Ok, so last night even though ii had ate enough during the day last night i went and had a late night binge fest. I did take my daily walk but i did not get to walk as much as i usaully do bc i had this real bad pain in the side of my stomache like someone stabbing me so i tried to continue walking but it hurt so bad just to move so i stopped and went home. But atleast i did get out and move right? Last night was so bad it was like i could not stop eating even though i was full. I just dont get it why i can not have control of myself If i keep this up im not going to reach my goal im just going to get further away from it. My scale keeps going up everyday is it possible to gain 1-2 pounds everyday? Or is this just water weight due to TOM being a lil over a week away? I need all the support i can get. I want to overcome this eating even though im not even hungry yet i EAT EAT EAT! It makes no sence at all. Ok, so today is a new day and im going to try again but im getting so tired of trying again everyday i dont want to give up but sometimes i just feel like what is the point anymore???
I know its been awhile since i blogged i kind of took a small break from SPARKPEOPLE and i have not been doing good at all this past week. So up until i got home last wed from my vacation(which i had a BLAST) i lost 3 pounds and was doing so good well since i got back i have gone into bingeing and eating late at night since i ended my period. Its so hard i do this every month weeks before TOM is due. Just seems like im starving and want to eat the whole house lol lol if anyone reads this blog could help me by letting me know some tips that have helped u when u are PMSING and want to eat everything?????? I gained the 3 pounds back and im very sad about it so now im going to get back on track and try this again. TRY TRY TRY is all i can do
This morning i stepped on the scale and it said i gained 3 pounds-WHAT???How can that be i have been working so hard this past week and all that hard work and i am GAINING???????? . I been binge free and not eating after 7 pm for 5 days now which im reallly HAPPY about its just that i been doing so good with that and excersising that i dont understand why im gaining. But i guess its just water retention due to my oncomming TOM! I suffer from PMDD which i have been doing some reading on and i guess it is worse then just PMS! which in it self is BAD BAD! So im not getting back on the scale until im off TOM! Which i have overcome i think my obsession of the scale for i do not get on but once a week and only once that day when i wake up! HAd once piece of cake today and only 1 piece but i felt bad about it since i had got on the scale. But did walk A LOT today so atleast i did move my BOOTY! So im depressed but im not going to give up like I HAD WANTED TO THIS MORNING! That would be too easy! Im not going to be a QUITTER like i use to be!
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.........I have it through 3 whole days of no bingeing or eating anything after 7 pm......... DAY 4 is so far looking REAL GOOD! Im so happy cause its been awhile since i have made it through 3 whole days w/out bingeing on something or eating at night. Im GETTING CLOSER 2 my goal of 21 days of no bingeing and NO FOOD after 7 pm. Then when i make it 21 days ill make another goal until i have OVERCOME!!!!!
WELL.....DAY 2 DOWN!.... .....Im working up 2 that 21 days of no binging and eating anything after 7 pm. 19 days to go and im FEELING REALLY GOOD! .......Im going on vacation for 5 days comming up the 15th of this month and i will not get to get on the comp...... .....Sp really is helping me and i HOPE i will make it during my vacation w/out binging.....I THINK I WILL be able to bc i dont like to eat a lot of food in front of ppl (if i do binge i do it when im alone) Anyway, its been a week so far. Plus im trying to lose some pounds b4 i go to ohio to see my vERY SPECIAL friend. Maybe 10 pounds but that is too much in lil time and i do NOT want to gain any of it back so i will just lose what i can and be HAPPY with that!