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Friday, November 14, 2014

Uhhh. So yeah, this is new. I am trying to comment on someone's blog and the site won't allow me to and keeps asking me to remove any cursing. I haven't curse and I, for the life of me, can't figure out what's wrong or what word might be prompting it. Does anyone have any clues or suggestions....are there any typical "innocent" words or characters that kick warning into effect? I wish it would at least highlight for me the problematic word(s)!

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ONTHEPATH2 11/19/2014 2:28PM

    Hope it gets unconfused @#$!!!

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FELINEBETTER 11/14/2014 3:53PM

    Sounds like some kind of bizarre glitch! Hope it clears up soon. I for one am always interested in what you have to say!

Spark On! emoticon

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BONOLICIOUS2 11/14/2014 1:47PM

    Lol hence why I'm always going @$$, B!tch and such hah. No, we must be innocent and not frustrated or mean people!

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POOKASLUAGH 11/14/2014 1:37PM

    Sometimes it gets confused if it thinks you are putting any html into the comment. I've gotten that before when trying to make a heart with the open bracket. Sometimes just with a slash, though I think that's only been on my profile itself rather than comments. Sometimes a combination of punctuation does something in html and the Spark site gets confused. That's the only thing I can think of!

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Time to pay the piper

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Thanks for the warm welcome yesterday. It was very touching and made me feel back "home" again.

I reset my weight tracker and added some updated photos. Accountability, yadda yadda. I tell you what. It's like I'm a first time user of this site. It took me forever just to do those two things! New features, new links, more advertisements.

Saw the doc today and blood pressure and levels are ok...still pre-diabetic but hypothyroid is in check. I'm set for go.

It's flipping cold and looks like we'll have our first snow before Thanksgiving this year...maybe as soon as Monday. Eeek. I went and bought winter boots this past weekend. They are sorely needed. My old ones are worn out and (TMI warning) fiercely reek. There was a sale so I got two pairs: some nice understated black ones and some Justin "gypsy" cowboy boots. I'm ready to go scrape ice off of my windshield now without freezing my toes. Last winter was so rough, I am on the front end of this thing and prepared.

Tonight my daughter is cheerleading a basketball game at her middle school. She made the cheer team this year and, as part of her three times a week practices, does *gasp* Crossfit! Good gracious, my child has outdone me. You should see her do burpees like they're nothing! It's so weird. All last year I tried to get her interested in fitness and now the tables are turned. She is a constantly moving machine and is regularly prompting me to "come stretch" or do some other physical activity with her. I am extremely grateful for that!

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NHES220 11/13/2014 11:49AM

    The tables have turned! You now have an active child! That should be a great motivator. So glad you are back! Good for you!

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SUMMER2203 11/13/2014 8:02AM

    ugh it snowed here already this morning - not ready!!!!! that is awesome that your daughter has gotten so into fitness! sounds like you have a built-in work out buddy :)

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ROCKPORT9 11/12/2014 7:06PM

    I was so surprised and impressed when my daughter was a cheerleader. They really work out! emoticon

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POOKASLUAGH 11/12/2014 4:40PM

    It's supposed to snow here on Friday. Way too early, even for someone who LIKES winter!

I highly recommend installing Ad-block. I see almost no advertisements on my internet, not at Spark, not on Facebook, not on any pages...

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Tuesday, November 11, 2014

I will do this...again...even if for the millionth time. The last year has seen a lot of change...injury, illness, a move, a partnership. I've regained weight AGAIN. I'll eventually blog about some of these things This is the second relapse since starting SPARK several years ago.

I need to dig deep to get and stay motivated. I know if I can do it again one more time, it will be the last time. What's different? I now have the space and the capability to maintain an exercise routine. I have a treadmill. I've been put on some medicine that have given me a new lease on life.

I have the means to get back on track. Now the spirit is doubtful and bored of the same ol' routine.

Glad to see some of my old friends around. Thanks for not dropping me off your Friends Lists!



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SUMMER2203 11/12/2014 3:50PM

    so happy to see you back! i am glad to have you with me on re-starting the journey -- you are so motivating to me!!!!

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BONOLICIOUS2 11/12/2014 1:42PM

    So glad to see you back! take it one day at a time and you'll get moving again soon. Yay you!!!!!!!

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KALISWALKER 11/11/2014 11:17PM

    Holley you can do it!

