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I've come to realise that i have low confidence

Monday, June 23, 2014

I don't know why it could be many different reasons but basically I don't have much confidence. I shop too much on larger size clothes to make myself feel better. It is nice to wear pretty things but it is low confidence that is making me do it.

I lost my confidence a long time ago as a teenager when I had a deep mental breakdown and stayed in my bedroom for a year. Then I've had breakdowns since but I am not strong like I was as a child. As an adult It feels like i'm faking it, ugh

I don't feel attractive and haven't felt good about myself at any size. I have to practice saying positive things to myself I think, Lol

Thanks for your support. hugs

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1HAPPYSPIRIT 6/24/2014 11:11PM

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SHARON10002 6/24/2014 11:05PM

    Katie, I'm in total agreement with GOANNA's comments, You are a beautiful woman, and that shines through in your profile picture. I am working on the very same thing. One thing that helps me is to use positive affirmations, and watch positive videos on YouTube. We have to build ourselves back up from the foundation, and even though it may be slow going, we will build a STRONG structure. Don't give up - I know some days can be really hard. . . emoticon

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JUMPINJULIE 6/24/2014 9:56PM

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MOMMACASSEY 6/24/2014 9:31AM

    You are brilliant. Don't forget that, and let your light shine inward as well as outward.

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GOANNA2 6/24/2014 6:45AM

    You are such a beautiful young woman Katie. I am so sorry you are feeling so down.I just want to say I still get these feeling from time to time. It is something we have to work on every day.
Try and let go of the past and concentrate on today. easier said than done, I know.

Tell yourself you are beautiful and 'I am worth it" every day. You will get past this.Sending lots of hugs and best wishes your way. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ARTJAC 6/24/2014 1:05AM

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CHERYL_ANNE 6/23/2014 7:56PM

    You'll get there! Keep working on your inside - keep educating yourself on all the changes you're going through. Eventually it will click and you will go to your new "automatic" thought instead of your old, stand-by one.

Do I have to still work on myself? You bet I do! But it's so very worth it because I am so very worth it.

You will get there. Have faith. I have faith in you and know you can do it!

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2HAMSDIET 6/23/2014 6:28PM

    Make a list of things about yourself that you like. Don't say there is nothing but look at yourself through eyes of a good friend. When people say nice things to you take it in, belief it and say thank you. Write these things on your mirrors, put notes every where in your house and keep repeating them. Pick one new thing a week.

From what I can see from your picture you have wonderful sparkling eyes, a great smile and great hair.

You don't have to be perfect but to find joy in what and who you are. God doesn't make junk. emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 6/23/2014 5:38PM

    My dear, you are right for recognizing until you get down to the root of the self-dislike things will be very slow to change.

It's hard work to change that negative self-talk, but you can do it. Do you have a support system (I mean besides SP)? Maybe that would help.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 6/23/2014 4:14PM

    You are a very pretty young woman. I hope someday you see yourself as a valuable human being because you are.

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UMBILICAL 6/23/2014 3:37PM

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Hi, just an update...

Saturday, June 07, 2014

my depression has lifted and I am feeling a little less anxious today. But relationship problems are weighing on my mind. Plus my family are trying to encourage me to have faith in God again which i'm still not sure about. Any advice welcome. Love to you all. xox

  
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JUMPINJULIE 6/12/2014 7:19PM

    I'm glad your feeling better. emoticon

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ARTJAC 6/8/2014 1:37AM

    SO PLEASED TO HEAR YOU ARE FEELING BETTER TAKE CARE emoticon

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KERRYG155 6/7/2014 8:06PM

    I'm so glad to hear you are feeling better! Take care!!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 6/7/2014 7:48PM

    It sounds like things are improving. My advice is to eat a healthy diet with fresh meat/fruits/veggies plus seeds and nuts and healthy oils and to get plenty of exercise in. Get in plenty of sleep and do things that help keep stress at by like playing with a pet, taking long baths, listening to music. I think that faith is an individual thing. I have my own belief system which comforts me.

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GOANNA2 6/7/2014 11:14AM

    I'm glad to hear that the depression is lifting a little. It is
a very long road and just try to take things easy and don't
blame yourself for losing your way. Trust in yourself and
know that I am here to listen to you when you get upset.
As the other ladies mentioned. I think writing everything
down really helps. Even if you don't write a diary, write
things down that bother you and then tear them up.

