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The quiet time.

Monday, May 27, 2013

Have you ever heard the wonderful silence just before the dawn? Or the quiet and calm just as a storm ends? Or perhaps you know the silence when you haven't the answer to a question you've been asked, or the hush of a country road at night, or the expectant pause of a room full of people when someone is just about to speak, or, most beautiful of all, the moment after the door closes and you're alone in the whole house? Each one is different, you know, and all very beautiful if you listen carefully.
― Norton Juster
There's been a quiet for days .I have been questioning myself , what is wrong with me that I can stay on track and exercise and not lose . and then binge and know Im binging and how bad I feel afterward and yet not stop it. I have been trying to analyze myself to really get to the bottom of it . I think sometimes my weight means more to someone else then to me. The encouragement when I do good and the reprimands when I do badly...but even the encouragement feels bad sometimes.The compliments feel bad . When your told your pretty but you don't feel pretty . Then when you feel the need to be perfect and it makes you just notice every one of your imperfections .
I never really notice things about other people . I remember one lady I worked with and she said something about how she had lost her teeth , I was shocked and never noticed ...Another time someone said to me about a girl I know . She would be really pretty if she didn't have that one droopy eye . I never noticed... My best friend says hes going bald , I look and I cant see it.Even though he repeatedly shows bends his head down and says LOOK !HERE !!.
I just wonder what would happen if nobody noticed my imperfections and just saw me .What would happen if I stopped looking at my own like I never look at other peoples. I don't know . I hope this quiet I feel inside right now will help me understand why I do what I do and feel what I feel, and to learn to see myself the way I see other people.

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    Love this blog. The quote is amazing. Love the way you sense your own
special quiet and the way you think things through.

As far as noticing..........I think most people don't notice a lot of things!
I did a blog on that point after I came back from vacation this spring.
It actually kind of turned me around my thinking some.

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ELSCO55 5/27/2013 11:07PM

    We area all beautiful in his eyes.

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63KEEPONGOING 5/27/2013 6:55PM

  More importantly think how God feels about you just as you are. He thinks you are beautiful, special, and one of a kind; for after all He gave you life.
Psalms 139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made:marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
Have a wonderful day and just know you are beautiful.
I use to think the most negatives thoughts of myself; but then I realized that would be throwing off on my maker. I need to try to maintain a healthy body for his glory.
He sure has to help me big time. emoticon

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Channeling Raymond Burr .

Saturday, May 25, 2013

I know they say you should give yourself positive affirmations

I always have a hard time doing that . I look in the mirror and say some but all I do back is grimace and say " YEAH RIGHHHT !"
So yesterday out of the blue I channeled Raymond Burr or did he just appear ? I am not sure...
I have been having issues with my scale. Well maybe not the scale so much its new but my floor , I live in a wonderful old Victorian house with sloping floors , So I can weigh in with five pounds up or ten pounds down ! I was trying to even the floor by putting books under the scale and placing it in various places around the apartment .Needless to say I was getting aggravated , That's when Raymond Burr waltzed in , with his suave masculine charisma " What are you doing ?" " I am trying to get this #$$%%!!! Scale to work ! " " You know your a wonderful woman .. Your smart and intelligent ..Does it matter what the number is on the scale as long as you can tell if you lost or gained ? I personally never cared about my weight .." " Yeah right but your Raymond Burr ! Your drop dead sexy even though your fat ! " at this remark Raymond narrowed his eyes and gave a huff " If you don't mind I prefer PORTLY, " Then he went on ... " I am here to tell you that your beautiful just the way you are . If you want to improve , then improve ..but remember you can do anything you set your mind to , I have faith in you ."
A m I crazy ? No I dont think so .. although others might disagree ! The affirmations seemed to be more real and less silly when Raymond said them ! emoticon

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_LINDA 5/25/2013 2:36PM

    Too cute! Fantastic pep talk! This should be telling you something, maybe your house knows -you don't need a scale! If you are exercising regularly and eating healthy and making it a permanent lifestyle change, all the numbers and clothing sizes will eventually follow, and the bonus is you will feel great!
Keep up the great work!
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CAROLJEAN64 5/25/2013 1:45PM

    Love this..... Thanks for posting. Also, I am sure Raymond Burr would say "Portly."

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Fresh start and the BBC .

Friday, May 17, 2013

The other day I was talking to my friend , shes in her mid fifties and she is always talking about her OLD AGE! Hey I do it too ! I am trying to change my mindset about this though. So , to make a short story long. my friend was telling me she was watching her new neighbor . Her new neighbor was young , perky had cute red pig tails .,My friend said " I used to be her .I felt sad looking at her . I am old now...
Well she called me yesterday. This "how the conversation went.
"My new neighbor came over yesterday.We had coffee."
"Really? how was she ? whats her story ?"
"Shes divorced , has two kids 30 and 27"
"Two kids 30 and 27 !!! emoticon How old is she ! "
"Oh shes my age.."
Theres a lesson in this Story I think. American movies ,tv shows ,and commericals tend to show women that are Perfect ! Nobody is over weight , wrinkle commercials show 20 year old models. or if they are older they are air brushed , tucked , sucked. pinned, injected, dyed , enhanced..oh the list can go on !
Why don't we start looking at real women in our neighborhood, that we can use as healthy role models , !
My son said to me the other day ... "Have you noticed there's a lot more older chicks on BBC and they are hot ! " Well I don't know how I feel about my 21 year old son saying that ! lol but I checked it out ! yeah theres lots of shows on the BBC that feature older women or realistic looking women as the main character so to quell the negative voices in my head I am going to start doing two things !
1 .Look at women in my neighborhood that embody the qualities I want to have !
2. Start watching more BBC !