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POOKASLUAGH 11/11/2014 9:53PM

    Glad to see you back. :)

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FELINEBETTER 11/11/2014 5:01PM

    emoticon YaY!!! I'm so glad to see you, Girl!! I am glad that things have stabilized for a you a bit and you're back in Sparkville! We're so glad and lucky to have you!!! emoticon emoticon

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BABY_GIRL69 11/11/2014 4:49PM

    I never drop friends in the hope that they will pick Spark back up again....

God bless & welcome back!


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NHES220 11/11/2014 4:34PM

Good to see you back! Glad you have some medication that is helping. Glad you have the treadmill. I for one will miss running outside as the weather turns icy and/or snowy. I'll get outside if I can. Keep us posted on how you are doing!

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ROCKPORT9 11/11/2014 4:07PM

    You will do wonderfully.......one step at a time. emoticon

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Ups and downs

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Well, today is the first day of my classes. I finally received the syllabus for one of them and it looks completely do-able. Not too bad. Just have to wait and see how the other one shapes up.

I had a rough start to the morning which has had me down. I got mad and yelled at my daughter because I caught her lying to me. She told me she made her lunch, I asked follow up questions about it, she lied some more, and then it turns out she didn't make it, she was going to buy it despite there being a house full of groceries. I don't know how long she's been doing this. Part of her retort was that her dad gave her money for Christmas to spend anyway she wanted to without being judged. There's a lot of things I don't like about the situation and the lesson that message imparts. I guess it's not worth hashing out here but needless to say, I wasn't happy about her response and deflection away from the initial issue of lying and I wasn't happy about it being inferred that I was judgmental about the way she wants to spend money by my co-parent. My job is to teach her to act responsibly and I am failing. I cried a bit on the way to work. Some days I really hate being a parent. That may be awful to say, but sometimes I just feel so ill-equipped.

Otherwise, my week is going well enough. I've been eating well. On Monday I did a zumba class plus a C25K run and my old leg injury flared up. Yikes! I told myself to dial it back. The last thing I need is another 2 months off. Yesterday the leg was still aching a small bit (dully) and so I did NOTHING, other than my walks across campus (job related). Today I have no pain at all. I won't have time to exercise today because of my classes after work but I will be doing more walking around campus. Tomorrow I'll hit the gym again and see what happens. No more doubling up on high impact, though. Hopefully as my muscles grow stronger, this will become less of an issue.

It's hump day. Hoping the rest of the week is a little sunnier.

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BARBANNA 1/31/2014 4:23PM

    Hope like is being kind to you, your classes are okay, leg pain is gone and your DD is doing great! Have a good weekend! emoticon emoticon Love ya!

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BARBANNA 1/18/2014 3:26PM

    Good afternoon Holley, I hope the bad experience is now just a lesson learned by your DD and not a sore spot between you. Life has a lot of ups and downs. My Horn Tooting was a part of my ups but there have been many downs as well. We learn from all the life occurances and it's better it happen now, so someone does not end up in a bad situation. Some of our major political leaders have been caugoht in some serious lies. so it's not surprising our youth do some of the same. We have all had a time when the truth was hard to convey without serious consequences. I have taken some hard blows for being honest but it would do it all over again.

I hope your leg is getting better and you are returning to your exercise routine! Don't sweat the new classes! Thanks for your precious comments! emoticon emoticon

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ONTHEPATH2 1/16/2014 2:22PM

    Ahhhh parenting - none of us really know what we are doing! We learn from our parents, from others, we read books from experts, but in the end no matter what we do, what we say, how we show them by our example - the decisions are theirs to make. All we can ask of ourselves is to the best we can with what we have. And yes, we all have those moments when we don't like being a parent! You are not alone!!! :-)

Yep - dial out that leg pounding cardio for a bit and pick it up in some other area of the gym! Lots of intense upper body workouts that won't harm your leg! Nothing is more frustrating than sidelining yourself!!! Take it easy!!!


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GIRLONFIRE1979 1/16/2014 9:44AM

    just wanted to say I feel your pain, and you are not alone.

