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How am I gonna be an optimist about this?

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

How am I gonna be an optimist about this?


I've been published!! ♥

Yes, really. W00t!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

I am on Amazon, Smashwords, and my publisher's (Riverdale Avenue Books) site. My ISBN is: 9781626011298

Untrustworthy is an LGBT dystopian science fiction book where greed, corruption, gender politics and control are played out on an alien backdrop that's eerily familiar.
I am having fun promoting it and all. Of course the whole thing is a blast.

And on top of all of that is the feeling that Spark has helped, and you have helped.

Confidence helps. Clarity helps. Friendship helps.


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CHEETARA79 12/18/2014 9:08AM

    Way to go! Super cool. Congrats.

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PHEBESS 12/18/2014 12:30AM

    Congratulations! Mazel tov! YAY!!!!!!!

On my way to look at it (though I tend to not do sci fi) - but yay!!!!!!!

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PHEBESS 12/18/2014 12:29AM

    Congratulations! Mazel tov! YAY!!!!!!!

On my way to look at it (though I tend to not do sci fi) - but yay!!!!!!!

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DDOORN 12/17/2014 10:40PM

    WONDERFUL NEWS! On my way to Tweet your work!

Nabbed a copy @ Amazon... :-)

Dunno WHEN I'll have time to read... :-(


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So Open Your Eyes

Monday, September 01, 2014

I turn 52 tomorrow. This picture was taken not an hour ago.

Yeah, I've gained some back. There's still a ways to go (isn't there always?).

But hell, I'm here.

Happy birthday to me. :)

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LESS_IS_MO 10/1/2014 1:16PM

    Haven't we all gained some back Jess. (And yes some have, but then turned it around and lost the gain ). I think we all yoyo up and down. Happy Birthday. You are 16 months older than I am!

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DDOORN 9/10/2014 11:41AM

    DOH! Too long away! Hope you had a WONDERFUL birthday!

Keep workin' that SPARK! :-)


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JIBBIE49 9/5/2014 1:33AM

    emoticon Happy Birthday, DONE GIRL

Oh, Virgo girl, you have a hard time keeping the weight off when you hold in your feelings and tell yourself you don't have any and then turn to food. The Virgo child was born to a mother who wasn't happy about the money the father made, and he was a good but somewhat passive man, and so money for you is always a big issue. You really want to set the standard for others to live by and you are so concerned about your health (you make a good nurse), but you can let your nerves get the best of you and then you have problems with your intestines. Shy by nature, the Virgo girl has a dark side to her and can be very wild behind closed doors if she wants to "let her hair down." She gets along with another Virgo, Pisces, Taurus, Cancer, Capricorn, and sometimes Scorpio (he is controlling and secretive). You love to take the "bad boy" and make him over, but that never works. You need to work on you, since you hate to have others judge you and talk about you behind your back. You make a good teacher, and you can live alone and be very happy. You are critical, but mostly of yourself. Yoga and horseback riding are great for you, as you need to deal with stress and you can love animals so much.

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CHEETARA79 9/2/2014 9:04AM

    Happy birthday! You're halfway there!

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SLIMMERJESSE 9/1/2014 5:38PM

    Have a wonderful birthday.

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ADARKARA 9/1/2014 5:02PM

    Happy Birthday! Make this year your best one yet! emoticon

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DEE1221 9/1/2014 4:51PM

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Happy Birthday! I hope it is a wonderful one!!

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I Look Incredible

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Nah, I don't. I've gained.

But life's been crazy. I still walk pretty much every day but now my right knee keeps reminding me that I'm 51, not 21.

I was just accepted into the Master's program at my school. I'll probably go another 4 years if I keep taking just one class/semester but doing three semesters/year. I love it but I have to be mindful of how my time will be abbreviated if I start working.

Speaking of which, everything I do these days is some form of volunteer work. I get a lot of practice doing what I want to do for money. And I'll see - maybe I can convert one of these little side projects into my capstone project? I don't know; it's too early to think about that.

I also have a 4.0.

Yeah, that's right.

So -- life is full of decent food choices and exercise but my body keeps screaming, "You're supposed to weigh 275!!! Let's get there really fast!!!" And so it's a struggle and a pain in my ever-expanding keister. But I still walk, still lift, and am still trying to drink water and stay within guidelines and all of that.

Lemme tell ya, having been over 300, and having started all of this in my mid-forties is a recipe for this sort of monumental struggle. It's just ... hard.

But I confess I am just too occupied with other matters these days. And it's not like I'm hanging around eating candy all day long. Don't misunderstand, please.

But yeah, this annoying set point is rather aggravating.

Thanks for listening. Enjoy Postmodern Jukebox.

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PHEBESS 7/19/2014 6:38AM

    Nice to see you again.

