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Espionage and the Food Dragon

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Writing this morning I talked to myself about my food and exercising which is not new... but I sketched out a chart of things I wanted to be able to track and was surprised. I wanted to track the number of Dragon attacks.

My food dragon, as I have shared before is cunning and baffling and sneaky. It prepares for ambush when I am tired, hungry, lonely, tired or in pain. It likes the nights when I am sitting in my comfy chair in front of the TV. It lures me into forgetting my goals. I often write about it but I have never actually logged it's efforts or successes. Is this a clue? Something I should consider? I have always focused on logging my successes. But even saying that I realized when I first logged my food it was to see patterns and see REALITY. Perhaps I need a real view of what my food dragon is doing. I can be... a spy. Try and get into its' mind. Try and predict better when and why it does what it does.

Worth a try anyways. So in my journal, which I am now going to title "Food Dragon Espionage" I plan to divide it into 2 sections each day. On the one side my own strategies for success and on the other the dragon's activities.

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 8/21/2014 12:43AM

    I like the idea. However I worry that is concentrating too much on the struggle and could make it bigger. But it could also be a good thing.

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JUSTME29 8/20/2014 10:38PM

    That is a really great idea.

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_BABE_ 8/20/2014 9:14PM

    You are so right on the money...... emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 8/20/2014 5:57PM

    Awesome! You are a dragon tamer!!!!

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SEAWAVE 8/20/2014 5:04PM

    I think tracking dragon attacks is a great idea. I think it may help to see some hidden patterns and challenges that might not be obvious at first glance!

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THELORELAI 8/20/2014 1:36PM

    emoticon You can beat that dragon!

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NSMRIDGEWAY 8/20/2014 12:18PM

    Bravo! A beautiful plan, beautifully stated by a beautiful lady. Your open-mindedness and attention are why you're going to succeed.

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Starting the Writing Diet again...

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

I've been accepted as team leader for the Wiring Diet spark page and am pretty excited. I really found this book useful. Last time I committed to trying the Writing Diet for 100 days. I'm not sure I will do a countdown again... but right now I need to organize my thoughts.

So this week is about reviewing the 7 tools of the book.
1. Morning pages
2. Journal
3. Walking
4. The 4 questions
5. The culinary artist's date
7. The body buddy

I've also asked people to think about
A. How they want to eat
B. Their problem areas

My morning pages I do on paper and I have a binder to keep them in. I use them when I first get up to try and connect with how I'm feeling, anticipate problems for the day... plan. I don't keep them. Sometimes they are lists. I'm one of those people who keep going through things in my head and can get sucked into activities so I don't get things done. I can forget my goals especially when it includes NOT eating certain foods that day. The book says when you keep writing something over and over eventually you will have an aha moment and not do that thing.. or do it if it is excercise or something I'm procrastinating about. I believe it. It has helped me declutter and make phone calls. I guess it incorporates the "eat a frog a day" principle and the fly ladies' "in ten minutes-you can do anything". The big thing for me is I have been feeling lost. Having my knee injury I hit a wall and the goals I had then all had to be put on hold while I await a knee replacement. That was June 1st and I have yet to come up with a new plan. I had to temporarily close the B&B, put off big projects and holiday plans.... and get over the "poor me" attitude.

Time to live in today and be productive again. Which brings up the journal. I need to buy a new one. A spiral notebook worked well before. I often use my blogs... like what I'm doing here. Some things though I can't talk about in "public".

Walking I am doing in the pool. I would like to not think about the clock so was wondering if it would be helpful to use 20 minutes of music or set an alarm clock. I really liked being able to walk 10 minutes, note the nearest landmark and turn around. When I am walking in circles that is hard to do. Also I have to decide if it is OK to incorporate using water weights during this or if I want to keep my thoughts open. I think... it is OK to use the weights.

The 4 questions = part of my food journal - to ask myself if I'm hungry, want to eat this, eat it now, or if there is a better choice... I did not do very well last night as I was in pain. Overdid it in the garden big time and so today I am using my walker again to get around. Last night I used my husband to go get popcorn while we watched TV. I could have asked him to fetch my food journal first. Popcorn was not a bad choice but I could have portioned it better.

