Sunday, December 01, 2013
I started yesterday on a high note. I went for my walk and was determined that I would lose at least a pound this week. I carried a bag of my sons old clothes on my walk to donate to the bazaar. Carrying a load or bag is good when you've lost weight it makes you think how you were carrying the same weight before the loss. I went to Mass and offered to help out for half hour setting up. Well I got some boxes from a car and then i noticed they had about six people all doing that thing. That thing is doing useless stuff to fill up the amount of time available, hate that so I left.
I have four grand daughters, two live in Leeds Yorkshire. I met them for dinner. First I met my eldest daughter who had bought Christmas and Birthday cards for me to write and sign. I don't send cards usually, they are a waste of money. Some people expect a card and are affronted if they don't get one, so they get a card off me. I am not tight I just can't see the point of them.
The girls weren't expecting us and it was a lovely surprise for them. We met in Nando's. I have never been in one before and we all enjoyed the food. So I had a wonderful afternoon and saw them off on the train. Send a cheerful message to daughter. Relaxed and watched Strictly Come Dancing. Great happiness because Arsenal is on top of league. Even greater happiness because I had calories to spare at the end of the day.
Then I went downstairs. I opened the fridge. I started with a jar a pickled onions - good. Then I ate a kit kat. Still ok. Then I went into my sons room and ate peanut butter pretzels, then another chocolate bar. Then I reached upon to a top shelf and got down a jar of Nutella. I stood there in the kitchen, in the dark, dipping my fingers into the chocolate goo for about ten minutes. As I sucked the chocolate off my fingers I noticed the main ingredient wasn't hazel nuts or even cocoa , it was sugar. 84 calories for just 15 grams. The only thing that stopped me was the time. Why?
Well today is a new day, a new month, and in the church's year a new year, the start of Advent. I woke up later than I wanted. I had a hangover. Sugar!. I felt terrible. This was a warning to me. So I walked to Mass and I made healthy choices. The first candle was lit on the Advent wreath and I am so glad to have been given am new chance to start again. The readings were very apt. One was to come into the light and stop doing things under the cover of darkness!
I have lost weight and regained it so many times, massive amounts. This is my third time on Spark. This time has to be different.
Hey not all doom and gloom. I walked for one hour in total. Something I couldn't have even attempted at the beginning of November.