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Saturday randomness

Saturday, October 18, 2014

It's been another long week at work. But my boss was out sick the last two days, so I was able to get a lot more done. My former carpool buddy has loaned me her spare car while her husband works on mine. I can't believe what kind of friends they've turned out to be.

Today I finally settled on what I'm making for the Halloween baking contest at work, and it'll involve FINALLY christening one of my Good Eats cookbooks. Alton has a chocolate pie recipe that looks spectacular. It's based on silken tofu (not going to mention that part), then swamped in chocolate -- chocolate cookie crumb crust, melted chocolate chips, Kahlua -- it looks amazing. I'm going to dress it up with a "spiderweb" made of white piping icing and "spiders" made from dark cherries. I saw how to make them from olives on Food Network this morning, but the same technique will work with cherries. Cherry halves form the bodies, and cherries cut into eight slices make the legs. I'll put them randomly on the web and hope everybody likes it.

Ex continues to recuperate at home, and Frank continues to tell him not to hurry (as he gets his pillow fluffed and his toes massaged). Frank does NOT want to leave Nurse Heaven!

Now it gets REALLY random.

When I was growing up my parents would both drink and snack all evening. My mother would eat most of a regular bag of potato chips just about every night. My father? Pretty much anything that wasn't nailed down. I've never been much of an after-dinner snacker (thank God), but I've noticed now that just about every other weekend I will eat a party-sized bag over the two and a half days (plus Friday evening). The weird part is that by the bottom of the bag I'm not even liking them. Somehow they put all the big pretty chips on top and the bottom is all greasy crumbs.

Then there's the wine. I enjoy whiskey or rum, but if I don't have it for a long time it's not even close to an issue. Ditto for beer. But wine is different.

Once I was watching an online episode of Chopped After Hours, where the judges from Chopped have to cook the competition basket. Then they share the dishes they made and also drink wine together. I didn't have any wine in the house that night, and I actually burst into tears. The wine to me represented all the fun, creativity and camaraderie they were sharing. it was a scene I wanted into SO badly. (And if a dream I had one night can be believed, judge Marc Murphy is an incredible kisser. But that's another blog post.)

Unique among alcoholic (or any other) beverages, wine occupies a huge place in art, literature, culture and even religion. And in a life that (right now, anyway) has very little grace to it, the wine feels like its one "grace note." This makes it very difficult to let it go.

I'm not even sure where I'm going with this. It's just something I've been thinking about.

  
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AJDOVER1 10/20/2014 6:51PM

    The chocolate pie sounds amazing.

You're in my prayers.

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IMAVISION 10/19/2014 7:09PM

    The pie that you are planning on making sounds quite nice --- I am sure everyone will be impressed with your creativity & with the taste of your creation.

Unless it is around the 4th of July & we are having a get-together, I simply do not buy potato chips. I have a hard time resisting them. My MrV doesn't eat them --- so, at other times of the year, I can't even pretend that I am buying them for us to share. What works for me in resisting them, is to not cave to bringing them into our home.

God bless you, Mary!

Ima

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 10/19/2014 6:37PM

    hugs. thinking about our relationships with food is important, and it's helpful! You may not have an end point right now, but you're digging into how you feel about food, and that's good. emoticon

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JEANNETTE59 10/19/2014 6:12PM

  I'm sending emoticon your way, please share one or two with your wonderful friend and her husband. I am so glad they came to your rescue.
Wouldn't it be nice if your boss could work from home? emoticon
My chip weakness are the Veggie Chips made from sliced dehydrated vegetables, not as bad as potato chips, but I find them addictive and the carbs add up. emoticon
I enjoy wine....but more carbs, frustrating isn't it? emoticon

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NILLAPEPSI 10/19/2014 5:16PM

    emoticon Hope your car is fixed soon. I'm so glad you had some better days at work. You deserved a break! emoticon

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LIS193 10/19/2014 12:35PM

    That pie sounds awesome! Please share a pic with us when you made it!!
Can't wait to see it. So creative!

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MRS_TOAD 10/19/2014 9:50AM

    I can't wait to see and hear about your pie. It sounds delicious!

What an awesome friend!

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LOSINGIT26104 10/19/2014 8:25AM

    Be sure to share a picture of your dessert. It sounds wonderful. And one glass of wine a day is supposed to be good for you...everything in moderation is my belief.
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MBPP50 10/19/2014 6:58AM

    I want to see a pic of your pie after you make it! Sounds awesome.

