Monday, April 07, 2014
I'm still crazy busy, so I'm sorry I'm not around as much to check in on all of you!! Thank you so much for your comments & support; I know I haven't returned the favor much lately.
Still working on my mindfulness of what works for me right now.
I DID go shopping on Sunday, and instead of getting all excited about all the fresh veggies I would love to prep and cook and feel all healthy about (which would end up rotting in my fridge!) I got practical:
1) turkey breast, roasted for sammiches (done!)
2) "grab and go" fruits and veggies - already washed & cut up carrots and celery, mini peppers (which I will wash for each day so they don't get moldy from being damp), and easy to grab, no-prep fruits - apples, oranges, bananas.
3) extra healthy but can be pre-prepped - pre washed & cut kale + one of my favorite dressings I already had made in the fridge.
So check me out!
That's 5 servings of kale salad + 3 days of carrots & celery. The turkey was in the oven; once done I let it cool then made my sandwiches.
This week will be busy but I feel super prepared. Each night I will make my sandwiches (lunch & dinner, as I'll be running right from work to the theater!) and wash any additional produce if needed.
This morning I packed 2 big bottles of water, an empty bottle & some cold brew iced tea bags, 2 sandwiches, kale salad, my salad bar salad I forgot to eat for dinner last night, an apple, two mini oranges, a banana, a container each of carrots & celery, and a container of mini peppers. Lunch, dinner, snacks!
I had time to make my blended protein shake this morning, but for mornings I don't I don't mind the powder plain in water, which is quick, or I can do that + a half PBJ made the night before.
I'll let you know how the week goes with this new plan!
Ignoring the scale right now; I need to get my habits under control before that has any chance of changing, and I know I'll just fall into destructive thought patterns if I let myself.
Saturday is my birthday, so there will probably be some overeating there (I'm throwing a tamale-making party, haha) but all the snacks will be fresh veggies - munchy ones + more kale salad, so it shouldn't be too terrible.
This week is all food focus. Next week I have fewer work travel days (work travel day = have to leave my house ~6:30am, so that means no AM gym) so next week I will focus on adding some early morning gym days to that. Baby steps!
I hope you all have a lovely week.
Friday, April 04, 2014
I seem to be in a cycle... 9-10 days on, 9-10 days off.
I woke up this morning with mysterious motivation. Packed my lunch and had a healthy breakfast instead of grabbing "whatever."
As I was doing that I was thinking about recent events. I remember not too long about posting about how I was back, and reminding myself that tracking really doesn't take all THAT long. So why haven't I been tracking?
To be honest I was asking myself why I keep not tracking when I know it doesn't take that long. "I just don't get it!" But I do get it. Almost immediately I thought of the answer.
It's not that I don't have time to track. I don't have time to buy and prepare the kind of food I feel like I "have to" have to fit in my calorie range.
Not that eating above my range and not knowing about it is any better! But going back to last December, when I magically lost 10lbs, I was cooking from scratch a lot, tons of fresh veggies, and measuring everything super carefully. I do not have that kind of time right now, but that doesn't mean I can't track and watch my calories.
So this Sunday is dedicated to planning and shopping. Not to batch cooking tons of amazing from scratch food, but to getting some stuff that works for my hectic life right now.
Namely, turkey sandwiches.
I visited my family over last weekend, which was awesome. I ate a TON - you don't even want to know - but one night we had roast turkey breast. It was awesome, like mini thanksgiving. And my mom said "yeah, your dad makes a turkey breast every Sunday." He's started doing that because it's cheaper and tastier than deli lunchmeat, and taking turkey sandwiches to work every day instead of going out to lunch. Just doing that he's lost four pounds. GO DAD!!!
As for me, I freaking love turkey, so this Sunday for me will involve roasting a turkey breast, dad-style, and making 5-6 turkey sandwiches on sandwich thins so I can just grab them every day. Also a huge thing of massaged kale salad - it's tasty and it doesn't have to be made right before eating like lettuce salad does. WORD.
I also might make some sandwich thin PBJs for breakfasts... though I have to do some testing in the food tracker first. I had one the other day and it was good, but I got hungry again real fast, and 2Tb of nut butter is 200 calories right there. Not the best breakfast option for me personally. Breakfast requires more thought.
I also plan to be more boring about dinner. Pick some obvious easy quick stuff and just eat leftovers more.
Compounding issue - Mr Turtle's work is moving offices & haven't found a new place yet, so he is working from home for at least the next month. Probably longer. I have to be careful about preplanning what will happen to leftovers, as the probability of them disappearing sometime during the day may be high. ;D
But the bottom lines are:
1) I can lose more weight. I am not some magical person who is immune to weight loss and I can't lose beyond 250. I've done it before. Also, I thought I'd never get below 260, but look at me now.
2) I am not the same person I was when I lost the first 50lbs. My circumstances have changed dramatically, and that means thinking about this as if I'm starting over again. New learning curve. New strategies.
