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A Rough Start to the Month...

Tuesday, December 02, 2014

A bit of a painful check in this month... Stats are not where I want them to be.

Then again, I didn't do what I needed to do in November either.

The injury in my foot sidelined me a bit, but I also stopped food journaling, which is death to my success. I really want to focus for this last month of the year. So... Goals.

emoticon Log my food. Every day.

emoticon Increase my steps. With the tendinitis, I'm down to around 3,000 steps a day. I need to try to get up to at least 7500 a day.

emoticon Cardio every day. At least 25 minutes.

emoticon I find that I'm not drinking as much now that it's cold outside. Need to work on that.

emoticon Resistance training. I need to start working that into my routine. Adding a little Tony Horton to my routine.

With the irregularity of the holidays, I think that is enough. Usually I set a goal to maintain my weight during the holidays, but since I'm already up in weight from Thanksgiving, or injuries, or whatever else, I'm going to focus on losing. The goal is five pounds for December.

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TRAINER_T 12/19/2014 9:25AM

    emoticon I know you can do it, I have been there with fun. But your stronger then you think!

Just do little pieces at a time then add on........get back to what you love makes you happier and makes you want to do more.

I belive in you my dear emoticon

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NEKOCHARM 12/2/2014 6:36PM

    I know all about foot injuries. emoticon I'm sorry to hear you're having to deal with that. I'm in the same boat as you, so my workouts have suffered a bit too. I'm doing whatever I can that won't stress my feet, which means more time spent on the recumbent bike, which is so NOT my fave. I found that I can hula hoop with no pain, so at least that's another fun option, but I miss dance games and hiking a lot.

Good for you on committing to track your food every day! I think staying close to SP will help to keep your head in the game. I know it's really helpful to me. emoticon

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RITAROSE 12/2/2014 9:20AM

  I have found it so very challenging to stay with my plan to record food when I am ill or injured! Don't beat yourself up! You have set some good attainable goals for the most challenging month of the year! Way to go!! You can do it!! I fell off tracking my food too. Starting anew this morning! Gotta do what I gotta do to be healthy!! Have a great month!

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JAROL7 12/2/2014 9:12AM

    Yep ... me too. I'm bearing down on my tracking to make sure I am where I want to be on New Year's Day ... goal weight.

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Insult to Injury

Sunday, November 09, 2014

I've had a little bit of a health setback in the last few weeks. Last month I was on the treadmill when I got a really bad cramp in my foot. I stretched it, finished my workout, and kind of forgot about it... Until the next morning, when I stepped out of bed.

emoticon Not good.

But it was more achy than anything, and it came and went, so I didn't worry too much.

Problem was, it started getting worse instead of getting better. No swelling, or bruising. Not even constant pain. But definitely increasing pain. So I broke down and went to the doctor. Turns out I have tendinitis in my foot.

Just like the rest of me, my arches are falling too. emoticon

Good news is that the doctor says there isn't any reason not to exercise.

Bad news is that the doctor says I have to start wearing "sensible shoes." Supportive shoes. Grandma shoes. Ugly, older woman shoes.

Sparkpeeps, I'm just not ready for that. I can deal with having to start wearing reading glasses. I can deal with the gray around my temples. But ugly shoes are an indignity I don't know that I can cope with!

Pain does crazy things to you though, so I went to the store and started looking for sturdy footwear. I got a great saleswoman who sympathized with me while I searched out the least matronly pairs, while also patiently pointing out each time I put on a cute pair that just wouldn't meet my doctor's recommendation. (I hadn't done this on purpose, but the saleswoman pointed out that I'd worn all black in honor of the occasion.)

One thing the doctor forgot to mention was that "sensible" is code for "obscenely expensive." It's going to take quite a while to rebuild my closet. I've started getting rid of some of cute, dainty, girly shoes, though I figure I can keep some of the more fun pairs (like the leopard print platforms in my profile picture) if I only wear them rarely, for special events, rather than all day at work. (I just can't imagine wearing grandma clogs on a date. emoticon )

I do have to admit that after two days of wearing "sturdier" shoes, my foot hurts a LOT less. Enough improvement to keep on, keepin' on, even if it's in a less fashionable way.

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ASHESS85 11/18/2014 12:14PM

    uh oh! Hope you're feeling even better now!

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TRAINER_T 11/10/2014 3:28PM

    Sorry that sucks! I get you on the glasses I need them now too and everything is falling on me also emoticon

But alteast we are able to walk and so we must be grateful, I had to drop down to almost flats and luckily they are much cuter now.

emoticon you got this!

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RITAROSE 11/10/2014 11:04AM

  Yes, it's a difficult thing to accept, but those well made shoes, ugly or not make a huge difference in how your feet treat you! I have found good shoes in the Naot, Dansko and lately, Easy Spirit brands. The ES brand was particularly hard for me to get as I find them quite hideous, but soooo comfy for my damaged feet! Hope you find some good shoes that meet your expectations!