The culinary artist's date has me gritting my teeth a bit because I am trying to reduce any eating out. Of course DH and I had 2 "dates" this week and had at one a donut and at the other some french fries. I think I could have planned that better too. Again HALT and writing could have helped.

Body buddies - I am here to confess I had a donut.... and the other time french fries. I can make better choices. Neither was as good as I thought it would be. I will carry on.

Which brings me to how I want to eat. As much as possible I want to eat clean. I read an article yesterday that said artificial that is going to be published in the Obesity journal that says their study had shown sweeters have NOT been found to increase appetite and that people trying to diet HAVE had drinks reduce their cravings. What do I believe? Hmmm. Tea and water and coffee are my main beverages and sometimes I enjoy vanilla creamer in my chai tea. I don't know what to believe but I have been sad about giving up my creamer. It is a very good choice for me to have a chai tea over icecream or cookies in that night time watching TV mode. I will continue to think about this. I don't tend to drink soft drinks and avoid having artificially sweetened foods around because my DH and a DD can't have them. But... I did try sweetening my rhubarb the other day with "brown sugar sweetener" and it was quite good. It did satisfy what I was looking for. Hmmm. I want to eat whole foods. I want to keep trying paleo recipes with fewer grains. My eldest daughter and I had a "fight" yesterday about that. We resolved things after but she does not want to have any kind of "diet" enforced on her. She is very obese. But she admitted that she had an instant reaction and did not think through what she said. For my part I have to give her choices. I remember reacting to feeling I was deprived.... triggered my food dragon. That is what this all is about. Not triggering MY eating disorder and allowing the food dragon to reign.

So my problem areas still are eating at night or in front of the TV. Not triggering my food dragon... so deciding whether artificial sweeteners are acceptible for ME. Planning for those times when I am OUT and decide to eat, and deciding what things I can have in the house that won't trigger MY food dragon but will also not allow my daughter's to be triggered.

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 8/21/2014 1:36AM

    I like the idea of the writing diet. I want to do something creative daily. I did find myself with a little too much negative navel gazing. I need to figure out how I want to do it. I will make sure I have a notebook. Then I can join your team. _

I find when I "mess up". If I practice making a better choice in my head. Imagining the details of what I wish I had done or a better choice I could have made. The more details the better. I am also learning to think about how I will feel after a choice. Using my imagination really helps me.

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SEAWAVE 8/20/2014 5:02PM

    I'm glad you've found the Writing Diet useful -- I have been thinking of starting up again, adapted somewhat. You're really going great guns on facing your challenges, and identifying what works for you. You're quite the inspiration!


Edited to add: I've been wondering if I should have a "HALT" tattoo added to my other one, because I easily forget that one little step before "diving in"...

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STRONGNFIERCE 8/20/2014 10:24AM

    I am looking forward to following your writing diet blogs Justyna :)

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1AVERY 8/20/2014 8:42AM

    Everyone has to find what works for them. This eating diet sounds interesting but I would never follow through with doing it daily I can't even remember to take meds daily or consistent.

Sweeteners I believe in real sugar although I mostly use honey, maple syrup or coconut sugar 95% of the time as sweetener again personal choice.

Everyone has to find what works for them. Right now gluten, dairy and nut free has been working for me. I have energy, feel a lot less pain and have lost a lot of inches and lbs. although I keep getting to plateaus but at least I stay the same for weeks to months that is ok with me as well as long as I'm not gaining works. I still have lots of weight to lose but it will happen. The inches are going pretty fast. Teri emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CAPECODBABE 8/20/2014 6:04AM

    Congrats!!! I love the Writing Diet, I should blow the dust off my book LOL

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SEAGLASS1215 8/20/2014 4:26AM

    I just joined the team...cannot believe I haven't heard of the writing diet before, as I love to write and feel like I live in the diet section of the book store! I'm hoping I can learn a few things without having read the book but I will look for it in my library and book store.

