sick, sick and sick

Thursday, February 04, 2010

Well things have not been so well since we are back from Montreal. Ever since monday I have a sore throat, a headache and my ear hurts. I am also dizzy. It's the gagou that woke up in the night of saturday to sunday with a fever. She didn't go to school all week. Maybe tomorrow but we will see if the fever breaks. My mother is sick too so any chance I had of going outside is out the door. So no exercises of any kind. I am afraid of the scale on friday. I may skip it.
Eating has been hard to because there was a couple of stressful things this week. One of my daughter got a concotion ( not sure how you spell it) and other things to. So even tough I am pretty sure I didn't go overboard I know that I didn't stay under 1800.
I can't wait to get better. Things were going so well. I miss the pool and the skating.
Plus it is the winterlude in Ottawa on the Rideau Canal. I was hoping to go with the Gagou. Hopefully this week-end since sunday is Superbowl sunday and my lovey will be too occupied.

  

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JUSTYNA7 2/5/2010 1:17AM

The lovely thing about Spark people is it is like a diamond with many faces. You can't look at all the sides at once. Living healthy is about exercise... eating well... drinking lots... and rest. So many people find they don't lose weight because they are stressed, too tired, and trying too hard. This is not a diet. Today is an opportunity, Practice resting. Drink lots. You can still make good food choices like getting in three vegetables or eating a MUFA. Breath. Did you know that deep breathing is exercise? Try some stretches in bed. Watch a spark video and see if you can find one that you might like to try some day. Laugh if you can. Watch a good movie. Be with your family. You will be able to get back to the "other side" of spark people soon enough.

LJR4HEALTH 2/4/2010 7:31PM

Feel better take care of yourself

RAVEN2FEATHERS 2/4/2010 2:53PM

I agree don't beat yourself up it won't do anyone any good especially you. I'm sorry to hear that you're sick. Please take good care of yourself and heal up quickly. I wish you the best.

CASEYSSIS 2/4/2010 2:40PM

Don't beat yourself up if this week's results are what you wanted. When you're sick you should be taking care of yourself not stressing your body more by over working it. Just take care. Hope you feel better soon. Donna

-2.3

Friday, January 29, 2010

Yeah I lost 2.3 lbs this week. I am working hard and it shows.
Yesterday skating was really fun. It was a snow storm and the winds were high but the skating ring is protected by trees so the only rough part was walking to the ice rink.
This morning I went for my swimming laps again. The gagou is off from school and I ask my mom if she could come up to stay with her while I would go swimming. I am very happy.

It has been 19 days since I started and I have not gone over the 1800 calorires even once.
I am doing some kind of exercise, 90 minutes a day, 6 days a week.
My motivation is still very high and I know that this is what I need to do if I want to live.
I will be a healthy grand-mother.
Hugs to my inner child. I love you. You deserve to be happy and healthy.

  

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FRENCHTOSD 1/30/2010 1:20PM

Great job! Your consistency is paying off!

CHICAT63 1/29/2010 4:45PM

Way to go !!!! you're taking time for YOU !

bullying

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I am very proud of myself for keeping my food intake in track even tough I am going trough rough time right now: My 6 year old daughter wears glasses and there is a little boy in her class that is threatening to break her glasses. He makes gestures at her pretending to punch her in the face. We have spoken to her teacher and she says she will talk to the boy and she told my daughter to come and see her as soon as the bully does that again. It has been going on for a while, but my daughter was too afraid to come and tell anybody. The little boy told her that if she told on him, he would punch her in the face and break her glasses. Until friday night were she came and sat on my lap and started to cry while she proceed telling everything to her father and me. Our hearts was broken.
It is double stress for me because my fourth daughter was the victim of bullies for 3 years of her life. The lack of self esteem that came with the taunting lead her to drugs and that lead her to 2 suicide attempts. I was reliving all of that in my head. My lovey reassure me saying that things have changed now, 10 years have passed and now bullying is a recognized problem. You see, when my fourth daughter was being bullied when I had met with her teachers at the time, they all said the same thing: she should ignore it and she is partly responsible because she talks to them. One of the way they would taunt her was to call her stupid whenever she would raise her hand to ask a question in math class. The boy was sitting behind her and he would make sure to talk low enough for the teacher not to hear him. Thank God my daughter is a strong woman now but I know that one of the reason why she left school before going to university is that lack of self esteem and bad experience she lived in elementary school and in the beginning of high school.
As a parent you always wish that you can protect your kids from all harm.
I pray that this situation with my 6 year old ends and that we can move on.
So, I am reading the book over and over to understand that I am not suffering from real hunger, physical hunger but only from emotional hunger and eating food to calm emotional hunger doesn't help at all. I have been holding up great considering.
Writing this entry is helping me really see that it is emotional.
Now hopefully, today I can go skating again. Wouhou.

