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Brutal!!!

Tuesday, June 04, 2013

Okay, I planned to walk every morning this week and track all of my food no matter what I ate. Well,....I've done it for two days! This morning was brutal with the heat! Yesterday was hot, but there was a good breeze blowing off the water. Today, no breeze and the sun was beating down already at 7:00 am! Think by 8 AM it was 81 degrees with 83% humidity...talk about breathing water! But I did it and I even jogged a few times just so I could get it over with. My daughter was a trooper and enjoyed it!

Eating has been okay. Monday night I caved in and got fast food and went over my caloric intake about 100 calories. I was happy with most of the day. Today I stayed within my calorie intake!! Yeah!! I feel like I have to munch all the time so I just planned to eat "snacks" throughout the day. I had oatmeal, apple, carrots, rice cakes with turkey, yogurt, watermelon. I did break down and get some fast food, but I got smaller items.

I'm not happy with the fast food cravings, but I'm taking one step at a time.

I am really dreading the walk tomorrow morn. I am going to attempt to wake up 30 minutes earlier to get it done earlier. It is suppose to be 77 degrees with 84% humidity....yuck!!!!

  
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DJ4HEALTH 6/5/2013 12:36AM

    Just take it one day at a time!!

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Again

Monday, June 03, 2013

Well, I'm still here even though I haven't been on SP for sometime now. Between chasing a 3 yr old, being a single mom and dealing with other issues in my life....needless to say I put myself aside.

I still have not lost any weight. I have been tracking my food on FitnessPal right now and though I thought I was doing better, that caloric intake is still too high. I have had some really down moments (just recently last night) when I didn't care and just ate what I wanted. I think...no I known I have a food issue and it is all emotionally connected.

So today, I start AGAIN!!!! I got up this morn and walked for 45 minutes in the heavy humidity! If you are from Florida you know what I'm talking about - you walk out the door and can "breathe in" and wear the moisture in the air along with the heat! I want to make a goal this week to just walk every morning even though I'm sweating unbelievably. (My daughter goes with me in the stroller and I give her a hand held fan to keep her cool.)

So far today I have eaten 760 calories (I think my breakfast was a little too much - 400 cals). I just need to be more conscience of the amount of calories I take in. It sounds so easy...burn more calories than you take in....but why is it so hard to do?

So I'm into my "weak" hours right now. I have a meeting at 4 so I plan to eat some oatmeal before hand so I won't be so hungry when I pick up my daughter.

I hope everyone has a good week and I hope to post another blog with some good results!!!

Take care

  
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CYND59 6/4/2013 9:18AM

    Great to have you back. Take it one day at a time. I sure know what you mean about the heat. I did a 3.6 miles run this morning at 6am and I came in dripping with sweat.
I know it mist be hard being a single parent. My daughter is in the same boat. Single mom with a 3 year old busy girl. I do what I can to help her out.
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DIXIEMCCALL 6/3/2013 11:25PM

    Keep going! I'm back for round 2 also. We can do this!

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AEGISHOT 6/3/2013 5:25PM

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Hello, Hello

Monday, February 04, 2013

I haven't been around much the past few months. It seems that once my daughter turned 3 she went into "overdrive!". I haven't had much time for myself or time to spend on the computer to visit SP.

I survived the holidays. I did not gain any weight and actually was proud of myself for not overstuffing my face! Calories were over my limit, but I was more cautious as to what went into my mouth.

I completed my 2nd Disney 5K with my mom, best friend and her mom. It wasn't at a time I wanted, but had fun and my daughter ran the last mile with me over the finish line.

I am still not happy with my progress or lack there of. I have not lost any weight and have just been hangin around the 220 mark. I still walk/jog 3-4 miles 2-3 times a week depending upon the weather.

I know I'm eating better, just still not in control of portions and sometimes have a "sweet binge" that I can't seem to control. I know what I need to do and I've mentioned this challenge before in my blogs. I just can't seem to find the fire or fight in me.

My divorce is final and I am 100x's stronger in dealing with "him". This year I've told myself it's about me and my daughter. I will lose weight, get out of debt and be on a happier trail than I was before. I know I have bit off more than I could chew so I've lowered my expectations and just focused on my walk/jogs and eating.

I just started last week to challenge myself to lose 1 lb per week. I lost one pound and then had a "sweet binge"... which included eating an entire pan of brownies in two days!!! Yuck!! I need to remember how I feel AFTER I eat something like that, not DURING or BEFORE I eat it.

I'm hoping to find the support again through this website.

Take care

  
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KEIPONY 2/5/2013 8:21PM

    Thank you both for your input and comments


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LIVELYGIRL2 2/5/2013 6:43PM

  It is an emotional time getting split up.

There are hours of motivational stories here. You can feed yourself some of his inspiration. Some of the groups have accountability partners or steaks, and other plans.

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CYND59 2/4/2013 7:46PM

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Happy Thanksgiving!!

