Monday, April 07, 2014
2 weeks ago today I started my newest attempt to get healthy. I have been ''trying'' to lose weight and get in shape for roughly 15 years. I have these moments of glory ya know? I make all these detailed plans and I get so excited and I stick with it for a few days...or even a week. Then something happens. For lack of a better a word let's call it LIFE.
So any one of the following or even a combo or two can happen....
I get sick.
Someone in my household gets sick.
The phone bill goes up.
I start my period.
I get into an argument with my husband.
I stub my toe.
We run out of broccoli.
I wake up pissy!
My point? It can be ANYTHING! Just give me a reason to quit and I will grab on to it with both hands and jump. I can then tell you all the reasons why this would never work for me. All the flaws that I never noticed during my detailed planning.
Then a month later I will come up with a new plan and so on and so forth. I've been playing this game for 15 years.
2 weeks ago I knew something was different. I have been working on me for about a year now. Little bits and pieces were coming together. We bought an inexpensive glider that gave me no more foot/knee excuses for not working out. I started drinking water. A lot of water. 100 ounces a day. I cut back on dairy because I know in my heart of hearts that certain dairy products were making me sick. I started eating more vegetables. I started working on the inner me.
So 2 weeks ago wasn't really my start. It was me, finally putting together everything I have been working on. Taking each piece and lining them up to show a full picture. Add Bob's Skinny Rules (and I still stand firm it's not a diet plan...at least not the way I'm using it) and I have what at this point is a successful combination.
In the past 2 weeks, since I started putting everything in motion, we have had more stress than we have had in years.
Our car broke down with one issue and was kept due to a recall issues...2 separate problems so we still had to pay for the original issue and we have no idea when we will get our car back.
My computer is dying.
Our son has completely changed his mind about where he is going to college and this is after we had everything set and ready to go to the first college.
This past weekend I had not 1 but 2 back to back migraines. My migraines are the kind with auras and numbness, so I lose vision.
Even with all of this, I did not change my eating. Not one single time. I didn't run for the carbs like I would have in the past. I didn't convince myself that its just too hard. It never even crossed my mind to ''cheat''. There was no thought and that's the thing that makes me feel so great. I didn't debate. I just ate healthy food.
For me, THIS is success. I truly believe that no matter what our issues are, we only change when we are ready. No amount of convincing or persuasion or even cold hard facts can MAKE a person change. True, real, at the core of your being want is all that will make a person a change.
I have found my want.