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NASFKAB 8/19/2014 10:03PM

  congrats on being team leader all the best

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1CRAZYDOG 8/19/2014 9:01PM

    Congrats on being team leader!

Have to say, for me, artificial sweeteners don't agree with me. I can't say I noticed that they affected my appetite one way or the other but I would get brain fog, tiredness . . . so that's how it goes for me.

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THELORELAI 8/19/2014 7:11PM

    I'm looking forward to participating! Thanks so much for leading this.


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MATSCHI 8/19/2014 2:24PM

    Justyna, thank you for sharing your journey! You ALWAYS inspire me. Your knee injury was a big bump in the road, but you keep going, and I know you will come out victorious.
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DSBRIDE 8/19/2014 2:16PM

    I have found artificial sweeteners to be a blessing in my case. They calm my sweet cravings and allow me beverages that I love. Since I am diabetic, drinks with real sugar are a no no.
I do use a bit of Splenda for cooking too esp if I am making bread. A little goes a long way.
I tried to go without this but the taste was so unsatifing that it wasn't worth it. My daughter on the other hand believes in using only real sugar but less of it. Who is to say who is right or wrong, it's personal taste.

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Memories of food and looking for creative outlets

Saturday, August 16, 2014

I have FINISHED making 20 meals for my daughter and it is now arrived at her place. All healthy and all things she can eat on her limited diet. My 2 daughters at home have to cook once a week so they opted to go to "Supperworks" yesterday and in 2 hours and ten minutes put together 18 meals. On my credit card... but a good experience in batch cooking. It even allowed them to make gluten free substitutions. We are all curious how they will taste. It is all in the freezer and an easy choice for them for their dinner nights. Can't do it often as it is too expensive... less than eating out of course, but it has made me step back and wonder if the other meals I make could be very very simple vegetarian meals like what I used to live on in University. Lentil "meatloaf" and vegetable bean stews and chilis. I am inspired to do some remembering of how I used to eat on a budget. One big difference was the junk food. I just could not afford it so I did not buy it. I never ate out. Of course a lot of meals were just popcorn. Bowls and bowls of it while studying. Not exactly what I want to encourage for my family. Especially as one daughter can't eat corn. But... maybe we could have some simple meals.

I remember growing up Sunday dinner was always PB and jam on toast watching Walt Disney at my grandmother's. It was amazing because my grandmother made her own apple butter, jams and preserves and you had so many choices. Good memory of family time. My grandfather was in charge of the toast. My Mom and Grandmother had "stations" in front of them with various condiments. The other night we did have sandwiches for dinner. Cold meats and cheeses with fresh veggies from the garden. 4 types of bread... me with my fiber bread and DH with his whole wheat, DD with her jalapeno cheddar bread and my other DD with her Gluten free bread. I am SURE it was as expensive or more than most of the dinners I cook. The beauty of it was the family atmostphere making them and the easy preparation and cleanup. We do scattered sushi bowls (all the suchi ingredients on the counter and you just pile them in your bowl instead of the time to wrap and present them... and sometimes salad nights where everyone makes their own salad with toppings.... and leftover nights where everything goes on the counter and people help themselves. I suppose grilled cheese and soup nights are like that too because now I let everyone make their own specialized sandwich and grill it themself.

How old are your children? Can they make a meal yet? My Mom had us start pretty young, mostly because she had depression. I just knew that she didn't like to cook and had 5 children... so as the eldest I would be the most adventurous making spam cassarole (remember spam? or click?) or shepherd's pie or chicken wings with greek salad. In those days chicken wings were the throw away at the butcher and very cheap. Now they sometimes are more than steak! My next brother always made bacon and eggs and toast for everyone. My next brother always made grilled cheese and soup, my next brother usually made fishsticks or hotdogs on a bun and a cake mix, and then my sister made tuna potato chip cassarole. Vegetables were usually frozen or tinned vegetables and not a lot of them unless my father was home, which was rare. Then there would be 2 vegetables with dinner and sometimes pork chops (dry, leathery things) or liver, (shudder) or my mother's go to - goulash made with hamburger and tinned tomatoes and either elbow macaroni or frozen corn. My father when he cooked made curries... savoury amazing, greasy meals that cooked in a dutch oven all day. He cooked with middle eastern spices and liked to introduce us to scallops and mushrooms and lamb, brussel sprouts and asparagus. He traveled a lot. And we moved a lot so we lived near china town in Vancouver BC and the southern states with mexican influences.

