Saturday, August 16, 2014
I have FINISHED making 20 meals for my daughter and it is now arrived at her place. All healthy and all things she can eat on her limited diet. My 2 daughters at home have to cook once a week so they opted to go to "Supperworks" yesterday and in 2 hours and ten minutes put together 18 meals. On my credit card... but a good experience in batch cooking. It even allowed them to make gluten free substitutions. We are all curious how they will taste. It is all in the freezer and an easy choice for them for their dinner nights. Can't do it often as it is too expensive... less than eating out of course, but it has made me step back and wonder if the other meals I make could be very very simple vegetarian meals like what I used to live on in University. Lentil "meatloaf" and vegetable bean stews and chilis. I am inspired to do some remembering of how I used to eat on a budget. One big difference was the junk food. I just could not afford it so I did not buy it. I never ate out. Of course a lot of meals were just popcorn. Bowls and bowls of it while studying. Not exactly what I want to encourage for my family. Especially as one daughter can't eat corn. But... maybe we could have some simple meals.
I remember growing up Sunday dinner was always PB and jam on toast watching Walt Disney at my grandmother's. It was amazing because my grandmother made her own apple butter, jams and preserves and you had so many choices. Good memory of family time. My grandfather was in charge of the toast. My Mom and Grandmother had "stations" in front of them with various condiments. The other night we did have sandwiches for dinner. Cold meats and cheeses with fresh veggies from the garden. 4 types of bread... me with my fiber bread and DH with his whole wheat, DD with her jalapeno cheddar bread and my other DD with her Gluten free bread. I am SURE it was as expensive or more than most of the dinners I cook. The beauty of it was the family atmostphere making them and the easy preparation and cleanup. We do scattered sushi bowls (all the suchi ingredients on the counter and you just pile them in your bowl instead of the time to wrap and present them... and sometimes salad nights where everyone makes their own salad with toppings.... and leftover nights where everything goes on the counter and people help themselves. I suppose grilled cheese and soup nights are like that too because now I let everyone make their own specialized sandwich and grill it themself.
How old are your children? Can they make a meal yet? My Mom had us start pretty young, mostly because she had depression. I just knew that she didn't like to cook and had 5 children... so as the eldest I would be the most adventurous making spam cassarole (remember spam? or click?) or shepherd's pie or chicken wings with greek salad. In those days chicken wings were the throw away at the butcher and very cheap. Now they sometimes are more than steak! My next brother always made bacon and eggs and toast for everyone. My next brother always made grilled cheese and soup, my next brother usually made fishsticks or hotdogs on a bun and a cake mix, and then my sister made tuna potato chip cassarole. Vegetables were usually frozen or tinned vegetables and not a lot of them unless my father was home, which was rare. Then there would be 2 vegetables with dinner and sometimes pork chops (dry, leathery things) or liver, (shudder) or my mother's go to - goulash made with hamburger and tinned tomatoes and either elbow macaroni or frozen corn. My father when he cooked made curries... savoury amazing, greasy meals that cooked in a dutch oven all day. He cooked with middle eastern spices and liked to introduce us to scallops and mushrooms and lamb, brussel sprouts and asparagus. He traveled a lot. And we moved a lot so we lived near china town in Vancouver BC and the southern states with mexican influences.
My youngest has always been the most creative and uses a lot of vegetables. All three of them like making stir fries. My oldest makes the sushi bowls or spicy veggie full spaghetti sauces or chinese pork buns and my midlest likes making stuffed peppers or tring artisan sausages on the BBQ. I think from my days of boring meals week after week growing up and part of my eating disorder I started being obsessed with never having the same meal... and would create 90 menus, all different when we were first married. My kids grew up eating all kinds of food. I am still ambitious but now it is because I need to find meals that everyone can eat and enjoy together. I also love food and cooking. I just am becoming more concious about the types of foods and making them healthy. It was good to be a vegetarian for a few years and good marrying into a butcher's family. I am more aware of nutrition and quality of foods. Much healthier than how I grew up. I learned to love veggies and am still learning constantly.
Once food was all about taste. I loved the sweets and used them to get friends and impress people. I'm glad that has changed.
I'm making morrocan root vegetales roasted in the oven tonight with lean pork tenderloin baked on top with fennel being the key veg. I've also cut up everything for a curried coconut squash chick pea stew-p with kale for tomorrow and have lots of spinach for salad and my daughter's bumper crop of tomatoes and feta cheese. Good, healthy foods. Apples for snacks.
I had a rest day yesterday from exercise so today will be a pool walking day again. I want to go to the science museum this weekend as their is a special exhibit on of inventions people have made in their garages and basements... robots, solar, lego, some sounding like what you would have seen in Chitty Chitty Bang Bang. making breakfast or chopping vegetables. I also am considering going to life drawing class today with my daughter and hubby. I need some creative outlet which a spark friend reminded me of.
This is a journey... not just one spent on the scale or monitered by the scale. I can see the progress of my food journey through my life. I understand the emotions tied up with foods. I want new good memories, not just with food, with my family. I want food still to be enjoyable but also to enjoy the trips to the market or asian food store or part of planning our patio garden. I want it to be energy to get in my pool and get in my 10,000 steps a day LIVING life to the fullest... not just on a treadmill.