At least when you see it in writing, you may rethink what-
ever it was that was bothering you. Trust in yourself Katie.
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1CRAZYDOG 6/7/2014 11:06AM

    ((((HUGS)))) Glad the depression is lifting.

I think journaling helps me so much in that situation. Good luck to you!

HUGS

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2HAMSDIET 6/7/2014 11:01AM

    With big problems I have written out the pros and cons of the action that I am think of taking. Some how spelling things out seems to clear out all the what ifs. When I am done either I think what was I thinking that and tear the paper up or sleep on it and then decide to take action or not.


Are your parents wanting you to go to church with them? Maybe your parents need the comfort of you being with them at this time. As a parent I tried to give my children the gift of faith and hope as we all need it. But I also realize that we all have our own path to finding it. Seek and you shall find.

I hope and pray this helps you. Glad that you are feeling better. emoticon Susie



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I haven't wrote a blog in so long

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

This is because I've been in hospital for two months with depression and anxiety etc. I just don't feel like talking much. I think I am really difficult to talk to. I try to stay positive but I have a dark side which is my depression and negativity. I'm constantly battling this darker side. Plus im eating too much fiber I feel and bread so only maintaining weight. My exercise bike needs to come out of the closet and get some use otherwise im just walking the dog 3 times a day. Does anyone relate to having anxiety a lot and sometimes getting depressed? I need to lose weight my mum is overweight and she had just had a knee op. The benefits to it are v. Good.
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JUMPINJULIE 6/12/2014 7:18PM

    Sending Hugs.

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SHARON10002 6/10/2014 11:07PM

    I am so very sorry to read that you are having some difficult times and have been in the hospital. While i have not suffered from depression, other than when I lost my parents, i know it can be difficult. Anti-depressants can help, and Mandi is right about the exercise. Also maybe getting together with a good friend who you trust to do some things with and to talk to.

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GOANNA2 5/28/2014 10:10AM

    glad to see you back Katie. I'm sorry to hear that you have
been in hospital. Depression is a wicked disease. I suffer
from that as well, but no where near having to be hospitalised.
Please keep writing as we are all here to encourage each other.

Start your exercise bike as it will help relieve some of the negative
thoughts. We are here for you, so know that you are not alone
on this journey. Hugs and best wishes to you. Stay well my dear.
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CHERYL_ANNE 5/28/2014 8:19AM

    Yes I can relate. Absolutely. Diagnosed with Dysthymic Disorder (now given a fancy new name of Persistent Depressive Disorder) over 30 years ago. Never took meds for it but did see a Psychiatrist for a couple of years.

One thing that very much helped me was setting my own limits and sticking by them no matter what. That "10 Steps to Self-Care" picture on my SparkPage is a good reminder for me of what I need to do.

I also made a conscious decision to "keep my face towards the sun instead of the shadows", and cut way back on depressing or negative music, books, television, movies, etc. and focusing on more positive fare.

Here's to you turning your face towards the sun and feeling it's warmth on your face!

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ARTJAC 5/28/2014 3:12AM

    PLEASED YOU ARE BACK AND HOPE YOU GET BACK ON TRACK SOON AND GET ON YOUR EXERCISE BIKE YOU CAN DO IT emoticon

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2HAMSDIET 5/27/2014 11:01PM

    Glad to have you back blogging. emoticon

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KERRYG155 5/27/2014 9:59PM

    I have been depressed before but nothing like that. I have always felt awkward in conversations but am mostly getting over it. Church and getting to know a lot of good people has helped that. Eating right and feeling good about yourself definitely helps so get on that bike and keep walking that dog. Greet anybody you pass with a smile or a hello. That will make their day.

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NOT_A_LANNISTER 5/27/2014 8:42PM

    emoticon I have anxiety and also struggle with being too negative. I'm on an antidepressant (which helps with the anxiety too). That + exercise has actually been helping quite a bit over the last month or so. I hope things turn around for you soon!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 5/27/2014 8:41PM

    I hope you get back to exercising with your bike. I think it will really help you.

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1CRAZYDOG 5/27/2014 8:23PM

    Wishing you a better time of it. Depression is so difficult to deal with. Keep on battling, though.

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MPETERSON2311 5/27/2014 8:14PM

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I have had both anxiety and depression. Been on and off antidepressants at times, but not currently on anything.

