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deciding to try something that is a stretch for me- but i am insecure.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

i have been a "singer" for my entire life. many of my early memories involve singing.


i have been singing in choir(s) steadily since 1998, and occasionally before that.
I have been performing in community theatre for 12 years.

here's the problem…….. I CANNOT READ MUSIC. emoticon emoticon

i am very fortunate to be able to sing "by ear". if i hear something 3 or 4 times, i usually have it, unless it is especially difficult. but, i am realizing that my life would be


if i didn't struggle with not being able to read the music.

i also say "I CANT READ MUSIC" as a safety net, perhaps??? that way if i make mistakes then i have an excuse???????? it is a crutch.

so, here's the thing…

what might i achieve if i were to overcome this obstacle? what musical doors would open for me? how high would my CONFIDENCE SOAR??? Well, i am going to try and see!

Wish me luck!

Goodnight, Sparklers.

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LADYJAJA 4/18/2014 12:08PM

  Even learning the basics will be a big help in being able to voice a note (and you probably know more than you think!) emoticon

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happy, tired and grateful.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

DH's test results came back negative. Which is emoticon !!!!!

(The only thing that is frustrating emoticon is not knowing why any of it happened, or what caused it. )

I am happy and grateful, nonetheless. emoticon

It's been a long few days— emoticon i'm tired.

now, it's time to resume life. just in time for a busy Easter emoticon weekend.

Goodnight, Sparklers.

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LORIVIOLA 4/17/2014 11:02PM

    emoticon LADYJAJA!
i hope you have a marvelous weekend and Easter, too.

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LADYJAJA 4/17/2014 10:36PM

  So glad to know that everything okay for DH! I hope you enjoy a beautiful spring weekend with him and hope you have a Happy Easter! emoticon

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gratitude, inspiration and being our own super hero!

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

it has been so helpful to hear emoticon 's and emoticon 's.
especially when i feel down about a back slide.

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to all who have been kind, supportive, funny and just plain honest. it's been very inspirational.

we can fight emoticon for ourselves, our health and well being.

we can be our own emoticon


emoticon Goodnight, Sparklers.

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MJEFFERSON23 4/16/2014 11:01AM

  Yes, it is very helpful! I don't know if I could have made it this far without Spark Friends, especially after a three month stall when I've been doing everything right! But no matter what we can make it with support!
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on babysitting bruised egos- and when would YOU make phone calls???

Monday, April 14, 2014

DH is home from the hospital. Thank Goodness.

Stress tests tomorrow. It will be good to get test results. To know what the heck happened.

I am doing OK. Got a walk in, ate pretty well. Dealing with the stress of it all moderately well, but it is amazing how many people you need to
when something happens.

All these people are annoyed that we didn't contact them sooner -
LOOK, we are the ones in this problem and we will deal with it the way we see fit.
I don't have the energy to worry about your wounded and bruised ego because you weren't in the first tier of phone calls.
We both decided to NOT call anyone until we had some answers. Heck we didn't even contact his children or his mom until we knew something.
We didn't want to worry anyone unnecessarily.

you say to them "if it was serious- very serious, you would have gotten the call- " but that's not enough for people. It's very frustrating. I am sure that they think they are being supportive - but they are just being needy and scared. I am scared enough by myself - i cannot take their fears on. I cannot console them.

But, for now, i am glad he's home tonight. And am hopeful that the tests will come out good tomorrow.

Goodnight, Sparklers.

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STRONGERLEANER 4/14/2014 10:28PM

    Hope you get the news you need from the tests soon.
Hope your husband heals quickly.

I know family and friends can sometimes say hurtful things without that being their intention. Sometimes people hurt us the most when they are trying to be helpful.


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did well for the majority of a very very stressful day— proud of myself

Sunday, April 13, 2014

DH went by ambulance to the hospital today with chest pains. he will be there overnight. for tests and observation.

while all of this was happening i was very aware of taking good care of myself today. decent food (no junk under stress), lots of water, 4 different walks (totaling 4 miles). tried to remain calm and present and not go into all the what if's and stuff like that…..

but, then, once i was on my way home. stressed, alone, worried… i went to the store and bought a box of crunch n munch, and a movie theatre sized junior mints…….

well, i DIDNT eat any junior mints— (yahoooooo!)

and i DID eat Crunch n munch — the whole box….. the whole flipping' box.

but, at least i tracked it. this is day 4 of the full tracking of my food. emoticon

so, oddly, i am proud of myself. at any other time in my life i would have COMPLETELY derailed and gone into a full on tailspin binge. I DIDNT. and, i refuse to be mad at myself about it. there is too much else that needs my energy right now.

goodnight sparklers. emoticon

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LADYJAJA 4/15/2014 2:05PM

  I've been in your shoes with my DH, so I know of which you speak. The anxiety hits after the crisis has passed. I'm glad that instead of berating yourself over that Crunch & Munch, you just went on, thata' girl! You did great in getting your exercise and plenty of hydration, sometimes you need a little comfort in a box of Crunch & Munch. I hope everything will be alright with your hubby. emoticon

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GI68801 4/14/2014 12:14AM

    That seems way better than how I probably would have handled that. So there is no odd feeling about it...you should be proud! Way to go! emoticon emoticon

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