Wednesday, November 07, 2012
Ok I will start by telling alittle about what is going on. I have been with my bf for 4 years now and it has been a lot of ups and downs, a lot of uncertainy, and he's not very affectionante, and let's see he really only texts that he loves me he's only said it once to my face. When we started to go out he would talk about his ex a lot. He put her on a pestel a lot and of course he always denies this. Well I have done so much but I really don't know how much more I can take. He doesn't do any house work, he doesn't cook, he does only his laundry I do his sons that is from his ex. And most of the time he sits on the computer most of his day till it is time for him to sleep. He works thirds. His kids did not grow up the greatest with their mom and her husband. So we have the oldest living with us. Well he has had issues over the four years but now they have esculated. First he threatened to kill me because I yelled at him for just sitting down in the basement all summer when there was house work to be done. My bf never made him apologize or nothing. Now he is past the point where he cuts himself and has been diagnosed with bipolar. He's already been hospitalized once for a week but now he's cutting and my boyfriend wants me to watch him. The thing that bothers me is I. Have two girls of my own that I feel like I should put them first. I am so worried that one of them will see him doing it. I'm really worried about my youngest. But I love my bf but really I am emotionally exhausted from this relationship. Sometimes I feel selfish but then others have told me why do u stay. I mean I am so sick of being walked on and I am worried for my daughters because they do not need this. Anyone have suggestions?