Thursday, January 02, 2014
I'm great at making huge proclamations about what I'm going to do.
I'm fabulous at editing those things to fit what I actually end up doing.
I'm an expert on coming up with reasons why I don't follow through on any of the original and and or the edited versions of what I say I'm going to do.
So after much thought and honesty I have made a plan for the New Year.
I want to be happy.
What makes this year different than years past? Complete honesty....Hard truths. I am 40 years old and you don't get to 40 without learning a lot about yourself. I know what makes me tick and if I'm honest....like gut-wrenchingly honest....I know what truly makes me happy.
In my opinion, happiness is a choice.
Step 1. CHOOSE to be HAPPY!! (Check!)
Step 2. Make my happiness a priority by living a life where I choose happiness over all other things. (ex...being right...this is a biggie for me. I think I want happiness above all else, but then I fight to be right about things that don't really matter. Which means being right is the most important thing to me. It's ok to agree to disagree. This is not an easy accomplishment for me, but I'm trying.) (Check!)
Step 3. Make a detailed plan to do things that build a life that allows more opportunity for happiness. (Check!)
1. Eat better.
I'm going to slowly lesson the amount of starchy carbs in my diet. I eat a lot of white rice and a lot of tortilla chips. These two foods alone make up a HUGE portion of my diet. This was one of those HARD TRUTHS I mentioned above. I eat rice almost every day and I eat tortilla chips with my lunch EVERY day. Not a hand full or a bowl full. I actually have no idea how many I eat because I eat them out of a container. Bad idea.
To start I will eat a serving of the chips. (11 chips) and I will half the amount of rice at dinner.
I will continue to eat lots of veggies and to drink mostly water along with cutting back on salt. Outside of the starchy carbs I really like my diet and I think that's why I pretty much maintain my weight at this point.
Continue to drink my water!!
I've upped my water intake greatly in the last 2 months. More on that in another blog.
This is on it's way to my house as I type.
I have really bad ankles and lots of foot pain so hubs and I decided that this was worth a shot. 30 day return policy so I plan to use to like crazy when it gets here. Yoga is what I want to do. I do it...just not well. All in time.....
4. Meditation and Positive Affirmations.
This should really be number 1 on my list. For me....it's the key to my happiness. If I don't practice meditation and positive affirmations, I slip into old negative, unhappy habits.
These two practices bring me peace of mind, heart and soul.
5. A clean house.
Now my house is not dirty or even all that messy but I have no rhythm to my cleaning schedule. Part of being a stay at home mom is that you do what you want when you want. This is awesome...so please don't misunderstand me. For me though, being a procrastinator I often think....awe, it will be there tomorrow. Then I get irritated and stressed because I want a tidy house and it all ends up being done on the same day. A schedule has been made and will be followed!
I have a dream. A beautiful Chick-Lit dream. I've been mentally working on my book for years. This year I will put fingers to keyboard and see what happens!
7. Be present.
I want to be plugged in. I want to be in the moment as much as humanly possible. Whether it's listening to someone who is sharing with me....or concentrating on a book I'm reading.....or cleaning the tub! I want to be completely present.
That's my plan and if I choose happiness....I'll follow it!
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
10 years ago today was the last time I spoke to my father. It was brief, but I am so grateful for the words he said to me. He was dying and he didn't have much strength left. He was holding on for me and my sister to get home. She made it. I did not. I called the next morning right before we left for the airport to check on him and he was sleeping. A friend of the family promised me she would whisper in his ear that Nikki was on her way. I hope he heard her.
We had a layover halfway through the trip and I called to check on him. He had passed away about an hour before.
He was 61 years old.
He was a drummer/singer in a band when I was little.
He played golf.
He could build absolutely anything.
He was ridiculously funny and had a contagious laugh.
He could talk to anyone and make a new best friend while waiting in line at the grocery store.
He treated his dogs like children (I got that from him!)
He wore a cowboy hat a lot of the time.
He taught me how to ride a horse.
He loved being outside...camping, gardening, working in the yard.
He loved to play tricks on people.
He played pool and taught me how as soon as I was tall enough to reach the table.
He cooked like a champ. Skinny Pancakes, French fries, American chop suey were my favs that he made.
He worked in a machine shop most of his life.
He worked nights when I was little so I spent most of my days following him around.
He loved to play games and we spent countless hours sitting at the kitchen table playing cards, cribbage and dice.
He had a wicked temper and swore like a sailor.
He was not a perfect man but he was the perfect dad for me.
He only met my son once. Jacob was about 8 months old.
But over the years he made sure he had a relationship with him. He bought him his first bike, sent him his first baseball glove, built him a stool from scratch and even shipped him an actual pumpkin he grew in his garden from NH to Alaska! He even went so far as to have my step mom video tape him so that Jake would know him. We have three 2 hour videos of my dad doing everything from camping to plowing snow to putting up a Christmas tree all the while talking to Jacob.
He was a great man and I miss him.
Let's leave this on a happy note.
One of his favorite songs~
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