Sunday, September 07, 2014
Full disclosure: I've been drinking WAY too much wine since my sister died. The pain has been intense. Like today I'm working on a lace stole that's giving me fits. I had the thought that she'll never see the finished stole. For that matter, she'll never tell me about new grandchildren or anything else. Funny. today I had a mental image of her kicking me and saying "What the H*** are you doing???" (And trust me, she totally would.). I know she loved (loves) me and wouldn't want me to grieve. But I don't know how not to.
Speaking of wine, the other night I was watching Chopped After Hours online. The Chopped judges cook one of the competition baskets, then share a glass of wine while they taste each other's dishes. Once I tried watching the show while not drinking. This will sound weird, but I almost cried. I think the wine represented the camaraderie and friendship among them. I don't know if it was the wine I wanted, or to share in the friendship and the fun. But the wine was the only part of it I could have.
Right now Chopped is running its Leftovers episode. My deskmate and I once discussed leftovers. She told me she'll eat food the day it's cooked, then trash the rest. Am I the only one who thinks that's NUTS? Not only is it a horrible waste of resources (and insanely lazy -- repurposing leftovers is actually FUN), but a lot of foods taste better on the second or third day (stews, sauces, chilis). I frequently purposely cook big batches of these things and freeze the extras. She told me they're nasty and inedible. I didn't tell her, but I think she's the one who's messing herself over with this attitude. I personally think leftovers, depending on the handling, can be awesome.
Those of you pray, could I ask you to pray for Lynda and her family? Or if you don't, to keep a kind thought?