Wednesday, January 22, 2014
My mom's favorite color was yellow.
She loved yellow roses.
She looked beautiful in her yellow tops.
Her perseverance was inspirational and without fail, like the yellow of the sun.
She was my strongest supporter, my cheerleader, my "go to" when I didn't know what to do.
I will graduate with my Master of Nursing - Family Nurse Practitioner this May - May 16th to be exact.
This journey with school and my mom's illness and ultimate passing has been a long one, but I think the color yellow is a wonderful symbol of this journey.
A symbol of hope, of happiness, of perseverance , of inspiration. These words not only describe the color, but describe my mom and my journey. The sun rose today and will rise tomorrow - without fail. Despite the clouds, it is there.
I will wear yellow for graduation. In memory of mom.
Friday, January 17, 2014
I am down 10.5 pounds since restarting my healthy journey
I have been really focusing on healthy choices:
I have tracked everything I eat
I have tracked each workout
I have started practicing yoga
Tonight we went to California Pizza Kitchen to celebrate my sweet hubbies birthday. Prior to kickstarting my healthy journey, I would not have been paying attention to anything I ate today, I would not have gotten to the gym to work out, I would not have looked for healthy options on the menu, I would have had a beer (or 2) with dinner and eaten my whole dessert.
Instead, I chose the quinoa and arugula salad and added salmon, a cup of tortilla soup (that I ate 1/2 of) and I splurged on 1/4 of the butter cake with haagen daz ice cream. Instead of beer, I had ice water.
Tonight, I sat down and tracked everything....including the butter cake with ice cream. I am pleased that I met my goals for protein, carbs, and fiber. I went over for calories (by about 700 calories), fat (by about 60 gm) and sodium (which I tend to go over on anyway).
I am really pleased with today. I was careful with what I ate. I didn't overdo. I allowed myself to taste and enjoy (the cake was absolutely amazing), and I feel really good about my choices.
I feel accomplished.
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Wow. Almost a year since my last post, and what a journey it has been. The biggest and hardest time was the loss of my mom in April. She was 67 and died of complications related to her M.S. I miss her every day.
This blog is really just a mismash of thoughts. Everything really pales in comparison to that time for me. Suffice it to say that she was my sole focus during that time. I have had a long detour off the path of health and feel ready to refocus.
Last week Thursday I stepped on the scale for the first time in a long time. It was as I expected. Thankfully not as high as my first true foray into health and fitness. I felt the click in my mind as I put the puzzle pieces together.
I'm tired of waking up in the morning and being tired.
My body hurts all over
I get out of breath walking quickly for any distance - short or long
I have no energy
I am easily distracted
I hide from the camera
I don't feel good about myself
I feel like a hypocrite teaching healthy food options to my patients when I haven't been able to follow it myself.
Hmmm....looking back to my very first journal entry in June 2009 - before I found SPARK, I could have been rewriting that entry almost word for word. I have had success before. I know what it feels like when I am feeding my body for nutrition - every cell hums with energy. I know what it feels like to be fit and strong.
So, on Thursday, July 18th, I took a stand.
I went out and stocked my refrigerator with healthy choices. I started tracking my food intake and paying attention to the labels of the food I was purchasing and buying. I scoured pinterest for all of the recipies I have been pinning and not cooking.
I started acupuncture for the pain in my elbow, shoulder and lower back.
I made an appointment to see a therapist for my bee phobia.
I have made a healthy food choice each and every time I have eaten something.
I am starting my training walks this week for the M.S. 50 mile challenge walk in September.
I am ready to get back to life now, where I sit in the drivers seat as opposed to letting things happen. Everything we do involves a choice and a decision. We may not like the options, but we have to deal with the consequences of those decisions. In the end, why not choose the healthy path?
Sunday, September 30, 2012
You know how when you sit in the chair at home and your body just hums because it is ready to get moving? I was ready to get some exercise. I felt like I could run for a long time. I had this picture in my head of my feet flying with ease.
So, Keith and I went to the river for an afternoon run yesterday. Twice around is about 3.4 miles. I felt good starting out. I made it half way around and hit the wind tunnel on the other side. "I can do this" in my head. I turned my music up louder. I made it 3/4 way down the long path aaaaannnnd had to stop to walk.
This wasn't feeling like I had envisioned it would be. I walked the brief distance to the bridge and picked up the pace a bit. I got to the end of my first lap and paused for a quick drink at the bubbler. Still one more lap to go. I wasn't feeling it....grr I just ran a whole 5k a couple weekends ago. I should be able to do this. C'mon Laurie, get those feet moving.
I restarted my timer and moved on. I walked a couple more times on the 2nd lap. I started thinking about the 1/2 marathon I signed up for next September. I felt a moment of panic. If I can't run this whole way, how will I ever keep up with the 1/2?
Ok Laurie, let's think this through. First of all, there was a time when the thought of a 5k terrified me. There was a time when I couldn't even run 1/2 the length of the long path without having to stop. I have come a long way. I know that if it can be thought, it can be done. I have proven this to myself many times.
I have a plan. I just need to stick to it. There will be times when the run is easy and times like to today when it is difficult. In a few months, I will look back on this blog after a difficult run and realize just how far I have come.
That little voice in my head just keeps telling me it can be done. And, it will.
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