Thursday, November 27, 2014
I celebrated Thanksgiving early last night due to work conditions with my kids. This is my 5th year of losing and keeping 100 pounds off and going through the holidays. In the past years my Thanksgiving meals h ave been varied. I have eaten a very lean protein and vegetable meal while losing, have also been in Hawaii and had seafood, cooked Indian food or prime rib.
This year everyone decided they wanted the standard American food. So it was a hectic day of me researching tips on the best recipes, prepping, cooking, and going to the store three times. This continued right up to dinner.
So normally when I am prepared for a meal, I have my healthy options also ready to use for me no matter what the others are eating. This meal got away from me, so I did not have as many options as I could have had.
Here is the good news. I totally enjoyed my meal and felt in control.(despite needing a few more healthy vegetables) I was able to take small bites of foods that really needed small bites and focused on the healthier elements. I felt happy and was not worried that it was not my normal optimum healthy meal. This is TinaJane's resiliency.
Desert included Mr. Haagen Dazs, my old trigger nemesis. Lately I have been using this as a tool. When I feel uncomfortable about cutting back on foods, I ask mysef this question. Do you remember what it feels like to be addicted to ice cream? Yes, Are you free of that addiction? Yes. Then I can feel the calm positive celebration of knowing that I have cured this addiction. This could be Beck's self celebration..but it calms me and makes me feel in control when addictive urges resurface.
I really was happy to watch others indulge and felt no need to.
So post Thanksgiving is a good scale day. I am in my range and can feel the joy of gratitude for a healthy life.
I am thankful for all of my Spark Friends and hope all of you have a wonderful day of gratitude.
Monday, November 10, 2014
I am celebrating a return of serenity in my life. My friend Morticia, reminded me of the Serenity Prayer. Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. My mom had the entire prayer posted on her bathroom mirror and I saw it frequently.
In these past two months, I have learned to accept that I cannot control another person's health and that there will be miles separating me from my mom. I have let go of guilt.
So thanks to all of my Spark Friends. Your blogs and comments have supported me. I can feel my energy of happiness returning.
The good news is that I am still maintaining my weight loss as I enter year 4. I continue to exercise and eat healthy.
I like this quote: "For each mile that keeps us apart, there is a warm thought that keeps us together."
Saturday, September 06, 2014
I like this quote. " A decision about what to weigh is a decision on how to live." In other words, if you are committed to staying at your goal weight, you have to adopt the life that goes with it. This means that you not only have to live in a way that matches your goals at the moment, but you also have to accept that you will be doing this for the rest of your life.
I am content with this life I have chosen of maintenance.
In Refuse to Regain the author offers clues about reaching what she calls Senior Level of Maintenance. This is when you realize that you are more comfortable with your food choices and are a lot better at managing your weight than before.
Here are clues to this new level;
You rarely miss your old way of eating.
( I do not miss the bingeing on unhealthy foods that I used to do.)
You enjoy and prefer your new eating habits.
(I have healthy foods that I do love to eat)
You no longer feel controlled by food.
(I do feel much more control over my food choices and that food is no longer my enemy.)
You are comfortable with eating many of the same types of food repeatedly.
(This is very true.)
You are not particularly interested in Sugar Foods or Refined Carbs.
( I have lost much of the desire for these foods..but not totally!)
When you do occasionally eat these foods, you are not compelled to overeat and are able to return to your plan the next day.
( I have stopped bingeing. Once in awhile I might eat to being too full but it is on a healthy food.)
When you choose to eat foods that are off your plan, you generally find them less enjoyable.
( Here I deviate..I usually enjoy the foods I choose to indulge in.)
You know intuitively the foods and amounts that will keep you from gaining weight.
( I do know what foods and amounts will be keep me maintaining.)
You are acutely aware of unhealthy diet habits of those around you.
(This is an odd clue. I have noticed that I am very aware of healthy fit people and admire them for staying toned and thin.)
You feel free.
(A big yes here. I feel the freedom of being thin and managing addiction.)
The final comment is helpful. " When you are a senior maintainer, it does not mean that you will never have a difficult day, but it does mean that you have found peace with the way you think about food, physical activity, and priorities."
I have found my peace.
I am dealing with family health issues. I am still maintaining and am glad that I have found peace in my weight, when other areas of my life are not peaceful.
Thanks to all of my Spark Friends for being here.
Friday, July 25, 2014
When I initially lost my weight 3 years ago, I went through the honeymoon period where I was celebrating and happily buying new clothes. However, I had fears that I would regain my weight as I have spent my life doing. I recall almost being in tears after buying small sized clothes, wondering if I would still fit them months later.
Almost three years later, I have decided that this is my summer of defining myself as a maintainer. I am no longer trying to maintain, but I have become a maintainer.
Watermelon celebrates 5 years of maintenance with an excellent blog, 5 Years of Maintaining!
What resonated with me was her comment about having times when life interferes with exercise and fitness.
"I know I'll always get back to it and I do. Because it's who I am . . . " This is exactly what being a maintainer is. This is who I am and even if I detour for a while, being a maintainer is what I am.
LeslieSenior has been on a journey of health for 12 years. Her blog,
"The Gifts of Health and Fitness" Is very inspiring.
I loved this thought.
"Our good health is so very much more than the number on the scale or the size jeans we buy. We all know this, but it is finally becoming a deep thread in the fabric of who I am."
I went to the store to buy a particular brand and flavor of ice cream for a my son. As I studied the ice cream I was hit with strong memories of ice cream binges..
recognizing the flavors and brands. It has been 4 years since I have binged on ice cream. I could remember that person and the unhappiness, but happily realized those days are gone.
I renewed my driver's license. It may amuse you to learn that for years I would put down the weight I wanted to weigh, but not my actual weight.
My picture of 5 years ago does not look anything like me now and I have received strange looks from clerks. I was pleased to see the smile and the confidence in my new photo which actually looks like the current me.
The contrast of my 110 pound photo was severe. I also realized that the secrecy of addiction is gone. I now put down my real weight!
In the summer and particularly in my yoga classes, I notice my toned muscles but also notice somewhat loose skin.
Greggweisbrod has maintained for one year and has offered some great insights in Time Goes By.
This is a lovely piece of writing, especially the last line. I love perfectly imperfect in the most perfect ways possible.
"The perfect body is an illusion, as even those whom we see and think look perfect are in fact constantly struggling with the same desires to look better. You're already perfect... you just haven't realized it yet. Love yourself today, and keep journeying toward whatever future you fancy - don't waste a second feeling like you're not good enough or not attractive enough. You're already perfectly imperfect in the most perfect ways possible!
I end with Refuse to Regain comments again:
4.Climber's Fatigue: Losing weight was an exciting, attention getting makeover. Permanence requires a relentless, daily attention to detail that no one but you may notice. This phase will only work if you learn to deeply love the new you and the very process that allows you to stay as you are. Not only can you do this, but it will also be highly rewarding.
Thanks to everyone who blogs at Spark People. I value your support and insights.
Kanoe The Maintainer! or should I say The Terminator..of an unhealthy life.
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