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Feeling a Little Better Today

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Yesterday I was really down and depressed. It was bad...worst I've felt in a long time. Some of it had to do with consuming too much sugar on Easter, but that doesn't account for all of the feeling. I do feel a little better today and I'll take it. Now I have to do some major damage control at work for all the deadlines I've missed in the last month or two. I know it's my own fault and my actions (or inactions) have consequences, but it's scary. My husband lost his job 2.5 years ago and we are surviving on only my income. I make enough money that if I lose this job, it will be hard to find a similar salary elsewhere. I honestly don't know what I would do if I do get fired. :(

A few days ago, my 6 year old daughter was sad that her friend wasn't playing with her. She asked if she could have a piece of candy and I told her no. She said to me, "but mommy, it helps me feel better". She's just 6 and she already feels the emotional relief of eating! I'm so sad that I've passed this terrible habit on to her. I was so taken aback that I just said "I know, but it's not healthy for you"...could have handled it better, but I didn't know what to say. I need to start being healthy for her and my son, if not for me.

I want to start meal planning so that I know what to make for dinner and we're not just having cereal, hot dogs, or mac & cheese all the time. I'm just not that organized. Often times I don't feel like cooking after working full time. I know I need to just do it. I can ask my husband to help me with it, and he would if I tell him exactly what to do and make sure it's not too challenging. All the resources online have meals my family would not eat, so it's discouraging. I can make a list of things we do eat and start there, but it's hard for me.

  
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CELLA_P 4/29/2014 10:31PM

    You sound like such a loving, devoted, and strong person, and I wish you and your family the very best as you all face the stresses and challenges life has unfortunately thrown at you. I suspect you'll continue to find the answers you seek to all these problems you've mentioned, and I wish you much strength as you do! All the best.

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KNH771 4/22/2014 5:49PM

    Glad to hear that you're feeling a bit better today. For meal prep, I've gotten into batch cooking and freezer meals. I make dinner for the entire week over the weekend and have it pre-portioned, so all I have to do is heat it when I get home for work. That has been really helpful for me in making healthy dinners when I'm tired. Otherwise I don't even do mac & cheese. I end up snacking until I'm full - crackers, chips, whatever is close. Having something I can throw in the oven easily or microwave has really helped.

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BABY_GIRL69 4/22/2014 3:11PM

    I'm sorry so much is going on for you to be upset about. I know I've at my job awhile and to go somewhere else and start over the pay would not be the same. I feel down about not being the size I was 2 summer ago but I'm tired of being sick and tired. I started with 10minutes yesterday & that turned into to 30 and last night I did 45minutes more. My problem is when I start I just can't stop.

Also, I've learned to pick up pre-made meals in bags, batch cook on the weekends. Do some tacos with chicken & steak. My grandson LOVES cheese tacos and they are so easy. Even once you've worked all day. Get your husband to help. Then start small at work, I'm backed up too but I started with clearing of my desk from backlog now I'm almost caught up.

On your daughter, try to have like Welch's fruit snacks around the kids love them and they won't make you feel guilty giving them to her. Try apples and oranges my son eats the whole bag practically & I don't say a word. Wished I could help you more. Keep your head & be encouraged! Everybody is going through I promise you it's true. .

God bless,

Dee

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Feeling down & needed to vent

Monday, April 21, 2014

Today is the worst I've felt in a long time. Not sure if it's all the sugar I consumed yesterday, or if it's just depression rearing its ugly head again. All I want to do is lay in bed and cry. I am really struggling emotionally lately. I've been eating like crap and haven't exercised at all, so it's really no surprise that I've gained back nearly all of what I lost with my DietBet in November. I feel so overwhelmed by everything in my life and I can't seem to get motivated to do anything that I need to do. My house is a wreck all the time - there's stuff everywhere - and I hate it, but there's so much of it I don't know how to start. I can't even get motivated to do much of anything at work...just the bare minimum. And I'm forgetting things all the time, which makes me look bad. If I'm brutally honest, I'm actually nervous that I will lose my job if I can't get it together but even that doesn't motivate me to get going.

Most of my extended family celebrated Easter together at my aunt's house, which was nice. It's good to see everyone and catch up / visit with them. Seeing my cousins all losing weight and getting healthy is bittersweet for me. I am genuinely happy for them, but it makes me even more self conscious and unhappy with myself.

Things will get better, right?

  
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BATCHICK 4/22/2014 11:23AM

    I'm sorry you're feeling down. Treat yourself with compassion, don't beat yourself up over where you think you should be. Maybe since your cousins are seeing some success you could reach out to them for support? Either way, these feelings will pass. Just focus on small achievable goals you can accomplish today and the rest will catch up.

(PS - a fun workout like a leisurely stroll or bike ride usually gets me out of a funk)

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PENNYSAVER2 4/21/2014 11:42PM

    Hang in there. emoticon because you are WORTH the effort.

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KNH771 4/21/2014 4:29PM

    Sorry to hear that you're struggling. Remember that this journey has peaks and valleys and is never a straight line for anyone. Don't try to take on all of the things that have you down at once. Pick one small thing and just work on it. When you feel you've got that controlled, add another. Baby steps and kindness... Hang in there!

