Thursday, December 12, 2013
I am down to 171.6lbs! That means I'm about 15lbs away from my goal weight!! I'm more than halfway there.
I wasn't able to go to the gym this week because our building was closed due to weather. But I was stuck indoors, playing with my 1 year old. That definitely burned some calories. I've been taking care of myself physically and mentally, so I'm feeling pretty good.
Tonight, DH and I are going to a dinner with his co-workers. It's going to be really nice. We're super excited about getting out of the house for some grownup time. I will probably splurge a bit at dinner since it's a nice restaurant and we're not responisble for the check. I'll try not to go too overboard, but I may have to leave room for their cheesecake.
Monday, December 02, 2013
I'm at a cross-roads in my relationship with my husband. I sought professional help today, something I never considered doing but I'm so glad I did. This morning I went to the wellness center at work for help and I talked to a preliminary counsellor. I was crying my eyes out as I told him the situation. I had been holding it in all day yesterday and this morning it came rolling out. The counsellor set me up with an appointment to see someone later in the day who's an expert on the situation. I somehow made it through the morning, but I was starting to think, "What the heck am I going to talk to her about?" I was freaking out and confused about where my head was at regarding the drama.
I had planned on going to the gym but time was becoming limited. I still made an effort to hop on the treadmill. I'm so glad I did. The gym was empty and dark so I was able to run and get lost in my head. I started thinking rationally about the situation and as a result, I was able to develop constructive questions I wanted to ask the counsellor. Before I knew it my 10 minute run turned into 20 minutes. I felt more in control over the situation, which in turn made me calm and rational.
I took a quick shower and headed to the counsellor's office. We talked for over an hour. She definitely helped guide me in the right direction. With her help, I was able to see that I am in control of the situation as long as I believe that I'm worth it.
I'm worth it, I'm worth it, I'm worth it...
She said a few other things that really made sense but I'll keep those to myself for now. Just having a non-biased 3rd person to talk to was so refreshing.
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Last week I tried yoga for the first time ever. I really didn't like it. I struggled throughout the entire class and was getting confused by all the pose names and the instructors constant nagging about our breathing. She kept telling us to relax our mind, but I was too focused on breathing at the right to relax!
I told my friend that the old me would have walked out of there saying, "I can't do it, I'm never doing it again." But instead I told myself, "It's the first time, of course those poses are going to be hard to hold. Try is a few times more and if you still can't get it then you can walk away." I'm so glad I listened to myself this time, because today I greatly enjoyed it!
The poses were easier to hold and I was able to sink down into the stretches. My breathing-movement coordination was much better, which allowed me to relax. I felt more stable and centered. She did a lot more stretching this time too which I loved! I love love love to stretch. I'm still a little sore from yesterday's KB/TRX suspension class, so those stretches felt that much better. I was so nice and open by the end of the class. So nice. I didn't even know that 45minutes had passed. It felt like 15!
I'm so proud of myself for sticking with it. I can't wait to do it again next week. Who knows, maybe I'll ask Santa for a yoga DVD so I can do it at home while my son takes a nap.
I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
Thursday, October 24, 2013
I'm just going to say it, I look good today! I'm wearing a new sweater top, jeans, and trendy brown boots. I've been getting lots of attention today, and I have to say it's creeping me out a bit.
The most startling comments I received were actually from my trainer. He ran into me in the building lobby as I was coming down for gym class. He stopped moving in the direction he was moving in and came over real close to me and said, "Damn, Jhana, you look good. I didn't even recognize you. I thought Oh my God who is that foxy lady?" He went on for another 60 seconds in the middle of the lobby. All I could think to do was smile at his compliments and say, "thank you, " and hope that my face wasn't too red. I thought he was done, but when I entered the gym for class he immediately approached me again and started rattling off compliments again! He congratulated me on losing the weight I've lost and sticking with it. THAT I can understand and appreciate, but some of his comments, while flattering, made me feel alittle uncomfortable.
I told a friend, Ben, at work about what happened. I immediately regretted it. As soon as I told Ben about the trainers' comments I saw his eyes scan me from head to toe before he said, "well, your ensemble is pretty rockin' today." EEEK! He did agree that the trainer was out of line and that I'm not the only one to complain about his crudeness.
I appreciate trainers and friends who tell me I look good and that all my hard work is paying off, but there is a line.
So what am I going to do about it?
I may tell Abby, the gym director about his behavior or I'll just chalk it up to the trainer trying to do his job by boosting the confidence of his clients. As for my friend, we had a good laugh about it.
Tomorrow is my friend, Caitlins', wedding. I'm singing two pieces and I'm so nervous. I'm sure I'll sing it fine. I'm rehearsing with the organist tonight. I'm mostly nervous about how I'll look. My goal was to be close to 165lbs by her wedding, but with the furlough I'll be lucky if I'm back down to 172lbs (pre-furlough weight). At least I'm lighter than I was at my own wedding 3 years ago :) Gosh, I can't believe it has only been 3 years. It feels like 5! lol.
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