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MRTHING2000 11/10/2014 7:00AM

    I feel ya. Those 'comfy' shoes are apparently NOT good for your feet. So instead of the $50 shoes on sale at Kohl's, now I have to get the $160 ones at a specialty footware store. But it actually did help, as did the custom orthotics (Dr Scholls is crap). It wasn't comfy at first, but it did help long-term. One thing the guy at the store did say that helped: get two. Alternate wearing one day to day. They last 4 times longer if you do--something about the soles bouncing back rather than a continuous squish. More than a year later the shoes are both about as good as new--he wasn't just trying to make a bigger commission!

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CHEFSOPHIE 11/9/2014 5:37PM

    Actually sensible shoes are becoming more fashionable. I was actually noticing it when I Was waiting for my ferry. There was a woman who had on a pair of "clunky" shoes with some fun stripped socks. Get better

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BRENDAGAIL9 11/9/2014 4:22PM

    Well, I could not even consider going on a date no matter what kind of shoes I wear. I have flat feet and wear moccasins and do fine with that. I have had foot pain on and off and it eventually goes away. I go barefoot around the house.

My Indian heritage, I guess.

I hope you heal soon. I am not sure I would get rid of the cute shoes just yet because this can't last forever. Maybe wear your grandma shoes when you walk and work out. And comfortable ones at work.

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    Oh yeah! I feel your pain... I can't even TRY ON a pair of stilettos any more. And why can't the fashion industry make cute shoes that don't kill our feet or set us up for problems like these? GRRRR

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OPHELIE 11/9/2014 3:39PM

    emoticon time to launch a new line of grandma shoes and make millions!

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JANET552 11/9/2014 3:29PM

    I sympathize with you. I had to go to grandma shoes in 2013 and I'm still not over it. I hope better for you!!

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If Only I Could Eat the Guy Who Did This...

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

There are times I wonder if I'll ever completely get over the pull of emotional eating. Most of the time, it's not much of a problem - not like it was 10 years ago. Then there are days, or incidents, where I find myself circling the office M&M man like a shark circling a baited cage.

Friday night someone hacked my Starbuck's account and got my credit card information. I caught it very quickly - within an hour, but it still created a lot of work for me. I thought it was all taken care of, but last night Verizon called and somebody was trying to charge a "new device" to my account and have it mailed to a different address.


Starbuck's and the credit card company both said I wouldn't be liable for the charges made Friday night, but they still showed up on my bill yesterday. No one actually got anything from Verizon, but I had to add secondary security to my account. I can't keep track of all of the passwords I have now, and adding extra ones?!

I handled this in a very mature way... by eating a stack of Girl Scout cookies. I have to work late tonight, and so I'm treating myself to take-out. Choices I probably wouldn't have made if I wasn't stressed.

Sometimes I think there are only so many things a person can competently deal with at once.

(photo from Stephen Frink Collection via National Geographic)

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WOUBBIE 10/17/2014 10:46AM

    Ugh. Hope it gets sorted out quickly. Thank goodness the banks are all over this stuff these days! Even ten years ago it would have been disastrous!

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CHEFSOPHIE 10/16/2014 2:47PM

    I have the same problem and frustration with passwords.

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MRTHING2000 10/16/2014 6:38AM

    I used to know the locations of all the office candy jars. I found myself hovering around a few people's desks just to snatch a candy or a Girl Scout cookie. Daily!

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NEKOCHARM 10/15/2014 3:23PM

    Argh... What a pain! I swear - Emotional eating is the bane of my existence. emoticon Every single time I've wanted to just go off and inhale all the food has been down to emotionally feeling crummy. That's why I'm trying to figure out what I can do to keep my mood up.

I guess looking at the positives in any situation, no matter how bad, is the way to go to achieve this. Yes, somebody stole your credit card info, but you did catch it in time, and credit card companies won't hold you liable for unapproved charges.

Hang in there, and stay away from the M&M man. Well, unless he's cute and single. emoticon

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WIFE49 10/15/2014 3:04PM

    emoticon Sorry about the credit card problem.

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Social Media is the Thief of Joy

Monday, October 06, 2014

So, last week I was feeling kinda good about myself. I had looked at my charts and data, and knew I could do better, but was happy with the weight I had lost, and the inches I had dropped. I had an improvement plan for October...

Then I went on Facebook...

There, I see great before and after pics for one of my coworkers. Clicked "like." Read the post.

And instantly "disliked" myself.

My colleague had lost more weight in three weeks than I had lost in the last three months! "No pills!" "No gimmicks!" "Only hard work!"

I instantly started to look at my progress as proof of my laziness.

Her success was evidence that I just needed to work harder. Needed to stop fooling myself. Needed... I don't know.

It was like a punch in the gut.

It's a trap I have to work hard to avoid. Comparing myself to other women. It's something I've done, at least since middle school. The age I became a professional dieter.

Looking at pictures, and sizing yourself up negatively.

