Monday, December 30, 2013
It is weird as it is only my second day of following Paul Mckenna I can make you thin again, yet already I feel a bit more in control.
Food has always been such a big aspect of my life. In a lot of ways I guess it was my life.
The times I see people post pics of there dinner etc on Facebook 'always thought it was a tad sad people doing that'. Everyone says OMG that looks amazing. You know what I think... That portion looks a bit small. I am greedy, but I don't believe its my fault anymore.
Emotional eating has ruled my life and became part of me. Most of the time I would scoff food not really taste or chew it. But studies shows that happy chemicals are released when you do that, but they are short lived.
Yesterday was a little hard as we still have a lot of food and snacks left over from xmas. For example in our kitchen there are 5 packs of pringles, mince pies, different boxes of chocolates, and loads of diff cheeses in the fridge,.
I battled a bit yesterday not to indulge much.
Over all the eating went very well, yet in the evening I did struggle a small bit.
Something funny happened. I was stood in the kitchen looking at the pringles. I decided no I was not going to have any. I went to walk away, and I am not joking it was like something forced my foot back onto the floor as I went to move.
I had to laugh as right then I realised how there is two parts of me. One that wants to succeed and one that is my old me trying to hold on. It was just amusing how I had said no and went to walk away, and yet something inside me over rode me. How dare it!!! lol.
May sound strange but that was what happened.
Anyway I feel more positive and I accept there will be good days and bad days. I love that I have started a few days before new year. Everyone seems to start on new year.
Cannot wait to see what I will look like as I start to slim down. I am going to really look after my body and mind.
I quite like bogging but not much to say really. x