...bouncing a few times...and landing mouth first into a land of bad food choices.
Oh how I've fallen off the horse since last October. Went through a break up. Gave in to holiday temptations. Stopped going to the gym. Met a guy I've fallen completely head over heels for. Spent a week in the hospital with him after he had a minor heartattack at 28 years old. Roommate drama up the wazoo.
I've been busy. And eating my cares away. I've begun to reel my eating back in though. And it seems Winter is finally letting go of Chicago. I gained 45 pounds over the winter. I'm not proud of that. I feel slightly shameful.
I don't feel shameful for eating everything I have. I feel shameful in not keeping things in moderation. And the stopping of exercise.
After some soul searching I've come to realize that I love food. I'm always going to love food. And I'm the typical Southerner girl who likes the typical bad Southerner food. Moderation and exercise are key. With the weather warming back up I am going to start walking or biking in the mornings and when I get home from work I am going to jog.
I'm never going to have the body I want. I've come to accept this. I'll always have flabby skin, I'll probably have fat where I don't want it no matter how much I try and work it off. My goal isn't to be skinny. It's to be mostly healthy, and to just enjoy life.
It's time I climb back up onto the horse though and lose this weight I've gained back. I have four weeks until my boyfriend's sister graduates college. And we're going down to Alabama for it. Four weeks until I meet a whole bunch of his family. My goal in the next four weeks is to at least get rid of my water weight.
211.6 is where I was sitting last night. I was expecting worse since I went crazy for about a week. So in total in August I lost 3 pounds of what I gained in July. Blerg. My own fault.
There is a lot coming up though. Next weekend I might get to see a friend I haven't seen in three and a half years. Halloween I'll be performing. Thanksgiving I'm going to visit my sister. I really want to be noticeably smaller than when I last saw her, at her wedding.
Still seeing the same guy. We're taking it slow. We actually sat down and had a talk about things last Tuesday. It started off with me getting the dreaded "friends" talk but we talked about a few things and he quickly retracted the statement. It's kind of touch and go.
He's trying to lose weight too and does a lot of weight lifting. We were talking about goals and how we want to lose more weight and yadda yadda... so today I came up with the idea of a competition. On Sunday we are going to weigh in and in one month we'll see who loses the most body weight percentage. Not pounds. I'm not going into a pounds competition with a guy. I know I'll lose. So we'll go with percentage. So we're going to come up with a wager and whoever wins, .. gets the wager. We're not sure what it is yet.
I think if I have a competition like that, with a competitive person, I'll actually bust it out and make a dent in this weight again. I was supposed to babysit late tonight but it fell through. So off to the gym I'll go again. Might Zumba tonight.
I took a two hour Can-Can workshop today. I CAN DO THE CANCAN. And it pains the legs, oh man. But it was SO MUCH FUN. I'm very amused that I can do basic CanCan steps now. And feel the overwhelming urge to watch The Moulin Rouge tonight.
I have regular dance class tonight too. Excited about that. Going out to dinner with my dance girls here in about half an hour before class. Planning on having hummus and pita. This place has my faaavorite cajun fries. But I have cheated a few days already and need to reel it back in. So no fries for me today.
In October I'm going to be doing a dance for the Halloween Hafla. Me and my girls are going to choreograph it ourselves. So if I am going to be performing in front of people, I need to drop a few pounds.
Goal by THE END OF THE YEAR, 175.
In other news. Jergens Skin Firming. Use it if you have skin issues. I've been using it about a week and MAN I can tell a difference in just the elastically of my skin. It's great! I put it on the slightly loose skin I have by my jaw and notice a difference. And hell, I've been putting it on my breasts and can tell a difference there too. Yes!
I got ran around like crazy yesterday. The kids I watch, their cousins are in town. So the grandma and aunt wanted to take them all to a water park. I ran around chasing kids for six hours in water. Needless to say I did not go to the gym yesterday. I ate well too.
Today I've eaten well so far and plan on going to gym tonight after work. Probably wont do any classes. I'll do strength training and cardio. I've been focusing on my thighs mostly. And arms. I know I need to work on abs but I really want to see progress in my thighs.
I was 209.6 this morning. 5lbs in a week and a half. I'm happy with this. Only 9.6 left and I'll be at where I was before July.
Then I can hopefully go down down down from there. I'm going to try and be at 180 for Thanksgiving. I'm going to road trip to Denver with my dog to visit my sister and husband. I'd certainly like to be slimmed down more by then.
Especially since it was November last year when I started to lose motivation. I want to be smaller this T-Day than last year.
Did really great this week! Went to gym 3/4 days I had available to it. Did a zumba class. Did well with my eating. I can tell a difference in my body already. Dropped 4lbs out of the 14 I've gained too.
Last night went into the city to see a live production of Rocky Horror. Scored a free ticket since the guy I'm seeing, his roommate was doing sound for the production. So we went and did that. Ate at Schubas and I had to get their cajun tator tots. They are to die for. TO DIE. And I go there so little... so that's all I got. After the show we went to a bar to hang out for a bit and I had two beers and then he ordered these AMAZING FRIES. I'm a total potato girl. I had to partake.
I don't feel bad about blowing yesterday. Hell, I'll probably do better having a blow off day a week. So it's all good. I don't have my second job all week so I can make it to the gym earlier and make some classes. I'm excited about it. Zumba three times this week? YES.
I also discovered that the gym has a specific strength training machine that targets your obliques. I use my obliques a lot in belly dancing. So finding this machine is like it was sent down from Heaven. I'm going to build those suckers up.
Speaking of, off to dance in a little bit and then going to store to get weekly groceries. I'm sticking mainly vegetarian these days, but good lord I want a steak. So I'm going to get a tiny steak to make tonight and some veggies. Not sure what I'm going to do for the rest of the week.