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

To all the Sparkies out there, have a wonderful Thanksgiving whether its with a house full of family and friends or a quiet day to reflect.

I don't blog much, but still struggling to get into a routine and lose weight and pay attention to what I eat. Definitely making better choices and still walk/run at least twice a week for 4 miles each time.

I just need to be tougher with myself. You know that good angel and bad devil on the shoulder I keep talking about?.....Well they are still going at it, bad devil it ahead, but good angel is not giving up.

I'm not getting so upset with myself about my situation. I just accomplished a huge undertaking emotionally so I feel more free to focus on myself.

Just a side note: I would make a huge list of things I could get done in a day cleaning house, running errands, .... and I would never get it done, so I would beat myself up about it, get depressed, tell myself how pathetic I was and disappointed I was of myself. Last weekend I was about to do the same thing, then I stopped and just said.....just scrub the bathroom floor today, that's all I want to accomplish. In my head I was running down a huge list again, but I kept telling myself just scrub the bathroom floor, then see if you have time to accomplish something else. Well I scrubbed the bathroom floor and I was so proud of myself. I know it sound ridiculous but for me to accomplish a task without interruptions, delays, laziness it was a good step forward. I'm still proud of the that task (lol)! Now I just need to put that into play with my eating and exercise.



I want to thank all of you that give out support, that keep in touch. It means a lot to me. Thanks. I should be back on track with logging in daily once we get back from DISNEY!!!

Take care

  
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MPETERSON2311 11/22/2012 8:46AM

    Congratz on your walking and running. That is something tobe proud of, not depressed. Don't allow yourself to be your own worst enemy :)

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FENWAYGIRL18 11/21/2012 6:56PM

    Enjoy Your day !

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EARTHY3 11/21/2012 6:06PM

    And a Happy Thanksgiving to you too. emoticon

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LINWASH23 11/21/2012 5:49PM

    Thanks, we have so much to be thankful for. Happy Thanksgiving.

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The Countdown

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

It's been a while since I posted a blog. Been busy with work, daughter and dealing with my issue (divorce). The final hearing is next Wednesday. Not to spill my guts, but this has been tough and dealing with emotional abuse and mind games. (some people just don't grow up)

Anyway, I'm actually excited about it and looking forward to it. Some things have come up that will help me with this issue. I'm not sure how the other party is going to handle it, but I am definitely stronger now to deal with it.

I can not explain how I felt just less than a year ago, much less two years ago when all of this started. Looking back I can't believe I was that person. I feel like I have 110% back of my old self with a little extra due to all of the support from family, friends, counseling and my SP buddies.

I wish I could say I have the eating issues under control, but I don't. I know I definitely eat better than I use to and are making better choices. But I still make bad decisions (i.e. pop tarts yesterday morn :-( and trips through the drive thru).

I think once this HUGE weight is lifted off my shoulder next week, I will feel more focused on myself. I still do my walk/jog. I try to get in at least 3 days a week. Two of the days are 4 mile routes in the morn and the weather has been great! I do yoga once a week a totally love it. I can feel a difference in my body and mind when I can't make it.

So this journey so far hasn't shown success in the scale. I may lose a few pounds, but then gain it back again. I can visualize what I want, what goals I want and I have even lowered my expectations on myself for the moment. I know if I can kick myself in the rear and get started I can accomplish this.

I feel like I say the same thing, just a different blog. I really don't have anyone to talk about this since my family can control their eating and can be disciplined. They support me, but it's not the same. My friends don't seem to have the issues I have so I just keep loggin on to SP for my support.

I am not a writer and I don't have time to write so my blog entries are sparatic. Plus I don't want to seem like a whiner all the time.

I wanted my goal to be 20 lbs lighter by this time when I started in March 2012, but nothing has changed. It is disappointing, but I just have to keep moving forward. I have a 5K at Disney in January. I am too scared to make a goal weight because I just don't have the confidence I'll keep it up.

Enough of my whining. May not enter another blog until after next week.

Take care

  
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KIWISMOM95 10/23/2012 6:03PM

    Wow. Your story sounded just like mine a very short while ago. I had to check to make sure I was not reading my own blog. My divorce was finalized this past January and the child custody was finalized this past April. You are amazingly strong to survive through the emotional roller coaster that divorce and child custody causes. You are doing wonderful. Continue to lean on your family and SP friends for they are true blessings. Best of luck to you on your journey.

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JANETTEB553 10/23/2012 5:53PM

    Hi, Yes it can be a very lonely journey. Family can be a mixed blessing as well.
Thankfully SP is here and other people who stand a chance of understanding where we are. Good luck for next week.

Be gentle with yourself. Set a goal for losing say 5lbs over 3 months and work towards that...

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WENDIGAYLE 10/23/2012 5:50PM

  Hang in there. You have lots going on in your life. Take it one step at a time. Do things that you and your daughter enjoy and Good Luck. emoticon

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