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Fire at the High School

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Just for those who heard about the fire in Frazier Park near the I 5 freeway. This is our local high school and how close the fire came to the football field. It is a scary picture, like a high school in hell! Yikes.

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LIVINMYDREAMS 5/17/2013 11:56AM

    At least every few years.

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FITKRIS 5/17/2013 11:20AM

    Can't even imagine being close to this! Scary!! And you have fires like this every year?

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LIVINMYDREAMS 5/16/2013 3:56PM

    They did evacuate the kids right away and they are still not in school today.

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LIVERIGHTNOW 5/16/2013 3:44PM

    That is a terrifying picture!!!!!! They must have gotten the kids out of there!!!!!

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WOUBBIE 5/16/2013 3:40PM

    And double yikes!!

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LJBKENT 5/16/2013 2:39PM

    Whoa - way scary. Hope that no one was hurt.

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RONNIEHUEY 5/16/2013 2:38PM


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Here's my Poem

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

So since it is Poem in your Pocket day here's my poem that I will share again...

Looking for love, acceptance and grace
Even though raised in a very loving place.
Fearful of rejection and trying so hard
To become someone who would not be barred.

Changing thoughts to make a new me
That came through epiphany.
Almost able to say good riddance
From someone ugly, from someone hidden
To someone beautiful, to someone free

Who is not afraid to be
The lovely women for all to see
Moving into creativity
To someone living and abiding
Into a place of trust and no backsliding
Transformed by love, acceptance and grace
Living in that wonderful place.

Having changed the clothes of disgust
Into them no longer stuffed
But becoming the real me
Almost there but not quite free

The little girl that is no longer quite so afraid
Of rejection or needing to evade
The propinquities that appear
Able to dance to the music I hear
A new rhythm, a new beat
Swaying and moving with my dancing feet
Still in process but coming along
Finding and singing my lifesong

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DRUIDPRINCESS 4/18/2013 5:53PM

    What a beautiful poem! Congratulations on your insight and your magical talent of putting your learnings into such wonderful words.
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WOUBBIE 4/17/2013 11:32PM

    You have come a long way, woman! Brava!

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    Absolutely love this - please, keep writing (and sharing)! So glad to see you are feeling more comfortable in your own skin - and seeing beauty in who you are.


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VLINDER2014 4/17/2013 10:20PM

    Love it.. I love to write poems also. this is Beautiful .

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What A Ride!

Friday, January 25, 2013

Today, I had my third breast surgery. This should be the last of the surgeries.

In December I had a routine mammogram which showed a lump that could not be felt. I was told that I needed to come in for a more specific mammo. I ended up also having an ultrasound and fine needle biopsy at that time. It was sent for pathology which at that time showed atypical papillary proliferation. Excision was recommended. We are very fortunate to have a great cancer center at the hospital where I work and a great team of doctors. I went to the surgeon and was scheduled for an excision of the mass. The pathology of this was infiltrating ductal papillary cancer. I was quickly scheduled for another surgery to double check that all of the cancer was removed and to check my axillary lymph nodes for any spread of cancer.

The day before my surgery the elders, pastors and leaders in my church fasted and met to pray over me that night. That surgery was a bigger surgery and sort of wiped me out but I did return to work quickly. The pathology came back as not infiltrating(invasive) but insitu(all contained in one spot). I still do not have a satisfactory answer of why it changed from invasive to insitu. I am convinced God answered our prayers. The lymph nodes were/are clear and it appears that he got all of the cancer out. I had surgery today because the margins were not clear enough for his satisfaction, meaning not enough "clearance" between the cancer and the edge of the tissue specimen that he removed the last time. That came from further pathology results. He believes that today should be the last.

This past week I saw the medical oncologist. He was very pleased with my situation . It is pretty much best case scenario for someone diagnosed with breast cancer. It is Stage 1. And I am basically "cured." I will need radiation to destroy any abnormal cells that could possibly turn into cancer and one pill a day for 5 years. This is all preventative treatment to keep the cancer from returning. They did send my specimen out to do one more test that would indicate a need for chemo but it is really not expected to be needed.