My youngest has always been the most creative and uses a lot of vegetables. All three of them like making stir fries. My oldest makes the sushi bowls or spicy veggie full spaghetti sauces or chinese pork buns and my midlest likes making stuffed peppers or tring artisan sausages on the BBQ. I think from my days of boring meals week after week growing up and part of my eating disorder I started being obsessed with never having the same meal... and would create 90 menus, all different when we were first married. My kids grew up eating all kinds of food. I am still ambitious but now it is because I need to find meals that everyone can eat and enjoy together. I also love food and cooking. I just am becoming more concious about the types of foods and making them healthy. It was good to be a vegetarian for a few years and good marrying into a butcher's family. I am more aware of nutrition and quality of foods. Much healthier than how I grew up. I learned to love veggies and am still learning constantly.

Once food was all about taste. I loved the sweets and used them to get friends and impress people. I'm glad that has changed.

I'm making morrocan root vegetales roasted in the oven tonight with lean pork tenderloin baked on top with fennel being the key veg. I've also cut up everything for a curried coconut squash chick pea stew-p with kale for tomorrow and have lots of spinach for salad and my daughter's bumper crop of tomatoes and feta cheese. Good, healthy foods. Apples for snacks.

I had a rest day yesterday from exercise so today will be a pool walking day again. I want to go to the science museum this weekend as their is a special exhibit on of inventions people have made in their garages and basements... robots, solar, lego, some sounding like what you would have seen in Chitty Chitty Bang Bang. making breakfast or chopping vegetables. I also am considering going to life drawing class today with my daughter and hubby. I need some creative outlet which a spark friend reminded me of.

This is a journey... not just one spent on the scale or monitered by the scale. I can see the progress of my food journey through my life. I understand the emotions tied up with foods. I want new good memories, not just with food, with my family. I want food still to be enjoyable but also to enjoy the trips to the market or asian food store or part of planning our patio garden. I want it to be energy to get in my pool and get in my 10,000 steps a day LIVING life to the fullest... not just on a treadmill.

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SEAWAVE 8/20/2014 4:56PM

    So many of our memories revolve around food, don't they? Lately, we've been doing a lot of cold cuts, crackers, cheese and fruit for supper. In fact, last night after work we stopped at a grocery and picked some up to picnic in Gatineau Park. It's been so long since I've been, and it was beautiful (although it cooled off very quickly Brrrrrr).

One of my go-to dishes in the fall/winter is a four-bean vegetarian chili. We eat it as chili, or use it to make burritos or eat with nachos, or a base for soup, or on top of rice. So many options!

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LEANJEAN6 8/16/2014 8:11PM

    I enjoyed hearing about your battle to get to Onederland--It's a long journey isn't it??---Lynda

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DSJB9999 8/16/2014 4:07PM

    At this time I haven't really started cooking with my 10 and 12 year old children so you have inspired me. Maybe I need to involve them more. They have started washing and drying up but we'll move forward.

Your blog is inspiring MATSCHI is correct. emoticon for sharing your memories and current healthy life x

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MATSCHI 8/16/2014 1:40PM

    As usual, you inspire me Justyna. Thank you for sharing your memories, your creative meals, and your approach to a healthy, full life! emoticon

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NASFKAB 8/16/2014 11:38AM

  interesting blog we all have food memories some of my mine are unpleasant when we live with my inlaws

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1CRAZYDOG 8/16/2014 11:29AM

    I started young w/my kids too and they are both good cooks.


