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Trying to get my food mojo back

Friday, March 28, 2014

I've been struggling as of late with my healthy food journey. Too many "special occasions" have occurred in my life lately which have resulted in me making less than healthy food choices. A weekend away, a couple celebrations at work, ughh, I am so over celebrations at work.

Indulging too much for these "occasions" is making it hard to get back to my happy relationship with the foods I eat. So as of today, I vow to track ALL of the food I eat , not just the healthy choices that make my food diary look like I'm spot on.

I have a love/hate relationship with the foods I eat. And I am struggling to get back to the love part of that equation. But I will continue this battle until I'm back in my comfort zone with my food.

Fortunately for me, my relationship with exercise is still going strong. I believe that has saved me from throwing in the towel completely on the food front. emoticon

I will just take my progress day by day for now and even hour by hour or moment by moment until I'm back in my happy place with my food choices.


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CAN_DO73 3/28/2014 4:17PM

    I keep reminding myself that life is managed, not cured. So even when you have it down pat, it can slip away and then you just have to go back and get it all over again! You should be proud of yourself for doing well with exercising and being aware to know it's time to tackle the ole calories :) Good for you!! You definitely can do this.

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_BABE_ 3/28/2014 3:25PM

    Those special occasions don't quit! I admire people who ignore them...think Oprah not drinking champagne when you are nominated for an emmy!


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GAILANN48 3/28/2014 2:18PM

    Yes, you can do it! You've proven that to yourself, so it's just a matter of doing what you already know how to do.

Can you hear me cheering for you? emoticon
:) Gail

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BIGPAWSUP 3/28/2014 12:58PM

    You and me both-let's do this together!

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LESLEE33 3/28/2014 12:57PM

    emoticon Food is one of the toughest things to get "spot on" . It's tied up in everything we do. You have the right attitude, so I'm sure you'll do great.

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Just need to vent...

Tuesday, February 04, 2014

I just received a call from my sis who came home from the hospital Friday night. I spoke to her that night & Saturday. Today's call was to see if I was mad at her because I hadn't been over to see her since she came home.

Let me preface this by saying I went to her home every day she was in hospital at 4:45am to give her dog medicine and again after I worked all day to feed the dog and give more medicine. Let me also say that her home is not a pleasant place to be. Think hoarders but worse in a bad way.

I feel like no matter what my hubby and I do for her it's never enough.

I love my sister but feel smothered by her. She has few friends and counts on me (us) for way too much.i feel guilty if I don't include her in most everything that we do, but I feel resentful that I have to include her in everything we do. Does that make any sense at all?

I just don't know how to deal with this situation and am at my wits end.

Thanks for listening and letting me vent.

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BIGPAWSUP 2/5/2014 10:29AM

    No advice, just want you to know I'm here for you!

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IMAVISION 2/5/2014 3:43AM

    May I say that I feel your frustration --- most recently I have experienced what you talked about with a couple of "friends". I finally had to cut ties with those "friends" --- their unreasonable demands on my energy & time were just too draining.

You were very thoughtful during your sister's hospital stay (with the care you gave to her dog) & with your telephone calls on Friday & Saturday. You would be perfectly within your rights to say that now that she is home & the demands on your time have been lessened, you are giving thought to catching up with your own needs (& the needs of your husband). Sometimes one has to point out such things in no uncertain words --- often repeating them until the other person knows that you mean business. You would actually be telling her that you have a life of your own that demands your attention.

We have to decide which we would rather live with --- any fall out from telling others that we are only willing to give so much or the frustration associated with being unfairly at the beck & call of others. It is a choice to make --- just like everything we do (or don't do) stems from a choice made. Forgive me for saying this so bluntly; however, at present you are giving the control over how you spend the minutes of your life over to your sister. Even if you don't give in to all her damands, you are still giving that control to her each moment you are allowing yourself to be eaten up by guilt for not doing as she demands.