3) I have to know myself and be careful; I have to remember why I want this. Some days there is an equal and opposite way in which I don't want it. But I need to be more mindful than that; the past few days apparently I have "wanted" stuff like crackers (what is with Ritz crackers? does anyone else have this problem? Are they made of butter + HEROIN flour? also... why did I buy them?) and cupcakes more than I want to be healthy and fit in clothes. Ridiculous. I learned a long time ago that eating crap is not a substitute for what I really want.
Lately all I really want is time. Time to relax. Time to do fun things, hobbies that I enjoy. Time to WORK OUT! Time to spend with friends. Time with family. Less work, less time at work, less time bringing work home. And no one can give me that.
I don't know why (I think I have always been this way) but I have a tendency to use food as a substitute for what I can't have. Time in this case. Or when I'm stressed, I don't really think about it, but if I think about it NOW, I guess my tendency is "I have to do this unpleasant thing. but if I eat chocolate WHILE I'm doing it, that makes it a pleasant time instead of unpleasant!" But eating junk doesn't make me less stressed, and it doesn't make the day longer. In fact, it makes me less energetic so it actually makes the problem worse.
No weight related goals at the moment... generally "get out of the 250s for good", but for now I just need to focus on "Track" and "Stay in calorie range" and "get to the gym more".
Tomorrow should be swimming. Sunday will be food prepping. Every day will be reminding myself of the unhelpful ways in which my brain works. Being aware of it does at least make it easier to control.
Don't worry too much about me, though. Even the worst day is never that bad, because:
Monday, March 17, 2014
I had a busy weekend, but it was fun!
That's not what I regret.
I regret lifting weights for the first time in almost 9 months (???!!!!! aaah) the same day I went to an "immersion theater experience" that involved running up and down stairs in a 5 floor "hotel" for like 2 & a half hours. AHHHHH MY LEGS.
(if you're curious about the theater thing, it's this:
My new gym ("fitness center") is a bit weird... I was super excited they have barbells and plates because my old gym did not have that, until I noticed they have no power rack or squat rack or rack of any kind. Which means, I guess, you can do deadlifts and cleans. But no squats. Sigh. They do have a Smith machine, though all my fancy weightlifting books are like "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" on the subject of the Smith machine... At least I can finally do proper deadlifts.
Except, don't do them before you go out to run up and down stairs for 3 hours because OWWWWWW.
Also did some SWIMMING!!!!!! yesterday. I love swimming. I had a breakthrough with that, also - decided to try wearing my heart rate monitor again, since it's water resistant. I noticed at my old gym that the watch loses the signal from the chest strap way too easily in the water; I wondered if it might work better at the new gym (different water - the pool at the old gym was always cloudy and they clearly used a LOT of chemicals). Still no good, so I took the watch off and shoved it down the front of my suit for the duration of my workout.
Finally got a more accurate time and calorie count for my workout! That's the good news. The bad news is, using the Spark tracker entry for swimming gives me almost FOUR TIMES the calories I am actually burning. Yeesh. I have always entered my own calories because it just doesn't seem possible that I'm burning like 1200 calories an hour or whatever ridiculous thing is in the Spark database. But even my conservative estimate was still too high! At least now I know and can track more accurately...
I need to get on a good schedule of morning workouts. Hopefully my work week allows for that pretty well this week.
Also need to keep working on food! I bought a lot of good veggies this weekend so I should have some good healthy dinners. Unfortunately my weekend eating was all over the place. Way too much popcorn and candy at the movies Saturday (I should know better! Buy and pre portion a tiny amount of candy if you want some, don't buy the big bag at the theater!) and too much dessert at a friend's house before and after the crazy theater thing last night.
At least I tracked it all. And my meals themselves were all really healthy, I just ate a lot of stuff "outside" of meals that was too much.
I'm getting better! Little by little! I certainly don't expect to be "perfect" one week after getting back on the tracking wagon, just trying to keep an eye on what I need to work on.
That was my Big Fun Weekend. Now I just have drudgery until Sunday. Sigh.
Thursday, March 13, 2014
I had a snacky, carb-cravey morning at home, which is always tough.
But we DID go and join the gym. So tomorrow I get to go work out!!!
Then we went out for dinner - Mongolian BBQ!
You really have NO IDEA how much I love Mongolian BBQ. Giant bowl of awesome veggies, so even being over calories got the day, I ended on a high note. We are gonna go there a LOT. So excited.
I also feel super accomplished. Did three loads of laundry, went to the dentist, did a bunch of sewing (yaaaaaaaaay!) and got Turtle Puppy groomed.
Ok that last one is not so much an accomplishment... Is it me or do groomers suck? They barely did anything. I mean, they washed her, so she smells good. But I can do that. I've washed her like five times, I do fine. the trim was not much. I was expecting something more/better than I can do myself. Also, communication issues. I forgot to ask about some stuff, and they didn't ask me specifically what I wanted done, so they skipped a bunch of stuff like cleaning up her butt & nails. Thought that was standard. Annoying! And that's my boring saga of Why I Groom My Dog Myself. (Usually)
I'm looking forward to an awesome rest of weekend - gym/pool!! Gonna do some cooking, get some more healthy stuff in the house. More cleaning, and of course more sewing.
I love how getting back on track with diet and exercise makes me more productive overall. Nsv!
I'll write tomorrow and tell you how awesome the pool is.
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