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GOAL-WT-MET 10/19/2014 5:38AM

  Funny, but my favorite snack would be lay's potato chips with sharp cheddar cheese with a glass of sparkling wine. So I make sure I never buy lays. I will give in to a small single serving bag once in a while but not lay's. One that satisfies my chip craving but nothing that amazing that I'll want more after the small bag. I love wine but it makes me lose my resolve and eat more. I believe in enjoying life so I do allow myself wine once or twice a week and I do two glasses but can easily do three if I allowed it.

Moderation is the key and I try to remember that as best I can.

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ICECUB 10/18/2014 10:49PM

    YOU DO HAVE GOOD FRIENDS. THAT CHOCOLATE SOUNDS TERRIFIC.

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MONETRUBY 10/18/2014 10:43PM

    Thank goodness for good friends!

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1CRAZYDOG 10/18/2014 9:51PM

    You have an angel for a friend!

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NASFKAB 10/18/2014 9:36PM

  all the best happy you have some good friends

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The Friday befuddle

Friday, October 10, 2014

(Warning: This is going to be long and likely boring.)

Today my manager told me that our lead representative is quitting in two weeks and guess who is inheriting a nice-sized chunk of her workload? With no corresponding raise in pay? But just last Friday she told me the Big Boss thinks I'm underworked. Right.

Ex is continuing to recover from his recent hospitalization, because he wants to bring Frank back home. Frank is thinking no offense, Dad, but I'm in the lap of Nurse Heaven here! He is in NO hurry at all. Frank turned THIRTY-FIVE on Wednesday. I'm a bit traumatized that the guy who was the size of a football seemingly day before yesterday is now in his mid-thirties.

The depression has been terrible lately. Between losing my sister, getting sick and needing to be rescued and now my carpool buddy leaving the office, I've been in quite a black fog lately. But there have been a few developments.

Sacha's husband is working on fixing my car so I can get it smogged and finally get the tag fixed so I can go out fearlessly. AND she told me tonight that if he doesn't get it done this weekend, they're actually going to find me a car to borrow so I can get to and from work until it's done! I don't know too many friends like that. I had planned to give them two pretty wineglasses and a nice bottle for Christmas, but it's going to have to be WAY more special than that. Maybe one of those wonderful gift boxes from Swiss Colony (I always loved those)?

Thinking about getting my car back with a current tag makes me think about possibly getting out other than to work? I've thought about the local Methodist church (sorry, grandmas). I confess that I had the knee-jerk thought, but what about the Sunday morning Good Eats marathon? I had to sternly remind myself that a) I have a DVR, b) I've seen all of them at least ten times, and c) sweet Alton is a gentleman -- he'll wait for me. I think about things most of you probably take for granted, like going out to breakfast or touring the Christmas lights in December. I've felt for the last couple of years like the world is contracting and I'm vanishing. Maybe that can change?

Mentioning my sister Lynda's name still puts tears in my eyes (she's going to be my profile picture for a long time). But lately I've had mental images of her shaking me and saying something sarcastic (she was VERY proud of her fluency in sarcasm). I know she wouldn't want me to grieve (although that's not humanly possible). But is it also possible that I have a third guardian angel, along with my daughter and grandmother, one who speaks native-fluent sarcasm?

Just waiting for dinner to finish while I watch Cutthroat Kitchen. JMHO, it's the funniest show on TV and God knows, I need the laughs. Looking forward to a SLOW morning tomorrow.

  
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MPARKER67 10/13/2014 9:59AM

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MRS_TOAD 10/13/2014 9:41AM

    I so hope things work out for you. Lifting you up in my thoughts and prayers.

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MONETRUBY 10/12/2014 8:38PM

    That IS a wonderful friend! I have an idea of how constricted life can be without a working car, so I am very happy to hear that you're getting closer to having wheels again. And how great that you now have 3 guardian angels!

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SPEDED2 10/11/2014 9:44PM

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ICECUB 10/11/2014 8:53PM

    YOU DO HAVE GOOD FRIENDS. LOVE SWISS COLONEY. BEEN YEARS SINCE I HAVE ORDERED ANYTHING FROM THEM.YOU ARE NOT BORING. SO DON'T WORRY ABOUT THAT. HOPE THING KEEP LOOKING UP.

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IMAVISION 10/11/2014 8:40PM

    I so enjoyed your blog --- things are certainly looking up for you & for that I am very thankful to our Creator God. See prayers are answered in His timing & with everyone's best interest at heart.

God bless you, Mary, as you learn to spread your wings once again!