And yeah, it's a constant struggle. Some days (weeks, months) we lose, some we gain, some we stay the same. And, well, staying active is good.

(I went to school part-time to get my teaching certification, post-MA and post-Peace Corps. Took me 3 years. Then I found my dream job and worked there 25 years before retiring. So if the degree helps you get that dream job, it's worth it!!!!)

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WATERMELLEN 7/17/2014 7:56AM

    Having finished up my 5th degree at age 50 (and topping out at 230 pounds in the process) I sure do feel for you: been there, got the Tshirt!!

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DDOORN 7/16/2014 10:26PM

    Terrific hearing from you Jes! And yes, it IS hard...and it has a way of STAYING hard, no matter how much we may wish it wasn't. But WOW you've been busy living your life! Go you!

Thx for the new-to-me tune! :-)


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BEWELL48 7/16/2014 10:17AM

    Didn't complete my masters until I was 60 yo and maintained a 4.0 throughout. You can do it and what a gift to yourself! Here's to your success. It is easier to lose weight when we are happy doing what we are doing!

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    It is absolutely amazing how much easier school is when you are 51 and not 18. I think it has more meaning too.

Make Today the Greatest Day of Your Life

emoticon Until Tomorrow!

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I Was Left To My Own Devices

Tuesday, February 04, 2014

Do you recall the last time I blogged?

I do.

I mentioned I was going to write a story for NaNoWriMo.

I did. I completed it (over 50,000 words).

I submitted it for a competition.

I received word this afternoon that I won the competition.

I have just sent the signed contract to the publisher, Riverdale Avenue Books.

This is the top of the contract.

Yeah, I'm really doing it.

Untrustworthy is a science fiction story about a society that slowly, inexorably, begins to lose its freedom and experience its own version of a holocaust. It is a tragedy, an LGBT allegory, and a love story, played out against an alien backdrop.

Thank you to everyone who believed in me.

Thank you.

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    Oh Man is this ever the best news. Congrats Jes. I am guessing how it feels right now and I think you deserve every delicious minute.

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CAROLISCIOUS 2/6/2014 9:09PM

    OhEmGee! So exciting! I'm so happy to see something good happen to Mr. and Mrs. J. Your parents must be elated!

Big. Big, BIG congratulations!!!


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FIT_TERI 2/5/2014 8:33PM

    wow, that's terrific news!! Congratulations to you!!! I am very happy for you!!!

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PHEBESS 2/5/2014 8:07PM

    YAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!! Mazel tov!!!!! Congratulations!!!!!!

and how exciting!!!!!!!

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CHERN009 2/5/2014 7:20PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon I am so happy for your accomplishment!

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This is awesome news, way to go! Can't wait until it comes out and I can pick up a copy!

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NANCYPAT1 2/5/2014 11:31AM

    Congratulations - that is a wonderful accomplishment.

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ADARKARA 2/5/2014 11:15AM

    AWESOME!!!! Way to GO!

I so freakin' love that song btw.

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CHEETARA79 2/5/2014 11:00AM

    Very nice! Congratulations!!!

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MADEIT3 2/5/2014 9:48AM

    Congratulations!! You're about to live the dream!

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EDDYMEESE 2/5/2014 12:50AM

    Oh my gosh, how amazing!!!! Congratulations!!!!!

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DMPRIDER 2/4/2014 11:08PM

    Oh wow, that is so awesome! Congratulations!!!! You are such a good writer, that you winning doesn't surprise me, but still, it's a wonderful accomplishment. Congrats again.
PS I love that song. Did you see them when they were on SNL a couple of weeks ago?

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DDOORN 2/4/2014 10:33PM

    Oh yeah BABY! Just KNEW you were gonna score! Quadruple Mega Woo Hoo!!


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  Congratulations! Be sure to celebrate! emoticon

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They're Dealing With Someone Who is Over the Brink

Monday, October 14, 2013

I have not blogged for a good six weeks, and chances are very, very good that I won't be blogging again for another six or more.


Lots of reasons. One of those is that I had been feeling less than optimal, and blogging can be a bit of me entertaining people. The truth was, I didn't feel particularly entertaining. And so the blog sat, as I did other things.

I also didn't have a lot to report. The same few pounds were traded, over and over again. It was repetitive, it was boring, and I doubted anyone wanted to read about it. I certainly didn't want to write about it.

Today, though,, I want to tell you about why I will not be blogging for over a month, and what that means, not only to me specifically, but also as a dieter/lifestyle changer/whatever the hell you want to call me these days.

The difference is that I am going to attempt to do NaNoWriMo ( ) this year. Yes, I am going to try to write a full novel during the month of November, of at least 50,000 words.

I feel it will get and keep me disciplined and focused. It won't be quite so easy to just while away a few hours every day playing Words With Friends or otherwise messing around. I will have to get a good 1700 - 2000 words written every day in order to get there. So that means that messing around is not something that I can allow myself to do. I will need to write.