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
For so many good choices yesterday. Exercise, food, and some good planning. I have been getting excited... which is a sure sign the depression is on the way out. I have some new recipes planned to send to DD this weekend while she moves and helped her problem solve some major issues so her stress is less. I got 10,000 steps and 5 miles yesterday!!!! And today my knee feels pretty good. I think the prayer has really helped!
OK, so on the serious side, the scale is now at 210. It could be the extra ST. But it more likely is the night eating I did last night. I went to the tracker and put in my food for the day and it could not have been more perfect... until I added the night snack which DOUBLED my numbers. Obviously a very very poor choice. I kind of knew... but seeing it on the tracker made my heart sink. Learning curves. This will NOT happen again.
I am on a budget but I went and spent $100 on new gadgets.
1. A mandolin for making apple and sweet potato chips
2. A spiral vegetable pasta maker
3. A mold for gluten free bagel/donuts
I am cooking for DD. Yesterday I was in tears listening to her as she talked about the pain, often keeping her up at night or having her doubled over during a lecture. She has no car to shop at specialty food stores and no money and no time to make food. She has been eating oatmeal, steamed fish or chicken with plain vegetables or lentils... no spices, no corn, no gluten, no dairy, no sugar, no soy, minimal oils and fats... When you have food problems you suddenly realize that there is corn and wheat and soy in almost everything packaged. She is scared to eat out at all.. Gluten free menus often have corn or soy or dairy in them. She needs high fiber, high protein, . But she is also in study groups and taking courses and while everyone is ordering pizza or picking up fast food she says she gets to her cupboards and finds them empty.. can't eat out anywhere, and is having dizzy spells from not eating. It is the pain that concerns me. She is in and out of emerg as advised by her doctor. It is a pretty serious pancreas condition but they are still doing investigations. So I am trying to help. From a distance. A LONG distance. But her boyfriend is going this weekend so I am preparing. I have the list of recipes and will make sure I have all the ingredients. Here is what I'm making from the "real healthy food" website:
1. raspberry granola
2. dairy free strawberry yogurt (she will have to put it together there but I'll package the ingredients which include cococonut milk and arrowroot flour and dehydrated strawberries)
2. quinoa roasted vegetable salad with pomogranent dressing
3. chicken pasta with mushrooms and broccoli (on zucchini pasta/coconut cream sauce)
4. Zucchini muffins made with almond flour
5. french onion pizza
6. tahini sesame seed apple butter cookies (from a cookbook I have)
7. eat your vegetables chicken meatloaf with cauliflower gratin
I considered sending stuffed sweet potatoes which look amazing.. with cashew "cream cheese" and a meat mixture but I'll leave that for when she comes home when I'll try the bagel recipe and in the meantime I'll try making sweet potato and apple chips. I know she will find a lot of joy just seeing the package arrive and I am hoping the variety of good foods will lift her spirits.
I feel good that I can do something to help her. Her doctor sent her to a naturopath who is treating her as though she has IBS... which she doesn't... but the hopes are they can give her pancreas a "rest" so it will heal without surgery and get her through the next couple of weeks so she can finish her national exam. The good news is that because of her other disabilities (Irlin Syndrome) the board has agreed to give her modifications like having her exam on blue paper and allowing her a desk light... the bad news is she found out yesterday she can only write in one place in Canada which has been put near an airport for that reason... and the good news is there is a hotel room available within 20 minutes walk or 7 minutes by bus that has fridge and microwave so she can have her own food availalbe. It is a 3 day exam and costs keep building up so we are very hopeful she passes. Her boyfriend is going this weekend to help her move to a room in a house for a month as her lease is up, and then we will meet her back there to bring her home after she goes and writes the exam. Very complicated. I am going to brainstorm what foods she could have in a hotel room to eat over 3 days given that that is not until September 9th.
Am I stressed? Oh yes. So hard when your kids are sick let alone in distress. One month and she will be HOME. On the good side, she is still on the Dean's list, has now graduated from her Master's and only has this one exam left. Just wish it was not so complicated!!! Breath....
So what can I do for myself today? First, get rid of the snack I got into yesterday.
- double my fiber toast and peanut butter and coffee with an apple
-salad with salmon
\-tahini applebutter cookie
-spaghetti squash with roasted vegetables and chicken
-zuchhini muffin with cheese
-I started the morning with 100 crunches on the ball
-walk in the pool for at least 20 minutes (I did 50 minutes yesterday)
Morning pages. My spark group may be restarting which is exciting so I need to look up the writing diet notes. I also have been getting ready to start working on my novel again so I'd like to make some notes about my character. Harp practice.
Some cooking today, but mostly preparation so I can get the bulk of it done tomorrow in the slow cooker and baking. DD's boyfriend will be leaving for the roadtrip Friday morning so everything will have to be ready to go so I am envisioning a late night Thursday or early up on Friday to have it all packaged up. A lot will be portioned for the freezer once he gets there. I can't do this every week. No way to get it to her anyways. Although the bread I fedexed a few months ago got there safely and was less than $20 to send and did not make her sick.
OK, on the grateful list... I feel pretty good. Emotionally and physically. No pain this morning and I have energy. I am sure that it is the exercise finally kicking in. We have had thunder storms with more coming so it is DARK outsdie even though it is almost 9:00 am. DH has been wonderfully supportive. My dog seems to be feeling better today too. I have a "mission" in the kitchen and that probably is my biggest gratitude. Thank God for these websites with great ideas. Also want to try making my own coconut milk from scratch... and figure out if there is a protein powder DD can tolerate for making smoothies...
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