So through all of this God has flooded me with peace and an awesome sense of His love. I know that He did not cause me to have breast cancer but for some reason it has been allowed and I want everyone who comes in contact with me in this journey to know that God is with me and I want to make sure that He is honored. I have already had many opportunities to share my confidence and trust in Him with others.

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KINEPS 1/26/2013 10:58AM

    Faith - God works in mysterious ways! Glad to know you received His blessings!


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WOUBBIE 1/26/2013 10:55AM

    You've been so strong through this! It's a tribute to your faith and trust.

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VICKI-BISHOP56 1/26/2013 9:09AM

  So glad to hear you're going to be alright. emoticon

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MEME102 1/26/2013 7:04AM

    Prayers and blessings go out for you!! Thinking about you!!!

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EXPOGIRL50 1/25/2013 7:17PM

    Your faith is beautiful and inspirational. Prayers for your health.

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One more thing

Tuesday, January 08, 2013

I realized the other day that music is taking the place of food in my life. I realized that instead of wanting to snack on the weekend, I was playing with my music. In other words I was making playlists in the computer and putting them on my ipod. Also buying music. I have to watch that one because it can add up fast but it is a great thing to replace food.

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WOUBBIE 1/8/2013 7:18PM

    Awesome! A playlist lasts a whole lot longer than a donut too!

By the way I just ADORE your background. White roses make me happy!

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EWL978 1/8/2013 4:54PM

    Busy hands are happy hands....I know I do the matter what is more pressing, I sit at the computer and say "one more more". emoticon

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Tuesday, January 08, 2013

Wow, what a weekend I had. I have not been to the movies at the mall in years and it has been many more years since being there without a walker, cane or pain and shortness of breath.

Well this past Saturday I went to see Les Miserables with some friends. I was a bit concerned if I could keep up with them. Not only did I keep up but I actually outdid one of them. I cannot believe it! I walked from the parking structure all of the way into the theater up to our seats without having to stop and catch my breath or due to pain. Thank you God, and Dr Kayvanfar, and Russ, the best PT guy in the world, and my teams here on SP for the constant encouragement and motivation. And I think it is ok to even pat myself on the back for the hard work and consistency of staying on plan for more than a year now and actually getting the pounds, 76 of them off.

A couple of other things that I wanted to mention about advantages of losing weight or at least consequences ... I had bought a pair of shoes in October last year at the Sketchers outlet store. I need sort of sturdy ones that will help me with my walking. So the pair that I wanted and bought was an 8 1/2 wide and I have been wearing a 9 wide for about 2 years. They were getting really worn out. The first day I wore the 8 1/2s to work, I came home with my toes hurting and cramping so bad and I realized they were just too tight. I thought about getting them stretched out or trying to take them back. But as usual just procrastinated and set them on the shelf. In December Russ, my PT guy, said "Faith, you need to get some new shoes." So I pulled them off the shelf and guess what? Yep, I wore them with no problem. No extra room since I also have to fit and orthotic in them but no problem and I have been wearing them ever since. So in two months time, I lost fat in my feet enough to wear my new shoes.

I also have a ring that my husband bought me that I love. It is silver with blue fire opal and looks like a crown with CZ stones in the crown. Did I mention I really love this ring. Well it has been getting looser and looser(is that a word?) and I actually almost lost it drying my hands one day. So I moved it to my middle finger. So feet and hands have lost weight as well as everything else. Yay!

I am finding that my pattern of weight loss is get down to my lowest, then gain 2 or 3 pounds then get down to lower becoming my lowest then back up. So my journey is frustrating but I keep on keeping on and will eventually some day in a few years make it to my goal of about 130 or 140. Heck I would probably even be happy at 150. We will see what my body wants to be.

Till next time...
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WOUBBIE 1/8/2013 9:55PM

    I love to see the milestones you're reaching!

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MRLDCTYGRL 1/8/2013 5:22PM

    You really ARE doing wonderfully! Hang in there! I'm another one who seems to "bounce around" on the same three to five pounds for awhile before they finally get gone and usuallly take a friend or two with them!

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VICKI-BISHOP56 1/8/2013 2:47PM

  Sounds like you're doing great!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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