Thursday, April 17, 2014
i have been a "singer" for my entire life. many of my early memories involve singing.
IT IS ONE OF MY GREAT JOYS.
i have been singing in choir(s) steadily since 1998, and occasionally before that.
I have been performing in community theatre for 12 years.
here's the problem…….. I CANNOT READ MUSIC.
i am very fortunate to be able to sing "by ear". if i hear something 3 or 4 times, i usually have it, unless it is especially difficult. but, i am realizing that my life would be
SO MUCH BETTER, and EASIER, and MORE ENJOYABLE
if i didn't struggle with not being able to read the music.
i also say "I CANT READ MUSIC" as a safety net, perhaps??? that way if i make mistakes then i have an excuse???????? it is a crutch.
so, here's the thing…
what might i achieve if i were to overcome this obstacle? what musical doors would open for me? how high would my CONFIDENCE SOAR??? Well, i am going to try and see!
Wish me luck!
Sunday, April 13, 2014
DH went by ambulance to the hospital today with chest pains. he will be there overnight. for tests and observation.
while all of this was happening i was very aware of taking good care of myself today. decent food (no junk under stress), lots of water, 4 different walks (totaling 4 miles). tried to remain calm and present and not go into all the what if's and stuff like that…..
but, then, once i was on my way home. stressed, alone, worried… i went to the store and bought a box of crunch n munch, and a movie theatre sized junior mints…….
well, i DIDNT eat any junior mints— (yahoooooo!)
and i DID eat Crunch n munch — the whole box….. the whole flipping' box.
but, at least i tracked it. this is day 4 of the full tracking of my food.
so, oddly, i am proud of myself. at any other time in my life i would have COMPLETELY derailed and gone into a full on tailspin binge. I DIDNT. and, i refuse to be mad at myself about it. there is too much else that needs my energy right now.
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