  

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CNTRYMUM2 1/27/2010 5:40PM

I totally agree with PATRICIA441. the bulling must come to a stop. My 6 year old has a couple of bullies in his class and they've come after him a couple of times. Both my husband and I have stepped in to help get it stopped. These bullies are lacking self-esteem themselves and the only way they know how to build it up is by going after the weaker children around them. If the teacher is unable to get it under control, then go to the principal and if need be the board. Don't stop until your child feels safe once more in her class/school. I'll prayer for her. Big Hugs Donna

PATRICIA441 1/27/2010 5:19PM

I cannot stress enough the importances of getting this bullying stopped immediately. If the teacher cannot handle it quickly and ended it now and forever then go to the principal then to the school board. NO children should have to put up with bullying. My heart goes out to you. Please keep me informed on how it is going. I will be praying for you and your family. Tender Hugs. Pat

EARTHSEAME 1/27/2010 12:09PM

I'm happy to hear that the teacher is helping. I hope that the boy's parents have been notified.

FRENCHTOSD 1/27/2010 9:46AM

I'm so sorry to hear of this problem for your little one. How terrible to have a boy so mean in her class. At least she told you and you can now work on the problem. Good luck.

-3.7

Friday, January 22, 2010

I lost 3.7 pounds this week. But I weigh myself after coming back from the pool. So it is possible that it won't be the same weight tomorrow morning.
My lovey took a day off today so I didn't want to go swimming at noon to do my laps. I was brave enough to wake up at 6h00 this morning to go to the pool. I am so proud of myself. I did 40 laps. I was completely exhausted but it is good because I really pushed to the limits. I had pecans and a small glass of chocolate milk before I went. The first few ones were really hard but at around 25, I started to feel much better. I guess my body was warmed up.
I really wish I could always go early like that in the morning. It is such a different energy. Only lap swimmers and there was one of the woman that had a particuliar way of swimming. Her foot would hit the water at a rythm. It was very inspiring. I could glance over at the swimmers in the fast lane and they are so beautiful to watch. They do maybe 7 movements and they are done with their lap. Dolphins.
So today, I am taking a long walk with my lovey and we are trying another restaurant in Buckingham.
Tomorrow and sunday, if the weather permits I am going skating with the Gagou.
Have a beautiful week-end.

  

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LBP1961 1/25/2010 3:43PM

I wish I could train every day at 6h00 but the gagou is still sleeping at that time and my mother never wakes up early. In a few years, I will be able to go. Patience.

CHICAT63 1/22/2010 11:17AM

you're a born swimmer !!! I am totally a morning person & have been training at 06:00 for years. Have a great day and weekend.

FERRETLOVER1 1/22/2010 8:57AM

Good for you doing those laps - I love to swim, but I hate doing laps. I prefer to do water aerobics. They are fun, have you ever tried them? Sounds like you have a lovely day planned - enjoy!

I need to eat more I think

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

So I have been trying to stay under the 1500 since I started. Last night I woke up at 2h00. I was absolutely starving. I try to convince myself that other people in the world were starving to and that I could endure a little hunger. But I stayed awake for 2 hours until I decided to take a bowl of cereals ( optimum blueberries and flax), 240 calories with milk. After that , I fell asleep easely. I think that the problem is that I am burning close to 750 calories each day and combined with 1500 limit, it is not good. For 10 days now I have been dizzy when I get up too fast and I thought that it would go away after a few days, but here we are 10 days later and it still happens. I will up my calories to 1800 and see what happens.
Still reading Losing your pounds of pain from Doreen Virtue and still crying and figuring out lots of stuff. Today my mother bought nachos with cheese, she ate it by herself and then called the Gagou to have the rest. It made me realized that I didn't want to be like that anymore. I didn't want to eat alone, to keep everything for myself. Also, it made me realize that I don't want to be like that for my medications. My mother takes medications to control her sugar and to control her blood pressure. She did change her ways in the beginning when she was just diagnosed but now she has fallen back into her old routines. She is not losing weight anymore. I am not judging her, I just want to be healed and over that destructive behavior. I do not want to still be killing myself with food when I am 72 years old.
That is why the book is helping so much.
Today, I am hugging my inner child with big kisses on both her cheeks.
I hope you do the same.

  

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DOLLMAKER4HIM 1/20/2010 8:25PM

You say you are having problems with being dizzy...That's often a sign of low blood sugar; you might want to not only increase your total calories, but also look at how they are spaced out through the day... Just a Thought.....

PENNY321 1/20/2010 7:01PM

I think you do need to eat a little more. I've read that women should always consume 1200 calories and if you are burning 750 you are way below that unless you are eating the calories back. I agree that the 1800 a day should keep you on track. I admire you for being able to do so much consistent exercise. Take care of yourself! I also like your positive attitude.

EKKING 1/20/2010 6:33PM

How much are you exercising to burn 750 calories per day? I'm running around 1200 calories per day and burning off about 250-350 in exercise (lack of time and stamina). I'm never dizzy and never wake hungry. It actually seems like a nice balance. So either you need to up your food if you are going to continue the exercise, or cut back a little on the exercise if you want to keep your food down. Sounds like you have it figured out anyways! Good luck!

RUNKITTY 1/20/2010 5:45PM

Your blog choked me up a bit. I like the way you are being kind to yourself. Keep it up! I have the same problem trying to figure out how many calories to consume while I am working out so much. I can tell you that to lose 2#/week it is recommended you eat 1600 cal/day and burn 500cal/day. So you are way under in your caloric intake. I think your 1800 cal plan is a good one (especially since I'm trying the same thing!) Good luck on your journey.