddle-collie mix named 'Will Robinson'; I know such a big name but my children liked to watch 'Lost in Space'- a long time ago...lol...When I lost him(hit by a car because he jumped the fence after a female neighbor), I cried like I had lost a close family member. emoticon my children thought that I was trying to tell them that father had died - because I was mumbling in my sobbing so much. Afterwards I lost my biological father, then grandparents, an unborn, and my mother. emoticon

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JMARIES51 3/9/2012 10:30AM

    Lou, when I log on to Spark, you are one person that constantly is here for me! We have never met, but I feel as if I know you and share your joys and sorrows. I am so sorry to hear that your pet passed away and I hope that every day you feel a bet better. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being here even when I do not show up all the time. Joann emoticon

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NANHBH 3/1/2012 11:36PM

    Lou,

At my meeting at church tonight, there was a reading that said that the only way love grows is to keep giving it away. With each loss that you experienced, you gave away a piece of your heart -- you let go of more love -- which made room for more love to grow. It will take time to fill that void in your heart with more love, but rest assured, our loving God will fill you with more love.

Thank you for leaving me encouraging words on my blogs. I appreciate them very much. See, you're spreading more love!
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WENDYSPARKS 3/1/2012 6:29PM

    I am thankful for a friend like you.

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 3/1/2012 12:20AM

    I Know why everyone is so supportive:

1. You are emoticon

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3. You are an awesome emoticon

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4. You are the emoticon.

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NOTFATCAT 2/29/2012 8:01PM

    Lou, you are such a source of encouragement for all of us that we can not stand with you in your time of loss.


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MYLOVELYCURVES 2/28/2012 4:36PM

    I'm really thankful for your friendship as well, Lou. Things will get better and easier in time, as I'm sure you know. They always do. You just have to grieve and once you get through that phase, it's easier to move on. Pets are never just pets, they are our family because we love them so much. Hang in there!

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BOVEY63 2/27/2012 1:02PM

    You have been there for so many of us so it is no wonder you received so much love and support. Very much well deserved! Take care my friend!
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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 2/27/2012 9:33AM

    Lou, your dear heart draws so many people to you, did you realize that?! You have so much compassion and tenderness that, in my opinion, your thank you really DOES seem adequate because it radiates from the page as if it were an actual hug to each of your friends!

Thank you for being the kind of person you are! You are a treasure! emoticon emoticon

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GABY1948 2/27/2012 9:29AM

    A wonderful blog, Lou, as are all yours...but any of us that have lost someone or "something" (how I hate to use that word for our beloved children/pets) we totally understand the losses you have had to endure...and of course, we understand also that we learn to deal with them and get on but that part of our heart remains empty for that "being" that is gone (human or otherwise) but thankfully God gave us a heart that can grow more love for new things that come into it...kind of like a flame that you can lose a portion of yet the original can continue to grow!

God Bless you Lou, and thank YOU for all you do and are to us! emoticon Gaye

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LIBBYFITZ 2/27/2012 7:54AM

    emoticonHope you are feeling a little better each day. emoticonto you my friend Lou.

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SPIRALINGUP 2/27/2012 7:29AM

    A very sweet post, Lou. emoticon

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MALEXANDER4 2/27/2012 7:07AM

    Sometimes we need a shoulder to cry on and someone to understand. A pet is never just a pet...mine as are yours are our children. Thank you is not needed.

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BLUE42DOWN 2/27/2012 1:46AM

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While those losses take a small piece of our heart, they also leave a large piece of theirs. Every precious moment together, all that love, is how our hearts don't disappear into nothingness.

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RORYLYONS 2/27/2012 1:08AM

    Hi lou, A thank you is never needed but I so appreciate your friendship..The void of losing a precious pet always remains,but time will heal and those wonderful memories will have you smiling once again..

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KENDRACARROLL 2/27/2012 12:34AM

    Lou, I hope you'll find peace.

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WINDSWEPTACRES 2/27/2012 12:16AM

    Maybe we don't lose a piece of our hearts when someone we love dies, because when we love someone, we trade a piece of our hearts for a piece of theirs. So part of them stays with us forever, and part of us goes with them on their journey.

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IAMWINNING 2/26/2012 11:00PM

    emoticon Lou, so many of us have been (or are) where you are that our hearts go out to you.

Losing people or furry friends is painful. I pray that our loving Heavenly Father will grant you the peace and comfort you need. emoticon

You bless so many of us; we just want you to accept whatever blessing we can be.

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CARRIEANNE1027 2/26/2012 10:53PM

    Lou, you have one of the biggest hearts of anyone I know.. No matter how many pieces leave, you'll still have an abundance!
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PUDLECRAZY 2/26/2012 10:09PM

    These are things that actually need no thank yous. The well wishes and outpourings of support are from the heart and needing nothing in return.

I can certainly relate, Lou. It is hard enough to lose one person or fur buddy. When the losses come faster than you have time to recover, it is overwhelmingly sad and hard to deal with.