Ima

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 10/11/2014 7:58PM

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope your car will soon be up and running again. I also hope that your boss isn't going to give you too much more work, or at least you should get paid more to take on another person's work. Again, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

HUGS
Pam

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AJDOVER1 10/11/2014 6:24PM

    The positive new developments sound great! I wish you blessings in all areas of your life.
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JEANNETTE59 10/11/2014 5:14PM

  So glad your friend is standing by you and her husband must be a special guy.

Sure hope the new work load comes with a hefty raise to match! emoticon

Good to hear that your ex is recovering and that your son is enjoying the attention from the nurses.

Best of all, things seem to be looking up and that is wonderful emoticon emoticon



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LIS193 10/11/2014 12:10PM

    You have a really good friend, she sounds very special.
Yes! your sister is looking out for you - listen to her voice and be comforted.
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CHEFSOPHIE 10/11/2014 10:05AM

    So glad your car is almost fixed. It has been a long time.

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1CRAZYDOG 10/11/2014 8:36AM

    So glad you have such a wonderful friend and her DH to help you out.

You're right, your sis is your 3rd angel for sure. FEEL that presence.

HUGS to you.

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NILLAPEPSI 10/11/2014 7:38AM

    emoticon Glad things are on the up-swing! Keep smiling!! emoticon

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LOSINGIT26104 10/11/2014 5:23AM

    It's wonderful to hear a small amount of hope in your writings now. It sounds like things are going to start moving in the right direction for you and some doors are beginning to open. Hang in there.
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MBPP50 10/11/2014 5:10AM

    I am praying that all your problems will go away and/or be solved. Hugs!

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NASFKAB 10/11/2014 2:20AM

  your buddy & husband are great hope the car can be fixed, be firm with your boss about what you can do all the best

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LINDA! 10/11/2014 12:14AM

    Your friend, and her husband, are so much more than words can express. I am so happy that they are helping you with the car.

Good luck with the work situation. I know it sucks!

Because, I also suffer depression (PTSD, anxiety....etc.) I won't say that you are going to feel better soon after all that has been happening. But I will say that you are in my thoughts.

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SKIRNIR 10/10/2014 11:55PM

    You really do have a good friend in the carpool buddy. I do hope her hubby manages to fix your car and you manage to get out a bit more than just to work and back.

When it comes to work, anyway to tell your boss that you can't do your current job and add more work?

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Is there still a point?

Saturday, October 04, 2014

I still don't know for sure what's happening with the car. My friend's husband wants to try to fix it. I hope he can, because Friday is Sacha's last day at our job.

Friday my boss asked me what I was working on. I told her I'd caught up all my daily assignments and offered to help clear some claim errors. She said no, then told me that the Big Boss has "singled you out as the person with too much time on your hands." So She doesn't want me doing a task but I don't have enough to do? I would give ten years off of my life to be able to retire but I just can't afford it.

Is it ever going to be better? I'm beginning to wonder.

  
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MRS_TOAD 10/13/2014 9:40AM

    emoticon Virtual hugs to you, dear friend.

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IMAVISION 10/10/2014 7:35PM

    Just wondering --- do you log the work & hours you spend on each task?

That might be a wise thing for you to have on record --- just in case there is a dispute about it along the way.

God bless you with a most peaceful & restful weekend!

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IMAVISION 10/10/2014 7:32PM

    Is there any reason that you cannot start looking for different employment?

That sounds like a very unhealthy place for you to be working.

Hang in there --- there has to be an answer!

God bless!


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LIS193 10/5/2014 5:22PM

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 10/5/2014 4:57PM

    *hugs* I hope things get better soon!

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JEANNETTE59 10/5/2014 4:02PM

  Your boss sounds Logically Challenged emoticon Is there any chance you can meet with the Big Boss? emoticon my emoticon

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MBPP50 10/5/2014 2:52PM

    Your boss sounds like an a**! Sorry for the language but my gosh.

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MONETRUBY 10/5/2014 2:48PM

    Hmmmm, your boss sounds like an interesting one. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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PATTYKLAVER 10/5/2014 2:04PM

    Still saying a prayer that you are able to find other employment.

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CHEFSOPHIE 10/5/2014 1:10PM

    I sure don't understand your boss's reasoning on that.

