Tuesday, December 02, 2014
I had 6 women participate in my PiYo class today. They all loved the new routine. I had their limbs shaking by the end of the 45 minute workout. It truly is an awesome feeling, helping others achieve success. They're helping me too by keeping me accountable.
I was feeling sluggish and crampy all morning. I wasn't that motivated to workout this afternoon, so I made myself go down a few minutes early to get my head in the game. That seemed to work. As soon as I walked into the gym, I found peace. I scolded myself a bit, "You are the teacher, don't let on that you don't feel 100%" The weather is rainy and cold today so I knew that everyone coming through the doors would be in a dreary mood, I reminded myself. I made it my goal to energize the group. By default, that gave me energy without even realizing it. It's great how that works, isn't it?
So next time you don't feel like working out, turn the focus onto someone or something else. Don't focus on how miserable you are, rather focus on how miserable someone else is and do your best to be happy around them. Happiness is contagious, after all. That little mood shift will go a long way for both you and the other person.
Monday, December 01, 2014
I'm sure you feel the same way I do today. Tired, exhausted, and a little heavier. The carbo overload from last week is definitely taking its toll on me today, my first day back to work. I feel like a slug. I can definitely feel the extra weight I packed on over the course of a week's stay-cation. I don't like it at all.
I brought my gym bag into work. My goal is to get out on the trail today for a run at lunch. As the clock ticks down to noon, I find myself coming up with a list of excuses not to go out:
1. It's my first day back, I really should work through lunch to catch up.
2. I'm so tired, I don't think my legs would last long.
3. I'm so tired, I don't think my mind would last long.
4. I'm starting to get hungry and it's not good to run on an empty stomach.
5. My period started so I know it's going to be a bad run.
6. I don't know if I remembered to bring my socks.
I'm sure more reasons will pop into my head if I let them. But I won't. Instead, here's my list of reasons why I NEED to run TODAY!
1. I haven't been running since the Color Run 5k 2 weeks ago.
2. The temperature is actually supposed to get above 60 degrees!
3. The endorphins will keep me going throughout the day.
4. The workout will rev up my metabolism which will help burn off that turkey weight.
5. The fresh air will be invigorating and will help me think better in the afternoon.
6. I may not be fast today or go very far but at least it's something.
7. If I run today, I'll be able to put a check next to today's date for workout completed!
8. If I run, I can avoid the guilt I'll feel later when you eat left overs.
9. If I run, I can avoid the guilt of not going.
10. If I run, it'll get me out of the office for a few minutes--FREEDOM!
Okay, so there are a lot more reasons to run than to not run. I guess that means that I'm running today, even if I have to borrow a pair of socks from a gym mate.
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
So, as promised I am making some changes in my life. Today, I downgraded a few apps that were helping me run my Beachbody business, so I won't be paying for those services. I'm going to keep my Beachbody coach subscription so I can keep getting the shakes discounted, because they are helping me. But who knows, I might find something cheaper over the next few weeks.
I just finished teaching my PiYo class. I had a lot of new people this week and it was great! They all walked in nervous and left with huge smiles on their faces. It made me feel awesome. A few even came up to me afterwards to thank me and tell me how much they enjoyed it. Everyone was sweating, including me! I loved hearing them groan during the abs section. I know I worked them good and it felt awesome!
Gosh, who would have thought I'd be leading fitness classes? It still blows my mind, even after teaching 5 weeks in a row.
We haven't been hit with the cold blast yet, but they say it's coming tonight. I'm actually looking forward to it. I don't know if I'll be saying that on Saturday when I have to run the 5k Color Run. It's my first Color Run. I'm trying to get excited about it but I haven't been running a lot lately, so I know my time is going to be bad. Still, the atmosphere should be fun. I'll be going down by myself, which will be new for me too. Usually hubs comes along to support me, but this time I'm going to tell him to stay home. It'll be too cold.
I'm also on day 3 of my 21 Day Fix. It's going okay. I've been under a lot of stress lately, which has depleted my appetite. The 21 Day Fix has helped keep me accountable, but I'm also going to start using the Sparkpeople app to make sure I'm getting enough. I don't want to end up in the hospital again. That's so embarrassing.
Monday, November 10, 2014
I've been struggling for a month to stay active and stick to my clean-eating plan, so today, I'm going to focus on the basics. What does that mean?
It means, spending some quality at the place where my journey truly began: Sparkpeople.
I've been so focused on my Beachbody business that I haven't been able to focus on me or anyone else. I'm trying to prioritize my life, which as you all know, is ridiculously difficult. There are two areas in particular that I need to focus in order to succeed. The first is my marriage and the second is me. Honestly, I think all my cloudiness and funk can be contributed to my ailing relationship with my husband. Once I get that figured out, I think I'll be much happier and be able to press forward.
My husband gets homesick every year around this time. I try to be as supportive and understanding as possible, but it's hard, particularly when he thinks it's appropriate to point out every little thing that I do that annoys him. Sometimes he gets really angry and will have outburst out of nowhere--I never know what's going to set him off. Last year we even went to couples therapist. That helped for awhile, but everything relapsed when we came back from Ireland.
I feel guilty, because I know he's only staying in America because he made a vow to me and now we have a beautiful son. He feels trapped and I am the cage.
The last few weeks, I feel like we've drifted apart emotionally. And then last night, he suggested that he sleep in the basement on the nights he has to work so he can get some sleep. We've talked about this in the past and I've told him he could do that if he felt he wasn't getting enough sleep before his night shift, but now I worry that sleeping in separate beds 80% of the week will make us drift apart physically. It's hard enough having a physical relationship when you're losing that emotional connection.
I know I have to bring this all up, but I'm scared. This conversation could be a breaking point in our marriage. Something needs to change though, because this stress is not good for either one of us or for our son. Something, or someone, is going to have to give. I'm willing to surrender to make him happy. I've learned that I can't make him happy, he has to be responsible for his own happiness. But he can't do that if he keeps focusing on the little annoying stuff. I honestly don't know what he likes about me anymore. I can't remember the last time he paid me a compliment and that's just sad.
Sorry, I'm just talking out loud. This blog has given me courage to say what needs to be said. We'll see how things go.
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