Wednesday, November 12, 2014
So, as promised I am making some changes in my life. Today, I downgraded a few apps that were helping me run my Beachbody business, so I won't be paying for those services. I'm going to keep my Beachbody coach subscription so I can keep getting the shakes discounted, because they are helping me. But who knows, I might find something cheaper over the next few weeks.
I just finished teaching my PiYo class. I had a lot of new people this week and it was great! They all walked in nervous and left with huge smiles on their faces. It made me feel awesome. A few even came up to me afterwards to thank me and tell me how much they enjoyed it. Everyone was sweating, including me! I loved hearing them groan during the abs section. I know I worked them good and it felt awesome!
Gosh, who would have thought I'd be leading fitness classes? It still blows my mind, even after teaching 5 weeks in a row.
We haven't been hit with the cold blast yet, but they say it's coming tonight. I'm actually looking forward to it. I don't know if I'll be saying that on Saturday when I have to run the 5k Color Run. It's my first Color Run. I'm trying to get excited about it but I haven't been running a lot lately, so I know my time is going to be bad. Still, the atmosphere should be fun. I'll be going down by myself, which will be new for me too. Usually hubs comes along to support me, but this time I'm going to tell him to stay home. It'll be too cold.
I'm also on day 3 of my 21 Day Fix. It's going okay. I've been under a lot of stress lately, which has depleted my appetite. The 21 Day Fix has helped keep me accountable, but I'm also going to start using the Sparkpeople app to make sure I'm getting enough. I don't want to end up in the hospital again. That's so embarrassing.
Monday, November 10, 2014
I've been struggling for a month to stay active and stick to my clean-eating plan, so today, I'm going to focus on the basics. What does that mean?
It means, spending some quality at the place where my journey truly began: Sparkpeople.
I've been so focused on my Beachbody business that I haven't been able to focus on me or anyone else. I'm trying to prioritize my life, which as you all know, is ridiculously difficult. There are two areas in particular that I need to focus in order to succeed. The first is my marriage and the second is me. Honestly, I think all my cloudiness and funk can be contributed to my ailing relationship with my husband. Once I get that figured out, I think I'll be much happier and be able to press forward.
My husband gets homesick every year around this time. I try to be as supportive and understanding as possible, but it's hard, particularly when he thinks it's appropriate to point out every little thing that I do that annoys him. Sometimes he gets really angry and will have outburst out of nowhere--I never know what's going to set him off. Last year we even went to couples therapist. That helped for awhile, but everything relapsed when we came back from Ireland.
I feel guilty, because I know he's only staying in America because he made a vow to me and now we have a beautiful son. He feels trapped and I am the cage.
The last few weeks, I feel like we've drifted apart emotionally. And then last night, he suggested that he sleep in the basement on the nights he has to work so he can get some sleep. We've talked about this in the past and I've told him he could do that if he felt he wasn't getting enough sleep before his night shift, but now I worry that sleeping in separate beds 80% of the week will make us drift apart physically. It's hard enough having a physical relationship when you're losing that emotional connection.
I know I have to bring this all up, but I'm scared. This conversation could be a breaking point in our marriage. Something needs to change though, because this stress is not good for either one of us or for our son. Something, or someone, is going to have to give. I'm willing to surrender to make him happy. I've learned that I can't make him happy, he has to be responsible for his own happiness. But he can't do that if he keeps focusing on the little annoying stuff. I honestly don't know what he likes about me anymore. I can't remember the last time he paid me a compliment and that's just sad.
Sorry, I'm just talking out loud. This blog has given me courage to say what needs to be said. We'll see how things go.
Thursday, October 02, 2014
I just printed the manual for my PiYo Certification Course. I am super nervous, but excited. I think I'll do okay. I'm just worried that I won't be strong enough to make it throughout the day. It's a 9-5 class with a 30 minute lunch break. We have been warned to bring several pairs of workout clothes as we will be sweating a lot. Can't wait! I'll probably drop like 5 lbs. lol.
As nervous as I am, I still plan on walking into that gym with confidence. I may not be the most athletic or physically fit person in the training but that's okay. I am me and that is enough. I am enough.
In other news, I'm starting to feel overwhelmed. I'm trying to do too much and my workout routine is suffering as a result. I'm trying to develop a web site for healthy-living practices. It's going to be focused more on how to stay healthy while working in an office environment but that could mean a home-office environment, too. I didn't realize how difficult and time consuming creating a website would be. If I had, I wouldn't have started it, honestly. My dad, who's the Web Master for his company, will be coming over soon to help me get it up and running. When it's done, I'll share it with you all.
The leaves are changing here. Yay! I love Fall. I am making it my personal mission today to get out and enjoy it with a run! I need to do something just for me to clear my head and feel good about what I'm doing. I'm starting to lose focus because my focus has been divided on so many projects. Between coaching, my day job, freelancing, PiYo Certification, and being a mom and wife I'm going crazy! I need to start eliminating stuff from my calendar and working on my "blueprint."
I learned about the "blueprint" from Charlene Johnson, a Beachbody Trainer. She said that we all have these Vision Boards posted but very rarely do we create the map to get us there. Sound familiar? She suggested that we write out the plan, then take out our calendars and eliminate items that are not on our blueprint. For instance, did you volunteer to help out with a school fundraiser and immediately regret it because of time constraints? Now, I'm not saying to ditch the effort, but to try to avoid getting into the situation in the first place. If it's not going to help you get you where you want to go, then don't do it. Maybe you tell the PTA leader, "I'm sorry I won't be able to help out on Saturdays. That's a very special time for me and the family, but I believe in the cause so I'd like to donate some money to help." The reward is confidence, peace of mind, relief, and control.
I'm going to get started on my blueprint today. How can you turn your vision board into a reality?
Friday, September 26, 2014
Today, I will make squash/quinoa soup. I've had to split the preparation over a day, which has worked out pretty well. Last night, I threw the acorn squash in the oven for an hour then waited for it to cool before peeling it and storing it in the fridge for later. Today, I'll throw is in the saucepan with the carrots, onion, garlic, and veggie broth (low-sodium, of course). When Matthew wakes from his nap, I'll throw it all in the blender. Viola! Dinner.
My 21 Day Fix is almost over. I decided to start a 7 day challenge group to keep the lessons I learned from the Fix into practice. I learned from my Sparkfriend--Joanne-1968--that setting small, weekly goals is the key to success overall.
What little goals will you set for yourself this week?
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