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Mother Knows Best? or tries too...

Wednesday, October 02, 2013

Yesterday I had a great day! I got a good workout in I ate often but not over in calories for the whole day. I got in a lot of water in. And everything in the plus until 8pm my mom comes over and brings sweets... cookies.. apple thingies... yea and here I am debating if I really want to just go for it. I asked my husband if he wanted one and he looked at me and said no. I told him we could split one he said no. He goes you can go have one. I resisted the urge. I walked away from it. I went to bed without having one spurge for the day! YAY ME!
But this morning my baby woke me up early wanted to get up early didn't go back to sleep and I gave in.... I had an apple thing and 3 sugar cookies... close to 900 calories. I ended up bringing the stuff back to my mom's. If I have it here I'll eat it. Hoping I can hang in there for the rest of the day without splurging again.
I know she was trying to help and bring food but I guess she just doesn't realize that's not helping and hindering my process. Oh well she is just trying to help.

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CELEST 10/2/2013 12:12PM

    Well done, and yes, she is trying to be kind, but you know it isnt working for you. why not make a little gift pack up and donate it to a street child, shelter, hospital etc. That way her gifts will REALLY be kind, and what she doesn't know won't hurt her...if you are not able to explain what it does to your reserves and what you really could have as a gift in its place. Maybe a nice bubble bath or something non edible.

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CELLOTHERE00 10/2/2013 11:37AM

    Great job resisting the night before! Unfortunately, studies have shown that tired people are more likely to make poor nutritional decisions so just take this as a learning experience. What I like about the SparkPeople program is that it reiterates the need to move on from a mistake and not beat yourself up about it.

It is so hard when a loved one doesn't support your efforts, but you did a great job by returning the sweets to your Mother's house. Hopefully, she will understand that she shouldn't be bringing these types of foods over to your house and will not hinder your progress further.


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JUNA89 10/2/2013 11:30AM

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Why does eating at home gotta be stressful?

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

today I put in a great workout. Ate really healthy food till BAM! a moment of weakness that I want to go out to eat tonight for dinner. I kept telling myself no we really shouldn't 1. can't afford it 2. your body doesn't need it...

So instead of just accepting it and moving on I stayed on it... Kept thinking about it in my head... so ended up eating 3 peanut butter sandwiches. I think it was more for emotionally than physical needs.

Deep inside of me I hear myself screaming but I choosing not to listen... or drowning that person with food. I'm trying ot let my slip up go and push it aside and move on. Not sure why it's not that easy for me. I feel like crying instead and still feel like I want to go out to eat just because it's what "I want"... Not sure how to get thru to myself and push that healthy person forward and say you truly don't want to go out to eat you want to be healthy. YOU WANT to live a longer life for your precious little girl.

Just why can't I dig that out of me...


Vent but could be inspirational lol

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Even thou I have been away from spark for a little bit I haven't givin up. I still want to be happy and healthy and still learning a lot form this body I have now from after baby. I realize now that while still nursing I eat everything that is in arm's grasp. I know now that getting the weight off is even hardier than it was before. I know now that my food choices hugely affect my weightloss.

I'm learning. I'm a work in progress and am spending time on myself that I need to. I'm acknowledging the stress factors that are in my life that make me want to eat or grab something to make myself feel better.

I am also telling myself that if I fall let it be that and move forward. Either way I still am seeing victories without scale victories. By making healthier choices to choose to eat in rather than go out. And a small victory to go walking with my mom when in the beginning of summer I couldn't keep up with her and now I can pull away from her. One step, one workout I gain closer to the life I want.

Brushing myself off and starting again I am stronger now than I was a month ago because of gaining knowledge about myself. I WILL change this body to be the person who is deep within who wants to change to needs to change. No more I'll try... instead I WILL!

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CLASSYLADYMAY 9/23/2013 8:54AM

    I know its hard. even harder cause you have a new baby and so much to deal with. step by step you can do this !! Try to plan ahead. it does help ! Hugs for you!

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Binge Eating... i need Help

Friday, August 09, 2013

I have no idea how toe ven stop this. I was a little hungry tonight and I was already way over my calorie intake... I wanted a snack.. So instead of grabbing the brownie I choose to have cereal with milk wish normally would of been only about 200 calories. I ended up eating at least 4x's that. I would of been better off to just eat the damn brownie. The whole time I was eating the cereal my mind was like what are you doing.. Stop that.. you don't need it.. your not that hungry... and Now after I feel overfull and sick.

I keep doing this to myself repeatedly. I'm not even sure what triggered it. I just fed my baby and put her down for the night and was a little hungry but before that I was hungry. Not sure how to change this. I mean I wasn't doing horrible thru out the day and than this afternoon had to much bread.. ate a light dinner and than had too much "snack" or what was suppose to be a snack.

Any suggestions? I mean I hear my thoughts telling me I should stop but somehow I choose not to. This is not healthy. I fear I have a food addiction/ unhealthy eating pattern or is it that... God if I know...


Small Victories = Big Change

Tuesday, August 06, 2013

Small Food Victory tonight. Well we got this Paula Dean Apple Crumble well I had two servings of the pie and I almost grabbed a 3rd but instead of grabbing it I drank water. Ended up drinking 4 cups of water before the feeling of wanting to get that last piece went away. Still went above my calories but it could of been a lot worst if I just went with my feelings
I just have to keep reminding myself that when I win the small victories change is going to happen. Even thou it's happening slowly I'll make it to where I want to be.

I've already changed my working out to at least 30 to 45 minutes Monday thru Friday which took me a few months to really get going at it. Started off once a week than went to twice a week and than three and than all the time. I feel great that I am not out of breath that I can do things and not feel like I can't handle it. Now that the fitness is where it should be I've been working on my nutrition.

Nutrition not so easy. I think I am a food addict. I love to eat mostly anything sugary and lots of carbs. So I've been trying to keep track of my food and trying not to eat over 2000 calories a day. So far it's been rocky somedays I hit way under target and other days just a 100 or 200 calories over. So I am making more changes. Trying to eat a lot of veggies thru out the day and add some fruits. Avoid going out to eat as much as I can and in 6 days I've only went out once and that was for a sub.

Small Victories is what's going to get me there. Just got to keep moving forward and keep getting better and better till it's just completely nature. I WILL get there. Not sure how long it'll take me but I'm taking it one day at a time :)


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