Sending love,
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TEDYBEAR2838 2/26/2012 9:53PM

    I am so glad everyone was so supportive.

Just remember all the good things the animals received
from you that they might not have at another place.

They were truly loved

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SLIMMERJESSE 2/26/2012 9:52PM

    You are a terrific human being, Lou, and would make a great real time friend as well as our current SPfriend. Take care.

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#523: Goodbye Little Thang

Sunday, February 05, 2012

Anyone who is or who has been a pet lover knows how hard this is to write. Last night at 11:00 one of my beloved kitty babies passed away.



She came to my house at the beginning of 2004, along with Brownie, another stray cat. I named her Little Thang because she was skinny and such a cute lil 'ol thang. When I brought them inside after deciding to keep them, she seemed happy to have a home and accepted her new status with contentment.

But during the past two weeks she began climbing on my bed and crawling on top of me, resting her face in my neck. I'd pet her as I read then hold her while I slept.

In the last few days she had become thinner but yesterday, other than a couple of small bites, she ignored her food and wouldn't drink water. She didn't seem to be in pain and never once cried out. I held her to my chest as her buddy, Thumper the Shepherd, looked at us and nudged Little Thang with her nose.

It was always funny watching the two of them together, Little Thang licking Thumper's face as if she were cleaning it and then Thumper licking Little Thang, leaving doggie slobber all over Little Thang's face.

Last night, Little Thang became much weaker but the vet's was closed and the emergency vet clinic wasn't open so I cuddled with her in bed lying next to her as she stretched out on a cool sheet.

But then Thumper, who had climbed on the bed and again was nosing Little Thang as if to say, "Let's play," began whimpering. Little Thang stretched her head and looked back at me, moved her lips, shuddered and passed on.

Some may think me crazy, but just as I had been telling her how much she was loved and what a good kitty she was, I believe she was telling me it was time for her to go.

Death is not a welcome guest, even though we all know it is inevitable.

For me, there has been so much of it the past few years as relatives, friends and pets departed, that I wonder how there can still be so many tears left to flow down my face.

Although I am blessed to still have Thumper, Brownie, and another stray I adopted, Baby the Boxer, with me, the house seems empty. The dogs sense my sadness and seek petting. Thumper has been going into the bedroom and out then back in looking, I'm sure, for Little Thang, her buddy.

I know there will be many happy memories to help soften the sad times of the future and that I will likely need to go through this again but for now I will cry unashamedly and believe Little Thang knew she was loved for the eight years we had together.

R.I.P. Little Thang. I firmly believe we will meet again one day. emoticon

  
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GHOTIB 1/13/2013 4:38PM

  So sorry about your kitty. I lost my cat just over a year ago. She had been my birthday present for my seventh birthday party, so we grew up together. She was nineteen when she died of old age, but no time is a 'good enough' time to lose a beloved pet. :(

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BEESPARKLE 9/19/2012 1:52PM

    Sorry for your loss. I have been there also many times. My son loss his dog last year. It was so hard on him even being a married man with family.

When he told me how fast the dog dropped to the ground out the back yard and he laid there with his heart raising so high. He knew his best pal was about to pass on. How he held is paw and told the dog. Go ahead little fellow. You can go. I know it is your time. We loved you so much. . You loved us. I find it hard to write this. I dont think tears will ever stop dropping when a loved animal dies.I cannot even finish the rest. My tears are streaming at this moment. emoticon

Bless you dear one.


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CARLANNIE 2/26/2012 10:01AM

    (((HUGS)))

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PONYFARMER 2/20/2012 11:20PM

    There is nothing like the loss of a dear pet to hurt the heart. I am close to losing my dog of 18 years and want to stop time where it stands to prevent the inevitable. emoticon

You did an amazing and great thing with Little Thang, giving her a warm, safe home with plenty of food and great friends who loved her too. She had a better life than many cats who end up as strays. And poor Thumper will moarn for a week or more but with your kind heart, will get thru this loss with you as you both go thur it together.

gentle hugs of comfort for you and Thumper

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CHATTIEGIRL 2/18/2012 7:46PM

    Dear Lou;

My friend I feel you pain and pray God lessens it with his tender care. We love our pets as much as our chldren and family so there with be an empty space in your heart for Little Thang. Keep the memories close to your heart and the rest of your pets with comfort you as you comfort them. God bless you my friend and take each day with love.

Your friend, Joyce

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WENDYSPARKS 2/15/2012 4:41PM

    Sorry for your loss Lou. You are in my prayers. God Bless.

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MYLOVELYCURVES 2/15/2012 3:58PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss, Lou. Hang in there.

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 2/14/2012 9:18AM

    Sweet little thang will be in your heart & fond memories to comfort you. I still look at My Gidgy's photos to remind me of our love. It brings me comfort & I hope it works for you. Victoria
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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 2/7/2012 9:48PM

    I am so sorry about your kitten. emoticon

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LIBBYFITZ 2/7/2012 6:13PM

    Hugs to you Lou. It is a very das time when we lose our pets. So glad she had you as her owner right to the end and that she wanted to be with you when she died.

