Sunday, December 21, 2014
"Well I guess we should enjoy the next week or so." The first voice said with a hint of resignation.
"Why is that?" Asked a second voice.
"The New Years Resolution people will be here soon. This place will be a zoo." Answered the first.
In the back ground the Greek chorus murmured their ascent.
I was standing in front of my locker getting dressed after my morning workout and those voices migrated over the bank of lockers in front of me.
I can't say I could argue with the guy. I've been part of that gym for five years now and I've felt the same frustrations. Every year around January 1 we sit down at our desks or in front of our computer screens and we promise ourselves that the next year will be different. We begin a new diet, join a gym, buy a pair of good shoes to walk in............. My gym will hold an open house, offer a reduced membership rate and dazzle you with the promise that come spring break you too will fit into your vacation clothing. And every year right around Valentines Day things go back to a normal predictability.
Why do you think that is?
It's not about your moral fiber or character. It has nothing to do with self discipline or will power. You are not a "bad person."
Simply put' you are over whelmed.
Think about it a minute. You and I have lived "one way" for a long, long time and all of a sudden, because of a day marked on a calendar, we begin to deny ourselves and somewhere deep inside our minds and our bodies say something like, "Whooooooooooa wait a minute here."
So, we listen to inspirational music, play inspirational videos and "gut it out," until finally one day our bodies say, "That's it, I'm through with this nonsense." Then the whole downward spiral begins. We look in the mirror and play the blame game.
What if there's another way. I mean, why wait?
That's what I asked myself the day after Thanksgiving when my I had a hard time buttoning my pants. Why wait until the new year?
On top of being really good looking I read minds. I know what you are thinking. "This is the holiday season. Too much temptation, too many parties, to little time."
They still sell bananas, blackberries, pineapples and grapes don't they? (Those are my favorites.)
Okay I'm not going to moralize just make a suggestion or two. Things that are helping me weather the storm and stick to my goal(s).
The day after Thanksgiving I set a goal for myself to reach by January 1. It was challenging enough that I'd have to work towards it, but very reachable so while I am required to change my habits, I'm doing so slowly and with purpose.
If I make the commitment to start small it's easier to start now. I eased into my goal. My trigger food is french fries. I know if I eliminate them from my diet things go much smoother. That's what I did day one. I could go on, but you get the point. Starting small means I can start now.
A healthier life style is one of my goals but I have found with the people I work with this process removes a major stumbling block for them. Take the bay steps and start small, start now and when you reach the first plateau, stop, and take a deep breath and ask yourself:
"What's my next success going to be?"
Thursday, December 18, 2014
I ended my blog yesterday with an inspirational posting from Coach Jim Valvano over 20 years ago. Jim passed away three weeks after he gave this speech at the ESPY Awards where he was honored with the Arthur Ashe Award.
I share this with you because it not only inspires me and motivates me
Here is the link
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
The regulars at my gym are pretty much used to my off beat behavior. I've been known to burst into song on the recumbent bike or do a dance on the elliptical.
They've never seen me cry.
I don't mean the "Sniffle, sniffle dab at your eyes with a tissue."
I mean like full blown tears running down your face only instead of looking pain stricken you are smiling and talking to yourself while your Ipod is sorta blaring Jay-Z.
That kind of crying.
If you have been active and then suddenly injured and your activity is limited you know that sometimes your brain wants to do things your body isnt capable of doing and when you try to do them, well, you fail. When the injury comes suddnely it devestates you. You werent expecting it.
That injury sticks around for 3 years and it ambushes you when you least expects it. When all the weight you lost comes back with a vengence and when thinking that if your self confidence was in the gutter that would be a step up. You live in a jail of your own creation. No one gets it.
They get tired of listening to your misery and despair.
I get it. I really do. I get tired of listening to myself moan and complain but when your body wont obey one simple stupid freaking command............
Your excercise is confined to a warm water therapy pool and you look like a bloated plum all the time. When your sciatic nerve gets pinched between a disc or narrowed muscle mass your left leg suddnely looks up at you and says "Good-Bye" and you fall down.
You pray and you try to barter with God. You tell Him if He heals you you'll never do a,b,c ever agian or you will start doing d,e,f,g.
So, one morning after spending 30 minutes on the recumbent bike and feeling pretty good you decide to walk around the track for a lap or two, simply to cool down and stretch. You know you cant go much farther until things start to tingle or tighten up. You are beating yourself up a bit because two weeks ago you set a goal of walking in a 5K by the spring of 2015 and you have had a hard time doing 3 or 4 laps - not even one half mile.
You havent given up though. You've checked online for yoga excercises for sciatica. At 61 your body does not always bend that way but you give them a shot. You are not sure if they are helping or not.
You are listening to a Jay-Z medley while you walk. It's what you used when you could run and when you look down at the clicker in your hand it ways you've walked 6 laps which is a bit over a half mile.
You feel okay. No pain, no tingle, no numbness. You keep going.
7 laps. 8, laps, 9 laps
You wonder "Is this a cruel trick? Is my left leg going to abandon me with only two mealsy laps left?"
I start the 11th lap that will make a mile and my heart says "If you have to crawl you are going to finsh this last lap." I am in the last straight away and its when the emotion starts to well up and spill over. I start to cry and it's the kind of crying where you're whole body shakes back and foreth and I am do damn happy and so proud and so.........
I cannot tell you what will happen tomorrow. I only know that today brought me a distilled moment of happiness that will carry me for sometime.
Small victories. They sustain us.
Sunday, December 14, 2014
It's hard to believe it's been that long and on the other hand it seems like I've been here forever.
I could go on and on about how many wonderful people I've met along the way but if you have been here for awhile, you know what I am saying. Each of you has developed special bonds, special relationships and lasting friendships even though you may never hug that person or share a cup of coffee with them.
The beauty of Spark is that there is something on many different levels for many different people. It is a testement to you my dear friends that I have kept coming back week after week and year aftewr year.
Thanks for being the amazing example you are
Much Love to you
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