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PURPLESPEDCOW 10/5/2014 9:52AM

    Your boss makes no sense at all. It sounds like you are a hard worker, who puts work first in the workplace, and doesn't want to waste time. Maybe your work ethic is making hers look bad to the Big Boss and she is taking it out on you. emoticon

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LOSINGIT26104 10/5/2014 8:25AM

    Someone once told me "If there are too many obstacles in your path, maybe you're on the wrong path." There has to be a reason for all the struggles you're going through. Stay strong and continue to search for the answer. Sometimes just getting out of bed is hard but you have to do it and continue to live your life for the ones who love you and need you most.
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1CRAZYDOG 10/5/2014 7:14AM

    Prayers that your friend can get your car running. **SIGH**

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NASFKAB 10/5/2014 6:45AM

  hugs & prayers that your situation improves

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RASPBERRY56 10/5/2014 6:03AM

    Yikes - talk about a dysfunctional workplace! None of that makes any sense *at all*! I hope you get some sense of relief from that ASAP - in one way or another! You deserve *better* than that!

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 10/5/2014 5:16AM

    I hope your friend's husband can get your car up and running again. I don't know what to say about your boss. It must be very hard working for someone like her. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

HUGS
Pam

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FORZACHANDMATT 10/5/2014 1:04AM

    That sounds like a tough situation at work

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AJDOVER1 10/5/2014 12:07AM

    You're in my prayers.
I know the feeling. I'll never be able to retire....

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SARAHL817 10/4/2014 11:54PM

    Is it ever going to be better? Yes. But who knows when - it may not be for a while. The important thing is to keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep hoping that the day it gets better comes soon.
Maybe "too much time on your hands" means they want to give you more responsibilities and a salary raise (you can always hope ...)
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ICECUB 10/4/2014 11:50PM

    I AM SORRY FOR YOUR SITUATION. HOPE THINGS GET BETTER. IT IS POSSIBLE YOUR BOSS IS LYING.

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.DUSTY. 10/4/2014 11:20PM

    Because your boss has always in your posts come off as a Biatch, she could just be making up the part about, "The Big Boss has 'singled' you out as the person with too much time on your hands."

I'm sorry you're so trapped!

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A bit of hope?

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Ex went home from the hospital today with some very stern instructions from his doctor. Frank can't come home yet because Glenn has to recuperate. Frank is in no hurry, however -- all those nurses!

Today my carpool buddy and her husband came over. He's trained as a mechanic, and he checked out my ailing car (which I haven't been able to drive since January). He's going to ask a friend of his who's a professional mechanic to look at it, and there's a good possibility it might be able to be fixed without too much money. Of all the options I've looked at since carpool buddy told me she's leaving the job where we both work, this is far and away the best. I'll have some semblance of mobility again.

Trying to unwind right now.

  
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WORKOUTWITHPAM 9/30/2014 11:34PM

    I am praying that your vehicle can be repaired without it costing too much money so that you won't have to worry about getting to and from work. Let us know how this turns out.
HUGS
Pam

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MONETRUBY 9/28/2014 8:56PM

    That's wonderful! I hope and pray that it works out, so you have some wheels again.

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 9/28/2014 8:26PM

    That's great news!

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IMAVISION 9/28/2014 7:38PM

    I hope this is the answer to prayers for your situation, Mary.

You are blessed to have such caring friends.

God bless!

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JEANNETTE59 9/28/2014 7:25PM

  Thinking Positive emoticon thoughts and emoticon for you and yours!

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WINDSWEPTACRES 9/28/2014 5:39PM

    What a blessing it will be to have your own wheels up and running again. I'm praying that the problem will be inexpensive to fix, so you'll be able to get around this winter. emoticon

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PATTYKLAVER 9/28/2014 3:35PM

    I am definitely hoping with you! Does your area have a bus service where the bus comes to you and drops you back off?

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LIS193 9/28/2014 12:23PM

    Keeping fingers crossed all will work out for you!

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CHEFSOPHIE 9/28/2014 11:27AM

    Great news

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ICECUB 9/28/2014 10:59AM

    HOPE EVERYTHING WORKS OUT.

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MRS_TOAD 9/28/2014 9:37AM

    My fingers are crossed that your car can be revived!

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LOSINGIT26104 9/28/2014 9:26AM

    Yeah...some good news for you. You certainly deserve some good things in life right now.
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NILLAPEPSI 9/28/2014 8:37AM

    I've been praying for you. emoticon

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MBPP50 9/28/2014 6:28AM

    Glad to hear things are a little more hopeful for you. I'm still praying for you! emoticon

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AJDOVER1 9/28/2014 1:15AM

    You're in my prayers. I hope things work out mechanically for you. Good to hear Frank is enjoying himself, too.
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1CRAZYDOG 9/27/2014 11:10PM

    Sending good wishes that your car can be repaired!

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NASFKAB 9/27/2014 11:09PM

  great to know that your car might get fixed your buddy is special all the best

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