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MSHEALTHYMEL 8/16/2014 11:26AM

  I really enjoy your blog and just wanted you to know it has helped me. Your attitude is positive and forward looking. I am just coming off of a knee injury followed by a sinus/eye infection..there is something to be said that when you are stressed (knee pain) that your immune system is so much more susceptible (infection). I too felt the depression and am working my way out of it for which I am grateful. In the past it was all about wanting to lose weight to look better...today it is about taking care of my body...eating clean healthy foods in amounts that do not stress my system....moving because it is what my body needs not because I have to...loving myself and this gift of life I have been given....doing what I can but being careful not to over do because I think I should...letting others take care of themselves when possible rather than me taking care of them. There are days when I think what is the point I will never lose all this weight but then I remember that each healthy action I take is better than no action at all...so one day, one meal at a time I work to make the best choice. Have a great day!! emoticon

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JUSTME29 8/16/2014 11:12AM

    I've often wished there was a place locally like that - where I could go spend a few hours on a weekend and batch cook. My kitchen is tiny and I'm not really set up for it here, and I'd love to be able to make 5 or 6 different dishes all at once (or in short succession) and then come home and freeze it all. I'm sure it is expensive, but as you said less so than eating out and I'd have complete control over the ingredients.

I can follow a recipe, but that's about it. Hubby is the one who can really cook. For years he did essentially all the cooking, but now we try to take turns. Mine are generally very simple (baked chicken and potatoes) and his tend to be a little more complex and interesting.

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Ending the day with gratitudes!

Thursday, August 14, 2014

PHew! I am amazed at all the food I have cooked... tweaks and changes. DD is now quite sick so chicken stew-p became a priority (is is stew or is it soup... who can tell?). However LOTS of food she can eat and hopefully a bit more tomorrow.

I have had 2 days of getting more than 10,000 steps! 2 days of .... I can't say pain free but certainly manageable pain in my knee and with all the standing at the stove it is amazing to me. Either it is all the prayer in the pool or mama bear frenzy to make her child well. I'll take it, regardless.

I am doing much better with the depression too. I know that getting in the exercise changes everything. When I can pass that 20 minute threshold I swear my brain cells start coming into alignment. Everything is clearer and I am motivated again. I know it can be a roller coaster so I am cautious about saying the depression is gone... but it is absolutely getting better.

My food is better too. I was sharing on a thread that my new secret weapon is my food journal. I left it on the kitchen counter and my intention is to write in it when I want to go off my food plan. So when I walked into the kitchen and saw it on the counter I turned around and walked out because I didn't want to rationalize what I wanted to snack on. Hehehehe. Love it. I am SO gullible.

I feel happy right now. Going with it, running with it, and with that in mind I should get to bed early so I can start the day with a swim.

Oh.. and I booked a bed and breakfast guest (couple actually) who are walking the Rideau Trail. If you have read my spark page you know that is my passion. Can't wait for them to come and tell me about their adventure! OUr B&B is just a block from the trail so it's great when someone is walking through town and looking for a place to spend the night.

Many gratitudes to end my day with. Thanks spark friends for helping me get through all this. Justyna

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SEAWAVE 8/20/2014 4:53PM

    Trying to catch up on all the Spark news. What great fun it will be to have some Rideau Trail enthusiasts there. I forget if your site advertises your passion, but you should since the B&B is so close to the trail.

Hilarious that just seeing your journal derailed your temptation. Gotta love it! I'm strating journalling and tracking again too, but for different reasons. Same out come, though -- to learn more, see patterns ands trends, and arm myself against this next battle!

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1CRAZYDOG 8/15/2014 5:59PM

    I hope your DD feels better! It is hard for Mama Bear when a cub is sick!!!!

HUGS and here's to a great weekend.

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NASFKAB 8/15/2014 10:36AM

  great idea keeping the fod jurnal in he kitchen doing the wrk for someone you is keeping you fit

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DSBRIDE 8/15/2014 9:43AM

    My food journal helps me too. It makes me aware of the cal
Oriels I consumed and many times I'm surprised at how they add up. It also stops me at the end of the day if I have gone too far. Kudos for the good work and hugs for your daughter.

