Thursday, February 27, 2014
I stumbled upon a show the other night called, "My 600lb Life." Last night, I watched the repeat of Tara's story. I kept shaking my head and yelling at the TV everytime she made an excuse, like not walking in the department store because she was sore from her workout the day before. I shook my head when she told the doctor she was doing everything he was telling her to do and still not losing hte weight and getting mad and storming out of the office. But then I thought, "Dag, I did that, too."
I had a flash from 6 years ago when I was 225lbs and trying to workout for the first time with my then boyfriend. I can remember after 4 weeks of working out getting really angry at him because I was struggling with the workouts and not losing weight. I blamed my hypothyroidism and said that i didn't want to try anymore; "What's the point? There's something wrong with my body and I'll never get this weight off."
A year later, I was single and 240lbs, my heaviest. To get back into the dating market I told myself that I had to try again. This time something clicked into place and I kept trying. I wasn't consistent but at least I never gave up. In 6 months, I dropped below 200lbs and then I found my wonderful, active husband. I also found SP. With the help of the supportive community and educational articles, I found activities that I truly love that keep me losing weight and keep me consistent. I still struggle, but I never let excuses hold me back anymore and that's how I know I've made a life change--just like Tara.
I smiled wide during Tara's conclusion last night. She got it! She made the life change she needed to get healthy for herself and for her children. It's so easy to forget how we were at the start of our journey. The struggle, the pain, the embarrassment. But it's important to remember them from time to time to keep us moving forward.
Thursday, February 27, 2014
1. I can put my pants on while standing up without falling over or reaching for something to keep my balance.
2. I can look at a perfectly toned woman without immediately thinking, "Man, I hate her."
3. I can reach around my back to clasp my bra.
4. I can look in the mirror and smile back at myself.
5. I can run for more than a few yards, miles even!
6. I can go through 10 greek yogurt cups a week!
7. I can visualize myself doing incredible things and know that I have the power to make them happen.
8. I can walk into a room with confidence.
9. I can do aerobics (jumping jacks, run, burpees, etc.) without being self conscious about my body fat flapping along with me.
10. I can recognize and overrule my excuses.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
I'm going to do it! Today is my running day and therefore I WILL go running, even if it is snowing outside. It's a lovely, gentle snow. I doubt my running partner joins me today, but that's okay. I'll enjoy the peace., especially after the night I had.
My almost-2 year old woke up at 11pm crying. I went in and comforted him as usual and then went back to bed. He started to cry even louder. This irritated my husband who had to get up in a few hours for work. He got all huffy and puffy, so in essence I was trying sooth TWO infants. After rocking my son back to sleep, and getting peed on, I returned to bed. It was around midnight and at this point I'm wired. It took me another hour to fall asleep. Then this morning, as I'm about to walk out the door for work my dog has a seizure. I tell ya, when it rains it pours.
So today, I'm releasing all of that negativity and stress by running in flurries.
On another note, I finally got my husband to join a gym. He's been talking about it for months but dragging his feet. This is a man who's been extremely active his entire life up until he tore his ACL a week after our wedding a little over 3 years ago. He started playing soccer again last year but it ended last November and ever since he's been a lazy log. He's excited that his league will be starting soon, but I told him that once a week isn't going to keep him fit. It may have been okay in his youth but now that he's older and has a more sedentary job he needs to commit himself to an exercise regime. Honestly, he's the fitest person I know and I don't think he needs to lose that much weight, but I think the workouts will help alleviate his stress. I'm sure he can take the little weight he's gained over the last few years off in a few weeks or months--and I'll try not to hate him for it LOL.
Stay strong, Sparklers!
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