Looking at workouts, and sizing yourself up negatively.

Looking at career success, and sizing yourself up negatively.

It's so easy to see yourself as "less than."

Part of it is probably because I grew up in a household where we were always told that that is exactly what we were. We were stupid. We were lazy. Dumb as rocks. Absent of common sense.

Decades later, those words still echo, like a whisper following you in an abandoned house, and you just can't find the source, or turn it off.

This is not who I want to be.

This is also hard to change.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 10/7/2014 11:10PM

    Dude. You made improvement. That right there is something to celebrate. You didn't plateau and you didn't backslide.

Sometimes we're just not in a place where we can push as hard as fast as someone else or even ourselves in the past. I have had to remind myself of that a lot over the past 6 months while dealing with some massive life curve balls.

And I like that you're grappling with this issue about negative comparisons and the insidious self-talk, because it's an important concept I've had to revisit over and over and over in lots of areas of my life (as you have suggested).

I'm not sure that social media is so much of a problem as our reaction to it. I'm with NEKOCHARM that this has a lot to do with those nasty comparison traps we fall into...

You're doing well. Seriously. I mean it.


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WOUBBIE 10/7/2014 11:42AM

    I hope you learn to talk back to those voices. They were wrong then and they have no right to talk to you today.


"The only person that can beat me is me. And I'm pretty sure I can take her!"

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CHEFSOPHIE 10/6/2014 2:09PM

    Everyone is different. Any improvement is a step toward your goal.

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NEKOCHARM 10/6/2014 1:59PM

    Ohhh... The comparison stuff. I know how that is. emoticon My issue as of late is comparing myself today to the me of yesterday, before I regained 30 pounds. I'm working hard on forgiving myself, and just moving on. Trying to concentrate on how I'm doing a great job taking care of myself today. But as you said, it's NOT easy. Changing those old tapes filled with negative criticism is tough, but we can either continue thinking those crappy, unproductive lies, or make a conscious effort to tell ourselves positive, encouraging things instead.

I'm trying to do that myself. I have a bad habit of whenever I go to the bathroom, I look at myself in the mirror and see all of the flaws. Then my mind runs with self-criticism. One thing that helps is when I look at where a lot of that negativity initially came from. Like you, some came from my family. But... they had their own messed up issues, and were far from perfect themselves.

Today we don't have to own our family's BS, their insecurities, their feelings of inadequacy, their issues. If it's not productive or nurturing to us today, then let's make a conscious effort to ditch those old voices. emoticon

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BEATLETOT 10/6/2014 9:51AM

    Ayup. I know exactly what you mean...

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EVIE4NOW 10/6/2014 9:48AM

  Sounds like we grew up in the same house. Are you my sister? lol. Yes it's hard to avoid the little voice that we grew up with but I instantly think of the source(s) and put on ignore.

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SMITHKRISTI 10/6/2014 9:28AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PUPPYWHISPERS 10/6/2014 9:26AM

    I completely agree that social media is the thief of joy. It's too easy to look at what others are doing, and instantly compare our lives to theirs. But I disagree that you are less than anyone else.

Just look at're doing it! You're losing weight, maybe not as quickly as your coworker, but studies have shown that the healthiest way to lose is slowly and you are more likely to keep the weight off.

Allow me to cheer for you because I think you're doing great! emoticon

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Move it, Girl!

Saturday, October 04, 2014

Time to set some fitness goals for the month.

I actually fell a bit off the wagon at the end of September. And for a really stupid reason. A guy who works at the gym asked me if I would research something for him, and I haven't had time at work to do it. So I've been avoiding going there because I didn't do what I said I would do.

For a week and a half.

Sometimes I don't understand myself.


I'm still struggling to get back to weight training. My general goal is to weight train 3x a week. That would be 13x in October if I was perfect. I'm going to aim for 10 of 13.

For Cardio, I'm still aiming for 30 minute workouts. I'd like to hit 25 of 31 days there. Hopefully my week off the wagon won't kill me when I get back to the gym.

I was thinking about starting P90X3, but there is actually a new Power 90 coming out. Beachbody is taking pre-orders, but you have to sign up for auto-ship on their supplements right now. You can't just order the DVDs. I haven't actually seen a release date, though Tony is selling it hardcore on YouTube and Facebook. I think I would like to do the new Power 90 before I do X3. I have a tendency to rush things with fitness, and then hurt myself for going to hard, too soon. Even though I know better, I want results yesterday!

I just want to get back to "happy weight."

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CHEFSOPHIE 10/4/2014 2:13PM

    A week and a half is not a lifetime. Why not just tell the person that other demands made it difficult to the research, but you haven't forgotten.

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WOUBBIE 10/4/2014 10:24AM

    "Sometimes I don't understand myself." Nah, I think you do, you just don't like some of what you see. I do the exact same thing, socially. I don't want to disappoint someone so.... I disappoint them in another way.... Yeah. Not much logic there, lol!

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