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BARBANNA 1/15/2014 3:06PM

    They don't issue degrees in parenting, if they did a lot of people would fail. I think our children need to see our anger, so they understand the levity of the situation. You are not a robot, you are her parent and she needs to be put in her place as a child. My daughter has lied to me to test the water and the punishment was severe. She has since talked about how she is unable to lie because of conscious bothers too much and I am glad. You are not ill prepared but just feeling the lack of control that comes with the co-parenting situation. I am married and often deal with the same circumstances. Kids know how to get what they want and how to minpulate the circumstances to make it possible. They will play one parent against the other or ask the one they know will give them the correct answer. I hope you are not trying to be her friend because it will not work with discipline. When I am angry with my DD that is discipline by itself. She wants my approval for everything.
Sorry you had to deal with this at the same time you are returning to class and your leg is hurting. Try wrapping it with an ace bandage to get it support while you exercise.
Thanks for your boost of confidence on my interview. I went extremely well! emoticon emoticon

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STEFIGURL 1/15/2014 3:06PM

    I'm not a parent, but I will share this...

NO ONE is well equipped for parenthood. If only the well equipped had children, there would be no people on the earth. Everyone of us winds up on the couch over something from our background.

You are here to 'show' her...not 'make' her...

She is her own person, Holley.

never forget that!

wipe the tears and pick that chin back up...

I love you so! You are AMAZING, Mama!!! :-)

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NHES220 1/15/2014 12:13PM

    The co-parent thing is tough, I have 2 step-daughters and all I can tell you is do not compromise your values. Eventually you will have an impact. We could not influence their mom, but we could stand by our values and not compromise and now that they are 21 and 27 they totally appreciate the things we have done. I know it is a long time to wait for it and we weathered some storms. The integrity of a person is so important and we could not tolerate when one of them lied to us either. I think that is the issue more than how she wanted to spend the money.

Go easy on the leg, do not double up and you will be OK.

Hope the day goes better!


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SUMMER2203 1/15/2014 12:09PM

    ugh i completely understand where you're coming from...but don't put too much blame on yourself!!! you are not failing! keep doing what you're doing, and your kid will turn out just fine :) good luck with the leg, i hope it's back to normal tomorrow!!!

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VEROISME 1/15/2014 11:29AM

    co-parenting is so difficult... I have found that not sweating the small stuff and negating damage as best as I can when they are with me can have a great impact, but in the end, we are not the only influence in our children's lives and this can be REALLY frustrating.

I think we all lose patience and it's normal. If you feel bad about it, then talk to her about it again later when you are calm. this gives you a great opportunity to teach a valuable lesson not only about the lying, about responsibly spending money, etc, but also about dealing with anger... and it's all so much easier to do after you've both had the time for a little perspective...

I often feel very ill equiped for being a parent, especially when dealing with things in the heat of the moment, when I have a little time to rumminate, the solutions often present themselves...

Good Luk! It's not easy but it's worth it!

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DAWNSJOURNEY 1/15/2014 11:23AM

being a parent is never easy .. no book ever written covers it all or is 100 % on.. each of us is different and every child has different needs..

You care about your daughter , your teaching her lessons , Don't be to hard on you .. I have yelled also.. forgive yourself .. Can you talk to Dad ? I don't know how that relationship stands and I won't give advice .

But know .. every parent feels that way at one point or another. Pick your battles , and address the lying.. You will figure it out..

Keep taking care of you and listen to that body of yours..

love and light ,

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Friday, January 10, 2014

The picky part of me doesn't like some of the wording on this picture but I appreciate the essence of what it says. Thank you, Spark Friends for lighting the spark in me.

It's been a pretty successful week. I didn't go out of calorie range once since my last post and I exercised every day. One of those days the exercise was via "Just Dance" on Wii with my daughter so it was kind of a light day but still, I got myself moving and this week was a big improvement over the previous week.

I've been doing C25K except for one day at the Y when I did 1/4 mile length walk/run intervals instead of timed intervals. The reason for this is because I got a new waterproof phone case and my headphone jack couldn't fit without an adaptor, so there was no way to listen to music and the C25K app's little timer to tell me "begin running/start walking". I've since located the adaptor emoticon

Last night, I went to hip hop class at the Y. The regular teacher was sick so we had a Zumba teacher substitute. This is one of the teachers I avoid because she moves way too fast and her routines are very hard to follow. Don't get me wrong, she's a nice lady. She's very friendly, smiles and is energetic, but instead of constructing the routines to her songs with repeated sections of the same movements she always switches moves up every couple of seconds at a very high pace and it's difficult to discern a pattern to the movements. You'd have to be a regular and go to her class a few times to know what to do. A lot of the people actually quit the class partway through but I just kept in place and tried to keep moving, even though I might not have been following her exact moves. She was downright frenetic . I really didn't feel like I got a good workout since most of the time I was just half-a$#ing it while trying to figure out what the heck she was doing. So afterwards I went to the indoor track to walk a bit and then ran a half mile. I wanted to try for the full mile but my will power and steam just were not there.