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STRONGNFIERCE 8/15/2014 9:20AM

    I try and keep up with my food journal too, helped me out last night as I was reaching for another glass of wine... lol!

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JUST_BRENDA 8/15/2014 8:09AM

    Great idea (putting food journal in kitchen!!!)

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DRAGON-CHICK 8/15/2014 5:10AM

    I have to say I am so impressed my your strength!


I'd probably be sitting on the couch with my leg up, giving in to depression and cravings. That could be how I got in this mess after all...

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DSJB9999 8/15/2014 2:06AM

    emoticon like the food diary plan! Unfortunately I can ignore mine - ha! ha!
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KNEEMAKER 8/14/2014 11:35PM

  Keep on keeping on! emoticon

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A Whirlwind of a Wednesday

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

emoticon For so many good choices yesterday. Exercise, food, and some good planning. I have been getting excited... which is a sure sign the depression is on the way out. I have some new recipes planned to send to DD this weekend while she moves and helped her problem solve some major issues so her stress is less. I got 10,000 steps and 5 miles yesterday!!!! And today my knee feels pretty good. I think the prayer has really helped!

OK, so on the serious side, the scale is now at 210. It could be the extra ST. But it more likely is the night eating I did last night. I went to the tracker and put in my food for the day and it could not have been more perfect... until I added the night snack which DOUBLED my numbers. Obviously a very very poor choice. I kind of knew... but seeing it on the tracker made my heart sink. Learning curves. This will NOT happen again.

I am on a budget but I went and spent $100 on new gadgets.
1. A mandolin for making apple and sweet potato chips
2. A spiral vegetable pasta maker
3. A mold for gluten free bagel/donuts

I am cooking for DD. Yesterday I was in tears listening to her as she talked about the pain, often keeping her up at night or having her doubled over during a lecture. She has no car to shop at specialty food stores and no money and no time to make food. She has been eating oatmeal, steamed fish or chicken with plain vegetables or lentils... no spices, no corn, no gluten, no dairy, no sugar, no soy, minimal oils and fats... When you have food problems you suddenly realize that there is corn and wheat and soy in almost everything packaged. She is scared to eat out at all.. Gluten free menus often have corn or soy or dairy in them. She needs high fiber, high protein, . But she is also in study groups and taking courses and while everyone is ordering pizza or picking up fast food she says she gets to her cupboards and finds them empty.. can't eat out anywhere, and is having dizzy spells from not eating. It is the pain that concerns me. She is in and out of emerg as advised by her doctor. It is a pretty serious pancreas condition but they are still doing investigations. So I am trying to help. From a distance. A LONG distance. But her boyfriend is going this weekend so I am preparing. I have the list of recipes and will make sure I have all the ingredients. Here is what I'm making from the "real healthy food" website:

1. raspberry granola
2. dairy free strawberry yogurt (she will have to put it together there but I'll package the ingredients which include cococonut milk and arrowroot flour and dehydrated strawberries)
2. quinoa roasted vegetable salad with pomogranent dressing
3. chicken pasta with mushrooms and broccoli (on zucchini pasta/coconut cream sauce)

4. Zucchini muffins made with almond flour
5. french onion pizza
6. tahini sesame seed apple butter cookies (from a cookbook I have)
7. eat your vegetables chicken meatloaf with cauliflower gratin

I considered sending stuffed sweet potatoes which look amazing.. with cashew "cream cheese" and a meat mixture but I'll leave that for when she comes home when I'll try the bagel recipe and in the meantime I'll try making sweet potato and apple chips. I know she will find a lot of joy just seeing the package arrive and I am hoping the variety of good foods will lift her spirits.