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AMANDANCES 5/21/2013 1:02PM

    LOVE this! I won't read beauty or fashion magazines because they all make me feel old and ugly.

Sometimes I think we only REALLY get old in our minds. Have you seen the movie The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel? It kind of addresses that.

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OOPSIEDAYZ45 5/20/2013 1:03PM

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OWL_20 5/17/2013 8:31PM

    LOL, love your son's comment! Maybe the American networks could take heed!

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JEWELS571 5/17/2013 2:40PM

    Love this!! Thanks!

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JESSERMOVICK 5/17/2013 12:41PM

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Time off work !

Monday, May 13, 2013

I am between seasons now , and have a little time at home . I am trying to f ind a way to get myself organized ! I tend to be a little ... well more then a little distracted , I think I have Add also panic attacks ! Yikes not a good combo . Using a timer is really helpful for me and also I used a program called Hott Notes to leave little post it notes on my computer , Exercise , spark , clean house , organize bills and so on .
I am also trying to be more thankful for the food I eat ! I remember my father , who was a chef , to THINK about the food ! " Look at this beautiful orange , its grown in the sun , in a beautiful orchard , taste the sunshine" Also lighting a candle , using pretty plates and not eating anything I don't truly love ! and um also trying not to stuff my face without paying attention..... I swear there was a sandwich on that plate ! emoticon Did I eat that already ! emoticon

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OOPSIEDAYZ45 5/20/2013 1:05PM

    I love your blogs. They are inciteful and funny too. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

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BONNIEMARGAY 5/14/2013 3:09AM

    Good luck with your goals.

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Purple hair and a scale that is Wacky !

Friday, May 03, 2013

I thought I would reward myself.... change my hair color bought a box of Loreal Cherry Cordial Chocolate hair dye , I thought if I couldnt eat chocolate I could at least wear it on my head ! Now I look like Barney and the scale is going up and down . I keep weighing less with my clothes on then when I take them off and neither number is good even though I have been tracking and exercising like crazy ! Help !!!!! emoticon

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BONNIEMARGAY 5/4/2013 3:13AM

    Hey, I pay good money to get my hair colored purple at the salon every month. Stay away from the scale for a few weeks and measure your waist instead. Wishing you relief.

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ELSCO55 5/3/2013 10:46PM

    That's why I am afraid to color my own hair. Always afraid it will come out purple or orange

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BANDMOM2012 5/3/2013 10:44AM

    Are you moving your scale? Mine weighs differently if it isn't sitting completely level on the tile. Also, I think checking the batteries is a good idea. My weight can fluctuate by five pounds depending on how salty my meal plans have been. I would love to see your hair - I've done that too! Mine came out to a lovely shade of burgundy.

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WORDWOMAN7 5/3/2013 8:54AM

    Oh Kyliecat1, I wish that I had some answers, but it sounds like it's Freaky Friday where you are. Your post made me smile on a day when I needed it - thank you!

And good luck sorting the other problems out. Does the scale need a new battery, or do you need a new scale? Can you call L'Oreal and talk to their hotline about what to do?

It has been that kind of weight-loss week for me, too. Just hang in there and make sure that you're doing the right things (get sleep, drink water, eat at least the minimum number of calories, and exercise). The weight WILL come off! Good luck!

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LADYJ6942 5/3/2013 8:53AM

    Welcome to Sp. There are so many things it could be. Sadly as women hormones and salt affect is the most. I'd say take a look at your diet - too much sodium? not enough protein or fresh veggies/fruits? What about the timing of your nutrients? too many carbs?

Lots of things, I'd say pick one area to work on, give it 6 weeks then re-evaluate and change something else. By giving a change 6 weeks it can be come a habit it if it leads to success.

Also the scale isn't the only means of measure. What about the tape measure or none scale victories (NSV) like clothese fitting more loosely, compliments, wearing something you've not worn in a while, more energy, etc.

Good luck and keep pushing!!!

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KRISTACULAR 5/3/2013 8:51AM

    Hey! Your scale definitely sounds like it is wacky, so don't put too much stock in the number you see on it. I would say to use a measuring tape and track inches instead. Or get a better scale and then only weigh in once a week, or weigh everyday but only track it once a week. That way the daily fluctuations that everyone experiences won't frustrate you and make you want to give up.

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