Tonight my daughter and I will have to figure out a way to get some exercise in. She usually goes swimming while I go to a class/weights/track. However, something is going on with the pool. She swam 5 days in a row this week (which she's done before) and twice she came home with her skin inflamed and red. I think it's because of the pool chemicals. I told her she has to scale back to every other day because her skin gets dried and painful to the touch. We'll have to see how this plays out. Chlorine isn't the best thing to be exposed to but I hope she isn't developing a sensitivity. It would really be a disappointment to her if she couldn't swim often.

I will be taking 2 classes this semester and they start in a week and a half. I'm just hoping and praying that once they start I can "keep it together" with all the other stuff going on. After this semester, I'll be halfway done with the degree. At that point I can be on the lookout for other job opportunities. I like my current job, can't complain, but I definitely am stuck in the chain without upward movement in a town this size. In the meantime, my current boss is a good mentor and when I am ready to move on, I'll be sitting pretty. Just gotta keep chipping away at this degree---even if I really hate school (don't tell my daughter I said that).

This weekend, I will hopefully be delivering the last remaining hamster (woohoo!). What an adventure that has been! Besides a bit of housecleaning I need to take care of, it should remain a relaxing couple of days. Hope everyone has a good one!

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STEFIGURL 1/10/2014 6:32PM

    You ROCK, Holley!!! What an inspiration you are!!!

love you so!

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BARBANNA 1/10/2014 4:43PM

    I have a real hard time with exercises that require I follow another person. That's why I love the elliptical. Sorry about your phone case and the Y pool. I hope they get the pool working again and your daughter is okay with the chlorine. You are doing outstanding! I understand the frustration of class as well as all the other worldly responsibilities. It's a lot to keep up!
I have been blessed in one way and not in another. The PRN contract work is at a stand still with the AFCA admissions are down, so I have had ample time to study. No money but plenty of time. Like you I will be in a tizzy when more work is available. emoticon

Have a great weekend and enjoy your free time! Keep up your good progress! emoticon emoticon

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SUMMER2203 1/10/2014 3:46PM

    good for you for continuing your workout after the class! it's those little bits that add up!!! could it be the cold weather that's irritating your daughter's skin in combination with the chlorine? there's gotta be some sort of swimmer's cure! i hope you guys are able to figure something otu!!!

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BONOLICIOUS2 1/10/2014 1:30PM

    Awww your poor daughter!

You are selling me on the Y though! Since we moved, there are 2 really close by and I have been tossing around the idea of joining. It sounds like you have a ton of great options, especially with the weather being bad!

You're rockin' and rolling and thanks for sparking all of us with this post!

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NHES220 1/10/2014 12:01PM

    Wow, too bad about the chlorine sensitivity. Maybe with the dry air combined with the chemicals it is just worse in the winter. Hope it is just seasonal. Congrats on delivery of the last hamster! Lesson learned on that one! Congrats on hitting the halfway mark with school. I am not a fan either and my husband starts back full-time on Monday - he LOVES school and when he is a HS History teacher he'll get to go every day! I have a waterproof case on my phone and I have to make sure I bring the headphones with the adaptor too. It is warm enough to run outside here today, but way too messy, so treadmill again today. Have a great weekend!

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ROCKPORT9 1/10/2014 10:40AM

    You are doing wonderfully!

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DAWNSJOURNEY 1/10/2014 9:54AM

    talking about helping light someones spark.. right back at you sister... grateful for your love and support..

does your daughter shower at the Y ? or wait until she comes home to shower.. if she does wait .. it might be worth it to buy some cheap flip flops and have her rinse off really well there.here is a web site one Chlorine Rash.. what your daughter might have

g/chlorine-rash/ .hope this helps .. it also has a link to some soap that might help.

Way to shake and fake it.. sorry your instructor was sick .. hopefully she will be back soon.

So proud of you working on your degree, working, being a mom and tackling this journey.. none of it easy and doing it all. Remember to prioritize and how import you are. Spark when you can .. we understand LIFE first .. but take care of you while living it.

WOO HOO for hamster delivery .. and have a relaxing moment for you !!

love you HOlls ,

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VEROISME 1/10/2014 9:34AM

    wow sounds like you've got things under control right now. I think I need to take a page from your book and let you inspire me!

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