Wednesday, February 26, 2014
You can't cross the sea merely by
standing and staring at the water.
- Rabindranath Tagore
Such simple words but they just struck me as a promise this morning. A Vow of sorts to myself. You see I have been walking the line between healthy living and laziness for some time now. I have been going to the gym three times weekly, I exercise at home daily. But it is in the eating I seem to have come to a halt. I say I want to eat good food, healthy food, but then I hit the quick, the easy, the drive thru because it is so much easier than planning and doing. I get home from the gym and it is 7:30 at night, I grab a quick bite and head to bed. I read for a bit and then I'm ready to sleep. The exercise after work seems to distress me in a way I haven't been able to in quite some time. But then there is the eating.
We all know that this healthy living is 80/20 and that we need to take in 250 calories less a day to lose a half pound a week. Well ok, I offset the calories with the exercise, but then I over eat and really I'm getting no where on this merry go round. I'm putting this out here because I feel like each time I log on here I'm just going through the motions. Trying to find my place in this journey and as of yet it has eluded me.
I know what to do, I know how to do it, but I can't seem to get the little devil off my shoulder and out of my head to allow me to do it. Sometimes it's like the thoughts just crowd out the good and the desire of all that I shouldn't have comes into play. I need to begin the process of loving myself enough to want this as much as I say I do. I need to see some kind of change and that isn't going to happen if I can't play by the rules.
No this isn't a diet but it is a way of life. Right now I'm not living the life I really want to live. I'm just going through the motions of it. I mean if I'm not going to do it why bother with the gym right? Wrong, I have to begin somewhere and that is where I'm starting.