Wednesday, September 05, 2012
It took me a few days and a whole morning of pity party but now I am over it and can move on.
Over the weekend I had a comment made about me that I let hurt me. I say let because normally I am pretty quick to just admit a jerk is a jerk and not let things get to me.
I am a very outgoing person, I love to talk. For me working all day in silence is pure torture and I really can't make myself do it.
I started a new job and was working with the owner for about 4 hours. I mentioned a few things that I like about this new job over things I didn't like at previous jobs.
Apparently me mentioning my previous employer was too much for my ex-navy boss to handle. So he promptly ran to his mommy so SHE could tell me to ...Basically...Shut up and work. REALLY DUDE you are ex-navy and you couldn't come to me and tell me you don't like to talk!
Anyway, I was told they have all these hours for me to work on Monday and Tuesday but when I called Monday morning to find out what time he wanted me there he told me he could handle it and not to bother coming in......SO you don't like ME because I talk to much and then you made me look like an ass when I had to scramble Sunday to figure out my kids schedule so that I could work, only to turn around and tell these people who may have had to reorganize THEIR schedules to pick my kids up from practice. THANKS, your awesome! NOT.
Ok So why can't these grown people say "I don't really talk that much" Or "I don't think it will work out" instead of being a chicken. I try to be really honest with everyone about how I feel and I guess that makes me the weird one.
I will have to work with guy on Thursday...NO sound from the two TV's that are on...NO sound of music in the background.....NO talking either.....NO headphones....So utter silence except the clank of bottles on the shelf as I stock the entire Liquor store by myself...While he sits not 10 feet away staring at a computer! Ugh.
This liquor store is all of 1000 square feet. How am I suppose to work like this. With this feeling of dread and the feelings that this guy just can't stand me.
I am not someone who cares whether others like me or not, I try really hard to just be me, but this whole thing really urked me...I think more because he didn't just come out and say something to my face.
There are only three people who work there, the owner guy, his mom, and me. So when those two go into the office for 15minutes and I felt like they were talking crap about me....I tried to convince myself I was simply paranoid...but HEY I wasn't! They really were talking crap about me.
How am I suppose to deal with this while working with these people? I will tell you how!
I am going into work tomorrow and I am not even going to open my mouth to say "Hi". The silent treatment has always been my favorite go to punishment for ticking me off......How much do you wanna bet he asks me whats wrong!!!
The true question is...Do I let him have it? Or do I just ignore that fact that he is even talking? The beauty of it all is HE asked me to work there I didn't go in their looking for a job. I don't really need the job because I do daycare a few days a week......