Sorry to hear you are going through some stuff. I hope the exercise bike gets some use soon. It might help your mood....hard to believe lol but exercise is nature's antidepressant

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have been sorting out clothes today!

Sunday, January 05, 2014

Today and yesterday I've went thru about 50 items of clothes I no longer wear, all different sizes. I will probably donate most of them to charity shop. I threw some away that weren't reusable. It sure feels good to de clutter my bedroom thou! I now have space for new ones. haha

Does anyone else have a busy cluttered closet?

have a nice Sunday evening everyone and a good week!





  
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JUMPINJULIE 2/15/2014 6:45PM

    WTG I do I will keep working at decluttering.

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2HAMSDIET 1/11/2014 10:32PM

    Oh do I have a cluttered closet.... A dress fell off the hanger and my husband said this does look like it fits you.... should I hang it back up. I told him it was my security blanket. emoticon wish I had your energy to clean my closet. The everyday stuff is no problem as if something new comes in some thing old has to leave.

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SHARON10002 1/6/2014 11:53PM

    Dang! Now you reminded me that I should go though my closet and hoe out some things. Good for you - we hate the thought, but feel so much better when it's done!

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GOANNA2 1/6/2014 1:31AM

    I do too! I have started to clear out and went to the sales
yesterday and bought some new tops, shorts and a skirt.
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1CRAZYDOG 1/5/2014 11:03PM

    Awesome! Yes, we need to de-clutter our lives too for the same reasons . . . out with the old to let the new in and change!

HUGS

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MORTICIAADDAMS 1/5/2014 9:25PM

    I need to do the same thing. It is very overwhelming.

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EDDYMEESE 1/5/2014 9:15PM

    Great job!

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CHERYL_ANNE 1/5/2014 7:59PM

    Great job on the de-cluttering and taking stock of your wardrobe. Ours looks pretty spiffy, filled with all the thrift-store finds that now comprise my wardrobe. I have an actual selection of my own things to choose from, no longer relying on borrowing from my husband to stretch my wardrobe. Now I borrow if I need an extra layer for exercising.

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1CRAZYDOG 1/5/2014 5:50PM

    Same to you. HUGS!

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KERRYG155 1/5/2014 5:02PM

    Yes, I do! I need to finish up my dresser tomorrow and then I can do the closet when I put away my decorations.

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Need to step up the exercise.

Friday, December 27, 2013

Just getting going de-cluttering the house of junk food and starting to tune in to healthy things. I have 50 pounds to lose which should take me about 30+ weeks. Its a long slog but will be well worth it. You all know what I mean anyway we are all old hat to this dieting malarkey! Tomorrow I will try 20 mins of floor exercises and walking the dog with flat shoes on so I can walk faster. Little steps and of course eat cereal for breakfast and have proper food.
Goodnight friends and wish me luck I sure do need it!
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JUMPINJULIE 12/31/2013 12:00AM

    You can do it Kate.

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    You've got this !! Make "you" a priority !! emoticon

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2HAMSDIET 12/28/2013 8:27AM

    my workouts have also decreased the last month ,,, time to get back at it

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GOANNA2 12/28/2013 5:27AM

    Katie, small steps is the way to go. Walking the dogs
is a good idea. We all know what we have to - do to eat
right and exercise. We can do this! emoticon
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1CRAZYDOG 12/27/2013 9:19PM

    You can do it. Take it a day-at-a-time (I know . . . how many times have you heard that one, but it's true!)

Blessings and all the best in 2014.

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KERRYG155 12/27/2013 8:34PM

    Yep, gotta get the body moving! I did get 3 aqua classes this week but never made it to the cardio or weight machines. I need to stop that up. I also have a goal of about 50 lbs-the 50 I gained with the arthritis and knee replacements. Cereal with milk for breakfast is good plus an apple and milk for an afternoon snack. They have officially found that an apple a day does keep the doctor away so gotta get back to those apples!

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TRYINGTOLOSE64 12/27/2013 8:25PM

    Good luck on your journey!

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LOVESLIFE48 12/27/2013 8:14PM

    I too need to get by butt in gear. I'm at the highest weight I have ever been. Together we can not fail!! emoticon

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KNOEL7 12/27/2013 7:52PM

    I also have to step up the exercise--I worked 2 jobs for the holidays and felt like I had no time. Now it's time to get back on track. Good luck--we can do it!
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