Thursday, July 24, 2014
I wish I had documented my sobriety journey. What a fool I was not to. It could've helped me today with my sweets addiction.
I remember the first year though, I spend a lot of time in the library, reading up on sobriety and autobiographies of people who were sharing their sobriety journey.
One book I will never forget, it was by Susan Powter (the "Stop the Insanity" girl), the name of the book was "Sober and Staying That Way". It was a great help to me for some reason.
I also remember joining an AOL group "Women in Sobriety" but after a few weeks, I found that it was detrimental reading about failure after failure. I was still too vulnerable to read that.
The hardest was visiting relatives. I had one who kept asking me (every few minutes) are you sure you don't want a drink? He stopped after my husband scolded him in front of everyone!
Once in the beginning of my journey, I tried the alcohol free wine, I was thrilled to have found it, until I read the label and found out that it still had alcohol in it, I believe it was 0.5%. So, I dumped the bottle and stayed away from beverages that "stated" alcohol free.
Do I still think about drinking? Yes!
Especially in social events or when I'm really stressed, but I think of how far I've come and it's just not worth it.
I have a relative who doesn't believe I'm in sobriety, and I have to thank this person because "that" alone keeps me going!
Now, if I can only put all that I've learned about quitting alcohol to quitting sweets-I would be in paradise!
Monday, July 21, 2014
Everyday I try my best to live a healthier lifestyle. I don't drink or smoke, I avoid sweets whenever possible, I walk every morning, and try to make healthy food choices.
I don't always succeed, (that's for sure) but I keep trying everyday. My motivation is my health, I don't want to go through the misery and pain that my poor parents went through in their golden years. I don't want to be a burden to my only son, either.
My husband, on the other hand, seem to have given up. I am so broken hearted about this. I thought we'd grow old together, and be one of those active couples you see on TV.
But he doesn't seem to care anymore, he eats whatever he wants, drinks beer or wine everyday to "unwind" and doesn't even want to know how much he weighs. His idea of fitness is riding the bike on the weekends, weather permitting.
I've nagged him (of course, that doesn't work) I've shared what I've learned about nutrition and fitness on spark with him, I've bought him books and emailed him articles, and although there's been times when he tries to change his ways, it doesn't last long.
I love this man with all my heart, but I can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. My only conclusion is to do my best to be a role model for him and my son.
No one can predict the future, and for all you know, I may be the one who ends up needing care in my old age, but I will not get there without a fight!
The journey continues....
Thanks! I just needed to vent!
Tuesday, July 01, 2014
Now that my June events are over, (and it was nice while it lasted) I'm so glad to have my life back!
My main-July goal is to reinstate my evening snacking "cut-off" time. (That would be 7:30 for me). I have turned my cell's alarm back on to remind me to stop eating for the day.
I plan to walk daily again. (Thank you, Vicki, for the inspiration!) www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=VT
She is doing so well with her virtual walking challenge!
I intend to continue to avoid the three major sweets I mentioned in my last blog.
And the hardest one of all, is getting my water in. I take water with me when I walk outdoors, but I have to do better than that.
Ever since I looked at a picture of me from my son's graduation, it has inspired me to do more than I've been doing. It's not just the weight-gain, but how tired I look.
So, eating fruit and/or vegetables everyday and taking my vitamins is a must!
Well, those are my July goals!
Wishing you! A Happy Healthy July!
Saturday, June 28, 2014
A few sparkfriends have asked me, how I've been able to avoid the sweets for (39) days now?
Well, I have done "no sweets" streaks before, but this time, I decided to do things differently, instead of focusing on streaks, I am just counting the days that I don't eat sweets. I've done streaks before, and it can be a great motivator, but because I have so many events going on this month, 2 birthdays, graduation, anniversary, I didn't want to do anything where I would have to start-over constantly. That would be too discouraging.
Another thing I'm doing differently, is not giving up sweets completely. There are three specific demons that are my biggest temptation and downfall, and those are chocolate peanut butter cups, chocolate mints and kisses. So those are the sweets I'm focusing on abstaining from.
What's amazing is that I have had cake twice this month, and I've been able to have one serving only, that is a big victory for me. Since it's not on my restricted list, I really don't feel like indulging! Isn't that something?
Thank you all for your congrats and wishes on behalf of my son's graduation!
My husband and I were two darn-proud parents on Thursday.
I did have a "moment of truth" when I saw myself in the pictures! I will take it as an added motivator and "try" not to be hard on myself.
I still have our 19th. Wedding Anniversary coming up on Monday, so July the 1rst., will be my day of re-commitment to a healthier lifestyle!
Enjoy the rest of June!
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