Please put your husband's & your needs first --- after God, our husbands should come first.

SMD's sage words, "She is draining your energy, taking advantage of your love and driving a wedge between you and your husband. And it plays on your guilt, that if you live your own life you are somehow neglecting yours. So, what are you going to do?", hit the proverbial "nail on the head"!

May the good Lord bless you with His wisdom to know what is best for you to do!


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STEVEN_D 2/4/2014 11:20PM

    Yes, but you have lost 60 pounds. 60 pounds do you know how awesome that is? Family is family and sometimes you can never do enough. She is draining your energy, taking advantage of your love and driving a wedge between you and your husband. And it plays on your guilt, that if you live your own life you are somehow neglecting yours. So, what are you going to do?

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LIZZIE138 2/4/2014 9:12PM

    Suzzq4life, I have thought of going to a counselor to get a better idea of what to do here. You are right, it has already effected my relationship with my hubby. He has tried to be supportive of the situation but his patience is about all gone.

Grammies, thanks for the "good sister "cup. Not so sure I deserve it at this time though.

Babe, thanks for just being there. I know your sis has helped you a lot. I try to do what I can but
I'm just about empty.

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SUZZQ4LIFE 2/4/2014 9:02PM

    I am so sorry to hear of your difficult relationship with your sister. I understand how you can feel both guilty & resentful of having to include her in what you do. Maybe you could talk to a pastor or counselor about how you feel. They might have some advice for you. Eventually, it might effect your relationship with your husband. emoticon

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GRAMMIEOFTWO 2/4/2014 9:01PM

  emoticon This is for being such a good sister, in spite of the situation.

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Still stressing...but trying to stay on track

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Sister in hospital for an infection. Running back & forth between her house to take care of her dog, visiting her @ hospital, working full time and trying to manage my own home. I've been negligent in logging my food choices but have faithfully continued my exercise program. I will make more of an effort to log my food.

Usually when she gets ill and lands in the hospital, I throw all my efforts out the window & just live on fast food & no exercise. So this time is different. I am maintaining my sanity through exercise and although I have not been logging my food choices, they have been healthy choices which for me is a miracle!

Hopefully she will be released in the next few days so I can go back to focusing on me. Sounds selfish, I know, but if I don't take care of me, who will???

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GAILANN48 1/31/2014 5:42PM

    emoticon emoticon to take care of yourself during this stressful time. Sounds as if you've made great strides in that direction! The rest will come...and NO, you're not being selfish, you're being sensible. Remember that on planes we're told to put the oxygen masks on ourselves before putting them on the children next to us. If we don't take care of ourselves, we can't help anyone else.

Hang in there, you're doing great!

:) Gail

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_BABE_ 1/31/2014 4:15PM

    Take care of yourself!

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BIGPAWSUP 1/30/2014 3:44PM

    You are doing wonderful. Just breathe and keep moving through this difficult time.

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ISLENAA 1/30/2014 8:43AM

    not's call self-love and that goes a long way for everyone concerned...and i think you're doing great!!! if you're worried about logging your might want to carry a little note pad and jot your food down. you can always track later. i hope your sister gets better soon. emoticon

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SUZIEQ1097 1/30/2014 7:31AM

    I hope she gets out of the hospital soon.


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LOVELESMILLS 1/30/2014 6:36AM

  Remember to breathe!

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January 18th... Stressful time...

Saturday, January 18, 2014

I have been dealing with my sister who is extremely obese and has several serious health problems. She had a simple cataract surgery this Wednesday which went well, but a few days before she had pulled a muscle in her lower back and laying on the cart for the surgery aggravated the back horribly. She has great difficulty moving (walking, getting up from sitting)
on a regular basis and the back problem made it almost impossible for her to move at all.
I got her to the urgent care Friday and they were able to prescribe medicine which helped her back greatly, for which I am very grateful.