Fortunately, I already have an outlined plot in mind. I am already thinking and dreaming about it. Dialogue is already forming in my brain. So at least the first few days will be a bit like taking dictation. That's the best time when you are a writer. It's the taking dictation part, where it feels like the characters are just commanding you to get it onto paper or pixels. You listen, they speak, you copy what they said, and that's that.

I am also doing this, and I am telling you, because it is a *scary* thing. Halloween is coming in 17 days and I don't dress up anymore so this is, instead, my scary thing to do.

I don't care if you are a writer or not. But my suggestion to you, my challenge to you, before the end of this calendar year (and you have some 78 days to go) is for you to do something that scares the tar out of you.

Ask that amazing person out. Skate board. Sky dive. Do some public speaking. Hell, do stand up. Climb a mountain. Show somebody your diary. Take karate classes.

Scare yourself. Shake up your world. Be different.

What have YOU done to scare yourself?

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MISSROCKABILLY 10/22/2013 11:44AM

    Way to go on attempting NaNoWriMo this year! I know a few people who do it each year and find it very rewarding, even if they don't finish a novel every time. Enjoy stretching yourself and growing.

Going back to school last year was a super scary and yet enriching thing for me to do, and it's not over yet. The last year and a half I have been at the local community college, but next semester (hopefully) I will be at UW-Madison, a much bigger and intimidating school. I'm absolutely terrified, but exhilarated too. Can't wait to hear if I've been accepted, although they have until the end of December to tell me if I'll be going there mid-January.

Best of luck to you!

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STRINGS58 10/21/2013 3:14PM

    This is VERY cool! Enjoy the process!! Write On! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CAROLISCIOUS 10/17/2013 8:42PM

    I'm not very good at doing things that scare me. Just knowing I have to get on a plane next week to go on vacation has me on edge already.

I know you will do great with your writing. I hope we get to read it!

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DDOORN 10/14/2013 7:22PM

    Ouch...LOTS of fears which hold me back, despite my reminding myself of this terrific quote I found on SparkPeople:


Kudos to you for tackling head on YOUR scary stuff!


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CDCSMITH2013 10/14/2013 4:51PM

    I LOVE doing NaNoWriMo! It ain't easy, but as crazy as November is when I do it (also my anniversary month, the boy comes home from college for Thanksgiving, Thanksgiving... (you get the idea), it is also the one month that it sort of becomes all about the writing. Good luck!

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PHEBESS 10/14/2013 4:43PM

    Wow, yay for committing to writing a book!!!!!! Way to go!!!!!

I challenge myself a lot with heights - I have vertigo, and so now I'm afraid of heights because I know I get dizzy and it feels like I'll fall over the edge. So I force myself across hanging bridges, or up in a helicopter (with my dad, it was horrible!), things like that.

And, oh, arriving in foreign countries where we know nothing and don't speak the language.

Over and over again.

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MARCHMAIDME 10/14/2013 3:59PM

    This is inspiring! I've been trying to write and letting everything else get in the way, too! That is also one of the reasons I haven't been here. Just maintaining pretty much but mostly not pigging out or behaving really badly--just not so focused on self deprivation. More focused on enjoying life and doing things that matter more to me.

Here's to success for both of us in getting stuff down on paper! (Or at least into the computer!)

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MALCONTENTION 10/14/2013 2:20PM

    Awesome! Good luck!

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ADARKARA 10/14/2013 1:31PM

    Have fun with NanoWrimo! I love my Boston, but he IS full of DERP! emoticon

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DISCOVERLLH 10/14/2013 11:39AM

    My daughter did Nanowrimo last year and is doing it again this year. She has been trying to get me to do it. You're IS scary! I just may give it a try....
Good luck!

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WHYNOTJ1 10/14/2013 11:05AM

    I agree--I also need to scare myself sometimes! I took up swimming a few years ago and eventually passed the Red Cross lifeguarding test. (I'm in my late 50s.) Now I'm keeping my lifeguarding certs. current and trying to make my swim skills "prettier" and get faster. In addition, I've been trying to master a few YMCA lifeguarding skills that are tougher than the requirements for Red Cross. Just to say I am able to do them...

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WHYNOTJ1 10/14/2013 10:58AM

    I agree--I also need to scare myself sometimes! I took up swimming a few years ago and eventually passed the Red Cross lifeguarding test. (I'm in my late 50s.) Now I'm keeping my lifeguarding certs. current and trying to make my swim skills "prettier" and get faster. In addition, I've been trying to master a few YMCA lifeguarding skills that are tougher than the requirements for Red Cross. Just to say I am able to do them...

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SLIMMERJESSE 10/14/2013 9:57AM

    Good luck with your novel. Great goal!

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