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JEN3582 4/21/2014 3:19PM

    I'm sorry you're feeling like this Katie. I have had the same feelings lately and you know what? It does get better. It may take some time but it does get better. You can do it...we can do it! I hope you know you are not alone in this!! emoticon emoticon

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Finished My First DietBet (with before/after pic)

Wednesday, December 04, 2013

I started my first DietBet back on 11/04/13 at 254.8. I knew it would be challenging at best. 4% of my start weight was 10.4 pounds - which meant that I'd have to lose 2.6 lbs per week on average. I told myself that I was going to do my best and whatever happened, happened. Well, the game has come to an end.

This morning I submitted my final weigh in at......243.8! I have to wait for the referees to verify my pictures before I officially win, but I'm pretty sure everything will be fine. I wore the same clothes and used the same scale in the same place in my house as my initial weigh in.

I lost 11 pounds in 4 weeks! emoticon Here's the before (left) and after (right) picture.



I'm very pleased with my progress!

  
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HEXE63 12/9/2013 1:02AM

    I know I am a bit late but emoticon emoticon emoticon anyway.

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KPETSCHE 12/8/2013 3:42AM

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LILLEAN 12/5/2013 7:28PM

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KNH771 12/5/2013 6:37PM

    Congrats! Looks like you dropped some inches too... :)

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JAMDRGN76 12/5/2013 11:08AM

    AMAZING!!!!! GO AHEAD GIRL!! emoticon

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TAMSPARKLESTOO 12/5/2013 12:57AM

    emoticon Katie!!!

That's awesome and I can totally see it!! Great job. That must be so exciting!!!

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SHAMROCKY2K 12/4/2013 9:10PM

    Keep up the great work!

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CARMRUN 12/4/2013 3:43PM

    This is fantastic! You look great! Keep up the good work.



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BABY_GIRL69 12/4/2013 1:22PM

    Looking good!

God bless & continued success!!

Dee

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LOSTLIME 12/4/2013 1:11PM

    emoticon emoticon You can tell from the pictures that you have lost weight! emoticon emoticon

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BATCHICK 12/4/2013 1:08PM

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Congrats on your progress!

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FITFRIT 12/4/2013 12:27PM

    You look like you lost more than 11 lbs, wtg!

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PENNYSAVER2 12/4/2013 12:17PM

    emoticon I'm happy for the progress you have made.

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FINCHFEEDER80 12/4/2013 11:09AM

    emoticon That is so AWESOME!! Keep up the good work, you look GREAT!

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HUSKERLAND3 12/4/2013 10:13AM

    Great job

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NKING1982 12/4/2013 10:02AM

    Congrats! Looking good!

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SRT4GIRL 12/4/2013 9:49AM

    Congratulations on your weight loss :)

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Irritated Today

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Feeling pissy today. Ya know, just angry. At everything. Ugh.

First, I stepped on the scale this morning and I'm up 0.5 lb from three days ago, even though I've exercised and stayed in the lower end of my calorie range. Next, my son's school called - about an hour and a half after school started - saying that he threw up and needed to be picked up right away (and he can't go to school tomorrow)....of course he seems fine now but still has to miss school. Then when I was driving home for my lunch break, I almost got into 3 different accidents because people can't drive anymore. Seriously, people, pay attention! Put the damn phone down; pull over and stop to take notes; ride the bus if you want to read your book or the paper. Geesh.

It's close to TOM for me; maybe my cycle is early this month and messing with me. I don't know. I just want to binge on ice cream and chocolate and liquor. But I'm not going to do that...I'll have some more water and a planned snack and take a deep breath and remember that just as good times change, bad days don't last either.

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MOTHEPRO 11/20/2013 10:05AM

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LORI2562 11/20/2013 9:47AM

    Just back from vacation and checking in to see how you are doing! I hope today is better for you than last Wednesday!!

WTG on staying strong through your hectic day!

You got this!
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BATCHICK 11/15/2013 1:01PM

    TGIF, I hope you're feeling better!

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DREAMINGOFNEWME 11/14/2013 3:18AM

    I am like that at my TOM. I want chocolate and I get grrrr and just want to slap anyone lol. emoticon

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SUSAN727 11/13/2013 5:15PM

    We definitely all have those days! I weigh each day and I was up half a pound when I have done all I can. It was depressing at first and all I could think of for the better part of the day. But I am staying the course and advising you to try to do the same. Keep your focus on your goal.

Best wishes,
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BEHAPPY0201 11/13/2013 3:52PM

    Great job for not using food as comfort. You'll thank yourself later!

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BERTAS_JOURNEY 11/13/2013 3:38PM

    It happens, we all have those days!!! We can't control those around us, so we have to pay extra attention to whats going on just to stay safe!! It's sounds crazy but it's true.

emoticon to you too. I hope your day gets better & that you have a super wonderful day tomorrow.



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Going Down

Friday, November 08, 2013

My DietBet started on Wednesday but I officially weighed in on Monday. Since the site suggests weighing in every 4 days to track your progress, I weighed in today (unofficially). I'm down 1.6 lbs!! That's 16% of my goal, so I'm right on track. I'm very happy! :)

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JIBBIE49 11/12/2013 12:37AM

    Great.

Do you have a big problem with psoriasis? I have it on my arm.

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PENNYSAVER2 11/8/2013 12:15PM

    emoticon Keep it up!!

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