I realized while dealing with this that her situation is extremely stressful to me and when I get stressed with her, I want to eat. While I didn't go on any huge junk food binge, I did eat way more than I normally would in a day.
I did still get my exercise in which made me feel a little better about the situation but this is an ongoing problem. She has frequent major medical problems and I am the only one left in our family to help her. There are other complications that I won't go into here but I don't see an end in sight for the situation.

I've been thinking of talking to someone to help me deal with my feelings. I have to do something or my resentment will grow to the point where I just won't be able to deal with it anymore.

I know some of this must sound cryptic to you but I needed to get some of this out of my mind. Thanks for listening... And understanding.

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GAILANN48 1/19/2014 11:42AM

    You're in a situation you didn't ask for, and you're trying to be a responsible family member. I agree that it sounds like you may need some assistance, either from a counselor for yourself, or perhaps a support organization in the community for your sister. What about your local church? Or what about asking at the hospital for groups willing to help. For example, might your sister's insurance pay for in home assistance, even on a visiting nurse basis? The help is there, I'm sure. It's just a matter of finding out what the possibilities are and then choosing. Hang in there, my friend. Hang in there.

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DOLLYHOLLY 1/19/2014 7:52AM

    It's hard being a caretaker, especially for someone we really care/love.


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_BABE_ 1/19/2014 2:39AM

    You are a good person to help your sister. If you are all she has then I am sure she is grateful. I just got through my foot surgery because of my sister and I owe her so much.

Of course the situation is far more complex than one realizes and I hope you get through it okay. Not helping her wouldn't make you feel much better so you need to find some balance.

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New Years musings, a tad late

Friday, January 03, 2014

I feel great about this new year. Through portion control emoticon , exercise emoticon and a measure of self control I'm starting 2014 with 61 pounds less of me. YAAAH me! emoticon

I have to thank my SP friends for the support I've received. The motivational stories and pictures have helped to keep me going in the right direction. And some of my SP friends have no idea of the ways they have motivated me along the way.

I hope I can be as helpful to some of you as you are to me. I am making an effort to visit and post on the site more often. When and if I every figure out how to post pictures, I will do so. If anybody can give me a tutorial, I would be forever grateful. emoticon

Sometimes this journey is difficult. I get tempted to fall off the wagon in a big way. Then I think back to last year before I joined SP remembering how miserable I was and how much I disliked what I saw in the mirror. It's then I realize that I never want to go back to that place. While I may have temporary setbacks (like we all do), I know that I will get back on track quickly.

I guess I've babbled enough for one night.

Know I love SP and my friends here and I wish all of you the very best 2014 has to offer.


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DYNAMICDEB53 1/4/2014 3:20PM

    WTG on your weight loss for 2013 and for never giving up on yourself and your goals. You are right there are hard times on this journey, but I think that it is great to have friends who are going through the same right here to encourage you along the way.
Keep up the great job and making it to a new year with new possibilities.

Hugs and smiles

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GAILANN48 1/4/2014 11:25AM

    Yes, HOORAY for you! You've persevered and found your way...and I agree that being willing to make course corrections is the "secret."

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_BABE_ 1/4/2014 2:13AM

    Congrats on your good year. Hope the best for 2014!

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MAGGIEVAN 1/3/2014 11:22PM

    Thank you for the good wishes. The same for you too. I personally hate the expression of falling off the wagon as it is giving me permission to say it happened too me instead of acknowledging that I was all the time in contol.

I prefer the term "course correction" as quoted from Brian Tracey : "The purpose and role of the pilot and the avionics is to continually bring the plane back on course so that it arrives on schedule at its destination.

In life, you are the pilot of your own craft. To reach your destination of health, happiness, prosperity and a good life, you must do as a pilot does. You must first of all determine your destination. This requires clear, specific goals, written down, with plans to accomplish them for each day."

Don't you agree with me that the above is a more positive way of looking at life? I am not here to criticise...but to challenge and to dare...

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