I miss my little Abby and Bizkit, but have lots of wonderful memories as I am sure you have to.

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LINDAINOHIO 2/6/2012 8:06PM

    Lou,

Sorry to hear of your loss. I also believe it is hard to lose a pet. I had a Golden Retriever that I had for 13 years and I cried for days when he died, and still think of him.

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WIMSONFLOWER 2/6/2012 6:28PM

    So sorry for you. We've had several pet deaths lately, and it's just SO hard! Bless you for taking her in and giving her a good life!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 2/6/2012 5:03PM

    Oh, LOU! I have tears in my eyes! Only someone who has watched their dear pet pass away can understand the anguish of losing a pet. Our sheltie, Ginger, passed away at 13, and of course, Drex was out of town on a school weekend field trip! I am just so sorry that your baby died; I am glad she was with you and Thumper to the end, though. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LOSTINLOVE1226 2/6/2012 3:22PM

    I am so sorry Lou, you are certainly going through a lot right now, between the loss of your beloved pet and your sport. :(My prayers are with you.

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RORYLYONS 2/6/2012 3:39AM

    Gosh Lou so sad to hear of your pain & tears you are going thru..Even today It's difficult to think of my siamese cat who lived to be 18 yrs. I cried my heart out, I had to tell her it was ok to go. I heard her last dying sigh..Yet I was almost to the vets & he tried to bring her back. I just disolved to tears..So I understand your pain..It was wonderful you could be there to help her on her journey to pet heaven.. emoticon

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JOYATLAST 2/5/2012 8:18PM

    I truly share your tears, Lou.

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TKADEEPBREATH 2/5/2012 7:49PM

    Awe . . so sorry for your loss. We have a very old kitty too. I'm wondering every day what the next will bring with her. Your kitty was very loved and I know knew it too . . .

my heart is with you . . friend, love, jan

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0309COOKIE 2/5/2012 5:00PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. May Little Thang rest in peace.

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BOVEY63 2/5/2012 11:14AM

    I am so sorry for your loss Lou. Wish I could be there to give you a big hug.
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Little Thang was so lucky to have found you - as any animal would be. She had many years of being loved and cherished, something all animals deserve. I loved reading about how Thumper gave Little Thang so much loving attention.

Take care my friend and know that you are in my thoughts.
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TEDYBEAR2838 2/5/2012 10:37AM

    I am SO SORRY, I also shed a tear reading this.

She knows she was loved and it's so nice that you could
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DKWP614 2/5/2012 9:50AM

    Death is never easy for those it leaves behind. But it sounds like you made her departure a warm, safe and loving one. I believe that animals' souls are just as acute as our own, and I am sure that she was grateful for your comfort in her last days.

You were a good Dad!

I send you thoughts of warmth and healing in this difficult time.

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WENDYSPARKS 2/5/2012 9:49AM

    I love cats. At one time I had 4 cats all at once...loved them all...they have all passed away due to old age or illnesses. Sending prayers to you and God Bless You.

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KAMINEKO 2/5/2012 9:49AM

    So sorry for your loss :(

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TEMPEST272002 2/5/2012 9:39AM

    Thank you for sharing your lovely memories of Little Thang. She was such a sweet little cat & such a joy in your life. Hugs as you grieve her loss.

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SLIMMERJESSE 2/5/2012 9:38AM

    I know how tough this is, and the love you gave each other is so precious and sweet. This blog brought tears to my eyes. Very sad to lose our furry loved ones.

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DEBRITA01 2/5/2012 8:04AM

    Lou, so sorry about the loss of your cat. I believe the other pets could sense her death and experience grief, too. Take comfort in knowing Little Thang spent her the end of her life surrounded by love. emoticon

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CARRIEANNE1027 2/5/2012 8:01AM

    Awww.. I'm so sorry for your loss. You know, usually animals hide when they're sick or know that they're about to leave us, but your little thang chose to spend her last moments with you. That says a lot about you Lou. I hope that soon your memories will bring smiles instead of tears..
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MALEXANDER4 2/5/2012 7:18AM

    God bless you Lou. You never have to be ashamed to cry about your pets to me. I have 15 strays and you know about my #16 pups at one time. They are my children each and everyone. They were left at my doorstep for a reason and we give them a good home till they must move on. It is my gift to the lord for giving us such loving creatures that even as someone is tossing them aside, they welcome my husband and I with open hearts. God bless.

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GABY1948 2/5/2012 6:15AM

    I know all too well, and recently, your pain, Lou! I agree with you, I believe I will see my beloved babies again also. I am praying for you! God bless you! emoticon

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KASEYCOFF 2/5/2012 3:24AM

    The pain is great, but the joy is greater. You've written a lovely tribute. QEII said 'Grief is the price we pay for love.' I guess it is - but how wonderful you had LT in your life.
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LESLIES537 2/5/2012 1:12AM

    Beautifully written. I firmly believe she will be there at those golden gates, waiting for your arrival! Bless her little heart and bless yours! BIG emoticon

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