I feel good that I can do something to help her. Her doctor sent her to a naturopath who is treating her as though she has IBS... which she doesn't... but the hopes are they can give her pancreas a "rest" so it will heal without surgery and get her through the next couple of weeks so she can finish her national exam. The good news is that because of her other disabilities (Irlin Syndrome) the board has agreed to give her modifications like having her exam on blue paper and allowing her a desk light... the bad news is she found out yesterday she can only write in one place in Canada which has been put near an airport for that reason... and the good news is there is a hotel room available within 20 minutes walk or 7 minutes by bus that has fridge and microwave so she can have her own food availalbe. It is a 3 day exam and costs keep building up so we are very hopeful she passes. Her boyfriend is going this weekend to help her move to a room in a house for a month as her lease is up, and then we will meet her back there to bring her home after she goes and writes the exam. Very complicated. I am going to brainstorm what foods she could have in a hotel room to eat over 3 days given that that is not until September 9th.

Am I stressed? Oh yes. So hard when your kids are sick let alone in distress. One month and she will be HOME. On the good side, she is still on the Dean's list, has now graduated from her Master's and only has this one exam left. Just wish it was not so complicated!!! Breath....

So what can I do for myself today? First, get rid of the snack I got into yesterday.
- double my fiber toast and peanut butter and coffee with an apple
-salad with salmon
\-tahini applebutter cookie
-spaghetti squash with roasted vegetables and chicken
-zuchhini muffin with cheese

-I started the morning with 100 crunches on the ball
-walk in the pool for at least 20 minutes (I did 50 minutes yesterday)
Chiropractor today.

Morning pages. My spark group may be restarting which is exciting so I need to look up the writing diet notes. I also have been getting ready to start working on my novel again so I'd like to make some notes about my character. Harp practice.

Some cooking today, but mostly preparation so I can get the bulk of it done tomorrow in the slow cooker and baking. DD's boyfriend will be leaving for the roadtrip Friday morning so everything will have to be ready to go so I am envisioning a late night Thursday or early up on Friday to have it all packaged up. A lot will be portioned for the freezer once he gets there. I can't do this every week. No way to get it to her anyways. Although the bread I fedexed a few months ago got there safely and was less than $20 to send and did not make her sick.

OK, on the grateful list... I feel pretty good. Emotionally and physically. No pain this morning and I have energy. I am sure that it is the exercise finally kicking in. We have had thunder storms with more coming so it is DARK outsdie even though it is almost 9:00 am. DH has been wonderfully supportive. My dog seems to be feeling better today too. I have a "mission" in the kitchen and that probably is my biggest gratitude. Thank God for these websites with great ideas. Also want to try making my own coconut milk from scratch... and figure out if there is a protein powder DD can tolerate for making smoothies...

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NORASPAT 8/14/2014 9:29PM

    "J" I was totally Gluten free for 12 years. They thought Celiac but it was wheat. I am not gluten free I am wheat free.
There were no books about 25 years ago and my allergist had one from Australia and he gave it to me. It was a lifesaver. It is very hard to find what you need. You are giving her the help she needs to learn to do it herself. WELL DONE,
It is hard to do exams with so much stress over eating.
I hope she does her exams and can come home. Pat in Maine.

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STRONGNFIERCE 8/14/2014 6:52PM

    Strength and prayers to your DD and you! Food sensitivities are just horrible!
Your food never ceases to amaze me, can I move in??

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CTUPTON 8/14/2014 5:32PM

    Again Justya, you are amazing! Just inventing all that food is a huge task!

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DRAGON-CHICK 8/13/2014 11:15AM

    What a great mom you are!
Of course it's torture when they are unwell.
But you're helping as you can.
And taking care of yourself, too!


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NASFKAB 8/13/2014 10:48AM

  what a loving thoughtful thing to do well wishes for your daughters

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DSBRIDE 8/13/2014 9:30AM

    Hugs for you and your daughter. It's so hard but she will get thru this. It certainly helps that you have her back, so many parents abandon their kids once they grow up. My MIL always said "What's goes around, comes around".

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ARKPLE 8/13/2014 9:16AM

    I love the kitchen items you bought. All very useful and health-friendly.... So sorry to read about your DD. You are giving her the tender loving care she needs right now. May it return to you as well; i.e., may you as the "giver" also receive. xo

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