Saturday, April 13, 2013
What a week ! Taxes due , A meeting I really don't want to go to but have to , My birthday ! YUCK ! and it seems like every annoying person I know is coming out of the woodwork lately! Not to mention two very busy weeks at work coming , I can feel the weight gain now ! Lack of sleep. Lack of time . Thinking to much . Looking for an easy way to comfort myself .. Oh I can see it coming ! This really scares me , the thought of all my hard work going up in smoke ! Two weeks perhaps longer of stress ! I could gain ten pounds by then ! I had a talk with myself , I had joined a really committed challenge at Spark but then ... I unjoined.. Now is not the time for this , It will just set me up to call myself a failure ! So I am taking it back a notch or maybe 2 or 3 notches . Baby steps and maintaining some form of self control ! Okay think in tiny boxes ....* they say men think this way , lol . I tend to believe that , they seem much better at compartmentalizing . First Exercise each day even for ten minutes , * it often leads to more. * Drink my water , Take my vitamins , Visualize and meditate , Journal food .Get sleep . Give myself a lot of love this week ! If anyone else is also feeling this way please take good care of yourself ! Stress is bad enough when it comes from without but worse when it comes from within ! We can do it !
Friday, April 12, 2013
I was talking to a friend of mine the other day , Hes a body builder and if you want to call him a " health nut " . I was complaining I was sick ... That I ate a bowl of ice cream and then one more ! ... " I was feeling down " I said , " I remember when eating a bowl of ice cream made me feel better and 2 bowls made me feel even better ! Now I just feel sick . How can something that gave me comfort before make me sick now ? " Your a different person now , your mindset is different your body is different and you don't want to go back to where you were , I used to feel that way about junk food now it doesnt give me pleasure anymore.." Then I realized the way we were talking it sounded like some bad relationship . A healthy life style is like finding the perfect mate ... but you have to be careful not to drag past baggage in to the " New Relationship" Like negative self talk about your body and your ability to achieve what you want in life . Or feeling guilty about missing a work out or having a treat once in a while . Anything is good in moderation and those negative thoughts are from the old relationship you used to have , now you are in a new relationship , where you can enjoy life , its not a diet its a life long commitment and life is not stagnant its flowing . From now on if I mess up then I will forgive myself and move on and try to leave the past in the past ! Even though I am not at my goal weight yet , I am giving myself credit for coming this far and having faith in myself that I can go further , because I am good enough right now , in this moment .
Thursday, April 04, 2013
I think I have ADD , I am not sure , maybe I just never grew up ! Routines , Routines , Routines , I have to keep that in mind , Before dieting I never really understood the importance of routines .., Now I am more tuned in to my body and my emotions and the importance routines have on both of them . If I don't exercise even a little before work I probably won't all day . If I don't eat protein at breakfast I will be starving before lunch. If I dont do my dishes and make my bed before I leave for work I come home and am instantly in a bad mood, If I am tired , I over eat and am crabby to those I love. and depressed ! oh did I mention sensitive ? There's a site on the net I love called INNER KIDDIES , its about embracing your inner child and taming her ! Now whenever I think Im tired or just dont feel like doing whatever it is I need to do to make my day a successful one , I become my own mom and tell my inner brat to behave !
Tuesday, April 02, 2013
For years I have been reading articles , trying new fad diets and most of all punishing myself for not being successful . So what was keeping me from losing weight before ? Its just a basic Calories in vs Calories burned , I know that , I think I'm ready now to take control of my weight , Ive lost 40 pounds so far and I know I am going to keep going , almost wrote hope to keep going, Losing weight is such a personal issue, before I tried to do it for other people or did it because I felt that other people were judging me .. Coming from a family where everyone is totally skinny and any woman weighing over a 120 was fat , It was hard ! So when your losing weight for another person or looking for other people to value or devalue you based on your weight, you are giving them the power to decide if you have a good day or a bad day , I am not letting other people well meaning or not shape my journey to good health , I am not going to use excuses or fancy trends to sidetrack me in to making excuses for what I already know . Burn more then you eat ...
I know some bigger women who are really Goddesses ! They have self confidence , carry weight well and man do the guys go wild over them ! That's not me and its not about looking good for me its about having the inner self confidence that I need to complete the journey that I want for my life , to become real to me is looking and acting on the outside how I feel on the inside !
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